Sharon' isn't it a beautiful name. For me it's my life line. . But, because of my foolishness I went away from her. . Yeah. . It's been two years since I saw her beautiful face, heard her melodious voice but no more. . No more I can stay away from her.
*Flashback*
"I'm done with you Sharon" swayam said with an anger filled voice. Sharon stood there numb unable to process what she just heard or unable to react to what she heard from the person whom she loved so dearly. She knew there were differences but she never thought her Swayam would say such a harsh thing to her. "Swa...yam..." was only she could utter words failed to come out tears threatened to fall. But it dint effect Swayam he was totally carried away by his anger.
"Yeah. . Sharon you heard me right. . I'm just tired of you" he said hatred laced in his voice. Sharon couldn't take it she never in her wildest dreams thought that swayam her swayam would depict hatred towards her out of all the emotions. It broke her heart into zillions of pieces.
"Swayam was it more to ask for a commitment. . I just wanted to be yours and world to know about us. I never stopped you from doing anything Swayam. . I'm even ok with you going abroad. . in return I just asked you to give me a commitment was it too much that you can't give me" tears freely rolling down her cheeks.
"Yeah a commitment . . But for me it's a baggage. . a baggage that I don't want to carry now. I have lots of dreams Sharon I just can't tag you along. . I don't want any distraction and moreover I'm going to London what if I never want to come back" swayam said harshly.
Sharon felt pained she felt as if she was a burden for Swayam and she dint wanted to be that. . all that she ever wanted is him to be happy and she quickly made a decision though it broke her but she had to do it let him go'. "I'm sorry Sharon. . I guess we were never meant to be" Swayam said and walked away from her. Sharon stood there like a rock trying to process everything which turned her life up-side-down and whispered What if we are meant to be Swayam???'.
*Flashback*
Yeah all this happened two years ago. When I crushed Sharon's heart like a tissue paper. I agree I was a fool big time I never realized that she wasn't a burden instead she was my life. . She was the reason for my each breath. In these two years it wasn't even a single day I don't think of her though I tried to forget her but I just couldn't. It was not like there weren't beautiful girls around me I could get anyone I wanted but none of them were my Sharon. I always thought we were not meant to be but now I know nothing is more meant than we both being together FOREVER.
I'm going back to her to claim her as mine but there is fear in my heart what if she have moved on. What if she dint love me anymore or even worse what if she hated me and never want to see my face ever again. I just pushed these thought away because I dint have any answer for these what ifs' I just had tiny little hope that she still loved me.
Gathering all the bit courage I had I went to her home. I knew she stayed alone. . even after ringing the doorbell for the umpteenth time none opened the door all my hopes were running out I enquired with the security and came to know she had gone to the orphanage. It was strange and so unlike Sharon. . i walked up to the orphanage my heart was thumping loudly with each step I took.
I heard the laughter and instantly a smile spread my lips I knew it belonged to only and only my Sharon. I could see a girl wearing a white dress running behind a bunch of children and laughing her heart out. . not bothered about her surroundings just living the moment. I remembered the last time I saw her. . her tear stained face and broken self and it made me feel more guilty I just hate myself for making her go through all that pain. I was lost in my thought she turned towards me and her laughter died in the thin air and her face turned blank not showing any emotion it just stabbed my heart.
I took baby steps towards her scared that she would just run away from me. I was standing in front of her I could see tears forming in her eyes I just wanted to pull her in my embrace and never let go but again I was scared that she would just vanish.
"hey" I said which sounded like a mere whisper. "hi" she said smiling admits her tears it was soothing to see her smile. "can we talk Sharon" I asked in a small voice. Afraid that she would reject. She took a bit of time to reply and all these time I was silently praying she wouldn't turn me down. "ok. . but not here come with me. ."she said finally I felt happy she was still ready to listen to me. . talk to me even after all that I did. She bid good bye to all the children and they kissed her cheeks she was happy with them and I could see that in her eyes.
We walked in silence until we reached the nearby park and she went and sat on the bench and I just sat beside her I dint know what should I say but also knew that this was my last chance. . "Sharon I'm sorry. ." I waited for her response but nothing came from her side so I just continued "I know Sharon I'm a jerk.. a fool and what not. . I know I hurt you. . Broke your heart but Sharon at that time I dint know what was I doing. . I was self-centered and foolish I was pushing you away from me never realizing that you are my life please Sharon forgive me. . I know I'm not eligible for your forgiveness but please Sharon if you can do it for me just one last time" I had tears in my eyes and I dint even try to stop them. Today I wanted to cry let all my agony out. But still she dint respond I heard slight sobs and my heart clenched to see her like that I just cupped her face and wiped her tears "don't cry for me Sharon. . I don't deserve it. ."She just cut me in the middle "why did you take so long swayam? Each day I was waiting for you to come back to me" she said with such intensity that there was hurt in that voice her was longing and Most importantly there was LOVE. I felt guiltier for her hurting her.
"I'm sorry Sharon for all that I did. . Just give me one chance I promise I will make it up to you" I said with much determination because I knew I wanted her only her more than anything in this world. She just buried herself in my arms in return we both cried our heart out and I made promise to myself that I won't ever make her cry. . I would give her all the happiness of the world. . She will be the beginning and end in me. . "I love you Sharon" I whispered in her ears and in response she hugged me tightly.
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You left me in the wide world
To wonder around and feel so cold
Now you are walking back to me which I can't believe
But I'm assured that love is still alive.
Love *_*
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