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Hello all!
Not sure if you guys still remember me😆 as I was missing for a few days & will be missing for the next week as well due to my holiday. EXAMS are over, YAY! But before I go, I wanted to discuss something that the last episode has made me curious/confused/wonder about.
We have often looked at Sher's POV, thought about his character, his motivations, his feelings, but there's been little discussion as to how Shraddha views this situation. Yes, she made it clear to Virat that she is living for her family. She also made it clear to Sher that she will remain loyal to him & will respect this bond with utmost sincerity. That is the status quo of their relationship. But where does Shraddha & her heart stand in all this? What is her relationship with Sher beyond the 'named' relationship society has given them as husband/wife?
Flashback to their first meeting - we saw a smiley, open Shraddha who shook hands with Sher & walked off happily, leaving him awestruck. Then in the second meeting, with the very mention that Sher is BD's son, we saw a slightly hesitant but yet playful Shraddha. Playful in the way she looked at Sher & understood that he was flirting with her. More than attraction, Sher seemed to have left an impact on her, as she turned around to have a last look at him before she left, while Sher looked on playfully😳
Then the next we saw was her refusal. Even after her refusal, she turned back slightly to look at Sher as they both walked away, then we saw her acceptance & attempts to convince him & marriage happened finally. Things happened too quickly but if you look at it, more than Sher, it was Shraddha who adapted to things very quickly. On the first day, she was slightly timid, shocked upon seeing guns, liquor, money, & heartbroken as the gates were closed on her. But she did not sit & lament, or hate on Sher, or bear any resentment. She got up quickly, & got on with life. Initially, she appeared numb. But when it came to Sher, I realised, she was always affected (how she would turn to look at him). After marriage, she found comfort when he returned the sari to her. The next scene when Sher made her apply lep, they were 'speaking' with their eyes. Even though he was taunting her, their eyelocks made it obvious that she knew he didn't mean it. When Sunehri applied lep (is that how you spell it😆) Shraddha looked disgusted, and even walked away. What was she disgusted about? Disgusted that she married such a man? Or disgusted as to the environment she was in? Or was she hurt by his taunts about her & BD planning this whole marriage thing out? That very night, Sher got drunk & even though Shraddha removed his hand that he held out, she looked on, at him very sadly, very painfully. It was then that I realised she was touched by his love. It wasn't the first time she was touched, even though it was probably the first time, she understood & acknowledged the depth of his feelings. She had always been touched by his love & her marriage to him wasn't just something she did out of fear for her family. Somewhere, she did it out of trust for the man who loved her. She herself acknowledged that he could have forced her, but he didn't. Yes, something definitely broke inside her when the marriage happened, but what broke wasn't her heart (that didn't love this man), but rather her identity as Shraddha. Now she sees herself as his wife, she is bonded to him for life. She is no longer just Shraddha.
Then things took a turn & she saw the ugly side of Sher. But strangely, that ugly side worked reversely for them. Because after that, she began to understand Sher Singh. She saw his rough exterior, but she did not forget the genuineness of his feelings for her, as we see in the flashbacks when she looks at his sunglasses. She is not in love with him. Not yet. I don't think she is attracted either. She doesn't think beyond Sher as to whether he is the best option for her or not, like when Virat tried to explain to her that she isn't happy in this marriage & she told him that she is fine the way she is. Because she is fine. Somewhere, she has finally acknowledged (thanks to Sher) that she has come so far with him that there is no turning back. Whether they fall in love or not, it has to be him. And she wants to make this marriage work, because she believes in destiny & somewhere she has come to believe in him.
Honestly, I have no idea if I made sense because I just typed this out as the words came to my mind. But I would love to read all of your opinions on Shraddha's feelings.
Cheers,
Samridhi
Jhanak
Udne Ki Aasha
Anupamaa
