He was pacing around angrily feeling hopeless after the repeated failed attempts to get some privacy with his "madrasan". Yes right after that SMS that he had sent her, he tried nth times to spend some time with her only to get disturbed and disappointed over and over again.
During that first moment of intimacy when he had kissed her palm with all the love he had for her and was about to seal that gap between their lips, his silly Jhansi ki rani had run from there making an excuse about kids. When he had arranged the erotic aroma candles and those lilies to set the mood for the night, his "pagal langdi tyaagi" had donated their room to a manner less and over desperate couple Raj and Simran.
Still not giving up when he had sprayed the room with smelly pesticides, his stupid or rather too generous "sherni" had herself cleaned the room welcoming those unwanted guests yet again.
He was irked for obvious reasons and fought with her for spoiling all his plans but his heart had melted for her immediately when he saw her returning late night after finishing the arrangements for his sister's wedding. She surely deserved an apology and few words of love from him, he had thought and went to Amma's house.
But no, probably his stars were just not favoring him today; there too he had bumped into Appa and got embarrassed with the long teasing session from his and her family. After becoming a laughing stock for the whole family, he had certainly come back to Adi's room while she decided to stay with her Amma for the night.
The hopes of fulfilling those newly discovered desires were broken long time back, here he was longing to even have a simple chat with her but nothing seemed to work today. It was better to call it a night; he had thought and decided to sleep.
Pichli Raat Mein Hum Uth Uthke
Chupke Chupke Roye Re
Pichli Raat Mein
(We used to wake up in the midst of nights and weep quietly hiding from everyone)
Sukh Ki Neend Mein Meet Humare
Des Paraye Soye Re
Sukh Ki Neend Mein
(All others used to sleep peacefully in maybe some other world because there was no peace in my world)
Dil Ki Dhadkan Tujhe Pukare
Aaja Baalam Aayi Bahaarein
(Now when I have realized my feelings, my heart beats call you my beloved as even the spring has arrived)
Baith Ke Tanhaai Mein Kar Le
Sukh Dukh Ki Do Baatein
(Let's sit isolated from the world and speak out our hearts, sorrows and happiness)
Chaandni Raatein Ho Chaandani Raatein
Chaandni Raatein
(These lovely moonlit nights)
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Her state was different though. She wasn't angry, upset, frustrated or disappointed like him but only guilty. She felt regretful for ruining all his plans knowingly or unknowingly. She wanted to smash herself for spoiling all his hard efforts which were now clearly evident. And now when she knew she was at fault, she needed to talk to him today right now. Sleep was long lost and thus she made her way to the park outside the service apartment.
She was here under the stars sitting on the bench in a lonely night. She looked up above high in the sky at the stars and took a deep breath. She had come to talk to him but didn't know how to get him here. She didn't trust her luck so didn't call him at his phone so late. Who knew, a call from her to him might lead to one more comical event for the family and another embarrassment for them.
She only kept faith in her hope that just like her; he too might feel sleepless and come here to catch some fresh air and waited for him even though her hopes shattered and then re-built with every passing second.
Takte Takte Tooti Jaaye Aas
Piya Na Aaye Re
Takte Takte
(My anticipation is breaking while waiting for your arrival but you have not come)
Shaam Savere Dard Anokhe Uthe
Jiya Ghabraye Re
Shaam Savere
(I feel unusual twitches evenings and mornings, my heart trembles)
Raaton Ne Meri Neend Loot Li
Din Ke Chain Churaaye Re
(Nights looted my sleep and stole my peace)
Dukhiya Aankhen Dhund Rahi Hain
Wahi Pyaar Ki Ghaatein
(My sorrowful eyes are searching for those places and moments of love)
Chaandni Raatein Ho Chaandani Raatein
Chaandni Raatein
(These lovely moonlit nights)
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Proving all her hopes and expectations true, he came out to breathe in some fresh air. That was the least he could do now when nothing had worked as he had wished. He saw her and she saw him; both could not believe they were here, in front of each other and alone. It wasn't that ideal setup they had desired for but they were together and togetherness was enough.
Raman: Ishita tum yahan
(Ishita why are you here)
Ishita: Aapke liye hi aayi thi
(I came for you)
Raman: Acha
(Really)
Ishita: Actually no...khud ke liye aayi thi...I wanted to be here with you
(Actually no...i came for myself...I wanted to be here with you)
Raman: And you knew main yahan aaunga
(And you knew I would come here)
Ishita: Itna toh jaanti hi hoon aapko
(I know you that much atleast)
Raman: Aur kya jaanti ho
(And what else you know)
Ishita: Yahi ki aap naraaz ho
(I know that you are angry)
Raman: Woh kyun
(Why so)
Ishita: Kyunki aaj aapne kitna jyada kuch kiya aur maine bhi utna hi jyada kiya sab bigaadne mein
(Because you had put in so much efforts today and with equal efforts I ruined it all)
Raman: Huhh finally self-realization
(Finally self-realization)
Ishita: Haan Raman...I am really sorry
(Yes Raman...i am really sorry)
Raman: Sorry ki jagah jo kiya uske liye you can just make up and I will be fine
(Instead of sorry just make up for what you did and I will be fine)
Ishita: Obviously I will do so Raman
Raman: And how will you do it
Ishita: aapse kuch baatein karke...aapne hi kaha tha ki apni anter-aatmaaon se toh bahut baatein karli ab aapas mein kuch karle
(By talking few things with you...you only said we talked enough with our inner souls and it is time to do something among us)
Raman: So
Ishita: So karte hain aapas mein kuch baateinnn
(So let's talk)
He smiled naughtily hearing his "madrasan" saying his words while she bit her lower lip out of nervousness considering what she had to say ahead.
Raman: Go on
Ishita: Raman I know maine thoda insensitive behave kiya aaj but trust me it was all unintentional...I didn't realize ki sab kuch khud nahi ho raha tha balki aap kar rahe the humare liye
(Raman I know I behaved a little insensitive today but trust me it was all unintentional...i didn't realize that it was all not co-incidence but you were doing everything for us)
Raman: Der aaye durust aaye
(Better late than never)
Ishita: Aisa nahi hai ki mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha hai ya main jaanke nasamjha kar rahi hoon...i know aapki kya feelings hain desires hain mere liye humare liye
(It is not that I am intentionally acting to not understand your feelings...i know what are your feelings, your desires for me, for us)
Raman: Good that you know
Ishita: Main yeh kehna chahti thi matlab chahti hoon matlab I want to say ki
(I wanted to say I mean I want to say...)
Raman: Aaj hi bol dogi na
(You will be able to say it today right)
Ishita: Aap mujhe aise intimidate mat karo na...can't you see how hard I am trying to say something
(You don't intimidate like this...can't you see how hard I am trying to say something)
Raman: Ok sorry...bolo na baba...it is just me
(Ok sorry...please speak...it is just me)
"Raman I wanted to say that my feelings, my desires are all exactly same as you...main bhi aapki hi tarah humare is rishte ko aage badhaana chahti hoon...un naye ehsaaso ko mehsus karna chahti hoon...main bhi aapki hi tarah aapki ho jaana chahti hoon aur aapko apna bana lena chahti hoon lekin", she said finally in one go keeping her eyes shut. Her words were shivering and imperfect but genuine. She had opened her heart to him.
(Raman I wanted to say that my feelings, my desires are all exactly same as you...i too want to take this relation ahead just like you...i too want to feel those new feelings...i want to become yours and make you mine just like you want it but... she said finally in one go keeping her eyes shut. Her words were shivering and imperfect but genuine. She had opened her heart to him.)
Raman was more than happy to hear this from her. He knew she was willing to take their relation ahead but after the latest series of happenings, he was dicey about her thoughts. He was not sure if she was actually ready for it and those flop plans were co-incidental or she had intentionally created those situations to delay everything and avoid him. But now she was here with him like an open book and he was all sorted with his doubts.
Ishita: Raman ghar mein abhi shaadi ka mahaul hai itne log hain...even if we were in our room I would not have been comfortable and I want it to be special for us forever...i hope you know what I mean
(Raman our house is crowded right now because of marriage... even if we were in our room I would not have been comfortable and I want it to be special for us forever...i hope you know what I mean)
He was again so pleased seeing her voice her feelings to him without any second thoughts. They were surely in that serene phase of their relation where they could say everything and anything to each other.
Raman: Ofcourse I know what you mean...actually thodi si galti meri bhi hai...i got so carried away with my urges that I didn't realize your discomfort...mujhe cheezen aise rush nahi karni thi
(Ofcourse I know what you mean...actually I am at fault too...I got so carried away with my urges that I didn't realize your discomfort...I should have not rushed things like this)
She only smiled proudly
Raman: I promise "our" moment will be really special for you for me, for us. I will make sure you are in peace and in the most composed state when we take that step. I promise to give you the best and make it memorable for you.
Ishita: I am sure you will, we will. Aur woh din bahut jaldi aayega...hum laayenge woh din
(I am sure you will, we will...and that day will come really soon...we will bring that day)
They didn't even realize when they had shifted from the opposite corners of the bench into a close knit hug. Few hours too had passed but they were still all ears to each other. And now when they were content at heart and mind, there was a need of that moment.
He proceeded towards her lips with lots of passion in his eyes and love in his heart.
Ishita: Ramannn
Raman: Sshh...Trust me nobody is around
"Trust me" and she was all his. She closed her eyes and dedicated herself to him. He approached her in the most delicate way and sealed his lips on hers. Her inexperience was visible but as it is said; love is natural it cannot be taught or learnt. They leaned into a kiss, their first ever kiss and sank into each other in the moonlight under the sky to be witnessed by the most beautiful symbol of love; "moon".
Sab Jag Soye Hum Jaagen
Taaron Se Karen Baatein
(The whole world sleeps but we stay up and talk to the stars)
Chaandni Raatein Ho Chaandani Raatein
Chaandni Raatein
(These lovely moonlit nights)
She blushed hard after their first ever contact of love while he smiled shyly upon gaining something atleast; which would satisfy his yearnings.
Raman: Waise madrasan tujhe yaad hai
(By the way "madrasan" do you remember)
Ishita: Kya Raman
(What Raman)
Raman: Ek baar humne Mihir Mihika ko car mein pakda tha...they were making coffee but humne kuch aur hi socha tha
(Once we had caught Mihir and Mihika in the car...they were making coffee but we took it as something else only)
Ishita: Haan Raman...toh usmein kya hai
(Yes Raman...so what)
I have car keys in my pocket, he said and winked
Ishita lowered her eyes understanding what he meant to say while her cheeks turned red.
Raman: What Say?
Raman, she said while hitting him lovingly and hugged him.
They sat there and romanced in their own unique the whole night.
Chaandni Raatein Ho Chaandani Raatein
Chaandni Raatein
(These lovely moonlit nights)
Anupamaa
