New Asya SS: A gift from life, chap 15, 04-05-15 COMPLETED - Page 44

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Hi guys, thanks for all your comment, I know many are upset with this twist but this was planned from the beginning. Anyway another emotional part but I promise soon, you will have a cheerful chapter.

Chap 12

She climbed the stair with a heavy heart, she didn't realize that it was how it supposed to end with anhappy ending for their story. She stopped everything and gave up all behind her for...this. She opened the door and saw her daughter smiling widely, looking at her father with proud. She smiled sadly, this picture of her happiness could ease her lost but the truth was that it only calmed her need of Asad for a second. She tried to look again at her shining face, resolving herself to the nature of her decision. Did she really had the choice ?

Sufian and Sarah were finally aware of her presence and Sarah ran to her mother, hapilly.

-ammi

-Sarah, you should go to bed now, it's too late

-no, Ammi, I want to stay with abbu, I have many things to tell him about, she pouted cutely at her mother which spread a smile on her face.

-later, baby, abbu will not go, this sentence pinched her heart, and tomorrow you can ask him everything you want, ok ?

-your mum is right, I won't go anywhere from now and I always be with both of you, Sufian addressed a soft look to Zoya, but she turned her gaze away, she could fake in front of her daughter that she was happy but never in front of him. Both knew how all of this happened.

-can abbu come with us? She proposed, Zoya looked at Sufian and he was happy for her demands.

-yes sure, she couldn't refuse unfortunately

Zoya held her daughter and he came with them. She lay her down and caressed her head, Zoya was lost in her encounter with Asad that she didn't listen to her daughter talking to Sufian.

-abbu, I am really happy that you finally came and you will have to meet my friends and Salim and Uncle Asad. Ammi, she looked up, abbu can abbu come for the wedding ? She asked innocently. Zoya retained her sobs trapped in her throat, how can she tell her that there will be no wedding anymore, she glanced at him and turned to her daughter.

-Sarah, we will see, how it goes. Just sleep now, ok, she kissed her forehead and stayed a longer time, I love you, Sarah

-I love you too, ammi, I love you abbu, she closed her eyes and her smile didn't quit her face once.

-I love you too beta, he replied.

Zoya finally went out of her room, she was emotionally exhausted and just wanted to sleep and to never wake up until this nightmare will be vivid.

-Sufian, I think you should go now

-Zoya,

-please Sufian, today was a long day for me, so please, leave me alone, please.

-ok, I see you later.

She fell heavily on her bed and her tears drenched and wetted her pillow, she recalled all this day in her mind and she didn't how she found herself trapped in this, she didn't know how everything slipped from her palms, she didn't know and she didn't believe how she buried herself under this pain. Her tears, her sad heart and her rolling mind were too heavy and she didn't know when she dozed off, exhausted of thinking for an issue.

The next morning

Sufian came early and insisted to join them to the school, Zoya was recalcitrant but faced with the enthusiasm of her daughter, she can only bend to her demands. Her mind drifted to this moment when Sarah insited to join Asad for pizza, she reacted the same and she remembered Asad cute face when he had begged her, she smiled sadly.

She was anxious when they all reached school, she didn't want Asad to see her with him, this was the last thing that she wanted to face today, yesterday was enough for both of them. As always, she stood in front of the gate of the school and Sufian stayed a bit with Sarah, chatting. She couldn't help but to notice the bound that it increased between them, Sarah was happy girl and easy to live, this was the thing that she took from her father for sure, they were the same in their nature. Suddenly, she felt arms around her tight, she looked down and found Salim holding her. She looked up then and found him in front of her, she skipped a beat. Both stood there watching each other, small bags under his eyes and beard reflected a restless and short night for him. He stepped back when Sarah grabbed his knees, calling him hapilly.

-Uncle Asad, he lifted her and addressed her his big smile.

-hi, princess, how are you? Zoya smiled at him and then at Salim.

-I am so happy uncle, see, my abbu is back, she lifted her hand excitedly, Asad glared at him, I want you to meet him, uncle, he is so nice, and I am sure you are going to be a good friend, because both of you love us, right?

-of course, I love both of you, there is no doubt. He looked this time at Zoya, telling her how much he wanted to be with her. She understood his eyes and their hidden talks.

The 3 adults were now close and the tension was only palpable between them but the kids looked at them and found them strangely silent. Sarah took Asad's hand and put it in Sufian's hand, both stared at each other and acquiesces in shaking hands. The tension should only stay between them, kids should be prevent for their cold war, this was the only things which linked them for the moment, their children.

-Salim, meet my abbu, Sarah turned her attention to her friend, but strangely, Salim was defensive and he firmly gripped the hand of her father and Zoya, as if to show his annoyance and jealousy. He reacted possessively toward Sufian and didn't want to go to him. Asad smiled inwardly and didn't force him to move. Zoya invited the kids to leave now, the school will start soon. Salim gripped Sarah's hand firmly and took her away, Sarah waved at them and both left. Finally, both of the men can glare at each other with hate and they didn't want to pretend anymore.

-Zoya, are you ok ? Asad asked Zoya and his eyes softened, she nodded and when she wanted to answer, Sufian stepped between them.

-she is fine now, that I am here, so please spare me your fake concern

-oh sorry the only fake concern that I have it's for you, as I can see, I let a beautiful print on your stupid face. You look so sexy in blue, he winked at him.

-you are really arrogant, I see that I let a mark on you, he smirked at him

-oh yes, please try to mark again with you love and I will show you HOW much I love you, and I will introduce two of my friends, he showed both of his fists. Zoya tried to hide her smile but she had to separate them.

-Not, now, please, there are a lot kids, please, stay calm, she stepped between them and her front and hand was on Asad. He looked at her and posed his hand on her, smiling at her tenderly. Both were lost in to each other eyes. Sufian was boiling seeing them so close, he cleared his throat.

-don't you see that you are the 3 wheel, why don't you just go away ? Asad said sarcastically

-if you continued disturbing her, I will for sure attach you to the carriage

-oh really? Boo, I am so scared, he fake that he was shivering from fears, with your arms thin as locust, I advise you to come with some friends or to gain 30 kilos more because seen your figure, you will drown under the weight of my coat.

-moron, Sufian lost his temper, and he stepped toward Asad angrily.

-please, stop now, Zoya said with a low and dangerous voice. I have to go now and I want you to act as adult, so please, stop your childish provoke, ok? She looked at them and both just nodded. She then turned to Asad and cupped his cheek, please Asad, don't do anything...for me.

Asad took her hand and kissed her fingers and he nodded. They didn't need to hide in front of Sufian, all knows who she loved really, and Sufian huffed annoyed. Zoya left slowly and went to her lesson. Asad waited until she disseapered and turned his heels but he was stopped by Sufian.

-hey, I don't want you near my family, he was threatening him but Asad let a sarcastic chuckle. I am really serious, now I will protect them from you and your spell. I don't know what you did to both of them, but I will break it.

-you are going to protect them ? From me ? From my spell? Dude, don't use words that you don't the meaning, it will not make look clever, he laughed at him. And if you really want to break the spell, I guess you will have to extract me from their heart so you will have to kill them. This is what we call : LOVE, Zoya loves me and you know that, you know that she only want me and NOT you. You can lie to yourself as much as you want but inside of this stone, he pointed to his chest, you know the love that we share and this truth you can't face it.

-true ? Really ? She pretend to love you, because she needed a presence, and you are a default choice , but the real truth is that she is with me, now, she choose me over you and if you really think that she love you, you are lying to yourself.

-Zoya forget to mention that you are so funny, I am lying to myself? Did you just see what happened earlier? She only touched me and not you, she only looked into my eyes with love and not you. She didn't even addressed her demands to you but to me, so please spare your nonsense.

-I am going to take them away from you and all the memories that they have with you. We will leave for India soon and you will not be able to exerce any pressure on them.

-take them to India? Asad was shocked

-yes,

-and Zoya agreed at this ? He couldn't believe that she didn't tell him

-yes, I told you, she choose me and she will do anything for our family, because we are family, if you want it or not. Asad clenched his jaw upset and hurt. Zoya will leave him. Asad stepped closer to him in defiance.

-you can take her away from me, you can put miles between us, but her heart will always be with me, her heart will only beat with love just for me. I know that you force her to go with you and if you think that because she loves you, YOU are lying to yourself. Love comes naturally between two, but you don't know how it feels because the only love that you have , it's for YOU. You can take her as far as you want, but I will always be next to her, I will be her shadow, and what Zoya and I are sharing, you will not break it.

-this is what we will see

-I bet you with my life, Sufian.

-don't bet, Asad, you may die and leave your son as orphan.

-let see, he put his hand on his eyes and stepped back slowly. Asad crossed the road, his eyes closed, keeping his front to Sufian. The road presented important traffic, but Asad continued to step back unaware of the danger and Sufian's eyes were widely opened, totally agape with his behavior.

-ARE YOU MAD ? Asad just chuckled at him. He was already in the middle of ther road and the cars stopped abruptly honking loudly at him and some yelled at him, saying bad words. Sufian ran to him and grabbed his arms to secure him.

-Are you crazy? What are you doing ? you want to kill yourself

-see, I told you, I bet you my life

-I save you idiot

-I am still alive, Sufian, until her heart will beat , mine will too. We are beating with one heart and this love, you will not be able to break, no miles, no distance, no threat will change this. Asad jerked his hands and left him deep in his thought.

-this man is crazy, totally mad, Sufian sighed looking at the sky, the doubt started to reach his heart.

Few days later

She was resigned to announce the news to her family, she just wanted to run away, to disappear. She could not go back to her house with him, she could not revive it again. But it was her decision and she had to assume as a mother. She entered the home and her eyes fell on all the mess on their house, the house presented some decoration and she realized that her marriage was supposed to be in a week. She couldn't hold her tears, the house was surrounded by some joy and light, it was magic, this house never looked so happy and she came today to kill it.

-Zoya, what are you doing here? Said Zeenat excitedly, you are not suppose to be here and you are not suppose to look at this, she spread her arms to hide her views. Zoya smiled sadly and held her, crying. Zoya, what's wrong? Hey, I know as bride you are stressed for everything and you are axious, but trust me, everything will be fine, I promise. See, I will manage everything, you will not need to worry. She wiped her tears and she got emotional too seeing her crying. See, you make me cry, you stupid girl, everything will be fine.

-aapi, they will be no wedding, Zoya finally let the bomb.

-don't tell me that you both fight again, ya Allah from both of you, for sure you are made for each other, Zeenat didn't sense the gravity of her words.

-Aapi, the wedding is cancel, she said again.

Zeenat looked at her intently and she laughed at her, she smacked slowly her forehead.

-Sufian is back, Aapi, and then her laugh fade away brusquely. She gazed at her and her eyes fill with deep rage.

-what this devil want now?

-he wants Sarah, Appi

-he has no right on her, he left her 6 years ago and he can't have any right on her. And you will cancel your wedding because of him, are you mad ? How dare you leave Asad and leave your wedding for this man? How ..

-salam alekoum, Zeenat jee, Sufian entered, she looked at him, she couldn't believe the audacity of this man.

-ANWAR, ANWARRR, she called her husband, who rushed to her, worried.

-what's wrong ? He asked but he finally got his response, his anger reached the same level as his wife. What the hell are you doing here ? You were not suppose to be here, Anwar gripped his collar and pushed him to the door. Zoya tried to free him but he was so upset that she didn't see him like this.

-jeeju , please stop, please

-how dare you coming close to my daughter? How dare you?

-please give me chance to explain, please, Sufian was begging him. Anwar finally loosened his grip.

-Say it faster and then leave our life, we have our daughter's wedding to prepare. Sufian adjusted his collar, he knew that they will not welcome him but he didn't realize the impact that he left.

-I am here for Zoya, and for Sarah. I am not anymore the man that I was, I swear. I came back after so long, I know but I came to bring back what I left and what I wasn't able to take care of. I need a second chance to show you all how I will this time took care of your daughter and my daughter. Zoya and I first time we married without your approval but today, I really want it and your blessing for our family. My daughter needs her father and her mother and you can understand this.

-even if you were angel , Sufian, I won't let you destroy Zoya's life again. I don't trust you and I will never give you my approval for this fake redeem of you, am I clear to you? Zeenat blast at him.

-Please, give me another chance to prove you my sincerity, and talk to Zoya, she gave me another chance, he pointed at her. Zoya glared at him, only she knew how he put pressure on her, but she couldn't say it.

-Aapi, Jeeju, I know that you...she gulped, will not agree with this, but Sarah's wish is to be with her father and as a mother I can't leave her.

-What ??? Are you insane? You mean you will sacrifice Asad, your love to him for your daughter one wish, did she really know him ? Did she really know how he left you ? HE LEFT YOU ALONE AND PREGNANT, alone. What happened to you Sufian? You wake up one day and said : Oh I want to be father, Sufian, you should be ashame asking our Zoya to sacrifice her happiness for you, she did nothing to deserve to loose everthing for you, if you really want her to be happy, you should be here preparing her wedding with us, you should only come back for you daughter and not for Zoya. You lost her years ago and now she is for another man. Where is Asad ? How he let do this thing? How he accepted, tell me ? Zeenat grabbed her shoulders.

-I broke up with Asad , aapi and I couldn't let him leave this kind of life, I can't be with him.

-But Zoya, you can't break this relation, I didn't see so much happy, Asad is a really nice person and he loves you and not this , Anwar pointed at him in disgust.

-I took my decision, and the wedding is cancel, her pain constricted her inside.

-Zoya, you can't do this, you can't obey to your daughter like this, you have to fight

-Aapi you will not understand, she blurted without thinking

-why? because I didn't get any child? Because I didn't carry any child in my womb? She said hurt and Zoya wanted to apologize, but Zeenat stopped her. You are right I can't understand what it feels to be pregnant, but I know how to raise a child and you are my child. We became parent when we took care of infant from the cradle until it can be autonomous. We looked after you when you were a child until you became a beautiful woman, and a mother in turn. And I have the right as your parent to tell you that you are wrong and you are doing the biggest mistake of your life.

-I know, Zoya whispered so slow that it was inaudible, with a tears in her eyes

-Zoya, the day you brought Sufian in this house, I was really sad but today, I am really disappointed, and really surprised that you jumped again knowing what you are going to face. But you have to know that this house will always have an open door for Sarah and you, but him, she pointed to Sufian, he will have to proof a lot before, he could step this house. Zeenat said bitterly.

Zoya felt her throat constrict with a bitter taste of failure, she did it again, breaking their hearts. She was the first who wanted to throw him away from her life, but she couldn't and she can't tell them the truth about their deal. She looked down and went to Sufian.

-let's go, she said simply

-zoya, I can't convince them

-no need, you are not welcome in this house Sufian and you will never be, it will be better if we leave now. She turned her gaze to her uncle and whispered, I am sorry. His face showed pain and sadness for her, he loved her a lot and he knew that she didn't want to follow him after what happen years ago but he didn't say anything, he just nodded at her, telling him with his eyes, that he will always be here for her. They exchanged some gratitude look and she left. Sufian extanded his hand to Anwar, but he just left him, and he was stunned with this rude behavior. He left with a sense of failure, he thought that he can fix everything and prove his sincerity, but the wound that he left year ago was still open, bleeding like a torrent.

Zeenat finally broke down, crying to the pain and harsh words that she said to her, Anwar held her and both looked at the main door, the same door that she left years ago.

Dilshad's mansion

Zoya went to announce this time news to her mother-in-law, and she knew its going to be the worst moment ever, but she couldnt escape from this task. She came alone, she left Sufian and went directly to Dilshads house, she didnt even prevent Asad. She had to face it alone.

She entered silently and saw Dilshad sitting silently on the sofa, her head on her hands. She knew, Zoya thought. She bent down, Dilshad didn't sense her.

-phu-pi, she called hesitantly. She finally looked up and her eyes were puffy with cry. I am ...really sorry. Dilshad clenched tightly to her shawl until her hand became white, she felt pain and wanted to slap her, but she couldn't do it, she was suffering for her son's pain, she knew that Zoya was not at fault but as human she needed a responsible for this.

-no, you are not, she said bitterly , because if you are sincere, you won't have broken my son's heart. Please leave from here, don't hurt me or yourself anymore. She said coldly and this time she didn't fake an anger.

-phupi, I am really sorry for everything, I didn't mean to hurt him or to hurt you. It..is just happened, and because I am a mother I didn't have another choice and I...I can't do anything, I am...I am, she couldn't find her words

-I told you Zoya, Asad is really important for me and you promise to take care of him and I trust you, but unfortunately you broke all my trust in you. I trust my son and your eyes, but you lied to me , looking into my eyes. Dilshad was really hurted deeply for her son, even if her son explained everything to her, she couldn't hold her pain.

Zoya sobbed loudly, she felt ashamed of herself. Asad was in the close room when he heard some sobs and he ran outside to see his mother, but he didn't expect to see her here.

-Zoya, he called her and she looked up , her lower lips shivered, she wanted to hold him and to cry in his arms.

-Asad, she stood up, but Dilshad stood in between

-Zoya, I gave you Asad to take care of him but you can't do it now, and I can listen to your motherhood call, so as you choose your daughter, you will not blame me if I choose my son. I want you to stay away from him.

-Ammi

-shut up, Asad, I forced you once to get married to a woman that you don't love and today, I will stand between you and the woman who don't love you anymore. Zoya, if you really have a soft corner for him and respect me as your phupi, I want you to stay away from him, as far as you can, to never talk to him or to break his heart. My son loves you and I want to help him to forget you. So, please, Zoya, go away from this house. Dilshad felt her heart sharply beating under her chest. She didn't want to do it, she knew the love between them, but she had to protect him, and soon they will be separated, soon they can heal both.

Zoya watched Dilshad with guilt and sadness, she could find fault at her request, their story was not anymore. She wiped her tears and just nodded, she then looked at Asad melancholically. She tried to catch all his features and to print them in her mind. It was the last time that she will see him, the last time that she will be able to admire his face, she couldn't even touch him for a last time, she was not allowed anymore. She turned and let a deep agonizing breath, she felt a sharp pain in her chest, she couldn't breath, but she had to leave everything behind, it was all over now. Asad tried to catch her, but Dilshad held his wrist and nodded negatively at him. He didn't move and saw her going slowly away from him.

In the evening,

She looked lost out the window, it was her new ritual, nowadays. She didn't eat much those last day, or didn't sleep. The day has passed, everything was going beautifully, it's the summer already and the sun was shining and the night full with stars, but nothing drawn a smile on her face.

Sufian didn't know what to do, she didn't reply much to him. She was lost in her world. He can understand that she was upset because he couldn't convince her parents. She was like this when they firstly married, she kept silence for days, before opening up to him. At this time, he knew how to do, but today, he didn't know or he knew it but he preferred to ignore what she needed the most. His inner voice told him that she only needed Asad but he removed it quickly.

-Zoya

-mmh,

-I want to tell you about something and I want you first to listen to me before getting upset, she turned her heard lazily to him, encouraging to talk. Well, I was thinking that ..you know that my family is in India, you see, and I wanted to ask you if you and Sarah want to come to ..India for sometimes, actually my family wants to meet you and I was wondering if...He scratched his head awkward. She turned her gaze to the windown

-it's a good idea, she simply said

-what did you say?

-I have nothing left here, I disappointed my family, phuphi, Asad, so I guess going away from all this pain, it will be a good idea.

-Really? You mean it? When she didn't respond, he jumped in joy, it's amazing, Zoya, he said hapilly, you will never regret it , I promise, you will love my family. I will book for next week, what do you think ? It's ok for you, it's not too soon?

-why in one week? Do it as soon as possible, why a delay, Sufian, the last day of school is tomorrow. She gave him a half-smile

-so after tomorrow, you mean?

-it will be perfect.

He couldn't believe his stars, he didn't need to convince her so much and he was sure that once in India, she will forget all her pain and grief. He was so excited that he left in hurry to book as soon as he will reach his hostel. Zoya stayed quiet for sometimes, once he left, her mind started to imagine this new life, she will leave everything behind, and she didn't need to stay here anymore. Nothing and no one was waiting for her here anymore.

She went to her room and started to pack mechanically. She didn't talk too much and kept silent most of the time, she didn't laugh and her eyes was even sadder than before. Sarah noticed all this changes and how her mother was different since Sufian entered, but she didn't know the reason. She entered in her room and saw her mother packing.

-Ammi, why are you packing? We are going to uncle Asad's house?

-no, baby, not anymore, she replied mechanically

-what do you mean not anymore, ammi? What about the wedding ?

-Sarah, come here, she sat and held her daughter in her arms. Sarah, Uncle Asad and me we are not going to get married, it's cancelled

-but why Ammi? We are not going to live with Salim and Uncle Asad?

-No, we are going to leave with your abbu in India, she caressed her head

-in India, where is India ? It's close to school?

-no, baby, it's really far from here, we have to take plane to reach there

-but we are going to take Salim, Uncle Asad, Daadi and Daada, right?

-no, we are going to let them here

-but why ammi? We are always together, why we have to leave everything here?

-because we can't take them with us, we are only you, your abbu and me

-but I will miss them, that's why you are crying and you are silent those days? Because you are going to miss them? She wrapped her arms around her mother waist.

-yes, I am going to miss them a lot, she let lone tear running on her cheek

-but Ammi, I don't want you to be sad, let's stay here and we are not force to go anywhere, we have all the person that we love here, why leaving everything to a place that we don't know anything?

-sometimes, we have to do something because we don't have choice, baby. And I want you to be happy, and your abbu's family is in India and you want to be with your abbu, right?

-yes, but I want to be with Uncle Asad, Salim, and I don't want to go away from them, I don't want to go to India, I know no one, and all my friends are here, how can I leave them?

-you will make another friends, Sarah, see it's going to be so much fun. Sarah stayed silence for sometimes, tried to understand everything when she started to talk again.

-Ammi, do you love abbu the way you love Uncle Asad? Zoya held her tight and sighed deeply

-not and never the way I love Asad.

-then why are you leaving?

-because I love you more and I will always fulfill your wishes, sweetheart.

-but my wish is to see you happy, Ammi.

-who said that I am not happy? She smiled widely trying to sound joyfull but the sadness in her eyes betrayed her. Sarah caught the drop under her eyes and showed her the tears. Zoya let her tears to fall down, she couldn't hide them anymore to her daughter, she crushed her into her arms and sobbed loudly. Sarah didn't know what to do, she knew that her mother was so sad, she never broke down in front her like this before, she always hide her tears but today, she saw her mother crying and she couldn't hold her tears too. She didn't know what to do or to say. She needed to talk to someone who she trusted the most.

The day after

It was the last day of school and Sarah was sad because she will have to leave forever from this place, where she grew up. Her mother didn't want to leave either but she was stubborn to change her mind, only her father seemed to be excited with this departure. She needed to talk to Salim, he always know what to do.

-Salim, I need you

-what's now, Sarah? I don't have time to play doll with you, he replied annoyed

-Salim, it's really serious, I am going away ..He rolled his eyes, forever

-thank God, you are going, I can be alone with my Abbu and Miss farooqui soon, he giggled

-Salim, ammi and I are going away from Uncle Asad and you. We are going to India by plane and we will never come back, she shouted at him. Salim stopped and faced her, triying to know if she was joking but her tears told him that she was serious.

-but Sarah, you are not going to live with us? The wedding is at the end of this week, it's impossible, how?

-I don't know Salim, Ammi just told me that there will be no wedding anymore, uncle Asad and Ammi broke up and so my Abbu wanted us to join him to India.

-you can't go, Miss Farooqui can't go. We are supposed to live all together, his eyes were brimming with tears

-I don't want to go but if my parent want to leave what can I do?

-Abbu didn't tell me anything about that, that they will be no wedding. He lied to me..., Salim was in rage.

-Salim, I don't know what to do, my ammi is really sad

-they all lied and leave us, they didn't care about us and they only think about themselves, he said bitterly, talking to himself.

-Salim, we are leaving tomorrow, she started to cry

-tomorrow ? She nodded and he felt pain in his heart. He couldn't believe that his father didn't tell him such big thing, he was suppose to know when, at the end of this week, when they will be no party and nothing. His anger increased more and more, what did his father think? How did he think that he will react? As a baby? He will just have to approve this big lost and shut it mouth or cried like a baby until, it will remain no water in his body. He was angry and sad, he was upset that he discovered everything abruptly.

-Salim, she touched his shoulder, but he jerked and he pushed her on the floor. She looked astonished and he started yelling at her

-I HATE YOU , AND I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN, YOU HEAR ME , I HATE YOU AND MISS FAROOQUI, I HATE ALL OF YOU, YOU ARE ALL SELFISH.

And he ran from here, crying his heart out, no one thought about him, no one took time for him, everyone made their own life and he had to accept, the pain of loosing person that you loved was to much to bare for him, and once, he got attach they decided to leave and let him behind. Noone of them came to talk to him, not his abbu, not miss farooqui, even not his daadi. He didn't want to live another loss in his life, he couldn't accept.

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Dilshad's company

He felt depressed those days, he couldn't eat or sleep either. All of this thing came into his mind and he didn't know where to start to resolve it. He wanted to face Sufian, but he didn't want him to force Zoya to anything worst, he didn't trust this man around her. This man next to her was what he can't bare, he couldn't handle the pain that she might be going throught in his company. He received a call from Zeenat and Anwar asking him to do something, but he can't figure out to an issue. He didn't know what to respond to them, he didn't even know how to ease his mother pain. When he told her the news, she was shattered and he couldn't blame her for rejecting Zoya, she protected him afterall. Her breakdown in his house, this image kept rolling in his mind again and again. If she had to leave, he will go after her, even if no one was agree, he had to be close to her, in case she needed him. The worst part was he didn't say anything to Salim, he can't tell him that his new family will never come, that all his happiness will stop here. He realized that Salim will go throught other loss and it might be too much for him. Inwardly, he wished that miracle happened and Zoya and Sarah will joined at the end of this week, the wedding will take place and they were going to live happily after. But nothing seemed to be happy.

Asad was concentrated on his task that he didn't check the caller in his phone, when it rang. He picked up and responded nonchalantly.

-hello

-mmm..mister khan, she said hesitantly

He froze, hitted by her voice. He didn't expect to hear her so soon. He looked to his phone to be sure that it was her and it displayed: baby , with the picture taken in the park associated to her. He clenched the phone and closed his eyes, it was painful for him.

-Mister Khan , hello, he could hear the voice coming from the phone. He took a long breath and replied emotionless.

-Miss Farooqui, how can I help you?

Zoya put her hand on her mouth to control her sobs, she missed him a lot, but she called him for a reason and she wasn't alone, which helped her a bit.

-Mister Khan, I ...I call you to ask about Salim, is he with you? She asked worried and impatient, she wished that Salim was with him, but inwardly, she knew that it wasn't the case, because Asad would have call to prevent.

-No, he is at school, why do you ask me this? Is there something wrong? He could sense that something bad happened to his son, he felt it inside of his heart.

-Mister Khan, maybe it's nothing, but we...could not find Salim anywhere and we thought that he...

-Salim was not with you? How is it possible? You were supposed to watch for them, the children were YOURS responsabilities, HOW ...WHEN.., he scrubbed his hair in frustration and he walked back and forth nervously.

-Asad, I don't know what happened, we looked everywhere and we don't know where is he? I am sorry

-I don't need you sorry, Miss Farooqui, I WANT MY SON, he yelled on the phone and she sucked her breath, she couldn't blame him, he was worried.

-I'm coming, and he cutted the call before she could answer.

He reached the school and crossed many traffic lights, he didn't care, his son has disseapered and he cared about nothing else,he only wanted to find him and to reassure him. Salim was acting well since Zoya came into their life, he became happy. Asad didn't tell yet about Zoya and Sarah departure, he didn't know how to tell him, he didn't have the heart to spoil his innocence. He was just scared if his son finally knew the true and he ran away in pain from him. He felt restless by the pain that Salim was crossing now.

He barged into the school and Zoya, Sarah and Mrs Marge were waiting for him. He glared at Zoya angrily, she wasn't at fault but he couldn't focus or think.

-what happened Mrs Marge? He avoided to ask her anything

-Mr Khan, we don't know actually, when it was the time for the student to come back to classmate, he wasn't here during the calls. We called you expecting him to be with you or at home.

-No, there is no one at home, he looked lost and Zoya tried to catch his eyes but he avoided them. Did something happened to him? Was he angry at something ? Did he fight with someone? When he was angry, he is very impulsive.

-it's my fault, came Sarah's voice from behind, she was in tears and her sobs were louder now

-hey, Sarah why do you say that? Tell me? He bent down and Zoya followed him

-I...I ...to..told...him..that...my..my ...abbu is...back...and we...we...are...going...to live...with him.

-then? He knew what the next was, Salim might reacted violently to this new, and he was helpless.

-then...he...asked...if...we...are..going...to stay...together...but...but...I told...him..no, that ...we...are ...leaving...and he ...said...that...that...that...he hate me, she wrapped her arms around Asad and she cried all her heart out. Uncle...I...don't...want...him...to ...hate...me, I...can...stay...if he...want...we can...be ...together...she sniffed.

Asad held her and rubbed her back, she was inconsolable. It was all mess, all mess and how destiny played a sadist game with many heart, he didn't know. He can endure any pain but not seeing his son so low and so miserable. He had to find him quickly, loosing his mother and his new family, was big for a small baby like him. Breaking child's dream destroyed all his hope and this can make him bitter, he had to avoid this at any cost.

-Sarah tell me, he pulled her, did he tell you anything else? Or you know where he like to be? Try to remember sweetheart. Please

-Uncle, you ...are...not angry? She looked at him with a puppy and teary eyes, Zoya felt her heart broke into pieces looking at her daughter so much in pain.

-Of course not, just tell me, what do you know?

Sarah tried to think but nothing came and she just shook her head in defeat. He let out a growled of frustration. He stood up, he had to search somewhere or he will become crazy with each passing minute.

-call the police and call me in case, he came back, I have to go

-Asad, where are you going? Zoya called him

-to look for my son, I am his father, he said bitterly and left.

Minutes has passed and they became hours, he looked at his house, but he wasn't there. He looked all around the school observing the road, but always nothing. He was in pain time after time, and to add to his misery, the sun started to go down, he had to find him quickly, the night was fresh and they said it might rain heavily today. He was suffocated, he searched everywhere he can, park, hospital, everywhere closed to where he can be. He even considered kidnapping, a small boy all alone, he was easy prey for pervert. He hitted the wheel again and again until he couldn't hold. His car came in sudden stop and he let his head on the wheels, he cried, he couldn't hold no more. Last time, he cried like this was when Ayaat died, he didn't even break like this when Zoya decided to leave him, because for him she was still there, and it was his son, now and he can't loose him. He prayed to Allah to protect his son until he found, he asked him to help him, to give him a sign, anything, he was ready to sacrifice everything for his son, even his hope to have Zoya again in his life. He cried like a small child in his car, all his pain was unvearable, loosing a child was the worst pain ever. The phone started to ring and it was Zoya.

-Hello, Zoya, Zoya, he wiped his tears and sniffed

-Asad, she heard him crying and her heart constricted. Did you find him? She asked and his world crashed, she didn't call to give him good news but to ask him, he didn't hide, he cried on the phone.

-Zoya, Zoya, I..don't..know..where is he, I can't Zoya, I can't handle this

-Asad, tell me where you are? Asad, listen to me, where you are? She wanted to join him, to hold him, he needed her.

-in the park, where we first met, he said sadly

-I am coming, wait for me, wait for me, I'm coming babe, she cutted the call and was about to leave when Sufian stood in front of her.

-Where are you going, Zoya?

-Asad need me and we can't find Salim, she said angrily, she went to look for the key

-why don't you let the police doing the job, Zoya? You can't do anything to him

-don't you hear me, Asad-needs-me, she emphazed each of her words

-are you sure he can't manage alone ?

-you know what, I don't have time to argue with you, ok? I am just leaving.

-wait, I am coming with you, she looked at him agape, what? Firstly, another help can be useful and second, I don't want to let you alone with him, I'm sorry Zoya but I don't trust both of you

-what do you think we are going to do? Huh, tell me? Are you for real? Should I remind why I'm going to join him and who is he for me?

-this is exactly the point, you need my help and I know how you feel about him.

-Sufian, listen I ...

-we are wasting time, Zoya, we should go. He took the keys from her hand and went to the door. She looked at his back in defeat and sighed sadly, Asad didn't need to see Sufian, it wasn't the good thing to do right now.

After 15 minute of driving, they arrived to the park. She almost jumped from the car and looked for him, without waiting for Sufian to park the car. She looked at him frantically, her eyes begging him to see a glimpse of him, she finally saw a shadow and recongnized him, her heart knew it was him. She ran to him and stopped in midway, he was sitting on the ground, his head on his arms crossed on his knees. He looked vulnerable and weak, she tiptoed slowly and touched his shoulders, calling him.

-Asad? He looked at her with red puffy eyes, she couldn't stand seeing his sadness. Asad

He crushed himself and held her tightly, he needed her so much. He was going crazy and she was the only one who could soothe his pain.

-Zoya, I looked everywhere, everywhere but I couldnt...It was my fault, I should have told him, I shouldnt have hide anything. He was blaming himself for his disappearance. She wrapped her hands on his back, her head in the crook on his neck, she was selfish at this moment, she couldn't hold the weak joy that she felt being in his arms after so long, like she could breath again without suffocating. She quickly removed it and stroke his back affectionnally.

-Calm down, Asad, we are going to find him, don't worry, he will be soon with us. He nodded controlling his sobs.

Sufian after parking the car, came to them, but he didn't show himself to Asad. He felt that he was intrusive and he didn't know why, but he felt himself being the 3 wheel of carriage. He was supposed to separate them, but seeing Asad so sad, he didn't have the heart to do anything. He stepped back but still watching them from far.

Asad stepped away from and turned his back, he wiped his tears. He needed to open and to speak out his fears, but now, he had to search for him again. She felt empty suddenly when he pulled away from her, she felt cold starved from his touch.

-Zoya, I will look again here, this is the first place where everything started, maybe he wanted to turn to this time. I feel him near but I could not see him yet. She nodded and they started to call for him.

After 10 minutes of intense search, both looked at each other helpless. Suddenly, a small sound of falling drop of water came to his ears, it was repetitive. He tried to concentrate and found the sound near, there was a small cliff which separate the park in two. It was his last chance, and as his prayers were listened, he found Salim sitting on the edge of the cliff, throwing stone on the water, with anger and force. He started to breath again and ran to him.

-Salimm, he called him.

Salim turned and saw Zoya and Asad running to him. He was happy looking at them together but all diseapeared when he recalled Sarah's words, his short-live joy left and gave place to deep anger. He stood up on the cliff and glared at them. Asad and Zoya stopped in their track and held their breath, Salim was dangerously standing too close from falling in the water current. Asad approached him slowly

-Salim, champ, I was looking at you, I was so worried

-I DON'T CARE, he yelled, he threw his hands frustrated

-Salim, calm down, come to me, we are going to talk, ok ? He tried to sound calm

-Abbu, why you didn't tell me? WHY YOU DIDN'T TELL ME? WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME? WHYY? He was crying and his sadness broke both of their heart

-Salim, I am sorry, I am really sorry, please come on, I will fix everything

-NO, NO, YOU CAN'T FIX IT , YOU CAN'T FIX ANYTHING, ABBU, YOU JUST LIE TO ME, YOU BOTH LIED TO ME, YOU PROMISE THAT WE ARE GOING TO BE ALL TOGETHER, TO BE A FAMILY BUT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, I AM ALL ALONE. AMMI LEFT ME AND NOW MISS FAROOQUI AND SARAH TOO.

-but Salim, I am here, I am still here

-I HATE YOU ABBU, I HATE YOU MISS FAROOQUI, I HATE SARAH, I HATE AMMI, I HATE ALL OF YOU, YOU PROMISE BUT YOU ONLY GIVE LIES, I HATE LIES, I HATE PROMISE, I hate you...I hate you..I hate all of you.

He was shaking with his tears and his anger, he yelled at them all his pain and both felt guilty making him cry and breaking their promise to break their union. Zoya felt miserable, she was all responsible for his pain, she was the one who created such a big mess in Salim's childhood, wanting to protect her daughter, she destroyed Salim's trust in life. She wanted to die right now. He was right by hating her, she hated herself.

They didn't know when it started to rain, and it was pouring abundantly and the water flow started to increase widly. Asad stepped closer to his son, who had his eyes close, still weeping.

-Salim, he called him softly, his eyes were brimming with his sadness, he looked up at his dad.

-Abbu, he breathed

-let's go home, now, give me your hand, it just you and me, like always, always together, ok? Salim nodded, he wiped his tears with the back of his small forearm and extanded his hand to his father. But when he wanted to step, he slidded from the edge and fell from it.

-SALIIIMMM, he yelled in horror, and Zoya gasped too. They ran to him, Salim gripped to an iron broken bar, but the wetness of it, made it difficult for him to tight to. Salim called him frightened.

-Abbu, abbu,

-calm down, don't move, I am coming ok, he tried to reassure him

-calm down Salim, abbu is coming too, hold on, my baby, hold on, Zoya came in her turn to calm him. She can see in his eyes some relief seeing them together for him and that they were not angry at him after what he spat to them. Asad removed his coat and went over the fence. The rain made it difficult but he was only focusing on his son. He went down and now he was almost under the level of the walking cliff. He reached Salim and smiled at him. He caught with one hand on iron bar and with the other, he pushed Salim up to Zoya. She strechted her arms as far as she can, she was close, when she felt other hand next to her. Sufian came to their rescue, he grabbed Salim's hand and pulled him. Zoya smiled at him with gratitude and he smiled back softly. She kissed Salim's forehead and stroke his hair affectionnally. She then turned her attention to Asad.

-Asad, give me you hand, be careful, she was looking worried. He looked up and saw Sufian giving his hand in help to, close to her. He looked at them, close to each other for a second and felt a sharp pain in his heart. He was the responsible for all of this, he didn't want to blame Zoya, she was trapped just like him, as much as he wanted to kill him, he had to recognize that he helped him with his son, afterall, maybe he changed and he will be nice with his Zoya. She called him breaking his trance.

-Asad, come on, please.

-come on man,

He took impulse to catch hand, but his grip slipped and the strength that he put, pushed him down. Zoya yelled in horror when she brushed his tips of his finger and then saw him falling down to the water.

-AASSSAAADDD

The current was too strong for him and he was launched as a leaf. Zoya ran and followed the street in parallele, yelling in panic. Sufian covered Salim with his father coat and went to join her. Asad was dragged and he tried to hold on anything, but the current was too strong, he tried to swim to move on the side. He didn't know how he managed, but he grabbed to the stair of abandoned stairway. With difficulty, he climbed on the top step, he was tired and he was cold, the water was freezing and the clothes on it weighed a ton, he was struggling to catch his breath. He posed for a minute, half of his body was still in the water. Zoya finally saw him safe and rushed to him. The staircase displayed a warning from crossing, but she didn't care, she went down and ran to him.

-Asad, oh god you are safe, her voice was shaky with fear

She held him by his armpits and pulled him with all her force. She finally took him away slowly and he was no anymore on the water, and he posed his back on the wall. He was shaking with cold and his teeth were clapping. Zoya rubbed his arms and blow on his hands close in fist, looking at him worried, but his eyes were still close. She needed to warm him immediately. She removed his shirt abruptly and wrapped her coat on his shoulders and held him close to her body, to give him warm, still stroking his back.

-Asad, it's ok, it's ok, I'm here

-Zzzoo...zzz, it'sss ccooo..lddd

-I know, Asad. Nothing changed he was still cold and his teeth sounded louder. She didn't know what to do, her mind was in warning mode, she didn't know if it will work but she did what she judged in might help him. She crushed her lips on his and started to kiss him. His lips were cold against her, and his teeth still shaking. Her touch created heat inside of him sending warmt in all his body. He found what he needed, he didn't think and slidded his arms under her top and her skin was hot under his touch. Zoya hissed when she felt his icy fingers on her back, he pushed her into him and he kissed her back, asking for warmt. While Asad needed to adjust his temperature, Zoya was lost in this touch that she craved for days. Slowly, Asad started to feel better and realized that they were kissing after so long, he then decreased his hunger to feel the heat and let his love to take control over his sense. The kiss deepened giving the permission to their tongue to enter in the dance and both were lost in the moment, They kissed like so lost love, she let escape a deep moan of pure satisfaction in his mouth.

-Zoya, Sufian was calling her, he lost her trace. Zoya didn't hear him but Asad did. He stopped to move suddenly and she growled irritated. He pushed her from him and her eyes were a bit disoriented with his sudden push. She tried to understand why he did this, when she heard this time clearly Sufian's call. She looked at Asad sadly and gloomily. Asad stood up using the wall and she wanted to help him but he stopped her. He can't show Salim wrong message, after what happened, he had to maintien distance with her. He promised to his son, that they will be together and nothing else, than Zoya and Sarah now, belonged to his past. It constricted his heart to pain. He avoided to look at her and climbed the stair with difficulty. Zoya looked at him going away from her, rejecting her. She let a lone tear of bitterness from their destiny. She joined him with a heavy heart, holding his shirt and keeping distance with him.

Salim was in Sufian's arm, and he saw his father, Salim ran to his father, totally scared. Asad held on him and breathed finally in relief to find him safe.

-we are going home champ, he looked at him and Salim nodded with half and innocent smile, Asad gave him a big smile to reassure him and held him. He took his coat from Sufian, giving him a grateful look. Sufian didn't say anything, he understood his turnoil and respected his silence. Asad left slowly without looking back, only Salim's eyes were still on Zoya, who looked at her with sadness and hope. Zoya felt her heart stabbed with thousand arrows, seeing her two favorite men going away because of her mistakes. She stood there without moving, her tears falling down.

-Zoya, Sufian called her

-Asad will catch cold, she was in trance, he doesn't like taking medicine, he hates the taste, he will catch cold if I don't force him to drink them, she still remembered how she took care of him and this beautiful memories that she shared with him.

-Zoya, he left, he put his hand on her shoulders hesitantly. Zoya fell on her knees clenching his shirt, she cried drearily. She didn't resist when he held her by her shoulders taking her to the car to come back to home.

Zoya's apartment

She looked outside the window, holding her shawl around her and she stared at the falling rain. Last time, she saw the rain like this, she was with him and she told him that prayers were listened when it rained. She didn't want to pray, her heart stopped to hope for a miracle, God only experimented those who he loved, but it was a painful and hard test for her. However, she refused to pray for her and she prayed for him asking to ease his pain.

-coffee ? Sufian proposed her a cup of warm of coffee, he was looking worried . She looked at the cup lazily and then at him. I promise I didn't put any poison, he tried to light her mood, but her lips curled just slightly. She took it and held it closing between her palms. Those days, she was feeling cold and empty, Asad has create such a big loss in her life and heart, and nothing seemed to fill it, not even Sarah's presence or her happiness.

-Zoya, I know you are sad with what happened today and you are anxious with tomorrow with this new step, but I will be here with you and with Sarah. I will stay by your side. She didn't respond, her eyes still froze outside. He sighed softly and continue, he wanted to reassure her, he created a big mess in her life and asked to her to sacrifie her life for him and she deserved to be in confort. Zoya, you will see, it s going to be really nice and you will love my family, they are waiting for all of us, they are really enthusiastic. They planned some party for us and they are already planned for our wedding.

-what did you say? She wasn't sure if she heard clearly, our...wedding ? Her eyes grew widely, thunderstruck.

-Zoya, I shouldn't have said this but yes, this is what's going to happen afterall, we are..going to get married again.

-Mariage ? Sufian it wasn't suppose to be any marriage between us, she was distraught

-Zoya, I know that you need time but we are going to live at my house and we can't stay at home like this, without having an official relation.

-Who said that we are going to live together? Who said that I want to marry you, Sufian? I can't believe you planned everything and I was suppose to know this when, I will be in India, you wanted to trap me with this. I can't believe this, she threw the cup on the floor.

-Zoya, don't start now, don't say that you didn't expect this, you really know the day you accept to come back to me.

-No, Sufian, this is where you are wrong, you force me and I didn't get back to you, I follow my daughter but no, you take it for you, you thought that I will fall in love again with you. Let me tell you that it won't happen, never, you hear me.

-Why ? You really think that you will come back to him and he will accept you once you will be with me? You are dreaming, Zoya. He mocked her

-And you really dream that I will come into your arms once I will be away from Asad? You are dreaming Sufian. It was her turn to show him how he was nonsensical.

-Zoya, his tone softened, look back at this time, when we were together, look at that time, we were happy, it was always only us, just you and me, we share so many things, we crossed life together, we were in love, Zoya, how can you not trust and wanted to come back to this time when we were so happy.

-Happy? She laughed loudly, happy? Are you for real Sufian? We were NEVER happy, I WAS NEVER HAPPY WITH YOU. I was only happy when you are away from my life, I was happy with my family, I was happy with Asad, but you, I was not. Maybe you don't know the real meaning of being happy or maybe the shock in your head was too strong.

-I don't know how to make you realize that your life was with ME

-and I don't know how to make you realize that my life was NOT with you

-you are not doing any effort, Zoya, you are not taking a step toward me and our relation.

-And I will not do any effort, not now, not tomorrow and in ten years.

-why you are teaching your daughter Zoya ? Coming with me and stay as unmarried couple, what kind of securities we gave to her?

-I just teach her to follow her heart and to be with her love. I will teach to fight for her truth love and not to be like me, weak and trap in her past.

-Zoya, you have answer for everything, but you know very well that we are not doing what we want and society put pressure on us to be in case, and you are not be different. You accept me in your life again and I know that slowly, I will be in your life again, as your husband and with all the right.

-you know what I will let you in your crazy dreams, I am going out, she passed him and went to the door.

-where you think you are going? He said angrily

-I am suffocating here, I need to breath a fresh air, because the pressure was too strong for me. She took the keys and slammed the door behind her.

Zoya ran and caged herself in her car, her head on her hand thightned on the wheels. She was suffocated, her breath was heavy and jerky, getting married to him again and giving him his right as husband, she felt disgust, she suddenly opened the door and vomited. The pain and the stress tightened her stomac and made her throw out. She closed the door and let her hand on the seat. Her decision was too expensive and it was going to kill her. She denied for a long time, but he was right, she can't stay unmarried to him, she cried. In few days, she was supposed to marry an angel but the reality killed him and the devil snatched her happiness and put her into darkness. She thought that she should die, she should finish everything today, before the sun came up. She can't betray her true love, it would be easier for her if she disseapered forever, she will be finally in peace, they will be no pain, no sadness, no past or nothing to worry about. Going away will be the cure for all her ills. She ignited the car and her eyes fell on his shirt, she took it in her hands and whispered:

-I am only yours and always will be. She pressed the foot pedal and launched into the street covered by heavy rain.

Sufian was hell angry at her, how dare he playing and rejecting him like this? He didn't expect from her to be so addicted to this Asad. He cursed him and he even regretted extanding his hand to save him, but he shook his head quickly to remove those dark ideas. She will understood and saw clearly once she will left this country, changing atmosphere and changing a place who gave only grief, will make feel new and excited about new challenges. He was full of hope that his decision was good and he decided not to force her and to give her time, he will talk to his family and they will understand, they will first be unhappy but soon, once Zoya will feel only love by his family members, she will come back to reason and accepted to be his wife. He felt lucky that he came just in time to save her and that she didn't belong to any other men than him, he was a man and he has his own ego. He looked at the watch, it has been already an hour that she left the house, he looked outside the windown and her car was not yet back. He started to be worry, she was really upset when she left the house, what if she met with a problem or accident. He tried to call her but she didn't take her phone.

Hours had passed and she was not yet back, he passed back and forth in the apartment, without knowing who to call or who to join, he didn't know Asad's phone either. He couldn't call her family they will for sure put the blame on him. He stroke his hair in frustration, he lay down praying for her safety, he didn't know when he dozed off , waiting for her.

The morning finally made his entry, and the new day started for him, he stirred from his sleep when he heard a sound of the keys in the door. She was finally back, her hair opened and she was strangely looking different, he wasn't sure if he saw a smile on her face. He rubbed his eyes twice and seeing her lazily walking and ignoring him, triggered his anger toward her.

-where were you last night ?

-shh Sufian, I need to go to my bed. She passed him, but he grabbed her elbow and made her face him.

-I WANT AN ANSWER, WHERE WERE YOU LAST NIGHT ? She looked at him first surprised and then she laughed at him, nonchalantly she replied

-Sarah is sleeping.

-Zoya, don't get on my nerves, I want a clear...He stopped, his eyes sticked to dark red mark on her neck. What is this ? He only noticed now that she was wearing a long manly white shirt, she didn't have it yesterday when she left.

-you don't know what is Sufian? She smirked at him

-you were with him right? He was fuming now

-Y-ES

-how dare you? He jerked her and stepped away from her, he was worried for her all the night and she was with him, this was official , he hate him. It was him who did this to you? He felt his stomack constricted, did you kiss each other again? He knew the answer but he wanted to hear it

-well, she lay lazily again the wall, yes, we kissed, we held each other tight and...She stopped and smiled

-and what ? He turned to face her

-and finally we became one, she said simply

-Wh..what? He hitted the sofa behind when he lost his balance shock

-Asad and I, we made love and you see you are not the only one now. I hope this was enough proof to tell how much I love Asad, and she smirked her eyes full with satisfaction.

-Hhh...how? He couldn't believe his ears, she didn't give herself to another man, she was supposed to be only his, he felt that she betrayed him.

Flashback started

The sky was emptying of the entrails, it was raining in torrents and she was below suffering the assaults of drops falling per thousand, making these tears almost pale. Her face was marked by her sadness and those red eyes swollened from crying. She remained freeze like a statue, holding in her hands his shirt. She started at his house, no live seemed to remain, no light was on. She didn't know why she was here, why she needed to be next to him even she was not allowed to touch him. She felt herself caged and the fruit of her life was far away from her touch. She wanted to see a glimpse of him, just a view of him, tonight was her last night next to him and she will left far away from him. She cried realizing that she came for nothing, her pain was worst ever, why did she come to see him and to go away after ? Why was she punishing herself and him? They better parted now, because it will be impossible to let him go. She fell on her knees, she couldn't stand on her feet, her heart was racing and she wasn't able to breath properly. She caught his shirt and brought it to her lips, she let out a sharp sound of pain, praying the lord to stop this pain.

-Zoya

She opened her eyes and it fell on his feet. He was standing in front of her, holding an umbrella covering the both of them. She looked up and her tears became heavy again.

-Zoya, what are you doing here? He asked sadly, he couldn't stand to see her in this way. He couldn't believe his eyes when he saw throught the window under the rain. His joy to see her was mixed with the sadness of her departure. She couldn't utter a word and she didn't move, the softness and the care in his voice made her heart feeling restless. How can he show her so much love after what she did to him? She felt miserable.

-Asad, her head bent down

-come on, get up Zoya, he held her by her shoulders but it feel like she weighed a ton all her moves were slow and heavy. Caring the guilt, made her feel so low and weak. Her head was still down, she could not face him. He lifted her chin and his eyes was full of love again, she felt her guilt stabbing her heart again. What are you doing here? He asked softly

-to ...give you back... your shirt. This was the only thing that she managed to say. How stupid she can be, but she didn't care, she wasn't caring anymore. He smiled sadly. She wanted to tell him, that she didn't want to go and that she prayed for a miracle, she wanted him to hide her from the world, she wanted to leave and to escape all this burden that Sufian has placed in her womb. Yes, it felt like a burden to have Sarah, she felt disgust of herself thinking that Sufian has one day sign her death the day, he let part of him with her.

-you should go home, Zoya. Her lips started to shiver, she felt cold, he was telling her to go back.

-I am at home, Asad

-Zoya, why did you come? He was upset and sad, she shouldn't have come, only God knows how he was fighting with his inner voice to hold her.

-I wanted to see you, I couldn't go without seeing you.

-Zoya you are hurting me and hurting yourself and do you just forget what happen to Salim? I can't force him to leave such a pain again.

-I am lifeless, Asad, I am already bleeding to death.

-please, just go, Zoya, don't do this to yourself . You shouldn't have come, saying goodbye is the worst thing to do and I don't want to say goodbye to you. So, please, go now. He closed his eyes, he couldn't believe that he was rejecting her. He wanted to be easy for both of them and she wasn't cooperative at all. He had to protect his son and his heart from this pain. By her coming, seeing her moving away will kill both of them.

She turned slowly, he was right, she shouldn't have come to him. She moved slowly from him and every step on the water sounded like the mallet signing her judgment. She felt dizzy and her head started to spin, she tried to walk straight but she felt her strength moving away from her body. Asad saw her walking slowly and his heart ached for her, he didn't want to hurt her, he was in the same state at her, he was lifeless but he was handcuffed. She stopped and he saw falling like death body on the ground.

-ZOYYAAA, he yelled worried.

Her lips were blue and her body was cold, he was in panic, he slapped sliglty her cheek to make her awake, but she didn't respond. He threw his umbrella and held her in his arms.

He placed her on the sofa and brought some blanket to cover her, but she drenched and her clothes was sticked to her like a second skin. He had to undress her and he felt restless. He covered her from head to toe with a blanket and closed his eyes, he slidded his hands under the blanket and lifted her top, the blanket fell exposing the laces of her bra, but he was not obvious about, he fumbled like a blind to hold the blanket and cover her upper part, slidded the side below her neck. He opened his eyes and was satisfy. He then moved down and reached her jeans, his eyes still closed. It was a terrific task, the jeans sticked to her skin and he had to rub her skin to remove it. He unbuttoned and held her denin. His hands were now on her hips, going down to her thigh, he couldn't ignore the contact that her skin left on his hand. He held his breath, he was now on her knees and finally reached her ankles. He did finally release his breath. He covered her perfectly and rubbed her body to dry her, as much as possible. He then went to the guest room and grabbed some clothes that she left, when she slept here. He did the same but in the reverse way, but it wasn't so easy. At least, she was covered and totally dressed. He dried then her hair and she started to wake up, groaning in pain.

-Asad, her voice was so weak

-Zoya, are you ok ? he asked but her lips shivered in response, he misunderstood her shivers with her cold, but the true was that she wanted to cry with his care, this was always the feeling that she felt each time, he was generous and caring with her. He came behind her and hold her from behind, he wrapped his arms around her shoulders and now her head was comfortably on his chest. He scrubed her arms to keep her warm and she left her tears falling again.

-Are you ok, now? He asked worried and she nodded, this was why she was here, she wanted to feel him against her and feeling his touches for the last time. She cried silently, cuddling herself against his warm and heartbeat. He kissed her forehead, he couldn't stop himself, her body was still cold, and he tighned his grip. They stayed quiet for long time, and inert, the only movement was the wave of their chest, showing that they are still alive from outside, but inside...

She looked up and stared at him with her teary eyes. He looked back and he felt pain in his heart, he wanted to cheer up her mood, but no words came out, he was not strong today, he was just in abyss of pain. She closed the gap and tried to reach his lips, but he turned it from her.

-Zoya, what are you doing ?

She cupped one of his cheek and forced him to look at her, but he resisted. His last force may left him if he stared again in her pleading eyes. She posed her forehead against his temple.

-I need you, she almost begged

-please, Zoya, don't, he whimpered

-I need you, Asad, I need you so much, she kissed his cheek, resting longer than necessary. He pushed her and stood up, away from her. He was breathing strongly, he was controlling his willing to kiss her, he didn't want to suffer more, she was supposed to leave and he needed this distance to survive, but she didn't help him much. He looked throught the window, watching the rain falling on the glasses per thousand, how ironic, the sky was also sad today.

-Asad, she retained her sobs. She followed him, wrapped in her blanket, and came closer, she touched his back softly, travelling her finger along his spine.

-Zoya, why you are here? He turned and shouted on her, she jerked in surprised by this sudden reaction. WHY ARE YOU HERE? Don't you see it's difficult for me? For you? I accept your decision and I can't change it, so why are you here? Why are you here? He gave her his back and hitted the wall frustrated.

She can't blame him, she has no right to say anything, she was selfish. She wanted to see him, knowing how it's going to be unbearable to leave him after, but she couldn't stop herself, she was suffocated and she needed him, she was addicted and her brain was not enough in control over her heart.

-I love you

-DON'T ...He raised his hands, don't say thing that you know can be hurtful, please

-I am in love with you, she repeated, coming closer, her body was inch from his back, almost touching.

-ZOYA, I SAID DON'T..., his voice sounded in pain

-I love you Asad. It was enough for him, he grabbed her and pushed her against the wall harshly, but she kept silent. She wanted him to punish her. He held her by her shoulders, his grips were stronger and deep in her skin, she was in pain but she didn't show him and didn't want to stop him either.

-Zoya, why are you here? Tell me, his eyes were brimming with tears

-I want you, Asad, his grip loosened a bit, he was shock. I want to be your wife tonigh, Asad.

-Zoya

-Asad, listen to me, you marked my heart and my soul with your love and I want you to take the last part of me. I don't want to go without you with me, I want to go with your love print in my skin. I can't be to another man than you and I want to show to the entire world to who I belong and I only belong to you, Asad.

He tried to retrack back but she stopped him, holding his shirt firmly.

-Asad, I want you to take all your right on me, I just want you to be selfish and possessive, I want you to punish me for all this pain that you are going throught because of me, I want you to hurt me, Asad, I want you to take and not to give tonight, I'm all yours, I gave you all of me to quench your anger. All my body are under your mercy tonight and I am all yours, and only yours.

His breath accelerated dangerously when she threw the blanket that she was caring, exposing her body to him. He looked at her from head to toe, she could feel his turnoil, fighting his needs and his principle. She came closer and posed wet kisses in the crook of his neck, and then on his cheek, and she reached his ears, whispering softly:

-mark me, Asad, make me only yours forever, she stared at him intently, his eyes darkened with desire and she was too in fire. Her touches were playing havoc in him, throwing away all his resolution to stay away from her and seeing the intense desire in her eyes, made him cross the last barriers of reason, and reaching the step of full passion. He crushed her on the glass of the window and the sound of the impact made her gasp like the glasses to vibrate. He captured her lips roughtly and started his punishment, he was harsh and bold. He moved exploring her mouth, with his tongue. He was lacking her presence and each time, he recalled their separation and Sufian, his thrust became deep and hard, he slidded his tongue on hers asking for her surrender. Zoya didn't fight, she let him kissing her as he wanted, she never experimented this kind of kiss before, it was intense, paining and passionate. Their breath were harsh and throaty, he gripped her hair and pushed her more, she forced herself to keep her moan of pain with his rudeness. The lion was in action and nothing can stop him now and she was his prey totally in his mercy. He quitted her mouth brusquely and went to her neck, bitted the crook, she pursed her lips retained her sobs, his teeth was deep in her skin, creating a wave of pain. He was like possessed, the word of : it's over, ringing in his mind, made him loose control. He wanted to take all of her and as she asked, she was going to be his. Her tears fell from her cheeks, his torture was on her neck, was unbearable, his teeth and tongue played like a sadistic players, sending pain and desire in her. She clenched the front of his shirt, controlling her moan, she didn't want him to hear her pain, when he bitted her again, she snactched and tore his shirt sending up all the buttons flying in the air. He then moved to her lips, kissing her again, and this time he decreased his moves. She slidded his shirt, touching his shoulders in process, he finished by himself, growling in frustration because he had to let her for a second. He crushed her body against him and lifted her top in one shift exposing her wet brat. He wrapped his hand around her waist, touching her back, kissing her again. He was about to hold her head when brusquely, with a quick movement, his watch scraped her back painfully. She couldn't hold and yelled in pain. He froze and looked at her, her features looked tense. She hissed in pain, it was so sudden that she didn't control her scream. Asad's eyes fell on her neck and the ligh of the moon showed what he did to her. He stepped back cursing himself, how he did this ? Why she didn't say anything ? How did she bear this?

-Zoya, why you didn't tell me? He cried, brushing his bite

-Asad, it's nothing, don't stop,

-I ...I hurt you, Zoya...I hurt you, he felt responsible and shabby, he held her delicately and brough her close to him. He kissed her soflty on his mark and she hissed in pain. He looked at her with guilt but she rubbed his cheeks affectionally, he then turned her and bent down to kiss the mark on her back, she shivered. He held the blanket and covered her.

-Zoya, I hurt you, I am just like him, he said bitterly

-No, no Asad, you are not him and you will be never like him, she shook her frantically cupping his sad face. You hear me, she pecked his lips. You are not him, you are my love, my life.

-Zoya, I am pitiable, for what I did, I shouldn't have done this, please forgive me, he was in pain

-no, Asad, don't ask for forgiveness, I am the one who should ask for it, and you should never forgive me. You did nothing wrong, you only did as I ask you, and I want to say thank you. Asad, I am here because I want to be yours, and I want it the way you requires, I will follow anything you want, Asad. I love you and please never compare yourself to him.

-Zoya, it will not work, he looked down in defeat

-look at me, Asad, I want you to stop thinking, tonight, it's just you and me, only us. There is no Salim, no Sarah, no family, no barriers, no limits, no tomorrow, no separation, only us. Let's make this night our long lasting night. She tried to convince him, he can't think like that, she knew him so well that he will always feel guilty for the smallest pain that she can have.

-if you really want, then I want to be like I want. We are going to finish it like we start, with love and only love, Zoya. It was always the case between us, we won't let Sufian frustrated us or tanished our love. I don't want to hurt you or to punish you, it was never like this between us. It was only love, respect, tenderness and softness. Are you agree with the terms of this contract, Mrs Khan? He said sadly, her title made him feeling restless.

She was overwhelming hearing so much love from him, he was generous and soft, she didn't know how she will be able to survive without him. She nodded crying silently, gratitude and proud for him in her eyes for this man. He lifted her and held her in a bride style, they went to his room where they started to give to each other all the love, all the tenderness, all the kindness, all the endearment for each other. They were no barriers, no clothes, no pain, no anger, no frustration and no sadness in this night. She surrendered to the man that she loved and he didn't let any cell of her skin that he didn't touch or kiss or love, he did as he promised to her, he marked the last thing that was kept for him, her body. After giving to each other all the love that they needed, they lay down next each other, cuddling in each other arms, feeling content and in heaven by this night who marked them both.

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Ikhlass : your last comment sumarize everything for this chapter, your prediction was good 😃

Soon, my beautiful reader you will be happy for the next chapter, I just hope you love this one 😉

I post a new story on Asya, for those who wanted to read something else on Asya : Crossing time

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/qubool-hai/4354664/new-asya-ss-crossing-time-chap-14-last-08-11-15

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Loved it!

It was well written!

Cried all through the update!

Please bring AsYa back together!

Hate Sufian

Thanks for the PM

Please update ASAP!! :)

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Awesome update's but so emotional one yaar so happy 4 asya they become one plzz continue soon 😃

Beautiful as always. You have actually made the story come to life. i dont know about others but i have actually have emotionally connected with it and i have really looking forward to know what will happen next and how will all the things be sorted out between asad and zoya. Loved the update especially the end part 😉

Thanks for the pm.

nice part very emotional