A One Shot : Memories Never Die!

I was walking down the street with my diary and a pen to the park. I really need to write today. I don't know what but I'll figure out something. I reached the park and witnessed the place full of life. The children enjoying on the swings, the elders lost in their own sweet time. Realization downed upon me that no matter what happens, one should never stop living. I composed myself and looked around for a quiet place to sit. I saw an isolated place beneath the trees and decided to sit at the spot. I witnessed an atmosphere of serene calmness and peace around me. You all must be wondering as to why I was searching for a quiet and isolated place, it is not because I've had a break-up or something but just for the fact that at times I just want to be alone with my diary, pen and memories.

I closed my eyes and I could see her', smiling, laughing whole heartedly. A smile descended upon my lips. I opened my eyes and began penning down my thoughts. I realized my eyes were getting moist throughout the process. She' did not cheat me; neither did I. She' didn't break-up with me; me neither. It was the fate that played this harsh game: The Game of Life!

I wiped my eyes and my lips curved to a smile as I recalled her telling me once; "Jaan, we'll be together, together forever, right?" to which I was amused as to why was she asking me that all of a sudden. I embraced her and replied, "Yes baby, forever!" and we remained in each other's warmth.

The noises around forced me back to reality. I realized that I have been crying, giggling, and smiling; altogether. Another memory crossed my mind, giving my spine a jolt.

We were sitting by the lake side, holding hands, ensuring ourselves of the each other's presence. All of a sudden, I looked at her and saw the most beautiful sight. Her' lips were curved into a beautiful smile and her hypnotizing eyes were closed. She was enjoying the quiet calmness that surrounded us. I leaned in and kissed her cheek to which she shuddered and looked at me with wide eyes. Damn, those eyes! "Stop giving me tha expression Princess, or else I won't be able to control my raging hormones." I whispered to her intensely, to which she blushed deep shades of crimson. Oh how much I loved her blush. I still do, no doubt!

I opened my eyes when I felt a tiny palm wiping away the crystal drops. I saw a cute little kid, sitting on my lap and wiping the crystal drops that were descending down my eyes. I composed myself to a situation where I could speak and asked him "What are you doing, little kid?" He beamed a smile to my question and answered proudly, "I am wiping away your tears." "And why are you doing that?" I asked. "Because, when I was small, and I used to cry, my mom would wipe my tears and tell me not to waste them." He replied with outmost innocence. "Your mamma still does that for you?" I asked him curiously to which he turned gloomy but masked it up making me regret my question. He then answered "The last time she did that was when she was in the hospital, on her bed and I kept weeping; assuring her and myself that she'll be fine. It was then; she wiped my tears for the last time. She never returned after that. I enquired my father as to where she had gone, to which he replied that she had gone to a place where she could see me but I couldn't. On that day I vowed that I won't cry and never let anyone else cry either."

I was bewildered after witnessing the innocent maturity of the child. I regained my conscious as he spoke "I request you not to cry as I am sure the person you're crying for can see you and he/she might get hurt." He beamed his magnificent innocent smile and kissed my cheeks and eyes. He disappeared after that split second. I couldn't locate him. After he left all I could see was the past and the flashback followed. Her' last moments with me...

#Flashback

I was crying hysterically since the time I was informed that she was breathing her last breaths. I walked in the room she was in. I witnessed her looking at me with impatient eyes. I was facing my back as I didn't want her to see me crying. "Baby!" she called me out. "Hmm..." was all I could reply. "Won't you even look at me once? I might not be here even if you want to, later on" she said to me in a cracking voice. I turned to face her with blood shot red eyes that were blazing with anger and said "Dare you say that again!" "Even in the last moments of my life you're scolding me, jaan" she said half giggling. "Don't go, please!" I whispered almost breaking down and hugging her tight. We cried in each other's arms for a quite a long time as we were aware that we might not get a chance later on. She broke the hug and forced me to face her. There was a mere inch's difference between our face; our foreheads were intact and noses were touching. I was sobbing hard and she was gazing at me intensely. "Shh... stop crying, I really don't want to see you cry like this" she said soothingly and instantly I composed myself. "All I want you to do is listen to me today. Will you, please?" she pleaded with need in her eyes. I nodded positively as she began...

"You know, I've loved you since the time we first met. You were an ass as you are now (we giggled.) I've loved you since then and trust me I've never stopped. My love for you has only increased since then. You stood by me in my bad, worse, worst, good, better and best of times of life. Every moment that I've spent with you is a memory I will cherish for my lifetime. Every hug, kiss and your closeness has made me love you more and more every day. You're my knight in the shining armor. I have been so selfish that I could never give you enough to what you gave me and kept on asking for more because I wanted to feel the love, from you'. I want you to accomplish your dream of becoming a writer. I want to see you among the top writers of the world and I want to see International Best Seller' tag next to the title of your novels. Although I wanted to see and feel it standing next to you but I don't think that's possible, but don't you forget I'll watch over you from somewhere.

I love you! I always have, I always will. You're my support, my love, my life, my stress buster, my heartbeat. After I go, I want you to live your life; move on, which doesn't mean that you'll have to forget me but it would mean starting afresh. I don't want you to think about me all the time. I don't want to be on your mind constantly but I want to be locked safely in your heart. Keep your passion alive and make your' jaan proud.

I love you, love!

I love you, jaan!

I love you, baby!

I love you, my baccha!

By the time she finished, I had drenched her face with my tears. I was trying to sooth her with those crystal drops, but that did not help. I just couldn't see her going in front of my eyes. I was feeling helpless and powerless. Sensing my quietness, she said "I spoke so much to you and you didn't even clap, was it that bad?" saying that she gave a fake hurt expression and began whining like a child. Oh how cute she looked then. I held her face in my palms possessively and kissed her forehead, her eyes, and her nose and pecked her lips for a long time. I regained my posture, touching her forehead with mine and my lips lingering on hers and spoke, "I love you jaan. You're the love of my life. Whatever you wished, will be fulfilled and I will make sure that my jaan is proud of me. I wish I could do something to stop you jaan but the only thing that makes me content at the moment is that I am able to share these last moments of your life. I can never forget you jaan. You may not be here with me but you'll always be in my memories, my heart and my life. From today onwards whatever I do will be for you. I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you... I love you..." I whispered those sweet nothings to her for probably the last time until she passed away to an eternal land where she'd wait and watch over me.

After all "Life is for living, but it is always helps if there's an angel watching over you."

#Present

I was crying hysterically remembering her. All a sudden the little boy came to my mind and I wiped my tears. I am a successful writer today; I have published around four novels of which two have been recognized as "International Best Seller" I have written a lot of things for a lot of companies, but all of them fail to understand the source of this deep inspiration. We'll I don't intend to tell them either. Like she said, "I don't think about her every time. She's not constantly on my mind but she is locked safely in my heart."

After all it is rightly said that

"Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life,

Love gives us a fairy-tale!"

I wrapped up everything, and began walking away with her' on my mind. I looked up at the sky and said out loud, "I still love you Jaan!"

Because, "Memories Never Die!"

Hey guys, how are you all doing? I hope everyone is fine.

This OS is a dedication to all those lovers out there who fail to live there life after they lose their loved one. Though I very well know that it is easier said than done but for even once think about the person who is no more with you physically but he/she is there somewhere, watching over you. Falling in love might give us pain, but that pain is worth it because loving might be a risk but the risk is worth taking. I really hope I didn't make you all cry. Sorry if I did not live up to your expectations. I would love to hear from all of you in the forms of comments and likes. I don't really know why I wrote this, but I am glad the way it came out. Until next time stay safe, keep smiling and spread love.

Happy loving people.

Love: Ale ❤️