"Serving you I smiled. Paying off your debts was my life. You were the light I needed. You taught me to shield the one within. Never did you taught me how to do it without you for you, my friend, are painted in the darkness and left me here broken, shattered, bruised."
Just imagine a kid, living in shadows of darkness being shown way to end of tunnel, that bright shining, star looking thing, a star he can actually reach, being misguided and shown way back to darkness.
How can you ever expect that kid not to look for that blinding light, not to go out and hunt it down, because it made him feel secure and he cannot go back to how he was? He can't go back because back there it's suffocating. Agony, aloofness, pity, hollowness are the rulers of the city.
Manik Malhotra.
The guy who never imagined his life without his buddy, his brother, Dhruv, now has to live it. Never in his wildest dreams had he thought of shedding off his masks because his buddy held on to the real him. He covered up for him without complaining. And like a fool, Manik Malhotra believed it all.
He did because he was indebted.
He owed him his life.
And along with it came his loyalty, his care, his protection, his trust, his friendship, his priority.
He never asked him to pay it off for he knew, the debts he owes him cannot be paid off.
He knows. He values.
The care he showed when his own mother didn't.
The love he bestowed when he died of its hunger.
The faith he restored in his own goodness.
But no one ever told him not to run behind lights too much. No one guided him that lights can be blinding when darkness leaves you.
Blinded he was as such that he couldn't see the rays of indebtedness the light threw. In his blindness he didn't realized that what he was doing as a payoff to the debt he could never shrug off, was a debt in itself.
In his elation of finding light, this little kid couldn't realize that the gratitude he was showing, for all the warmth he received, by doing all that he could to let the person know he is special, was taken as his favours.
He never saw these cheap, toxic particles in the first rays of light. He never knew that his very soul could be so misread by the person who held it from the moment he could remember. He never thought of being the suffocation for the same person who was reason behind his still working breathing system. He never learned that he was a source of inferiority complex to the same person for whom he gave up on his star because he thought, that special person deserved her.
Similarly, he never saw, the light darkening - his light.
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Because I am a proud Manik fan right now and this character, no matter how stupid, idiotic, flawed, complicated is all mine to love.
Apologies for all the gibberish up there.
- Aditi
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