No one to talk about my feelings. Please Help

I've never felt or had any kind of feelings for any guy in my 23 years of life. I met a guy through a mutual friend while hanging out in a group. I never really paid attention to him but since the first time I met him he has consistently texted me. Now it's been two years and I've started to see changes in him. I've also started to have feelings for him. I transferred to his university last semester and when he got to know about this he would keep insisting to see me whenever possible. The first two days he brought a cheese cake for me (this is when I had no romantic feelings for him) because he came to know that I love cheesecake. And the second time he promised to get me a tiramisu cupcake although I have nave asked him to buy anything for me ever. He has always complimented me for my looks, and admired my independence, always said that I have too much pride in me etc etc. I realized that I was starting to have feelings for him. So I decided to ignore his text messages until I sort out my feelings. But he kept texting me to tell me that he's on campus and he would like to hangout. I felt guilty for ignoring him so I texted back that I will see him after class. While hanging out, out of nowhere he said how coy I am and really quiet and stuff like that. Then when I didn't comment on it. He got out with insulting me by saying how I pretend to be independent, and how I pretend to be all smart and educated when in reality I'm not any of those things. I was really hurt by all his accusations since I never expected for him to throw insults at me, especially because I was starting to have feelings for him. I quietly told him that I have to leave. After I left the place, he texted me "can't believe that you actually left" because I didn't respond he continued to text me and call me to know what he did that I'm not responding. Next morning I finally had the courage to text him that I thought he knew how to respect women and that's why I chose to spend time with him. He proved me wrong and that I don't want to be friends with him anymore. He got upset after my outburst and after one month he came to school to apologize to me. He said that he told me all those hurtful things because he was having a bad day and that he's very comfortable around me that's why he said all those things. He also confessed to me that he told one of our mutual friends after our fight that he hates me and that he never wants to see my face again. Anyway, after I saw him I couldn't help but forgive although I promised my self that I will not forgive him for the things he said.

It's been five months now after our major fight. He still text me, not as much as he used to. Sometime he does it regularly, sometime he won't text me for a week or two. And I miss his presence when he doesn't. When months go by and we don't meet he insist on meeting me (he graduated five months ago) and I ignore it because my feelings for him become stronger every time I see him. A week ago he asked me if I was free on the weekend and I said I will let him know one day before. Then on Friday he asked me and said no I'm free to him (although I was) He sounded upset to me so I apologized. He said it's okay I should have asked you sooner. It's just that I can't cancel the reservation. I asked him what reservations? He never said anything on that. Then we continued to talk after that everyday. He got to know that I'm on what's app. So he found me on whats app to or I believe made an account. We continuously spoke that day. After that he messaged me on facebook too with an icon of a guy sending kisses and a short guy holding flowers and his heart. He said that's him pale, short, fat, with tiny eyes. I didn't like that he was putting himself down like that. So I said that his flaws makes him stand out and sets him apart from the rest. He called me very nurturing and tender and blah blah...Anyway, he said he wanted to see me the next day after my class. Then he said we should grab icecream sometime. I said sure. And he said he will pay. Although whenever we hung out I've never let him pay for me. So I said no I won't let him pay. He also wished me on valentines day.

We met at a coffee shop yesterday. He spoke to me for hours. Since I'm really introvert in nature. He talks 80% of the time. He said on how his friends tell him that he shouldn't be in a relationship because then she won't allow him to hangout with his female friends. He also said that he might end up finding a girl at this school he's transferring to for his Phd. He asked if I've had any boyfriends before. And I said no. Said I was lying, it's not possible since I have so many secret admirers...

My only reason to write so much was because I'm really confused with his behavior. I don't even know anymore if I should tell him about his behavior. I asked him yesterday why did he call to meet him. And he said why? were you expecting flowers and chocolates. I said no. Its getting unbearable now. Especially when he stops texting me for days. Does he even like me or just takes me as a friend?. I have no one to share my feelings with. I'd appreciate any comments. I've been wallowing, and I'm tired of all the mixed signals.

Thank you!

Thank you for your response. It actually helped to see the situation from your perspective. I appreciate it. 😊