All Of Me, Loves All Of You - IshRa SS | Last Chp - Page 89 - Page 57

Originally posted by: Rozy77

gosh, this was so beautiful hon👏
absolutely loved reading Raman's pov
it was so emotional. it took me back to the initial episodes of the show where it was so heartbreaking to watch Raman's betrayal and pain..😭

the sweet, soft and quite gesture is so Ishita 😳. loved that scene. in moments like these they fall more in love with each other and we with them❤️

brilliant chapter👏
eager for the next 1😃

Originally posted by: CavingIn

Ani

This was in my opinion the most in depth and beautiful chapter of this SS.

It should Raman Kumar Bhalla in a vulnerable human light. One that only your words could give so much beauty to.

Enjoyed reading thoroughly.

Love

Nidha

Originally posted by: Preeah

Aani, sorry for the delay (mera laptop bilkul mujh pe gayi hai... so temperamental!) 😔 And I take so much time to write the replies, that if I was a writer, this much effort would give birth to masterpieces! Alas, that isn't possible, so I'll enjoy yours, instead! 😉

No issues Preeah 😊

FOR: Chapter 2 - Lost The Battles But Won The War

Raman's whole inner monologue was HILARIOUS! 🤣 He is quite a complex character who wields sarcasm as a weapon and acts contrary to his feelings. It is, therefore, always interesting to get a glimpse of his inner psyche. His impulsiveness was a TOTAL treat and all I was thinking while reading was, "Aye haye! Kitne possessive hai iss Raavan Kumar apne Jhansi ki Rani ko lekar!! " You showed his claim on Ishita (and her place in his life) so perfectly! 😊

When you were recaping what happened with apShagun, I, again, felt like kicking her out! But all I could imagine was Raman trying to be all calm and suddenly going all, "ROAR! *swipes claws*" when apShagun just wouldn't leave them alone!

LOL love the gifs and yeah thats precisely how he acted 😆

And Ruhi CHUUHI!!! 🤗 Always adorable and protective of her Ishimaa! 😳

She is a sweetheart 😳

I can't choose a favorite part! There are too many! So, thank you for writing this chapter from Raman's point of view as I THROUGHLY enjoyed it! 😃 It might be purgatory for him, but it was nothing but pleasure for me! 😉 ❤️ 👍🏼

thanks Preeah 😊

Originally posted by: janu12345

Aaaniii🤗🤗

The slow poison continues I can see. I may sound I am on repeat mode but... sorry about the delayed comment, I cant comment on your work from my phone just like that. Have to do it properly...😊😃 Its a phangurl alert!

Janu 🤗 yes and I have people who will combust with the last chapter 😉😈😆 and you are a darling thank you

"With her, the urge to filter his words, be concise, mindful of what he spoke faded away. As time passed by, he grew so comfortable around Ishita he could speak his mind out, say anything and absolutely everything." - I was just thinking about this the other day when I scene plays out where he says Shaadi toh sirf ek baar hoti hain.. and she looks at him.. he sheepishly confesses mujh jaisi gadhe ki do baar bhi hoti hain...and i thought how many couples can talk about an ex like this...😃😛

yep, they have that ability right, Raman has jokingly referred to finding a 3rd one too and she has taken it sportingly as well, teasing him. Its refreshing to see a couple can joke about even such things on an Indian telly right?

We have always spoken about how Raman's biggest fear.. one of them is the feeling of being rejected, and this was all because of his past. In this update you have written about it beautifully aani...! I have always wanted a better perspective on Raman's past rather than the passing shots that we get or some random mention about how he has been wronged... who better than you to do justice do that...👏 I have read this thrice already... and I am sure I would read it again and again...there is something about the way you write!😛

☺️ thank you so much Janu 🤗and yeah his past is the reason he is who he is now largely

"This moment, his heart feels is the most intimate experience of his life." - Beautiful way of puttig it aani...This puts into perspective the equation between them... who said intimacy needs to be physical alone...😳

Take a bow gal... your SS just gets better and better...😳

Yes, intimacy is so much more than just physically baring yourself to another person.

Originally posted by: arshi21

Just came across this. To say its amazing would be an understatement.

Loved it :)

Originally posted by: Preeah

FOR: Chapter 3 - Catching Fire

AWWW! Awkward!Raman is so adorkable!!! 😳 Him trying to explain and Ishita was all, "Safai dene ki zaroorat hi nahi hai kyon ki I prefer you over her as well!"

Aye haye! I can already see Raman's chest puffing-up proudly! 😆

Thanks Preeah 😊

The whole chapter, I was in a trance along with Ishita, just melting on the inside... <sighs happily> The cvs should do something like this every once in a while rather than having a dance number! Not that I don't enjoy seeing our IshRa romancing each other that way, but there is always some kind of dance sequence for the multitude of occasions anyway and it's always in public, but these personal moments when they're alone, just a simple look, a simple touch, or a few simple words that convey deep, heartfelt emotion without all the extras! THIS is for them alone and THIS is what shows the depth of their love for each other! We had so few of these moments and even less without SOME kabab men haddi!!!!! 😡

if only wishes were horses ...

While Raman takes the leap of faith, your last scene where Ishita takes the initiative rather than waiting for Raman just make my heart melt! Haaayeee!!

I wonder if we'll ever see Ishita kiss Raman on his cheek (since I believe that is the farthest DT will do...)? OR maybe sleep on the same bed (she was on the bed in their anniversary episode, but in the next, she was on the couch again!)... 😭

the writers of this show have a tendency to maintain consistency in the one thing where they should not...just our luck 😳

Rereading this story and experiencing this journey with IshRa is just making me more excited and melty!

thanks again 😊

Author' note -

Can't believe I am already here, the 8^th chapter of this SS.

Just one more to go now.

Thank you to all my readers, silent and otherwise for being with me on this journey and for your love and support.

I can't begin to describe how grateful I am for the way this twist, the mention of Shagun and Raman' married life, has been accepted by all of you with so much love.

Frankly I was apprehensive about what kind of a feedback would I get for the same.

The inspiration for this chapter was a recent scene we had on the show, where Raman had a flashback of a pregnant Shagun shunning him and talking so rudely with him when the tattoo drama came up.

That brief glimpse we had of the way she turned around and slept facing away from him and Raman is dejected but hides it gave me a brainwave.

And I couldn't help myself.

Thank you again for everything.

Chapter 8 - There Is Always Some Madness In Love.

"What happens when people open their hearts?"
"They get better."
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

"When you find somebody you love, all the way through, and she loves you"even with your weaknesses, your flaws, everything starts to click into place. And if you can talk to her, and she listens, if she makes you laugh, and makes you think, makes you want, makes you see who you really are, and who you are is better, just better with her, you'd be crazy not to want to spend the rest of your life with her."
Nora Roberts, Happy Ever After

"Hey."

That is all she says and the ice breaks.

He finds himself smiling back at her despite what happened just a few minutes back and thinks to himself, this should be weird...these soft smiles between them right now, but it isn't. It so is not.

He finds strangely liking, accepting and understanding all of this, it is so them.

They talk, they fight, they tease, they banter, they are crazy, this should be crazy but in its own way they make sense, this makes sense and the smile on his face just gets bigger making the answering one on hers reciprocate in return in equal measures.

"We are adding exes to that list too now, I gather?"

She asks him and he knows while the tone is jovial she is serious; those eyes of hers give her away.

"We so definitely are." He mutters quietly.

"Good."

They manage to cross another hurdle without any of the drama that might have erupted between any other couple had they been in this place, had it been any other woman in her place he thinks and begins,

"I didn't mean to..."

"It's ok Raman, you don't have to explain."

"I know it's ok, but it shouldn't be. I hate it when my past keeps interfering and interrupting us."

"You don't do it on purpose Raman. Let it be."

"Ishita..."

"Raman."

He surrenders when it becomes obvious she won't give up unless he lets go and so raises his hands to hail in front of her making her laugh quietly. Watching the smile across her face, he answers with a small but genuine one of his own and that is all she wants.

She has not been married before, true, but she knows very well what rejection is, what loneliness can do. She has lived, suffered because of those monsters; has battled them day in and out for years. She knows the way they work, has tasted their poison that can drain away every piece of you, until you don't know who you are, until all that remains of you is a shell, too hollow and lifeless to be recognized by anyone else least of all you yourself.

Before Ruhi came in her life, she had all but surrendered herself to her fates and those demons. Her daughter appeared like the sun shining brightly in her life. She warded away those dark clouds. She had not even realized Ruhi would not only be the antidote that would salve her pain, her wounds but she would be responsible for her miracle, Raman. If not for Ruhi, she would never have fallen in love again in any capacity let alone find out she could be loved again, she could love again when slowly and steadily her heart began to belong to the man she wed for her daughter, her husband, Raman.

She started on the wrong foot with this man, but now knows how all those incidents were mere misunderstandings, how they were just reading each other wrong back then, now that she knows him, she cannot imagine a life without him.

Now that she is in love with him, she will make sure she vows to herself, he has a smile on his face always as she would of the fact that he knows how much she loves him, wants him by her side always.

"That's like a good husband Mr. Bhalla."

"Whatever keeps you happy Mrs. Bhalla, as promised earlier your wish is my command."

"You know I like you so much more when you are being this obedient."

Unable to stop herself she pulls his cheek, making him promptly glower reminding her so much of when Ruhi does the same whenever anyone pulls her cheeks it makes her laugh especially when he frowns rubbing his cheek.

"Don't get used to it; remember this special offer is valid only till this sprain and these scratches last."

"Aww... that sucks, hmm well then I better make the most of it while I can. As they say make hay while the sun shines."

"All right, all right you drama queen what would you like me to do?"

"Isn't it obvious... weren't you just helping me change?"

"I so was."

He drawls leaning in closer to her for a quick kiss only for her to put a stop to his antiques by placing a finger on his lips.

"Later...we got sidetracked as it is and Ruhi would come again in a while."

He makes a face and lightly nips her finger that makes her yelp as he keeps aside the shirt still perched on his lap and looks at her to say a single word.

"Killjoy..."

His hands reach for the hem of her t-shirt again when she places a hand to stop him making him look at her questioningly,

"Dim the lights please."

"What?"

"Dim the lights Raman."

"But...you were fine earlier. "

"Please Raman."

"What changed?"

"How do I explain? It's awkward."

"Ishita...it's the first time and..."

"Exactly...it's the first time and..."

"And?"

She avoids his gaze only for him to make her look him in the eye by holding her chin,

"You can tell me anything Ishita, you know that right?"

"Promise you won't make fun of me?"

"Are you gonna shock me by saying something like you have a tattoo or something that I am about to see?" He asks raising his eyebrows.

"Raman! That's not what I asked."

"Okay, okay relax I promise I won't laugh."

"I..."

"Ishita say it."

"I don't want something that should have been so different and special to be spoiled by the memory of you squirming watching my bruises and scratches."

She says the words in a rush and hides her face with her hands.

He shakes his head as he gently pries off the hands of his wife from her face only to find she won't look at him.

"Ishita...what if I promise I won't squirm?"

"Raman...please understand." She pleads with him.

"Ish..."

"I don't want you to think I am ugly Raman please. It just occurred to me which it didn't earlier, please Raman..."

"Silly you are hurt why would I think you are ugly because of a few scratches and bruises?"

She is about to cry when he surrenders,

"Okay, okay I am dimming the lights don't cry now."

Standing up, he turns off the lights as per her wishes, switching on the night lamps instead that provide a dim glow to the room.

"There now, all done...lights are dimmed and I can barely see you...now don't cry please, okay?"

"Thank you Raman."

Huffing loudly he sits on the bed but doesn't reach for her instead she finds he is muttering something under his breath.

"What are you mumbling?"

"What?"

"I asked what were you mumbling now?"

"No, it's nothing."

"No, it's not nothing you were saying something. What is it Raman?"

"Fine have it your way, I was thinking how can you women even think god has been unfair towards you all and accuse us men of having special privileges?"

"Huh? What are you even talking about?"

"This...your crying...you women accuse god of being unfair towards ...guess what the jokes on us men because while we got physical strength and the power to yell and scream, we didn't get the biggest weapon in the arsenal. You know what I am talking about here. Tears! Frustrating, irritating, stupid tears, which god gave to you women. We live under the constant threat of tears, all our lives - starts with your mothers and sisters, extends to girlfriends, wives, and even daughters. When we have to resort to so many things to get our work done - ask, beg, plead, scream, scheme...god knows so much...but the moment things don't go your way you have to cry and that's it even the strongest man gives up and the worst part is we know it. We know it and yet we have to give in!"

She has an urge to laugh that she tries to smother when he begins but by the time he is done she can't help it and so disguises it as coughing fit instead making him scowl even more,

"See shameless, don't think I don't know it that you are laughing at me."

She laughs aloud at that and concedes,

"All right but you weren't listening to me Raman."

Making a face, he looks at her and finally getting his head under control, now that he feels better for having ranted he asks her,

"Well now I have, so, may I?"

"Yes."

She whispers the word in the near dark of the room.