Well, I have a lot to say today. I am full of disgust and hurt.
I can't believe what I just saw in today's episode.
I can't believe how low she went just to keep her seat at SPACE. Yes you heard me right. Just to save her from this expulsion. Or atleast that's the impression I got.
I can't believe how she came to Manik this time, touching his hand, even trying to kiss him just to beg him to stop her. Well was that asking to stop Nandani for Nandani's love for Manik, or was that a selfish act of "oh, only Manik can deal with Nyoneka."
I can't believe all this time she talked about Manik, and his love, and would he stop her, and could he live without her, and could he forget her!!! WHAT!!! She made me believe today, she doesn't love him ... NO, SHE DOES NOT!!!! And trust me, when I talk about love, I know what I mean (life is the biggest and the best teacher)
Okay, let's start my journey of repulsion and hurt and torture today. I know I am using some very strong words here, but what I saw today was so unfair to me and to thousands of Manan Fans who believed in their love, who believed in Nandani's strength and composure. I loved this girl to the core when I started seeing the show, and today she has just destroyed my faith in her or shall I say the CVs have done this great job. I am upset, and angry, and offended. Astounded by her selfishness!!!
It all started that day when Nandani broke his trust so badly by blurting those deadly words in the magistrate office, "I am not sure, I don't know." And since then she has been betraying him over and over again.
She betrayed his trust, that Nandani will always stand by me, by not trusting him in the court,
She betrayed his faith, that Nandani will never walkout on me, by walking away that valentine night, when he was angry and he asked her to leave. All she needed to do was, touch him, hold him, hug him, even kiss him (everything she tried to do today should have been done that day, than it would have felt genuine), and tell him, "mujhay haq hai tum say pyar karnay ka, tumhain roknay ka, aur yahan say na janay ka. You gave me that right, and I will not let it go. I am not going anywhere and I won't let you go anywhere." That's all that he wanted to hear.
She betrayed his love, today, when she asked him to stop her for reasons her own. When she kept say, "wouldn't you stop me, wont my going effect you, could you live without me, would you forget me ... Etc etc."
They came in the medical room, sitting on the same bed and she touches her hand.
For him, that touch was still his lifeline;
Her touch has the power of making him alive.
Her touch has the power of melting him to the core.
Her touch has the power of bringing out the best in him.
And all these feelings flashed on his face before he pushed her hand away. She touches his hand again, and he went through the same hurt again, that's when he pulls her towards him and asks, maybe in the heart of his heart, giving her one more chance, "what do you want?" and what she said after that left me shocked !!! WHAT???
"Manik, please mujhay rok lo, Janay mat do ..." are you serious woman ... Trust me, I would have loved her touching him, if the scenario was different. But today her touch and her words after that seemed like a way to stay back at SPACE for her career and future. May be its just me, but that's what hurt me the most. Why after this expulsion all her love is flowing out.
She said, "only you can stop me from going, is this the end of us, hamaray liyay?" he kept looking at her all the time. Analyzing her words, rationalizing her words, and waiting for something more meaningful to come. Something more powerful, something which was about them and their love, not only about his love. But she failed him again. She betrayed him again.
He said she should go, and O MY GOD!!! This girl has something wrong somewhere, she said, "tumhain koee farq nahi paray ga?" Wait What??? Why is it only about Manik? What about her feelings. What about Nandani ko farq paray ga kay nahi. And it didn't end there. There was more to come.
And she starts again in the library, "you won't stop me na?" and then she starts counting the memories. Seriously Nandani!!!! You don't need to remind him of these memories. Trust me, he has lived and relived and loved those memories every day. That's why he loves you the way he does. But yes, you surely need to remind yourself of these memories because you seem to have forgotten the meaning behind each one. He doesn't need a memory lecture!! Uff a lecture again!!!!
What is she trying to do here? Saying, the memories won't be enough for a lift time when she is gone. Ok, I am done with this!!! She is playing with his feelings. And when he says shut up she says "why, won't you be able to hear more," and then a shocker of my life, she moves ahead to kiss him. O lord save me from this selfishness. Save me from this cheapness. Save me from this horror.
Did she seriously think, a kiss would work right now? I am sorry guys, but how low would she get. I never expected this from Nandani,
The girl I admired so much for her control;
The girl I admired so much for her right influence on Manik;
The girl I loved when she punched Manik in the 9th or 10th episode to stand for herself.
I am not sure what? Are the CVs to be blamed, or who, but this was not the time. Not the time for this cheapness. They made her go tooo low in my eyes today. Ever since she heard about this expulsion, they have made her character into nothing but a selfish, sympathy-gaining girl, who apparently would go to any extent to keep her seat at SPACE.
Thank god he pushed her away, because this kiss was nothing but a JOKE. He says, "Yes, I can forget you," and there she started again, "It won't be easy FOR YOU to forget me" ... o my god, she is so full of herself. What do you think of yourself girl????
He disappears and she stands there saying, I had so much to say and you didn't want to hear. Well hello girl, he gave you like a hundred chances, and trust me, you could have made your own chances if you loved him enough. But your love was never to that par. He was always miles ahead of you in his love for you. And you don't even know the L of LOVE.
And now TK will keep her in the college. He has already challenged nyoneka in the precap. Well, good for her, atleast she'll get what she wants. Her seat in SPACE.
I know my post today is very depressing, but I feel betrayed by the CVs. I don't know how they will make me respect Nandani again. They better have some real good plan.
In the end, I would say, everyone is talking about Manik's anger and self-destruction and blah blah ... BUT
Who will talk about his pain?
Who will talk about his hurt?
Who will talk about his feeling of being betrayed by the one girl for whom he could die and for whom he lived?
Who will talk about what he wants from the love of his life?
Who will talk about what he wants to hear from Nandani ... May be a little love emotions, passion, surety, trust from her side. Why does he always have to hear lecture from her about his love. He knows his love and she doesn't need to make it a self-pity emotion for him but repeating it again and again. Because for now that's what she does alll the time, reminding him how crazy he is for her and not saying or showing a bit of her passion for him.
This is really hurting me. I am going.
All the best,
Kashish
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