Arshi FF ~Falling Out Of Love~ *Chapter 18* Pg 126 **UPDATED** 31/5 - Page 38

"...I'll just come to see it. I don't how useful it would be...but it's a start."Khushi spoke to Payal, who was on the other side of the phone. She had called to discuss what they found in lavanya's house the other night.

It's more than we have ever got of them, Khushi. Don't get offended, but your marriage with Arnav has escalated our search...no...no, it actually gave us a start.

"I'll meet you at 1."Khushi ignored her. This instance she can't stand to listen to his name least hearing her best friend giving him the credit of what they got.

She heard someone's footsteps entering the room. She had to take a very deep breath to face him. Of course, she knew its Arnav. Who could else be? "Bye Payal."

"Breakfast is ready."She heard his voice, and just controlled herself from throwing something at him. I just want him leave me alone! Why the hell can't he? I know why! Apparently he had an epiphany that he has feelings for me.

She strode towards the door, ignoring his tall form standing near it. He was staring very intently at her. She felt it. Felt its intensity, the silent command with slight plea in it, to look at him. Fully intending to leave the damn room without even sparing him a single glance, Khushi increased her pace as she neared where he stood, still in that place, like there was glue on this floor.

"Stop, Khushi."He at last gave words to what his gaze was silently telling her.

She didn't.

He also knew how to stop her. She could always run from him and he won't mind it. Not a bit. He's always ready to catch her and then he'd make her face her feelings for him.

His arm shot out, coiling around her slender waist, he drew her back to him. His hand splayed on the curve of her waist, digging in, bringing her back to his chest. His other arm took its place on her, engulfing her in his embrace.

Her head collided with his chest, just below his chin. He has accurate height for her, to cocoon her in his arms. She was so perfectly fit in his arms.

Arnav held her with acute gentleness, a tinge of possessiveness in his grip on her. He looked down; his stubble chin touched her hairs. As if he has done this many times, he spoke with his chin resting on her head, her back intimately pressed up to his front, "I told you to stop."

She seems to come out of some shock by his voice. She jerked and Arnav already tightened his hold on her soft body, even before she began squirming in his arms. "Let me go Arnav!"Going by her voice, she was clearly annoyed, pissed at him.

"I want to say something to you..."Arnav began talking even when she dug her nails on his skin in an effort to make him uncoil his arms around her. "Last night..."She seems to double her effort at this."...I want to apologies for..."She stilled completely. No movement whatsoever. Now he has her complete attention. "...for losing control. I am sorry I lost it, Khushi. I am sorry that instead of pleasuring you slowly, I rushed it, which I never wanted."

He loosened his arms around her. She broke free and spun to face him with disbelief, anger in her beautiful brown eyes. "Rot in hell!"She spat.

His lips quirked slightly, "Gladly! If you are there with me."

She turned, clearly to go downstairs. Arnav closed the door with a slam, forcing to take her steps back. She jerked from the sound. She was to ready to yell at his face, when he only spun her and backed her against the now closed doors.

Khushi felt her breath left her in whoosh looking at his unwavering gaze on her. "Arnav..."Her voice wobbled a bit. Swallowing, she spoke again, "Arnav come into your senses. Look what are you doing? You can't trap me in here."

His eyes dropped down on her lips, "I am not trapping you here. I just need to do what I had told you I would--Making sure your feelings for me won't fade away--which you are so hell bent on doing just that by repeatedly denying of having them in the first place."

He came closer; she pushed herself more into the door. "I feel nothing for you!"

"Like I said, you denied it once again. The more you deny it, the more I would make you face it."They were standing so close. He could feel the brush of her breasts on his chest with each heaving breath she took. "And I am starting from now..."He took her face in his hands. She had no choice but to stare in his eyes, which now, has turned dark brown.

"Arnav do...don't."With every inch his face covered between them, her breathing got harder and harder, to the point she could only hear the thundering of her own heart.

He meshed their lips together, slowly, gently, making up for the last two times he gave her frenzied kiss. Lips slanting over hers in a slow caress, his fingers sought her dupatta, slowly sliding down over her chest till it dropped on the floor silently.

He pulled back slightly, breaking their first slow kiss. His eyes roamed over her flushed cheeks, her closed eyes. How could you deny having feelings when you look like this when I kiss you? He continued to kiss her this way. He would kiss her for as long as he can.

Her hand on his chest clenched as she felt the touch of his tongue. Her lips parted slightly and she felt the first swipe of his tongue on hers. Her chest tightened; felt her heart burst out of her chest. Her body became languid over his, all the resistance fled out.

Arnav broke the kiss, feeling her getting lightheaded from the lack of oxygen. With a slight peck on her lips, he bent slightly with his eyes on her closed ones. Suddenly, Khushi felt his tongue on her breast, as it ran over her nipple in long lick. Her head lolled back, mouth parting as a moan burst forth.

He felt her knees wobble and held her up firmly by her waist. He continued to assault her breast with his tongue. Never increasing his pace, Arnav licked the bud in slow torturous strokes that had her trembling like a leaf struggling to remain attach to the tree at a stormy night.

He did the same with other one, and lastly took it in his mouth to suck on it leisurely. It was not on his mind that he had been doing it over her clothes. Even with the clothes he could feel guess how soft she is. With the lack of resistance from Khushi, the small doubt that was on his mind cleared. A girl like Khushi can never let anyone do this if she feels nothing for him.

It was too much, he knew, but he couldn't seem to stop himself. Mustering up the strength, he like last night stood up but his breath knocked out when he looked at her.

She has the most beautiful expression on her face that he ever saw on any female. There was sweet agony on her face, her brows slightly drawn together, like she couldn't handle what is happening to her and an adorable blush coating her cheeks, evidence of the pleasure she had felt.

"Open your eyes..."His voice came out gruff, "Open them, Khushi and look at me."

A tear escaped from the corner of her eyes but she kept them close. "Please look at me, Khushi."He pleaded.

Her eyes opened and he felt sick to his stomach. They held terror, absolute terror in them. "Khushi... "He said in a strangled voice. "What?"

"I can't feel for you, Arnav, because my heart is incapable of it. I had made it like that."Khushi crouched down to lift her dupatta off the floor. He saw her unstable on her foot, her hands trembling.

He scooped her in his arms and without resistance she let him. He sat on the bed with her on his lap. "What do you mean incapable of it?"He asked his voice soft.

"I...I had made myself like that. I had never believed in love. I have always been practical and I can't change that, Arnav."Her voice was still trembling and so was her whole body.

Arnav rubbed her arms, concerned to see her like this. "What is happening? Why are you trembling?"

"I don't..."She inhaled deeply, "I don't know."

What the f**k did I do? I f**king scared the hell out of her! Arnav took her in his arms, running his palms vigorously over her arms. "Try to relax. You are breathing very fast. f**k! I am...f**k!"

Khushi tried to steady her breathing. Even she didn't know why she's feeling like this. Is it fear? She embraced him, rested her head on his shoulder and did as he told her."You have to understand Arnav. I am not like other girls. I could never feel something for you."

More concerned about her, he ignored what she said. "Had it..."He hesitated, "had this ever happened before?"

"What do you mean?"He could feel her relaxing in his hold.

"I mean...had this ever happened to you before...with...with" For the life of him, Arnav couldn't say this. He need not to, as Khushi lifted her head to look at him.

"No...I just told you Arnav. I never felt something for anyone. Had never allowed or had any relationship with anyone. Before you ask me, it didn't happen last night."Khushi said.

I am her first kiss! I am her first in everything! "I think it just overwhelmed you."Arnav spoke. Yeah, it could be. It was too much and too slow for her.

"I am feeling fine now."She tried to get off his lap, but he tightened his hold. "Arnav, please understand. Let this marriage be the way it was planned by us. Don't make this harder for us. It is just infatuation, attraction, you are feeling for me."

His eyes narrowed, guarded as he looked at her."What about you? The way you felt by my touch. You know why it made you tremble. It was too much for you. You didn't just feel something, you felt too much and it overwhelmed you. You couldn't control your body's response towards me."

"It's just attraction from my side also and I have no other reason for it."

"Then let's take this attraction to make this marriage real. I know what I feel is just not attraction. I think I...I am falling in love with you Khushi."Arnav confessed.

Khushi leapt from his lap as if burned, he stared shocked as her face tuned hard. "You are breaking our deal. I told you, not to fall in love with me! I cleared this Arnav! Then why? Why would say this? This would make this marriage complicated, as if it wasn't before." She was pleading to him, "Please, come to your senses. See what you are saying! You are claiming to be in love with me when you never even had a girlfriend. Ask yourself why you would want this marriage to be real and toss away the reason for what you married me for in the first place. You wanted freedom, now you have it!"

Arnav clenched his jaw, trying not to shake her till her head believe his love. "I wanted that freedom when I was not in love you! I just want you, as my wife, living with me, your husband, not because of some contract, but because we want to."

"I can't. I am sorry. But I can't love you. This marriage for me will be just what it was planned by us."

He smiled at her, "You don't know me Khushi. I am not called the shrewd businessman, for nothing. It's my promise to you; I will stop at nothing and will have you as my wife, who is in love with me."

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"You look terrible."Payal's words at the first sight of Khushi.

"I know..."Khushi pulled the chair out to sit."These are the papers?" She asked looking at the files stacked on the table.

"He got only these, which can help us."Payal motioned for the waiter. "Just go through them while I order coffee for us, you look like you are in dire need of it."

"Okay," Khushi nodded absently, already scanning the files. "Payal, you got anything in this?"

"Just her properties address, various bills and more and more waste."

Khushi took one page from the file, showing her with a smile, "Does this look like a waste to you?"

Payal scanned it with frowned brows, "I don't get it. What is useful in it?"

"Look down, the address and the date."Khushi pointed out.

With wide eyes, Payal returned her smile, "His meeting spot with her...or the place he..."

"I will not spare him and his sister!"Khushi clenched her fists in anger.

"Khushi relax. We got this far, we'll also make him pay. I want to ask you something..."Payal paused gauging her. "Make your marriage real with Arnav. I know this is important for you but this is taking your life. You want to live like this?

"Yes. I will live like this. What you are asking is impossible. I can't live him like this knowing who he was, a playboy." Khushi threw her accusing eyes.

"Don't think of me as a fool, Khushi Singh Raizada! You know me better than that." Payal let eyes roam on her face before pointedly looking at her lips, "Any blind can tell by looking at your lips what had happened few hours before. He kissed you again, no?"

Silence.

"And you let him and if I am not wrong, you again responded to him. I am not unaware of these things. From many years I have been in a relationship with NK. " Her eyes warmed looking at her struggling with herself. "Let go, Khushi. Change your, believe that he can also change, for you."

"Please, not about this. What he did..." Khushi shivered even by remembering it, "Even if I take a leap and try to give this marriage a chance, I can't. That would mean bringing Arnav in this mess, which I can't. " She shook her head, her eyes held all the seriousness.

Payal stared at her wide eyed, "What do you mean by not bringing Arnav in this mess? You have to. At some point you have. What are planning to do, if not telling him about this, when this goes out in public? When we make him pay for it?"

"Divorce." Khushi answered in a heartbeat.

Payal stood up, looking at her outraged. "This was you plan wasn't it? Divorcing him when this would get over..."

"No--" She cut off, "When I'll know this matter would go out in public. I can't and won't destroy his image. He does not deserve this."

"How highly of you to think about him, Khushi? Please tell me what you ought to do about him falling in love with you? Had you ever considered that? What if he is already in love--" Something flashed in Khushi's eyes that had her stopped talking. "He is, isn't he? What crap you said to him?"

"I told him the truth; that I am incapable of falling in love. I told him I can never feel for him."

Payal snickered, "You can fall in love, Khushi. You were in love! That too very deeply! Let give me an advice Khushi, before I leave. Come out of this shell. Let yourself feel. Try to understand this new Arnav. And who knows you can everything you ever wanted few years ago?"

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