sandhir one shot...living without u

Living without u

Sanyukta sat on the corner of her bed in utter shock...her eyes brimming with salty fluids,making her vision go blur...her lips repeating the same words again and again...as if trying to believe what had just happened,with her heart and mind is refusing continuously. Parth entered her room and the level of his pain increased just to see her broken beyond extend...he came forward and shook her a little..." Come on Sanyukta ...uthooo..." his pain was evident through his eyes..Sanyukta shut her eyes tight just to refuse the reality...hoping this nightmare gets over soon..." ankhen bandh Karny sy sachai Nahi badal jati Sanyukta...WO tumhen but strong samajhta tha...now dunt prove him wrong.." and that made sanyukta's world up side down...the word HIM has so much more in it... it means love...it means his presence..it reminds her of all the moments spent with him...and it means his name...RANDHIR!!! Her lips automatically called him once again...hoping he is playing peek a boo with her, and after a while he will appear from no where, POOOF!!! And ..There he will be, standing with his arms extended just to engulf her in his warm embrace...but no!! He is nowhere to be seen..no where to be heard and yet she will never relax in his warmth. Yes!! Randhir Singh Sekhawat is no more with his sannyu!!! He died in a blast in mechanical lab...while he was testing his newly invented machine...lost in his happiness he didn't realize that he had joined the wrong wire and ...BOOM!!! His frame lying down on the floor LIFELESS!!! Sanyu was in the canteen celebrating her happy moments with her friends and waiting for him...she filled her plate with all his favourites and texted him to come soon as it was karwa chuat and she was fasting for him all were gazing the sky eagerly waiting for the moon to appear,but Sanyukta was constantly checking her cell phone hoping to receive a reply from her m.c.p ...the little she knew that he was in M.l working on a project...she insisted him to come along but he refused and gave an excuse of work but promised her to come early ...but as she was leaving she pulled her wrist and neared her to himself... he kissed her forehead looked in to her eyes and let her go...she smiled on his antics and left him alone!!

" kash mein us k sath wahen ruk jati...kaash mein wahan hoti aur us ko galati nahi Kearny dyti!!! AGR mujhy pata hota k woh mujhy iss tarhan chor jaye ga ...I would have felt his warmth a little more...KAASH!!!" Sighed Sanyukta leaning her back on the wall behind her ...just the few hours have rolled when she saw his body burning in flames...she closed her eyes in pain. Suddenly she felt a need of feeling him again...she wanted to run and b in his arms..she wanted him to hold her and she will cry her heart out as she use to do whenever she is upset...she hugged her knees,digging her head down. Her eyed fell on her hands...and recalled the times he hold her hand secretly under the table...how ugly her hands are looking now, without holding his...few drops of tears gathered in her eyes...she got up and went outside...his memories hunting her every where..from canteen, to labs and then the medical room,classes, and then at last the library...she smiled on the thought of how they use to steal kisses behind the book shelf...it reminded her of how she use to push him and refuses him to give another one..how she wished she could rewind the time and grab the chance to kiss him again...to feel his lips on hers...and to tangle her fingers in his soft hair...she moved forward and found herself on the door steps of his room...she went straight to his bed and sat on it...she hid her head in his pillow and inhaled his fragrance which was lingering on his bed. she hugged his bed sheet and closed her eyes...tears were flowing continuously from her eyes wetting his pillow. This feels so right...at least in this way she can feel him...her hands were clutching his bed sheet tight... and then she drifted in to a deep slumber!!! Relaxing herself on his bed as if she is sleeping in his arms...

Bright light was the reason that forced her to open her eyes...but she shut them immediately, as the light was too bright... she felt something familiar ...his warmth...yes!! She can feel him from miles away she sat up on the bed and tried to open her eyes... blinking them quickly as she heard him calling her...but where was he?? "Randhir?"...she finally called him..and there he is...smiling at her...in his usual avatar...but there was something peaceful on his face..he came near and pecked her forehead.. but... what was that??? Wait a min!! why can't she touch him?? He smiled on her antics and replied..."Sanyukta you can't touch me...see I use to hold u and touch u when i was once like u.. a human...and u always use to push me away giving an excuse of work...and now u see?? u r craving to touch me but am far far away from u...but one thing...u will find me near to yourself sanyu...coz I live here..."he said pointing towards her heart...she dragged her eyes from his pretty face to where he has pointed...and looked blankly again to him..."sanyu we love from our hearts...we live or die our hearts keep loving those people who once were close to us... my love was ur greatest support...now I don't want u to feel weak thinking am gone...u have to live without me sanyu u have to live for ur dream...and now u have a responsibility to fulfil my dreams too...don't waste yourself in crying over me...it won't do anything good...rather it will hurt me badly!!! Sanyu I love u...and I want u to love me the way I should b loved...face the reality...over come with ur fears...memories will haunt u...but don't let them come in the way of ur dreams sanyu...u want me to be happy there???" He pointed towards the sky...she nodded in yes " then u have to be happy...I know it is difficult but your happiness depends on mine!!! Saying so again he pecked her cheeks..."but randhir we can live together...I promise to b a good girlfrnd and follow what ever u say...but please don't leave me...I will die without u...every min without u is life a punishment for me..I can't live ..please take me with u...please randhir...please...I promise t b good..." she was looking like a child ...with innocent eyes...and completely broken heart.." no Sanyukta...I wnt u to b strong enough to handle the toughest part of ur life without me...I was a lair I lied sanyu...I promised to be with u but I left u alone ...to survive but u r going to b honest...u have to fulfil ur dreams I will b there for u forever..." and as he sat up Sanyukta paniked and tried grabbing him..."no randhir please don't do this to me please I promise to b good ...pleaseee Randhir come back!!! "

..."..RANDHIIIRRR " she sat up from her seat calling his name...every soul in the classroom dragged their vision from the the board in front of them to Sanyukta who was standing with eyes wide open...she was fully drenched in sweat and had a shocked expression on her face...randhir was too present in the class he looked at his lady of love with a confused expression...the tiny drops of water on her face lighten her features...though he was a little angry on her but still his heart melted as he looked her in such state "Sanyukta Agarwal get out from my class...if u find my lecture so boring y don't u stay in ur bed the entire morning,rather to attend my class and sleep on ur seat " the professor's voice echoed the classroom followed by suppressed giggles of the back benchers...even the funny sugar quoted taunts of the professor failed to lightened sayukta's mood...which made Randhir worried a bit...she walked out of the class like a zombie still in the state of shock

After the class he quickly grabbed his bag and left the classroom...he started finding Sanyukta and found her in M.l .. the shocked expression was still on her face "Sanyukta!!!" Keeping his ego aside he shook her a bit...she looked up..stood, face to face...tears brimming in her eyes making randhir even more worried...she started crying...and laughing at the same time.. randhir was doubting whether she has gone mad!! "Sanyukta??" Listening his voice was a bliss..she closed her eyes wanting to hear more from his side...she had died a thousand deaths in that dream...craving to hear him once "hwa kiya h sanyu?? Batao mujhy"...men hun tumhary sath"...and that made sanyu to cry even harder...he is always with her...standing besides her supporting her ...loving her...and that dream made her realized she is nothing without him...he is the main pillar of her life..."Ssshhh" she wiped her tears and cupped his face...trying to speak but as she opened her mouth ... words betrayed her...nothing came out...she was still shocked by the dream...helplessly she pressed her forehead against his lips...she was crying bitterly...how can she explain...she don't know how to start or to portray the trauma she is going through...what she should say. .whether she tell him the dream...or ask for forgiveness that she use to chose her work over him...or to promise him a change .. randhir engulf her in his arms..understanding the situation and she sobbed loudly this time...her voice was loud enough but thanks to his manly chest...she let go all the tears...let go all the pain...thanking God for what he has given to her...HIM!!! And a chance to be with him...yet another chance to not to repeat the mistakes and realize the worth of him in her life...as an hour rolled she felt her self a bit light and raised her head...randhir smiled a bit but she can still see lines on her forehead...she kissed his cheeks, then his nose...then his eyes and then she captured his lips with hers...kissing him furiously...tasting every corner of his mouth..there was something different in her kiss...he felt an urgency... a promise...and a crave as if she is kissing him after ages...on breaking the kiss he laughed and kissed the tip of her nose!! "I don't believe u slept in the class!!!" Sanyukta smiled and lowered her eyes ..thanking that it was just a dream ...a bad one indeed ..but it has opened her eyes..randhir shook Sanyukta..."ab kahan kh0 gayin?? U come here...and he took her in his embrace...his arms, where she wanted to live forever.. . in his warmth. She sent silent prayers and closed her eyes peacefully...

... Some times we need reminders to realize the worth of our loved ones ...to cherish the time we r with them ...love is forever not human...!! So live every moment enjoy simple happiness in ur life and ignore little negative things...nobody is perfect ...and yah telling a person I love u is just not enough if u mean it?? show it!!!!

Love!!!