"..Dhundhta hu tujhe har raah mein har mehfil mein
Thak gaye hai mere majbur tamanna ke kadam
Aaj ka din meri ummeed ka hai aakhri din
Kal na jaane mein kahaan aur kahaan tu ho sanam
Do ghadi apni nigaahon ka sahaara de de
Mera khoya huwa rangeen nazaara de de
Mere mehboob tujhe meri mohabbat ki kasam.."
"I keep finding you in every lane, every destination.
My tired steps helplessly want you.
Today, is my last day of my only hope,
We never know, where would I be, where'd be you, tomorrow.
Just fill me again with that beautiful sight of your eyes, for a moment.
Just give that lost beautiful view of mine, back.
Oh, my lover, I vow on our love."
Okay. This song. I don't know how many of you are aware of this classic song from old Hindi classic movie Mere Mehboob. Its a gorgeous song, and these lines are so so apt on their situation right now. The 2nd para's bold line. It suits them so well, that its making me cry :'( No not because it has Sanam in it.
I have tried to translate that in English, for those who don't know Hindi so well. Hope its understandable, and it gives you the meaning these lines want to convey :)
It seems QUITE LONG since I have ranted eh? 😆
What does actually happen to us, when they come together in a frame? All things just look so magical, so surreal and divine, it feels your souls are connected with them. They have such a divine aura around them, you just simply want to lose yourself in that divinity called LOVE they have for each other. You can't just help
It melts your insides seeing the way they look at each other with those ever so beautiful, love lorn eyes. Asking something from each other, answering to each other, in their own bubble. Like everything is said with just a LOOK they give to each other. Is there a proper word for describing that even? IS THERE?
Lets just have a trip down memory lane, when these both were going through the testing times of their lives, their love for each other, their trust for each other, their importance for each other. For they have surely, SURELY come out of those flourishingly :')
Oh you know what? I just remembered from when I stopped ranting. It was when Aahil and Sanam kinda got a "reality check" from his mom :'(
He was so lost. Somewhere deep inside, he MIGHT have known this was coming? What was he thinking? He is capable of LOVING SOMEONE? He is capable of BEING LOVED? HE. A soul who has never known what love is, can he ACTUALLY love someone? Fall in love with someone? Expect SOMEONE to fall in love with him? </3
Maybe, he had those feelings deep inside the corner of his heart. To not to have expectations from him. To not to have any dreams with him. Not to see any future with him. He has no future, all he has is his PAST :'( He was flying, until when someone cut down his only rope on which he was lingering to, rope of love, SO NASTILY that he came crashing down, to his reality...
"I don't deserve her. I don't deserve to be loved. Its better to go away from her..for her." :'(
She had started weaving her beautiful dreams of their love life. Started having expectations from him. Coz she KNEW. She KNEW he is worthy of loving. Worthy of being loved. Oh hell, HE IS THE ONLY PERSON who can love her the way she wants to be loved. The way she needs to be loved. She knew she is in love. She knew this was something special for her. She knew those feelings he evokes in her, is not just a co incidence. She has started falling for him. She knew she would never be the same again. She wants to tell him, wants to listen from him. She won't wait anymore. She would declare her love for him.
"I don't wanna leave him. Never ever."
It was a scurry of avoiding her from his side. It was a phase of trying to understand his ignorance from her side. It was a stage of trying to deny the fact that he loves her. It was a phase of understanding that she loves him. It was a phase of let go of his love, only for her. It was a phase of not letting go of her love, only for him. <3
"Stop seeing dreams which you have weaved with me. Stop expecting from me. I am a complication, which would only get even complicated." </3
Frustration, ignorance, denial - for him.
Clarity, understanding, reaching out, acceptance - for her.
Confusions, misunderstandings, turmoil - for both.
"I can't live like this anymore. This has to stop. I know there is something between us, that brewing, and is strong, and can never break. I want to clear everything with you. I want to clear NOW."
"Don't touch me. Stay away from me."
He was hit hard. Something snapped in him. Something that was hidden in his heart, just found a right way to look at. He saw a light burning at the very end of his darkness, which would take him out, of all his fears to a new life which is waiting for them. Together.
"I don't know whats right or wrong. I don't know if I would be able to make the wrongs right. But one thing is for sure, I LOVE HER. As long as she is with me, she won't let any harm happen. I can change myself for her, but I can never live without her. And I would fight everything to save her :')
A realisation dawned upon him as he realised how much strong his love for her is. A light was goving way to the darkness which filled his heart. He knew he is gonna get enlightened. He knew she is the only light in him, which would burn him, in the love, FOR HER. <3
She knew she loved him. She knew he loved him. They both knew they loved each other. The world has never been that loving to two lovers though... </3
They kept searching for each other in between all the odds. They kept that light burning within them which would lead them to one another. They tried to defy all odds, only to reach one another...
And. They finally were together. In front of the whole world. In front of that world which tried to separate them. That world, which they fought together. They were there, on that stage. A symbolism?
Amidst of all the obstacles, they were with each other, their hearts entwined, their souls connected.
He approaches her, staring into her big brown eyes, he knew he had to say it. Its today or never. He had to tell this, no matter what the fate has planned for them after this. He had to tell this to her. He had to tell what he was denying since he met those eyes for the first time. Those eyes which burnt her heart and gave a new light to him. To tell her, she is the only light in his life, which he would never ever want to let gol. Coz he doesn't want to get lost again, in that darkness, she is his savior, his only saving grace, she is his love and he loves her.
"I don't know what our relation would be like after this. Bit it doesn't have to be that way, which we don't want. I told you, I told you to..not to have hopes from me, not to have any dreams with me, not to have expectations from me. But..I was wrong. I was wrong. I want you to see those dreams which you have woven in your eyes, I want you to expect from me, I want you to have hopes from me. I want you to never give up on me. You know why? Because..
He cups her cheek and traces a thumb along her wet cheek, wiping those tears that fell from her eyes..
"Because I..love you Sanam. I LOVE YOU." :') <3
I am still not over that gorgeous confession from him though. I so cried when he said that man. It was so heartfelt. I can't write anymore, after that, I am sorry! :')
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