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PART 18
Yes I love her, I knew I do , I knew I loved her always the first time I saw her I loved her since then my heart have waited for her even if I don't still my heart have always searched for her, that's why I never forgot her even after 8 years and somewhere he agree that it was god signal that out of whole world it was only khushi, she was the one who gave birth to his child his son
"no our baby, our son" said arnav correcting himself
"You are right aakash maybe truth can make everything right and if not, if I am thinking wrong and she don't love me back still what will be the end she will say no that's all, still we can stay as friends I knew she love krish so much to leave him but no i don't think she will say a no, but whatever it is I have to tell her the truth , its high time I shall tell her , I can give one last try to my fate, what will be the extreme i will be left heartbroken like always, moreover now also I am living a lifeless life, and she as well, I don't want to be with her just for myself but for her as well, she will never have to leave krish she will never have to live with a fear of getting away from him, she have faced so much pain in her life and cause of me as well, now I want to give her all the happiness I want to give her everything that she deserved specially the right to be called as krish mother in front of the whole world" said arnav to himself with determination
"I am going to tell khushi about my feelings tomorrow itself now I am not going to wait for more" said arnav to himself
Late night shyam and anjali were in deep sleep in their Delhi house when shyam cell ringing again and again after some ringing shyam in sleepy condition picked the call
"does it take so long to pick a call" said arnav irritated from the other end
And here shyam immediately getting attentive
"arnav is that you, this time is everything alright" said shyam in confusion
"yes everything is alright does there needs to be am emergency so that I can call you" said arnav confused
"oh yes offcourse no need for emergency and so what if you called its just like 3 in night" said shyam sarcastically
"I thought I am your friend and it wont be an issue for you me calling anytime" said arnav normally
"ok arnav you won I lost you can do whatever you want with me but remember now i am a family man as well" said shyam normally
"that's what I want for me as well, I also want to be a family man now I decided to get my family back" said arnav
"that will be great atleast I will be spared of your odd time calls, just hold on what did you just said" said shyam finally fully awaked with arnav last statement
"I said shyam that you were right I thought a lot about what all you said and then what all I feel and want in my life" said arnav
"and what have you finally decided , what you want arnav" said shyam immediately waiting for arnav reply
"I want her I want her in my life , I want my complete family and it is khushi and krish both" said arnav smiling with determination
"and why you need her , just cause she is krish mother oh please don't do this compromise arnav" said shyam normally waiting for his real reply
"no not cause she is krish mother but cause I knew, I always did but never realized but now I knew I love her, much before she was krish mother , much before I knew she was going to come in my life like this, I loved her at the same time years ago when I saw her for the first time and was never able to get her out of my mind I loved her on her first sight" said arnav smiling
"what are you serious oh my god that's great" shyam shouting in joy on the other hand while with the noise anjali got up from her deep sleep in panic
"what what happened to you shyam are you alright why are you shouting who is it on the call is everything fine" said anjali in panic sitting by shyam
"anji you will also dance with joy hearing this finally , I mean finally our arnav decided to get out of his shyness shell and finally the dump realized that he love her" said shyam in excitement
"shyam I am not getting anything and is it arnav's call" said anjali confused
"yes it is arnav called to inform that he finally decided that he love khushi and want to marry her" said shyam and anjali immediately taking the phone from shyam hand
"arnav when you have made your decision than why are you wasting your time here talking with us go to her and tell her all this" said anjali in excitement
"anji don't you think this is a little odd time to talk with her" said arnav
"oh really a moment ago you called me and disturbed me this time but now this is little odd for her, good you already started differentiating you can disturb us but now her" said shyam sarcastically
"I just called to get idea over what shall I do now I mean I knew there are some different feelings in her for me as well but I am not sure that it is exactly the way it is for me what if I tell her and she rejects me" said arnav
"arnav think positive and stop making your personal assumptions I am sure she will never reject and what the hell are you doing staying with her in the same house and still cant figure out her real feelings but whatever it is I think you shall confess your feelings for her and rest its upto her to decide" said anjali
"what if she rejects me" said arnav
"what if she accepts try and try until you succeed if she don't love you then make her fall in love for you but don't let her go away from you ever" said shyam
"this one thing I am very sure of now that I will never let her go away from me ever no matter what I have to do for that" said arnav with determination
"that's great that's like a good boy ok now be a little more good and work on your planning yourself and let us sleep" said shyam
"how mean alright go back to your dream world for me I don't think I can get any sleep tonight" said arnav
"oh by the way arnav have you informed aakash about this" said shyam
"no not yet" said arnav
"no I thought that it will be better that even aakash knew what it feels being waked up in the middle of the night" said shyam
"just go to hell shyam here I thought that you will feel great that you were the first person I told this and here you making fun of me" said arnav cutting the call still smiling
Today suddenly everything around him started looking beautiful and just perfect to him , nothing was wrong just nothing he was preparing himself for what he shall do in the morning and how to prepare himself to talk with khushi pacing whole night in his room ,
When finally he dozed off to deep sleep early morning
Its been almost afternoon time, today arnav was not down yet in the morning khushi waked up on her usual time prepared food for krish and got busy with him in his morning work making him bath eat play
Arnav didn't came down for breakfast she also didn't bothered cause she thought that maybe he was exhausted due to last night party and she don't knew for how long that party went on so maybe he will be sleeping for long
But then when its almost afternoon and arnav was still not down she felt a need to check him once maybe he is unwell or something, but going to his room like this would be a little odd and so she took krish along with her, she cant go inside but krish can go and wish his father a good morning
While krish baby happily and excitedly got inside arnav's room and crawling all over the floor khushi also got inside following him, and the scene she saw in front was so cute in itself here arnav was still sleeping over his stomach holding one pillow beneath him with a cute smile on his face, she was not able to stop herself from comparing this father son were so similar krish also sleep in the same position all the time
She so felt the urge to go near him and caressing his hairs to wake him up like she did to krish but she stopping herself pulling her hand back and simply standing beside him and calling him
While arnav was stirring in his deep sleep he was so lost in his sweet dream world that was mixed with her sweet voice calling him, he didn't realized that it was not a part of a dream and she was actually calling him
And here seeing no reaction from arnav's side she had no other option to bend down a little towards him and lightly shaking him she hesitantly brought her hand ahead and holding him by his one arm as she shaking him a little she got a biggest shock when she was pulled towards him with great force
As arnav was still in deep sleep and in his dreams he didn't realized that she was here in real and as he felt her touch he immediately holding whatever it was and bringing it near to his heart and taking a turn holding it
It was actually khushi's hand and resulting she lost her balance and landed straight on him she tried controlling herself a lot from falling but arnav pull was a little strong
With that moment arnav immediately opened his eyes and for a second he was himself confused over what was happening, he was waked up or he was still in dream seeing her face so close to himself he was so lost in looking at her and thinking when he felt a little moment on his hands he was still himself holding her hand which she was trying to get out of his hold but she was also looking straight at him, And over his confused face
Initially she was also shocked with a sudden pull and her misbalancing but as she got a little stable she picked her head looking straight in his eyes and like always she was captivated in them she don't knew what pull his eyes have but whenever she looks in them she just cant take her eyes off from him she was looking at him and side by side moving her hand to get free
"I am sorry sir actually I was just waking you" khushi tried to give clarifications
And that is when arnav also got a little attentive it was no dream anymore and it was actually reality he immediately leaving her hand he was holding but his eyes didn't left her, he don't knew it was dream or reality but whatever it was , this was perfect a perfect start of a morning her face the first thing he can see she being so close to him that he can hear her heartbeats which were getting so high right now the same like his this is what he wanted forever he was looking in her eyes himself both were so captivated in each other eyes they were lost in their own world but their chain of thoughts were disturbed with their little angel giggling and clapping with his tiny hands
"mumma falled mumma falling yeeyyy" said krish clapping his hands sitting just in front of the two on the floor he was smiling at the two
And this made both looking in his direction , they were not alone in the room krish was also there with them, and with his calling they both finally realized their position, khushi immediately tried getting up looking everywhere but not at him this was so embarrassing this closeness was something they had the first time and it was feeling so different she was herself feeling so many Goosebumps in herself feeling there closeness
She immediately getting up from there and picking krish up in her arms
"sorry sir it was so late and you were not up so i wanted to see I mean krish wanted to see you once so I got him here sorry I disturbed you" said khushi not looking at arnav side as he also getting up still sitting on his bed and not even waiting for arnav to reply she immediately rushed out of the room walking as fast as she can
While here arnav smiling to himself he never wanted to let her go and just make her stop and tell her that he didn't felt disturbed infact he felt so nice and that he want her to be like this with him forever and wake him up daily like this, it was so perfect start for him and he will make this forever soon smiling to himself he got up finally
And khushi didn't even looked back once and moving towards her room she got inside the room and then only taking a deep breath thinking again and again over what happened a moment ago she was feeling so different but on the same time nothing felt wrong nothing felt that this shall not have happened, she was having so mixed feelings and she don't knew why but she didn't felt scared or embarrassed with him but she was actually feeling so secured and protected being so close to him she knew her heart feel different for him but she never realized that her heart have accepted him to this level that she felt this way, blushing to herself over the event she tried getting that feeling out of her mind for the time
Arnav got ready and came down khushi was no where, he knew that she was inside her room she didn't came out that means she don't want to face him for the time being, and he himself didn't want to push her much so he quietly left for his work
Khushi on the other side was still lost in her dream world she was blushing to herself again and again thinking of the morning event, after last night event specially knowing the truth of arnav and lavanya relation khushi was so shattered she was broken maybe her feels for arnav were one sided and this was somewhere wrong but when today she was so close with him suddenly everything was perfect nothing felt wrong in it even for arnav she felt that arnav was also feeling and reacting the same way she was doing, he also looking at her with same intensity the way she was doing maybe arnav also have same feelings for her the way she was thinking and feeling now a days
But all this was just her assumptions and she was not at all sure about them everything was so confusing and tangled she don't knew when and how everything will get sorted but for the time being she cant stop herself reacting like a teenager thinking about arnav and blushing to herself
She was happy and lost in her world when devils arrives near her
Here naina reaizada was already losing her battle of getting lavanya in arnav life and over that She was not that dump to realize what secret blooming was been created between arnav and khushi
And she was herself planning to stop all this soon she cant let all this continue like this she can surely see the special bonding that was been created between them two and she herself tried to break it through possible plans keeping them away by leaving no chance to insult khushi or stoop her low in arnav's eyes, but till now nothing worked much but now she was working on her next plan along with lavanya to make lavanya do everything good in front of arnav so that arnav will think that she have changed and maybe he will consider giving her a second chance and reviving his old relation and the first thing she need to do for that was make sure that khushi herself step back and stop getting more close to arnav
Naina and lavanya were in the house when khushi was in kitchen preparing for krish evening meal and she was making the same sweet dish again remembering how much arnav loved eating that she specially cooked extra amount so that she can keep it for arnav she was smiling lost in his thoughts and making her dishes when naina came inside the kitchen
"I can see very much is cooking here" said naina sarcastically his words were different and so was her meaning
"mrs raizada you and in kitchen you wanted something" said khushi in confusion seeing naina there
"why is there a problem in me coming in kitchen cant I come here this is my house afterall" said naina arrogantly
"I didn't meant that I am sorry" said khushi normally getting back to her work
"nice cooking I never knew you can cook everything up so well food and plans" said naina sarcastically
"mrs raizada I am sorry I am not getting anything whatever you are talking about" said khushi ignoring her completely
"oh don't tell me that you aren't that dump infact you are far more intelligent to understand what I actually meant here I always knew your plans first getting baby in your control and then father you learnt so well how to use arnav's weakness his son for getting him" said naina straight
"please mrs raizada you are crossing your limits now and as for me I have no such intentions and plans my baby is no commodity or source of getting anything for me he is far more precious and I don't think a lady like you who measures each and everything in monetary terms can never understand my motherhood" said khushi in anger she knew she was her employ but being an employ don't give naina any right to insult her like this
"oh really if its not krish the source than may I ask what else source you applied for getting this close with my son I am no blind that I cant see anything trying to stay with him all the time , this special cooking for him acts late nights waking with him and many more attempts, I knew what are you trying to do in all this but I must tell you one thing very clear that all this acts and planning will never work" said naina arrogantly
"I am not making any plans here mrs raizada nor I am doing anything intentionally to get something if I talk with him nicely and try to be little friendly with him so in that my only aim is to get some happiness in your son's life which even after being his real mother you never felt or sensed ever you never realized what your son wanted from you and how much he craving for your love just love but in return he have only got loneliness and emptiness I am just trying to fill that empty space" said khushi normally
"and who the hell do you think you are to do all this, he is my son my son who are you to tell me how to maintain my relation with him" said naina in anger
"a friend a well wisher or maybe nothing I am nothing to him I agree but you are and its your duty your responsibility to get happiness in his life" said khushi
"that's right , this is exactly something you actually said right its my responsibility to get happiness in my sons life and that's what I am actually doing , but you are getting in between my work I am arnav's mother and I knew his happiness belongs only with one person his wife lavanya" said naina
"you are again wrong mrs raizada you also knew that he hates her lavanya was a mistake of his life which he have corrected long ago and today he will never make that mistake again" said khushi with confident
"oh really so now you knew my son more better than me lavanya was no mistake for my son she was his life he loves her so much forever they both were so happily married a perfect made for each other couple arnav used to be so happy whenever he was with her but then ups and down surely comes in each and every person life so they were also in their life so what I agree that it was lavanya fault she considered her career more important than arnav but now she have realized her mistake and she wants to correct that and as for arnav I knew he will soon happily accept her back cause he still loves her and today my son is upset sad only because he is alone away from her he is angry with her but then anger is also another form of love we can get angry with only those people we love and I am sure this ice of anger will break soon and arnav will get his love back , cause true love never ends and it never changes" said naina normally side by side looking at khushi reactions , she knew this will work cause khushi is unknown of any truth so in that case whatever story will be plotted in front of her she will have no choice but to accept it
While here khushi was herself lost in naina story, was she correct , was this the only reason maybe or maybe not, no this is not true but she have sensed some different feelings in arnav's eyes if arnav loves lavanya than that looks no she was sure arnav have no feelings for lavanya even payal told the same that arnav himself considered lavanya as his mistake
"I don't knew which dream world you are living in mrs raizada cause as far as I can see arnav sir have no feelings nothing left for lavanya in his life" said khushi still with confidence
"in that case I also don't knew in which dream world you are living but don't worry I am sure soon you will also realize the same truth and you will see that arnav's real happness lies only with lavanya" said naina lightening her fire and then giving a victory smile
"in any case have you seen today's newspaper, well you surely have not do look at arnav's picture with his son the raizada's family a perfect father son and someone who can complete this is a perfect girl like lavanya who will fit this place unlike you see how inappropriate you are looking in here" said naina making disgust face she was herself hating this picture
The last night party pictures which were published in the newspaper arnav holding krish in his arms but as krish was feeling scared in party seeing so many peoples so on aakash and arnav request khushi was standing just behind them and in one picture that was published unintentionally her face also got clicked she just came in the frame of camera while it was focused on arnav and krish and only that picture was published in the paper
Khushi also looking at the picture and then seeing her little prince she felt so proud mother to watch her son looking so perfect in this picture for once she forgot all the last wording of naina but then something strike her , naina's last comment she was not fit in the picture that means she was in the picture
Yes she was her face was clearly visible she standing in a little corner but got clicked in the frame
"you see yourself how imperfect this looks I am sure it can get perfect only if lavanya will be here with the two raizada" said naina leaving the place she knew she completed her task the rest left part and plan is upto lavanya now
While here khushi was still looking at the newspaper picture
"oh god I shall have been more careful to see that I don't get clicked I hope this is just a local newspaper and not much public have access to this but if it will have then everything will get finished for last two years I have successfully hidden myself from the world I have kept myself and my baby safe what if they find me here with the help of this picture I just hope not I have been running away from them since last two years I never want them to find me out I never want them to knew where I am I cant let them get my baby in danger" said khushi to herself in fear, she was scared surely scared her past that she have buried away so well for years can get in front of her with this one single link she hope this paper got avoided from the eyes of peoples she wanted to stay hidden from
But the fate was surely not in her favor
Somewhere in Mumbai far away from khushi small life , her city we see a huge mansion with a tight z security all over the place many gun mans armed with long guns taking care of security and surely not even a bird can step a foot in that premises
When few white collar mans few cars stopped in the gate and few ministers came out of the car and after all security check a group was allowed inside the house a meeting was to be held and all the businessman and minister waiting for the man to arrive when a middle aged man appears in front and everyone stand up to welcome him the minister persons looked little feared when that man can and sat in the middle
"oh please sit down peoples whats the need of feeling so feared of us we are two portions of a same coin our works and business are same the difference is that you all do that hiding in the shield of your white collar and we do everything openly so we are black collared
"you are now embarrassing us who said you are black collared people anymore that time and age have flown away long ago today there is no single person in this world that wont respect your heir the real heir , the way he have taken all your illegal works towards legalization and over that the works he does for people sitting here on this chair acclaimed as illegal still today he is doing all the work in goodness of general public that actually we all shall be doing" said one of the minister
"that's why today he is no where less than a god father to local public that time is long gone when people fear of a gangster, I mean that here public loves him like anything for all favor he is doing for them, he have changed the complete scenario of your business" said another minister
"well I don't think that you all are here for praising my son for what all he is doing so wont it be better if you all come straight to your points and don't waste mine and our time" said the man with arrogance which reflects the proud for his boy as well
"well surya sahab as you already knew that the elections are about to start soon that's why we are here with offer for him why don't he join our party , he shall come in politics we are sure he will won undoubtedly cause public loves him and over that he will get a chance to serve public the way he is doing till now even better with a white collar" said one minister
"so you want me to became a real goon in all sense" came a heavy and strong voice and then came down a young man maybe in his late twenties dressed in a black business suit and few security all the time following him
"pleasure to meet you bhai" said one minister stammering the way the attitude with which he cam down can make anyone fear
"wish I could have said the same for you but I never get any pleasure in meeting sophisticated peoples like you who are the biggest goons and still masking a face of society protectors and here you want to make me one like you" said the man with attitude
"we were here with the offer this can be a big opportunity for you to turn all your black business legal" said one man
"I don't need to be explained that how big this opportunity is and for whom just in case minister sahib last year you passed one plan for construction of one charitable hospital in your area for poor to get treated for free, I think that file has still not moved an inch from your shelves and soon will be trashed in bin" said that man sarcastically sitting on his king chair no doubt why people call him the king of this field
"no bhai we were working on the plan and discussion is going on once it will complete we will start with construction" said the minister
"I don't think that discussion can come to an end ever so here, this is a new project file I have prepared all the discussion along with plans is completed in this so I don't think it will be a trouble in starting the construction by the end of this week and as for funds some you can provide and rest I have signed" said the man smartly when one of his man came ahead giving the file to that minister
"I think that will be all for the meet gentleman nice meeting you, take care of them" said the young man looking at surya bhai and finally leaving back and going inside while all the other people safely landed back towards the exists
And then surya again moved back inside going up towards the study room where he must be sitting right now and surya was right that boy was working in his huge study
"sunny I think that was a great option it was your decision you never wanted to continue this illegal work anymore and that's why we ended all wrong works and since than just working for charity and people don't you think getting in politics will legalize all your charitable works" said surya
"I don't want to discuss this ahead tauji with so much difficulty I have got out of one mire of illegal works and now I again don't want to enter in another squashy business and politics is no where less than a pond filled of mud" said the boy
"its alright sunny you knew I never forced you for doing anything do what your heart wants do whatever your heart accepts as correct, we have already ended all the wrong works we used to do in the past but still we cant leave everything if we will then there are competitors ready to take your place and they all are not that public loving" said surya warning
"I knew tauji that's why no matter how much I want I can never get out of all this, but atleast I can try and clean all this as much as I can" said the boy with determination
"and you knew I am with you all the time" said surya putting his hand over the boy head and then turning to leave
"tauji any news of her" said the young boy with light expectations of a good news and this surya can sense well but like always like past two years still his answer was same
"she must be fine wherever she is and I am sure we will find her soon" said surya with hope
"I knew I will" said the young boy and again remembering the same day
Two years ago the day when he was standing outside the hospital room of shashi gupta when he got the information from his guards that shashi gupta had a heart attack and is in hospital , how he rushed to see them
And then he heard their talks
"khushi get money from anywhere else but not from him , I will prefer dying then being treated with his money" said shashi to crying khushi sitting in front of him even in this condition he can sense the hatred in words of shashi gupta for him
"don't worry bauji I have not even informed them about your condition and I will never ask for his help I will try any other option I have applied for a loan in my office I hope I will get that but if not than I have even asked a dealer to sell off the house I am sure soon I will get some buyer but you don't worry I will manage it bauji" said khushi assuring
And only than the man hearing them walked back , he walked back informing his guards to give him news of each and every moment
The young boy remembering there chat and he knew that shashi gupta hated him for everything
While surya here himself wants to make his sunny happy how he wish he can do anything to get happiness in his son's life and he knew that only one think can get that happiness back khushi and only khushi , he again sending one silent prayer to god for his son when god signaled him when one of his guards he hired to find her came with the newspaper showing him the pictures
Ok back to arnav and khushi's life
Khushi not thinking much about anything she left everything over her god and she knew her god will take care of everything she dont knew what to worry more right now her identity getting disclosed fear or arnav losing fear but brushing off everything she got busy in her works of taking care of her son
and here on other side arnav in the office lost in his own world of khushi, he was sure of his strong feelings for her and on the same time he knew of khushi little liking for him which is so clear in her little acts just like todays act she was in his room waking him , that means she was worried for him and in hurry she herself confessed that she wanted to see him she was missing him that means somewhere she also have feelings for him , all the time here arnav was thinking of her and smiling to himself
"so what and how it actually happened" said aakash coming inside arnav cabin and watching him so deeply lost in his thoughts and smiling
"what aakash" said arnav in confusion getting out of his thoughts
"how you finally told her everything, I am sure that your confession would have been perfect I mean the moment shyam told me I was jumping in joy and waiting to meet you so how did she reacted" said aakash in excitement
"over what aakash I didn't said anything to her yet" said arnav
"what you didn't, I mean you said shyam yesterday and I supposed you didn't came in morning so you are actually confessing your love to her so what are you doing here when you didn't said anything to her" said aakash in shock
"please aakash calm down I will tell her everything I will soon confess her but what is so rush to tell her everything now" said arnav
"rush don't you think its already a really high time, I mean you shall have told her the truth a long ago and even after wasting so much time still you are thinking that what is the rush arnav what is wrong with you if I ask you to finalize some million involved deal you will do that instantly you can do business with jet speed but when it comes to love I am sure you will even beat a snail in lacking behind" said aakash
"aakash here you are talking of my personal life and it is really no business for me" said arnav
"that's what I am saying arnav its not some random business its your life and I it had to be most important than any other thing in this world for you don't waste much time now arnav just go and tell her" said aakash
"you knew what its not that easy I mean you knew I have never said anything like this ever to anyone before I am so confused what shall I say her and how to tell her" said arnav
"oh god don't tell me you are scared arnav are you really scared of confessing her wow that's a great news arnav singh raizada is actually feeling scared of something in this world" said aakash smiling
"oh shut up and hello I am not scared I am just unprepared over how to say this unlike you I never had a long list of affairs or that much experience with girls" said arnav irritated
"shut up yaar that was long gone past don't even talk of any such stuff if payal even get an hint of any such thing I will be a dead man" said aakash
"so now who is more scared here" said arnav smiling
"alright do whatever you want its just we are little more impatient than you are the moment I heard you are ready to marry her we have already started making plans for your grand wedding celebration so just cat wait for its execution" said aakash
"wedding don't you think its too early for that I mean till now I didn't even knew khushi feelings" said arnav
"well as far as I have understood her I am sure she also feel something strong for you but if she don't than also I am sure she wont say no for getting married to you if not for her lone feelings than atleast for krish sake, I mean what else she can ask for if she marry you she will get all her rights over her son, and as for as lone part than arrange marriages occur in the world and gradually people start falling in love so just don't waste time and go and ask her to be your partner now" said aakash
"well as for your theory I don't think I will completely agree to that I want her to marry me for love and not for any compromise that she have to make for her motherhood sake, i want her to feel for me first and then decide for any such alliance and unlike you I have got pools of patience in me and I can wait fr long really as long as she wants for that" said arnav
"she is really lucky that she is going to have you in her life, I never knew you can love someone with so intensity and I think she have all rights to knew what you feel for her just go arnav just go and tell her everything rest its upto her and your fate" said aakash hoping for the best
Here arnav leaving the office and going back home he was determined to tell her everything each and everything he feels for her he will tell her that he cant live a single minute without her and he have just waited for her his complete life
Ok my latest favorite song perfect for the situation playing in background, assume arnav driving back and hearing the song side by side imagining khushi and only khushi all around him
oh yes vm on arhi of this song well there were lots and lots of them on google i picked one, credit goes to the original maker
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
Nahi jeena tere baaju
Nahi jeena, nahi jeena
[I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live.]
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Main tenu samjhawan ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
[How should I explain it to you?
Without you, my heart is always anxious
How should I explain it to you?
Without you, my heart is always anxious]
[arnav just looking all the place and seeing khushi and only khushi he don't knew how will he tell her all this]
Tu ki jaane pyaar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tui-yon jaan meri
[What do you know about my love?
I'm waiting for you
You are my heart and soul]
Main tenu samjhava ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
Tu ki jaane pyaar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tui yon jaan meri
Main tenu samjhawa ki
Na tere bina lagda jee
[How should I explain it to you?
Without you, my heart is always anxious
What do you know about my love?
I'm waiting for you
You are my heart and soul
How should I explain it to you?
Without you, my heart is always anxious]
[arnav driving way back home his home fast just to see her meet her he was so excited and all the time smiling remembering her the first look of her years ago she entering that college gate and his life and arnav looking at her like a dumbstruck, and then watching her all the time that laugh that full of life smile on her face in the college she living a carefree life happily moving all the places and arnav quietly watching her]
Mere dil ne chun laiyaa ne
Tere dil diyaan raahan
[My heart chose
The path that leads to your heart]
[arnav now remember her meeting again after years seeing her first time in his office and then starting their friendship before the truth of krish came out]
Tu jo mere naal tu rehta
Turpe meriyaan saaha
[If you would be with me
Living life would be so easy for me]
[all the time she have been with him explaining him how to stay happy in his life and being a emotional support for him]
Jeena mera.. hoye
Hun hai tera, ki main karaan
Tu kar aitbaar mera
Main karoon intezar tera
Tu dil tui-yon jaan meri
[I'll live my life only with you; I can't do anything about it
Have faith in me
I'm waiting for you
You are my heart and soul]
[while driving still remembering all the time they came close how they got lost in each other eyes and specially the morning incident how close they were and just remembering of that was making his heart beat fast]
Main tenu samjhawan kee
Na tere bina lagda jee
[How should I explain it to you?
Without you, my heart is always anxious]
[here arnav finally reaching home parked the car and moving inside his house smiling with full determination over what he have to do now]
Arnav moved inside he was little early than usual the main hall was empty no one was there , maybe khushi was with krish in her room or somewhere else
Arnav asked one passing by servant about khushi and he told him that she was in his room
This was some what a surprise for arnav as well, khushi was in his room really but why well washing off all that thoughts he straight went in his room in rush he just didn't wanted to wait for more longer, as he reached his room door he saw her wearing a complete perfect Indian attire saaree with her hairs kept open, arnav didn't saw her face yet cause her back faced him she was indulge in reading something kept near his study, he didn't cared for that much he knew this was perfect timing for him
"khushi" arnav said it ever so politely while she just hummed yes in reply and didn't turned back
"listen please don't turn back I need to talk with you and maybe this will be easy if I don't look straight at you so please don't turn back until I complete" said arnav taking a deep breath and then closing his eyes preparing himself to say ahead
"ok I never knew this is going to be that tough but I have to tell you now I have already waited for long you will be shocked to knew that this is a delayed a very delayed confession and it should have happened years ago, maybe than our life would have been different and maybe we would had an happy life together and would have not faced all that hurdles of life which we faced, but whatever happened in past its gone we can still give our life a fresh start, ok look in all this I am talking or everything but not the real talk what I wanted to say so coming straight to the point I just want to tell you that I, I think no I knew that I have fallen in love, I am in love with you please don't react first let me complete I am not saying all this in any pressure or making a compromise just for the sake that my son needs a mother , no correction our son krish was our son always. You knew the first time I saw you years ago I had fallen in love with you the same time but I never got that much power to tell you everything maybe if I would have given one chance to my life at that time and would have not let you go away from my life than we would have not suffered years of staying away and separation but trust me in all this years I was never able to forget you , you were always a part of my memory, but as it said that we were bound to be together than also after so many hurdles we are back here again together and now this time I will never let you go away from me this time I will surely give our life our fate one more chance to stay happy together and I knew that you also feel the same we both can be together nourish our son grow together our life will be so perfect" said arnav all this smiling he just said everything he felt for her he wanted to tell her
And as he completed he opened his eyes to face her again but before that he felt a pull as she immediately hugged him tight , arnav also hugged her back smiling she accepted him so she hugged him to give her consent and then she started talking and that time it was a biggest shock of his life seeing sensing that it was not khushi she was not here it was someone else he was holding it was someone else voice
"oh my god arnav I never knew you still love me so much I never thought that you will forget all bad past and accept me again you have forgiven me I love you arnav I still love you so much thanks for giving another chance to me" said lavanya it was Lavanya standing in front of him lavanya dressed like khushi
Arnav immediately pulled her out of hug in a shock which he have recovered just now but then here lavanya was smiling in front of him
"thanks a lot arnav I promise I will be a perfect wife now , and a perfect mother for krish as well, I will be the way you always wanted me" said lavanya smiling hugging arnav back
While this time he didn't even reacted standing like a statue and then pushing her back
"lavanya what are you doing" arnav holding lavanya harshly and was about to blurt more in anger when he got a bigger shock of his life as his eyes went in the mirror in front of him where he can see image of khushi
She was standing outside his room in one corner and arnav saw her reflection in the mirror her eyes filled with tears her face looked in pain, she looked like a shattered broken piece she heard arnav talks and maybe she understood something else and interrelated it something else
Khushi immediately turned back from the place she was still standing and rushing back running and crying inside her room she cant stand here for a single more second she felt her complete life shattered she was waiting for arnav brushing off all wrong thoughts that naina gave her when she got a message from a servant that arnav was back home in his room and have called her there she was happily moving ahead to meet arnav when she heard him saying all his confession to lavanya obviously she never heard the first word where he just once took her name when she came ahead she heard arnav saying that rest lines that he wanted to tell this for long and rest on, and she have heard the rest of the whole part which obviously she assume was for lavanya that means naina raizada was right she closed her room door locking it and getting down on her knees crying
Ve changa nahion keeta beeba
Ve changa nahion keeta beeba
Dil mera tod ke
[You didn't do the right thing, O decent one!
You didn't do the right thing, O decent one!
By breaking my heart]
[khushi shattered crying on the floor and remembering all the time she spend with him and what all she was imagining and feeling for him everything was wrong one sided just her side thoughts]
Ve bada pachhtaiyaan akhaan
Ve bada pachhtaiyaan akhaan
Naal tere jod ke
[These eyes regretted a lot
These eyes regretted a lot
After they got connected with your eyes]
all the time she have seen him and feeling love for herself in his eyes but it was not for her, it was for someone else it was not her, she cant do anything other than regreatting for why she fall in love with him she did yes she did, this is one thing she didn't told to herself yet but she did all that she felt all that different feelings everything was love , she loved him she love arnav yes finally she confessed her heart feelings to herself but then its too late for that, its too late he is gone long gone he was never her's and can never be hers
khushi shattered crying on the floor
ok rest of confession and yes offcourse the rest of song as well, will be continued in next part till then stay tuned
and yes who is this suspicious man well his identity also going to be reveled in next part when he will be face to face with arnav and khushi 😉
I knew one word you all want to use for me right now is that you hate me for leaving you all on this cliff hanger well that's what I am a devil I love giving suspicious ending all the time so that I can stick my readers for the next part😆😉
congo on new thread dear. 
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