Well.From where Shall I start.Its been very long since the last time I have been active here but I am glad that before going completely inactive for somedays,I am posting this OS.And the reason is the person to whom it is dedicated.
PEACE engulfed him.
An abrupt sound brought him out of his reverie.He took in his surroundings,he was still tied to the chair with ropes,the darkness was all he could fathom,it was all similiar as it had been few moments ago but the ache that had dispersed had found its way to him again because Khushi was not with him.It was her presence that made everything feel all right.
Inspite of the failed attempts,he tried relentlessly.To shuffle the chair closer to the wooden table,for his tied hands to somehow reach to the phone that was still laid there.The ropes cut through his flesh but he couldn't give up,he had to find a way out of here,to the one person who was as hollow without him as he was without her.
He has voiced out those 3 words to her today.The irony of the sitiuation wasn't lost on him.After months of battling his feelings,restraining himself from his emotions,keeping a tight leash on himself,he has finally confessed it to her.And when?.When a gun was pointed right at his head.When he didn't knew whether he would see the light of the next minute forget the next day.
What he would do if these people shot him right now?.He couldn't die like this,couldn't leave this world without letting her know what she meant to him.Their whole journey flashed in front of his eyes in those fleeting moments and all he could say was that he loved her.An ocean of relief has seaped inside him after saying those words to her.He has stared at the man holding the gun with an iron clad determination as the most profound truth of his life finally hit home.
His Nani was a sensible and one heck of a strong woman.Even if something happened to him,she would hold onto the reigns of the family and will stand strong as a rockwall for them.Mama and Mami had their son and daughter in law.Aakash will also learn to handle more responsibilities and he will look after Anjali as well.
His employees were committted to his company and in all these years with his blood and sweat,working day and night,he has managed to make his family financially secure.The one aspect he has strived on since the very inception.
She was worried without him.Restless in his absence and this was the state she drove herself in just 2 days.What will happen to her if he leaves forever,leaving her all alone in this world.He had instructed Aakash but can anyone actually look after her?.Can anyone love her the way he does?.Can anyone see past the facade she so effortlessly puts on?.
They will mollycuddle his sister like a fragile doll who can break into pieces at the slightest of touch,she will have the whole family hover around her like he himself has done all his life.A part of him has always known that his sister always looked out for a support system in others.
But his Khushi was different.She was a head strong woman,his very own fireball,possessor of the most beautiful heart and soul.Her family though loving was always more concerned towards Payal.His eyes hadn't missed the subtle but many differences that existed in their behaviour towards Khushi.The deep rooted gratitude and responsibility they felt towards their families was similar for both of them.
He glanced around but he couldn't fathom whether it wad day or night.If it was night,she must be at the poolside,staring at their parents.His lips curved into a smile as he imagined Khushi complaining to his mother about how gravely he troubled her.Her parents,his mother,the three shining glinting stars in the sky.
That day at the bridge when he confronted her, how he hoped from the every fibre of his being to be proved wrong.For the first time in his life,he wanted to be proved desperately wrong by her.For her to shout and scream and berate him for even daring to think like this when she has always been his.
The man who has only been decieved by people all his life,whose father cheated on her mother,whose mother chose death over her young children,whose uncle left him homeless and penniless,who had to learn his lessons the hardest way,his mind restricted him to reach out to her flashing the scene he had witnessed on the terrace that night again and again staggering him backwards.
Whereas his heart has always known the truth all along.Khushi was the only person that he considered his own and that has been the sole reason why he had married her.He didn't married her for his sister nor for anything lame reason his mind has conjured upon.Had it been for his sister,had his heart really believed that Khushi could do that to him,it wouldn't have taken more than some mere minutes for Khushi Kumari Gupta to be out of the radius completely.
Isn't that the reason that he never shied away from announcing her as his in front of the whole society.Amidst all those nosy relatives,that scumbag whom he wanted to get rid of as soon as possible.
She was mad as hell but he needed her madness to be sane.Clumsiness was her second name as he reminsced the times he saved her from falling .She fitted in his arms perfectly as she was always meant to be there.
The answer was a big crystal clear NO.He didn't and he would never as his heart complete the unsaid words that hung between them on the night of Heer-Ranjha play.There was no right or wrong in love and all that mattered was he loved her.Forever and Beyond,In this and all and all other lifetimes to come.She was HIS.The six month thing was just for a namesake.Did she really think,he could leave him after the completion of six months or he would let her leave.Over his dead body.
After a lifetime of sadness,he has found her happiness.His Khushi.The keeper to his soul.The answer to all his questions.He has confessed it to her,their heart beats in unison.
She may not remember but he did.Each word,each vow his heart silently made to her.He would fight the hell and back for her.For them,he will find a way back to her.
There will no be his or hers.It will all be theirs.He will hold her close to his heart,love her,cherish her,honour her with his every breath.He will always by her side and will never let any fear invade her ever.His last words before his eyes gave away to exhaustion were.
This is just an attempt to an insight to ASR's innermost feelings that never came forth.You can agree or disagree with me.Feel free to share your views but don't forget to wish the Birthday Girl a very Happy Birthday.
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