OS:A Confused Girl

KT'S POV:

It has been a year since Rachna and I have started working together. She is a pretty nice girl. I even feel that she's cute. I had thought that this KT would never be interested in girls. To me girls were a waste of time and useless.
When Rachna came into my life however, I totally forgot about these things. The only things I would care about was her beauty, innocence, and honesty.

Before I knew it, I was in love with this girl. Yes I know it seems weird. She comes from such a strict family while I am given free reigns by my grandmother.

Before I came to India, my only goal was to become a successful Fashion designer, but ever since I have fallen in love with my Rachna, my goals have changed. Now my only aim in life is to have Rachna by my side.

There is a slight problem in my love story. Rachna is a very hard working girl who has lots of respect for her boss. Boss. That's all she considers me. Quite a few times I could tell that she knew my feelings for her, but she would always change the topic.

So here it is, I am very confused. How come Rachna won't understand my love???


Rachna's POV:

I am a simple girl. In fact, I am so simple that any guy would choose Gunjan over me anytime. After losing my love twice, I have stopped believing in things such as love, fairies, and even God.

I know it sounds harsh of me but what can I do? A girl whose feelings have been played around it can't be too happy can she?

After the end of Vihaan and my relationship, I had sat down and questioned myself. What was wrong in me? I had looked myself top to bottom not understanding what the problem was. Finally, when I had no one to blame, I targeted myself. It was me who fell in love twice. First with Rajiv Sir and then with his younger brother Vihaan. Love is supposed to happen once in a lifetime. It is all my fault. I fell in love with them just because they seemed to care for me. In the end, they just hurt me. I should have known that love is useless. Like Papa said, arranged marriage is always the best choice. My father and my mother are leading a happy life together and they had arranged marriage.

By this time, I had accepted the fact that no one could love me, understand me, or even care for me. In the future I would have to stay away from all this luv-shuv.

After breaking down, the next morning I had emerged as a strong girl. I applied for a job. Yes, my family had a bit of trouble digesting the fact that I would go out to work; but with the help of my cousin Gunjan..anything is easy.

I got hired as a fashion designer. I was to be Sir- tut, I mean KT's assistant. I don't know why, but he likes everyone to call him KT. Khadoos kahi ka.😡

I have never seen a more stubborn guy in my LIFE!!! Yes, once my clothes got dirty because of HIM and then he accused ME of getting his so called designs dirty.

Nowadays, KT looks at me like Vihaan used to look at me, only difference is that KT's look seems to have way more passion and love in it. I am attracted to KT, there's no doubt in that. However much, I try to stop my heart, it keeps on screaming his name. But no. This time I will not listen to my heart. I will get nothing but pain. The worst pain I could imagine. I can't afford to break down this time because if I do- I am afraid that I will never be that strong Rachna again.


KT'S POV:

Today, I told Dadi about my feelings for Rachna. She was truly beaming with happiness at the news. Her nanhe was actually in love!!!

Her smile faded a bit when I told her that I still hadn't confessed my feelings to Rachna. "Buddhu" she had called me disapprovingly. "Is my Nanhe so weak as to not to say three simple words.

What did she know! How hard it was to confess my feelings to a girl who didn't seem to be at all interested in me!

I told her that too! My dadi had just chuckled😆 and said "KT, how will a girl fall in love with you?" "Change out of that suit first and be a hero!"

"Hero?" I had mumbled stupidly.

"You know in movies.." Dadi exclaimed. "College boys do all sorts of things to impress girls!"

"But Dadi this isn't college!" It's work!" I told my filmy Dadi.

"But all the same..a girl would be impressed" Dadi told me.


After that Dadi left me alone to think about it, and I had to admit that yes, a girl would be impressed for sure!"


Rachna's POV:

I can't believe what happened today!😲😳😳

KT looked extremely handsome today that I could not help but smile. I am smiling like in the college days thinking about him.

He even showed that college-boy attitude! I had never expected that from him!

But wait a moment..- why was he doing all this? Was it..to impress me? And am I actually impressed?

"No no this can't be happening" I keep mumbling under my breath.

KT'S POV:

Oh man!! I could actually tell today that my girl- oops, Rachna was impressed.😃
Hmm, Dadi not a bad idea!😉😆

Today I am happy. I saw that attraction of hers for me that I had wanted to see all along. Now, the job was simple. I needed her to realize her feelings for me. She needed to realize my feelings for her.

Rachna's POV:

I am scared. I can't be falling for KT. I have to stop myself before it's too late!

What can I do, what can I... yes that's it. Hard but the best option.

KT'S POV:

This morning, Rachna was looking unusually down. I would think that after the impression I made on her yesterday, she would be all bright and happy.

She came up to me looking all straightforward.

Without thinking once about how I would feel she murmured "Accept my resignation letter KT."

"What did you say?" I asked her, not daring to believe my own ears.

"Yes, I won't be working here anymore" Rachna replied..

"No Rachna you can't do this-"

I watched, heartbroken, as my Rachna...no..this heartless girl walk away from me.

Rachna's POV:

I apologize KT for hurting you but this is what I had to do. What you feel for me isn't love just a simple crush. Before you know it, you'll be playing around with my feelings. I won't let that happen. I will just take an exit out of your life.

KT'S POV:

I am feeling hell miserable. What right does she have to hurt me! First, her innocence made me fall for her and then she just leaves like that?!

I tore up her stupid resignation letter into pieces right after she left. How dare she!

Suddenly, I break into sobs as I took a drink. Dadi was watching me from afar unable to do anything about my state.

The next thing I see is that Dadi is talking to someone on the phone.

Rachna's POV:

I am surprised when I see KT's grandmother is calling me. Would she want to tell me off for leaving her grandson just like that? But what did I do? I never told him to love me!

I hesitantly picked up the phone ready for the blow.

I am surprised when I hear Dadi pleading to me for her Nanhe. She is telling me about his drunken state and how he has broken down.

My tears can't help but roll down my face as I heard Dadi saying that.

Unable to stop myself I say "Dadi, I'll be right there.

KT'S POV:

I shake my head to confirm that Rachna is standing in front of me. Indeed she is.


Rachna POV:

I break down into pieces seeing KT in such a bad state.

I plop down next to him on the couch.

He tries to ignore me and reaches out for another glass of beer.

I hold his arm to stop him. I shake my head. "No KT" I begged him.

He pushed my hand away and put his hands around the glass.

"KT, why are you so angry and sad?" I ask him.

KT stops midway of sipping his drink and put it down.

"You seriously don't know?" he asked me incredulously.

I shake my head but midway I changed direction and nod.

"KT, I don't want any more betrayals in my life" I say to him.

"I have broken down twice already" I know that you will do the same and break my trust."

KT looked at me in disbelief. "Who are you to judge me?" he asked of me.

I try to say something.

He put a finger to my lips. "Just because two men turn out to be wrong for you does not mean that every guy in this world is wrong."

Tears roll down my face. "But I just can't muster up the courage to love someone again" I told him as I broke down into his arms.

He put his arms around me and said "But believe me Rachna, I will not be like the others, I truly love you!"

When I said nothing, he cupped my face in his hands and said "Look at me."

I looked up at his face nervously.

"What do you see in my eyes?" he asked me, his voice full of hope.

I searched his face for any other signs but the only thing I could find was pure love.

I blinked my eyes several times to make sure this was true.

"Love.." I answered back in a weak voice. I still couldn't believe that my world could get so bright.

"Rachna please believe me, I really truly love you lots, lots, lots!" KT told me passionately.

Even though tears were still coming out of my eyes, the reason for them had changed. First, I had been broken and sad. But now I was truly happy. I let out a small smile.

KT'S POV:

When I saw that smile of hers, I knew it. She had taken a chance, just for me, to love me. At that moment I knew, I would not let her down-ever.

I grin foolishly at her like I was the happiest man on the earth, which I was, and she smiled right back at me. I walk up to a shelf with a vase of roses on it. I gesture for her to come over.

She obliged smilingly and came over to stand by me.

I pulled out a bunch of roses and knelt before her. "Rachna, I-I love you, will you..marry me?" I asked her nervously.

Rachna picked out a rose that she felt was the most beautiful and replied, "Yes I will marry you..because I-I.." she trailed off looking anywhere but at me.

"Because?" I asked her naughtily.

"Because I love you too dammit!" Rachna told me as she slapped my shoulder playfully.

I immediately stood up and took her in my embrace. I couldn't believe this was happening.

"Really?" I asked her.

She nodded shyly as she smiled a little.

I cupped her face and gave her a kiss on her cheek. "Thank you my lady love" I told her with a wink.

She giggled a little when I said that. I smiled. This was what I wanted and I would forever keep her happy.

She looked up at me her eyes full of trust, that I knew I would never break. I will always be by her side.

"Thank you Rachna" I said kissing her forehead.

"Your welcome" Rachna told me jokingly.

I laughed a little not sure what to say next.

"Hey KT" she said to me.

"Yeah?" I asked her.

"Please promise to never drink again" she ordered me.

"But what about on special occasions?" I asked her.

She looked thoughtful for a few moments and then finally nodded. "Okay, but only on special occasions." She smiled.. proud and satisfied that she had managed to get her future husband under control.

"Okay I will promise, but you will have to kiss me" KT told her suddenly.

Rachna gasped. "KT!" she snapped.

"Please.." I requested her.

"Okay fine" she told me to which I was surprised.

"Close your eyes" she added.

I shook my head. "You will run away if I do that."

"No I won't!" Rachna snapped at him. "Where's that trust we were talking about?"

When she said that I couldn't help but close my eyes. "Okay.." I said eagerly.

Rachna's POV:

I smiled naughtily to myself. Oh- he was the best!!

I shyly gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and unable to help myself I ran out of the room.

Dadi must've figured out that KT and I sorted things out by my blushing face because before I went out, she said, "See you later bahu!"

I smiled at Dadi and gave her a tight hug. "Oh Dadi, what would I be if I didn't have your grandson in my life?"

"Not sure" Dadi told Rachna, and they both burst out laughing.😆😆