SaJan SS ~ Perfect Disaster ~ love story of long-distanced newly weds

Chapter One

The Newly Weds

"You can change there.You must have been feeling hard to handle this dress"

This was the first thing my husband said to me at our wedding night. And I just nodded while I had huge disappointment on my face which I tried to hide perfectly.

I looked at him through mirror while dealing with my heavy jewelry, which I wore because of my mother's wish. He was taking out his watch and putting his mobile n wallet on side table. I looked away as I felt him turning.

Without any interaction, he went to change in washroom while leaving me all alone in his room...our room..I guess..

I was done getting free from all stuff.. i sat on the chair..while looking at the big room... It was good no doubt..which was the only thing that made me happy on my wedding night..

My mind was clouded with thoughts...I couldn't understand why did i dressed up ? N that too without my wish to wear all that khandani jewelry given by my in laws..i sighed..and my thoughts broke as i saw him coming out in his night suite while drying up his hair with towel.

I avoided looking at him while going to change...but still I felt like he did stare at me..n unconsciously I wrapped my duppata myself more possessively.. Before closing door I was able to find him embarrassed which made me smile definitely.

After taking a shower, I felt myself alive n fresh.. But indeed was completely tired enough to embrace sleep.. After drying up my hairs bit..as I stepped out in room I found it dark .. N only a side lamp lighted.. I saw someone sleeping on right side of bed. I cursed the person as I had habit to sleep on right side of bed n now I had to lie on left side.. There was no reason that I could have avoid sharing the same bed with my newly husband ..in whom I wasn't now interested at all.. The bit excitement had died till now...

I never wanted to get marry.. I just couldn't understand why there was need of this relation with a person about whom you could never be sure.. Who is so unreliable.. Or to be trusted...and gets the high rank in relations.. N all the lessons ended up being patient n comprise.. Ughh ..I could never understand what is this craze in idiotic generation to be in love or marriage... I always wanted an independent life... No worry of being on gun points..

But as my parents forced me to get marry a young well educated n established rich handsome and apparently honest n simple guy after I graduated in fashion designing .. I couldn't find any reason to say no.. Or I knew from start I can't say no to my parents.. Ugh..these parents always raise their daughters like the way they couldn't say no to them.. Why why ??

I guess I could never get answers to these series of questions ..

With these thought I let the sleep embraced me..

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I was so used of waking up at eight that even the last day's tiredness and mental tension couldn't make me go back to sleep.. I turned to her side while tossing back to sleep.. Firstly I avoided looking n closed eyes to make myself go back to sleep..but I couldn't.. As I opened eyes ..I saw my newly married wife.. Who looks more reasonable now..simple..n attractive.. There was something in her face.. Slight cuteness.. Which made me smile lightly.. I recalled how being with her last night made me bit nervous and confused .. It wasn't that It happens with me.. I was great in charming any girl.. But that wasn't any girl..she was now on called by name as my wife..whom I don't even know properly..

After being successfully running business with dad, my mom left no way for me to avoid marriage.. I wasn't much interested in it.. It was never in my plan.. But I did expect something may be from this marriage..which was making me sad now.. Ughh these expectations...always kills a person..

I saw her being squeezed in herself at the corner of bed.. I sighed on seeing her without blanket... I looked at the blanket I had on me.. I took it n covered her with it.. Finding her pulling blanket securely around herself in sleep ..I recalled the moment I have seen her last night..in bridal gown..her long hair were lightly now wrapped in a catcher..she looked beautiful no doubt...It took me seconds to recover .. And I guess it was her reaction that brought me back..I was embarrassed .. How could I give away this impression that her husband didn't say anything to her but did stare ? Ughh.. I need to relax.. And think something else...

I left to get fresh...

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I was so happy being in room all my self when I woke up ... It was good not seeing him in morning ..but that made me angry on him too .. He shouldn't have left me all alone when he knows I was new at his place...but I was also comfortable alone ...

I walked downstairs after getting sure that dress looked pretty on me. I had left hair open. I was searching for him when one of maid came to me with a glass of juice.. I smiled bit being served like this.. And remembered how I had to make it myself before. At least today I didn't have to make it myself.. I saw a note along it..

" leaving for office.. If you need anything call me.. I will pick you at seven for dinner at your place.."

I couldn't smile .. I was really upset.. The hope I had in morning it brushed away .. But I reminded myself it was all I wanted to not see him.. To not get in awkward conversations...when we were not interested in each other at all.. And now I could see house all by myself.. I smiled and roamed here and there..while saving his number .. I was confused.. I knew his name at least.. samrat shergill.. But instead I typed "Nothing" and just then received call of my best friend.. I smiled widely thinking she remembered me and didn't forget in her marriage n kids . Now I knew I could spend hours with her.. I avoided all questions related to him n did lie when I had to. .. I wasn't ready yet to share my personal life with anyone... I wasn't happy about this whole idea.. Ever but everyone forced me so now I shutted them away from this topic... And I had decided to talk about anything with them except anything related to him or our relation... It wasn't any compromise or anything ... It was just a label.. I was Married now and I have not to hear anything same constantly...

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Chosing one of my fav color .. I wore the sarre...n I liked the way I looked.. Taking full time I got ready.. I looked at the clock it was past seven.. I fronwed.. And then tune in music..and took the book to pass time till he comes.it was eight n I was really upset.. So I called him..but to my shock he canceled the call.. I was extremely mad at him.. N then I received his text message ...

" in traffic..coming"

I sighed n put away the phone.. N tried to calm down myself. .I didn't know why I was being upset. He was nothing to me.. Still why did it upset me that he wasn't there in morning.. He didn't call me all day.. And now was late too...

I shouldn't get mad .. I should be happy I don't have to deal with him till now.

What I didn't realize I was thinking about him all day ... I shrugged away thoughts as heard the horn...he didn't come to changed and called me to come as was already late..

We didn't speak except he just said he was busy in work that's why came late.. I just noded..I had nothing to say ..

I thanked God as we reached at my parents place.. We didn't have to have any conversation...

Dinner went good except awkward questions which we both didn't know what to answer except having a smile to avoid answering..

I was happy being with my family.. I played with my sibling's kids..while he remained busy with my dad n brothers.. My sisters tried to ask questions but my one stern look was enough for them to shut up...

We came late night..and after changing just laid down... I smiled as he said he enjoyed dinner at my parents place.. He didn't try any other conversation later on not getting any reply from me except thank you.. He just smiled a bit at me before turning at other side to sleep . I was now mad at myself.. It had been a day with him and what we speak was nothing.. We even had not call each other by our names.. I saw the half of the blanket at my side..and looked at his back.and recalled morning when i had the blanket.. it made me slightly smile as i slid into the blanket..while turning at my side..switching off the lamp..

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We were invited at lunch by his family..I had fun with his sister n mother.. while spending time there i realized he looked at me now n then ... i figured out that he was trying to see i was comfortable or not with his family.. that's what i was doing last night at dinner ... I smiled as i texted him "I am fine"...I looked at him to see his expressions ...and i grinned seeing him smiling..and as we looked at each other we shared a smile...

It was a good feeling.. to have a person...who could alone make you smile..even when you are surround by many..

It was good time as we both enjoyed at his parent's place.

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It was a good day despite we hardly talk to each other... i thought as we get back to my place.. Our place.. it would take time to use we,our,us instead of i ,you,her or his..

There was a smile on her face..that made me at least satisfied for a while.. i liked the way she noticed n texted me.. i smiled again thinking as i take out my watch.. i looked at her through mirror.. the smile had gone away ..she was staring at the letter she received as we had returned...

Before i could have question her anything , she went away to change putting the letter in side table.. I stared at the closed door and the side table.. I ignored the thoughts of looking .. i felt creepy on even thinking like that... i could ask her instead of looking at the letter myself..

i took my laptop and sat on bed on my side...started working to take my mind away from her..

She was back after a while.. looked much dull than before.. He was unable to concentrate seeing her like this.. there was always silence between them but this was not letting him to be himself.. even it doesn't bother him..she was no one to him...still the entry of new person in his life was effecting him..and he knew he took a responsibility by marrying her..

I smiled seeing the email.. i looked at her back..

"Do you like New York?"

It was me to ask her.. She looked back at me like she wasn't sure i was asking her...

"Don't know.."

Her brief answer killed my little excitement... I sighed while putting away my laptop..and looked at her who were just sitting beside me closing her eyes and folding arms around chest..

"What happened?"

She opened eyes n looked at me with bit surprise.. She nodded negatively... I knew she is avoiding telling me..

"It is about letter right? What was in the letter that is bothering you so much?"

I insisted to tell me..

"I don't want to share"

She looked away as said bit rudely.. I couldn't understand how to assure her i wanted to help her.. I held her wrist as i had feared she is thinking to leave...As she looked at me with her wide eyes.. I instantly left it..

"Sorry Gunjan.. Please"

I requested this time even more politely and softly thinking she might melt.. She stared at me for a moment..and turned again... i was confused that now what should i say ..before i could arrange words in my mind i saw the letter in front of my face.. i wasn't sure she was giving me or not... i took it while saw her getting up and moving towards the window..

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It came.. the letter came.. but it was too late.. I had applied for Job in Balenciaga a Fashion House in Paris . No one thought i could get a reply... thats why i had left the hopes after six months ... and now here I am married now n i m getting this offer to work in a Fashion House in Paris..My dream finally could be a reality.. but how ? Why did i marry him? I shouldn't have.. i should have argue with mom dad.. i shouldn't have said yes.. I m not even happy after marrying him.. we hardly know each other ... we hardly talked to each other.. Urghh ! Stop Gunjan Stop Gunjan ! It can't happen now.. i should accept it.. I didn't have to rude with him.. he was just asking.. ..

"Wow ! It's osam.. It's a good news..Why are you mad after reading this letter?"

I turned as find him happy.. I felt angry on him now.. i ignored him..

"Gunjan I am speaking to you.."

I realized he had come near me.. I looked at him with a complain in eyes .. He looked confused standing in front of me seeing like this..

"Congratulations...[ i looked at his smiling face blankly ]

Would u please explain what is the matter? I m unable to read it from your face trust me"

I was annoyed bit as i realized Why It should be him to whom i have to talk ? But to making him at ease i spoke finally..

"Before marrying you i applied for this job ..but didn't hear for six months so i said yes to you.. Now this letter ...doesn't matter... Now i can't go to Paris.."

"Why you can't go?"

I was now confused as he asked me this.. I didn't know the answer.. Of course because of him.. how could he allow her wife to go Paris alone when we just got married ?? wasn't that enough to say no ??

"Don't annoy me ..Why were you asking me about New York?"

I asked him putting an end to the discussion

He hold my hands..and dragged me to the bed.. n gestured to sit.. I sighed as i sat..he still had my hands as sit near me..I didn't know why i was allowing him ...but i guess i had no reason to take my hands back..

"You want to take this job?"

He asked me.. I nodded briefly..

"But ..."

"If you are thinking about me , then don't.. I m not going to take this decision for you.. If you want to take this job then you should.. you don't have to worry about anything.. we will work out things.. And if you don't , then it is okay too because it doesn't matter.. I earn enough to give you everything you wish for... But You should decide what you want.. and there is no restriction or anything from my side or anyone. ... "

I couldn't believe what he was saying...

"You are saying I can take Job in Paris?"

He nodded with a smile seeing me surprisingly happy...

"Yes you can.."

I was confused and then just remembered he asked me about New York..

"But...you were asking about New York? Why?"

He smiled taking away his hands.. I pulled my hands back and unknowingly rubbed palms..

"I m moving to New York.. I told your parents before marriage that I want to continue my business there and settle over there .. They did tell you right?"

"Oh.. yah.."

I recalled when my mother was praising all about him .. she mentioned it..

He looked away as nods his head helplessly..

"That's why was asking ..But now it doesn't matter."

Before I could continue conversation , his cell phone rang.. and he left excusing himself..

I was confused.. I couldn't understand and make a decision.

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I was alone in room at night.. i had left her at her parent's place to let her think n decide n also talk to her parents... I knew it wouldn't be as easy to handle our parents' end.. I knew it wasn't what i had planed or expected.. but i couldn't ignore the fact that it was somewhat her dream to do.. like i have my own dreams..and i didn't want her to give up on what she wished for.. I know it would be hard ..even it is stress to even to think about how we will work out our marriage in all of this.. i never have heard anything good about long-distance relationships.. But it didn't matter..because this relation was never a priority by both of us..

I closed eyes..thinking about the past two days spent with her.. she was not much fond of speaking.. or with me i guess.. but she wasn't bad that i could not think to be with...

As my cell buzzed.. it brought me back in reality.. the name was shown "unnamed"... i picked up the call.. n said "Hello , Who's there?"

"Samrat It's Gunjan.. Can you send driver to pick me please?"

I looked at the watch.. it was past eleven... She had said she would stay and now she wants to come back at this time?

Before i was able to reply there she continued.." i am sorry i shouldn't have call this late..bye"

I stared at the cell phone blankly.. She wasn't normal .. I grabbed my jacket and car keys while leaving my place..

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In about fifteen minutes , he was outside her home.. he texted her .. "Come outside.."

She wasn't sure about the text...till her sister who was watching stars outside window told her that there is a car outside..

She got up quickly grabbed her purse..n informing her family that she is leaving.. rushed outside...

He looked at her as he found her staring at him after getting in the car

"What?"

He asked her getting confused..

"Why did you come?"

"First tell me what happened?"

Samrat questioned her while driving car..

"Mom dad thinks I'm crazy.."

She looked outside the car disappointingly..

"I thought the same when you disconnected the call.."

She bit the tongue.. She had realized that after not getting any answer.. but she recalled what he said.. he said about disconnecting..she looked at him..n smiled a bit..

"I am Soory It was unreasonable to call at this time.."

"It is fine..Now...??"

He made her feel comfortable as far as he could have been able to..

"Mom asked me .. that would you too move to Paris? "

Samrat didn't reply to her question and remained silent till they were at home.. Gunjan sighed as she found her moving in without much caring about her..

She was in room waiting for him to come.. so she could at least confirm the No' answer.. and also could bury the dream.. her parents would never let her take this decision...

She slept waiting for him but he didn't come... In morning when she woke up she realized he didn't come at all...It was about near dawn but he didn't call her , msg her ...she cursed herself.. she should not have discuss all of this with him at first place.. she thought...

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It was night when she was having dinner all by herself when he was back..he joined her in dinner..and smiled at her..which made her ignore him..she couldn't understand how could he smile after making her worried from last night..

"were you mad at me?"

She asked while serving herself.. not looking at him..

"No..of course not.."

"then why are you being so normal? you didn't reply to me last night..and all this day you didn't bother to at least text me to inform where are you? or how am i? Is it too much to expect from so called husband? "

He didn't bother to reply her as she gets bitter while continuing..and took his plate to place in kitchen.

She was annoyed at the silence.. She was frustrated with everything going in her life since she said Yes to Stupid Marriage.. She just wanted to be away from all of this trap..

She followed him in kitchen as get finished with her dinner..she saw him washing his plate himself.. she was unable to understand him..

"I need an answer"

he saw her standing in way... this time he had blank face..

"Come in room..."

She made face as he left asking her... Just then she saw the maid entering.. she gestured her to do the work n went to listen his answer..

As she entered in room... she found him waiting for her.. he forwarded her a file... she confusingly took it..

"I arranged everything .. We will leave for New York after two days.. and then from there i have booked your flight for Paris.. I arranged an apartment there and every thing you might need.. and i convinced your parents too So you could stop worrying yourself and take a decision.. I tried to figure out any way but I am Soory I can't move to Paris almost for a year..after that I would try to do so or we will think after a year about this...It is still your decision to chose the job or not.. I m just making it easy for you to say yes so you don't have to reason yourself to stay...and I am Soory You expected from your so called husband .. I never have been in a relationship where i have to ask or inform so i didn't know i should call you or text you...Even so ... I expect just a little respect and patience from my so called wife.."

He tried to be as calm as he could possibly be..

She sighed as sat on the bed.. after he left to change.. She couldn't believe he did all of this for her..

Later night , she saw him working while she was just reading magazine...She decided to initiate the conversation considering she was at fault ..

"Why did you do this all?"

He stopped n looked at her for a while..and then get back to his work..

"I didn't want you to give up on your dream just because you got married unwillingly to a person you don't like and know.."

She bit her tongue realizing her husband was more honest while being angry..

"I like honesty.."

She avoid looking at him n suppressing the smile..she looked above found him looking at her...She smiled seeing him surprised at least once in a while she had managed to do that ...

"I am Soory.. Truly I am .."

She apologized for her behavior...

"It's okay You don't have to Say Sorry ..i was wrong to answer you like that Sorry"

She smiled and he smiled back briefly before getting back to his work.

"Did you like me?"

He looked at her with surprising look.. He didn't know they were having a conversation that longer..He smiled on thinking the circumstances on saying yes or no.. He put away his laptop ..as decided to give full attention to his So Called Wife.

"It'a hard question.."

She make face and put away the magazine as focused attention on him..

"You should answer nothing but truth.."

"I don't know so i can neither like you nor dislike you.."

"You don't want me to take this job because you want me to be away...?"

He laughed at her ..which she didn't like...and was about to leave from there to sop being embarrassed... but before that he stopped her by grabbing her arm..

"Hey.. Where are you going?"

"In hell.. You can continue laughing.."

He suppressed his smile after that..

"ok ok.. I won't laugh.. and answer your question is no... It is going to be your decision always to go or not .."

She got a little satisfied...

"You don't have any girlfriend or any affair in New York?"

He looked at her with wide eyes.. not shocked at her question instead couldn't understand her jealousy..

She looked at him.. and got to know she can't give away wrong impression..

"I don't trust people easily and husband is the least trust worthy person .."

He shrugged away her bitterness like usual..

"You are way bitter than you look.."

He mumbled slowly but enough to let her hear..

She was least bothered about it..after some silence she spoke.

"Thank You.."

"What?why?"

He thought might she have felt bad..

"Thank You for everything.."

She looked at him who had already laid down ... He replied her with a warm smile.. which made her smile too..

"Good night"

She smiled was he switched of his side lamp..she switched off her lamp too as smilingly decided to sleep...