Originally posted by: AreYaar
Exactly...actually to elaborate on my previous point...they are BOTH the cause of each other's misery as well as salvation...it's all about which side of the coin you choose to look at...Rudra killed Paro's husband (haan woh uska pati nahin tha technically😆)...yet he also saved her life...he kept her captive in his house as a witness...but always protected her and saved her life time and again...Paro's definitely got one thing right...they both aren't meant to stay away from each other...Destiny brings them together come what may...even if their own internal conflicts seperate them, Paro's every reliable Bholenaath makes their paths cross over and over again...and this time they both have something to contribute to this seperation...Paro has trapped herself through this vow and has to follow through with it based on her characterization...and Rudra can't help but feel betrayed and abandoned based on the past heartbreak he's suffered...
As for Rudra's fear of falling in love...oh he is definitely wary of being betrayed...that's one big part of it...the other big part of it is that he feels unworthy of being loved...time and again he's asked that question rhetorically and answered it himself..."Itna bura hoon main?"...he feels that he's so beyond hope as a person that he is incapable of being loved or loving someone...his mother having left him at that point and him having been a naughty/willful child...somewhere these things combined in his mind to make him think that his mother left him because he gave her such a hard time by not listening to her...that he was a "bad" kid...and that feeling has carried on to adulthood...he doesn't consider himself a GOOD man...an HONORABLE man, yes...but not a GOOD man...he carries those scars mentally...
The fear of abandonment is a big part of his insecurities...and they highlight that time and again...most recently in yesterday's epi when he thanks Paro for saying she will always be with him...and the fact that he's reached a stage where he's sharing so much of himself willingly with Paro speaks for the faith he's developed in her being there with him always...but the scars are still pretty raw inside...his outburst over Mala proves that...this is just a temporary coating on the problem...he still has his doubts when it comes to love...cuz he's seen the most selfish side of love in a sense too and he's lost faith in it...Paro has come a long way in restoring his faith, no doubt...but that faith still remains to be tested...and there's a big test coming up now.
Agreed! Destiny has played its part in bringing them together then keeping them together. Lets see what their destiny has in store ahead. The CVs are going for the classic getting lost in ghum ka mela 😆 (as usual bear with my classic spellings).
You dug deep and rightly so, Rudra's insecurities do surface within himself. Lets look at his feeling of unworthiness to begin with. I remember that dialogue of Laila calling him the fire. Rudra's usual mode is, or should I say up to some extent was of fire because of his past demons. Thus it is possible he believes that fire cannot be loved by anyone. However he was in for a surprise when Paro declared his love. Despite Paro's love and him softening him, he still has a long way to go. Oh boy am I glad that he does, thats what makes this a fun ride 😆.
The fear of being betrayed lies with him in connection with Mala. However I wonder that even after Rudra gets a closure from Mala and things get better for their relationship, would this childhood demon still stay with him. Sometimes our past especially childhood memories remain with us, even with positives coming our way, the demons reside within, they may become dormant but still would reside. Would this happen with Rudra too?
Edited by Struggler - 11 years ago
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