Hey guys! I had written this work on my phone , and decided to post it. Usually whatever stuff I write on my phone is extremely weird. I don't know how this turned out to be. Wrote whatever that came into my mind. I hope you all like what I wrote . The comments please up till 5 page?
I don't know why this weird title , please suggest some other one! :p
Life
Kria had never been the girl , who would ever stake someone else's happiness , to receive at least one bit of happiness. She had been selfless since she was a kid , showing that side of hers by either giving her favorite toy to a kid who didn't have the money to get one just to see the kid smile , or to crush her feelings for her love's happiness.
In her 20 years of life , 15 years she spent living for others , making others happy , even if it required her to crush her heart or put her happiness at stake. But she just didn't live for others , she even lived for her dance. Dance was the only medium through which kria could express her feelings , vent out her frustration , which she could never express or vent out through words. In matters of dance , she never listened to what her mom would say.
Her mom never understood her passion for dance. Maybe , because of the communication gap between her and her mom. They hardly met! Her mom was usually busy in her office , and tours. But , when they met , kria would never want to spoil her mom's mood by bringing up this topic , so her mom had always thought that it was just her hobby.
Kria had never said this to anyone , but she had yearned for love ,for care , for affection. It wasn't that her mom didn't give her that , but she didn't give enough , she didn't. And in mumbai , she received it from her friends and her love. That one year in mumbai , had been the best year of her life , cause she had lived it up for herself , she had danced , she had loved , made some great friends. That year had been too good to be true for kria , it was like a fairytale coming true. But her fairytale year didn't get a happy ending. Her mom got to know that she had not followed what smriti had asked her to , and taken those promises in anger. Sitting in her room locked , she could have easily ran away , climbing down the window.
But she didn't. Why? Cause she had seen something in her mom's eyes , that she never wanted to see . And that was disappointment. She had disappointed her mom , and that thought bought immediate tears in her eyes. But , she knew she couldn't disappoint her friends , they needed her. That night , as she slept crying , she dreamt about her and rey , their relationship , it had just started , and now she didn't even know whether she would be able to see him once more or not.
She still remembered , as she had entered the stage , her feet were shivering. 13th February was the first and the last day , kria had been scared to dance. Scared cause she knew it was the last time she would be dancing to express her emotions. And she had danced , danced with all her heart. As the song ended , kria had heard her heart beats stop for a second. She tried to make herself believe that this wasn't the end , that she would dance again.
The day swayam had called her and with a heavy heart informed that rey had moved on . She hadn't cried , rather she had smiled , she had laughed. Smiled cause her love was happy and laughed at her own fate. She remembered the day , her mom was lying on the hospital bed , her last words "Live your life sweetheart." . No! She didn't want to live her life at the stake of her mom's death , she was the only person kria had. But yet again she didn't cry. Abhishek had handled everything , while kria had sat in a corner , waiting for this nightmare to end.
People thought kria had become weak because of the happenings , that wasn't the truth. In fact these incidents had made her stronger than ever . She had faced losses , and knew the importance of gains . She didn't have the fear of losing anything she gained , because she knew even if she lost it , it wouldn't affect her anymore . She had understood that life wasn't about just making others happy .
She had to give her happiness importance as well. She had been determined to let go off those haunting memories , and live her dream , live her life , at least half of it.
Now , when she had returned to st.louis. The strength which she had inside , had suddenly gone into hibernation. No! She hadn't expected her friends to come hug her , and tell her how much they missed her. But she hadn't expected them to taunt her for her achievements! Had they ever tried to find her , get in contact with her? No! They hadn't ! So how do they get the right to feel offended if she went to New York to pursue her dream! The anger wasn't weakening her , it was the fact that she knew the reason . They were happy that she had achieved so much , but they were angry that she had left without a word. They had expectations from her for their friendship , but she had just left them alone! That was the problem in her life she thought!
In an attempt to make everyone happy , she would raise their expectations from her , and she wasn't that strong to live upto their expectations. Kria was a fighter , but didn't a fighter ever give up? Fighters were strong but they were humans after all! And now she didn't want to fight back , she had lost all strength to be the same fighter kria ghai she had been . She had found her share of happiness in fulfilling rey's dream for the dance academy . The injury had bought them close , the village trip more closer , that she had started loving him even more. She didn't know why she had agreed to those three stupid tests , maybe her heart was too desperate to know whether rey loved her or not. He had passed those tests with ease. And today when she was going to propose him , she was scared. Scared , cause somewhere her heart knew that rey wasn't ready to accept his love towards her. He wasn't ready! Yet she went down on her knees , and proposed him. She looked at his expression , it was blank. Yet the small smile on the corner of his lips , made her believe that now maybe she could live her life wholly.
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