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Ignore typos and yeah poor writing , something didn't let me give my best . But I guess I managed to make u all feel Meher !!
MR. IRRESISTIBLE
Warm comforting hand twining with my still open palms squeezing them gently , no ounce of energy is left to assure him, to comfort him back , little warmth is the only comfort to my numb body .
" Akdu !! I never knew you can get this angry !! " I hear his complaint in a cracky tone.
" I don't really mean what I said baby " he is blaming himself.
" You cannot leave me again!! " A sob escapes between his words .
" How many more times you leave me?? " he says in a accusing tone , gripping my palm more possessively , " you still don't understand right !! I am nothing without you ,when I said , you are the curse , it's not you , it's the voidness you left in me, trust me I cannot take it any more baby " he continues .
Now how can I tell him , I came back not to leave him , I needed his presence around me.
" I cannot let you go alone Meher " he says .
I raise up heaving heavily , as Air in my lungs knocked out hearing him , he cannot come with me , should not!! I want him to live my life too. He lits home with his smile.
" Doctor !! Doctor !! Doctor " he yells loudly .
I feel life passing away when he releases my hand , before I scare , I slips into oblivion.
My strained body raise up, when I suck huge breath in , sudden gush of breath burns my throat, I try opening my heavy lids , a shrill ran trough my body realising my inability to open.
Oh Meri jindagi
tu hai Meri Awaragi
jis din tu mujhe mil jayegi
thum jayegi meri Awaragi
Awaragi ... Awargi ...
My body relax embracing music of Him, Abeer sung it whenever wished countless times and every nite , I dozed into sleep hearing it .
Awaragi ...Awaragi ..
I open eyes with little energy I gained , they are dazzled , I focus more keenly adjusting eyes to brightness. It's light on my head , I try to shield my vision with Palm , but it was sticked with medical equipment , beeps buzz into room making me tense , I roll my eyes , all I could see is ceiling .
I hear approaching foot steps of someone .
" Meher !! " I hear Abeer's concerned voice .
" Wait a minute baby , I... I will get back with doctor , Don't pass out again , please , stay with me , I will be right back!! " he says in agitation and runs out.
Honestly I am falling apart again , but I wide opened my eyes to keep me awake . Abeer sounded strained , where are Ma, Bua and Tunnu ?? They might be worried as well.
I hear herd of steps barging in , " every one please wait outside " some one ordered , might be doctor , he looks Old with all grey hair , might be well experienced.
" you made it girl " he says with appreciating smile , I blink hearing him.
" not anymore , you had enough rest "
He flashes torch in my eye to examines me . He then scribbles something on the pad and hands to nurse standing beside him .
" You will be fine very soon " he assures with a smile and walks out .
Nurse adjusts my bed, in a way that I can sit leaning back .
" Meher " I hear crying mom, Bua and Tunnu follows her .
Three are crying in Unison !!
" I.. I am f I.. Ne " I couldn't voice out properly , it's rasp
Abeer is no where around.
" Meher baby , you better take rest , don't strain " Bua says in between tears .
" Where is Abeer ?? " adjusting my vocal I question .
" Jiju is talking with doctor " Tunnu answers .
" oh , don't talk about that boy " nurse shakes her head going through doctors prescription.
I look at her in confusion .
" Boy is insane , he was strumming guitar singing your favourite song all the time , " she says with a lovely smile and furrows her brows in next moment .
" He made hell a lot disturbance in hospital " she continues with a complaint.
So he was singing song in real to Sooth me , this is the Abeer I am scared of , his love is hard to resist .
Before I question about his where abouts , he steps in , he looked drained , has dark circles , could see thin layer of tears he is trying to dam . I already hates his beard , I love him the way he was when we were together and now it's grown even more. He is no less than a caveman.
" you scared us Meher " Ma cries holding my palm , " we almost lost you !!" Ma continues between sobs, I fold my hand with hers to assure her .
" Di , I am really very sorry , it's all because of me , I promise di , I will not let you down again " Tunnu says kneeling down beside.
Abeer is quite , I could see , his muffling his cries , he is literally shivering , his eyes are turned to deepest Red with strains of dammed tears .
I smile at him , he needs this assurance . He rolls his teary eyes chewing inner walls of his cheeks.
" she needs , Don't make her strain " nurse warns suctioning medicine into empty syringe.
" Show your arm girl " nurse says turning to me , next moment Abeer is beside me .
Nurse catches her head huffing , " for god sake boy , now she conscious!! " she yells.
Abeer folds Rim of my sleeve and holds my arm in a way letting her to inject , she shoots a glare and injects medicine , once she is done , she pressed a cotton ball against spot and asked me to keep it pressed , but Abeer sat beside me adjusting on the little space pressing cotton ball.
" patient seriously needs rest , leave her for now " she says to every one .
" Take care Meher " Ma says kissing my forehead and moves to exit , Bua too follows Ma after caressing my face , patting it gently .
Nurse glances back at Abeer , he is not heeding to look at her at all, " Abeer " I say wetting my lips , they are dry , chopped slightly. he looks intently , my heart churns weighing heavier than ever, I want him by my side even ,I avert my gaze to nurse .
" shouldn't have asked , knowing you " she retorts and walks out leaving us .
He is still holding , no hugging my hand. His heart beat is rapid than ever , beating against my arm he is embracing.
I leans into him, placing my head on his shoulder , he adjust head such that , his chin is on my head .
" I am fine " I whisper .
Hearing me , he adjusts and says " no " , he then holds me more securely.
My guard is off , masking hate when he is in pain is the least I wish , I need him either.
Wonder why my heart spurts to pour out ,stored pain to him , to him alone . When he is the pain !! How can he again be the soother of pain he gives me.?? His warmth melts Iceles slicing me so gently.
This the return of that cruel moment I need him , need him to hold me , need him to console me , need him to make me smile . I could not abjure my debility like every time.
I hate him ! But I still need him.
He is still shivering , holding my arm securely , twining my fingers with his .
" Abeer listen " I say weekly.
" Shut up ! Just keep quite , don't strain your throat , you were on ventilator " he says caressing hole on my neck.
" Abeer I am fine , it's not that burning like before " I say cautiously.
" what's the need to go alone in the midnight , you should have asked me to accompaign you .??" He shouts .
" Bua was with me , I didn't find you in room "
" what's the purpose of mobile , you should have made a call to me " . He asks in a cracky tone .
He don't understand, I have no right , he is not my husband anymore.
" I am sorry Meher " he says , his tears are dripping my hair .
" I was scared to see you hurt "
" why ?? "
" I cannot see you shattered like a glass "
He cannot see me shattered !! But he shattered me before and now again. Wonder will he ever comes to know that.
No!! I cannot let him see , like his reflection in glass ,he breaks witnessing me shattered.
" why ?? " I question him again
He is silent , his hold loosens .
" You don't need to , I could very well manage my family . " I say rejoining my broken facade.
Now my heart is drumming harder than his braced by fear, silence continues like eternity , after a few moments , his loosened hold tightens on my arm , cajoling my heart .
" Meher , Go to sleep , u need rest " he says breaking silence .
I gaze up tilting my head to look at him , he clears tears pooled in the corner of his eyes and smiles.
" Don't worry , I will sit right here beside you " he says pointing at a chair beside cot .
Do I look that obvious ?? Does any part of my broken facade is letting him see me ?? Actual me !!
I avert my eyes to avoid his gaze and my eyes spots another thing I love most after him ,
his Guitar!!
" were you really strumming guitar " words slip out before I get a grip.
I hear his smile and looks back at him , he is chewing his lips controlling his emotions .
" All the time !! " I ask him , he nods his head , shutting eyes.
" was it not tuff ?? " I question , failing ,terribly failing in fixing faucet to emotions .
" You were never easy baby " he says , a smile escapes his lips .
He then covers me with blanket and asked me to sleep humming The song I love most .
I realize how tuff it is going to control resurgent feelings and falls a sleep.
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" Gold digger "as the recent accuse of Kubaer malhotra resettles in my mind , I came back to prove , not to get accused again . I cement back my broken facade not letting Abeer witness his effect on me .
I no longer hear him singing. Good seems cemented little quickly . I wet my dry lips still closing eyes .
I feel something rolling against my lips, I open my eyes rubbing them , I see Abeer's face very close to mine. His eyes are smiling .
" what are you doing " I question in little shock .
He shows a lip balm with what he feels as cute bugs bunny smile .
" now that you are awake , let me apply it properly " he says and continues without my permission.
" I know how much you hate them , when they are dry, " he says , then sits beside me and continues , " I still remember how much you scold me when ever I smudge them with ...hmmm .. Mine " completes with a blush.
I could mentally hear cracking sound of BROKEN - CEMENTED FACADE CRUMBLING.
SHUT UP !! I Yells using little gained energy , glaring at him.
He is now smiling , blushing specially teasing my patience , my resistance .
Wonder why he has to be Mr. Irresistible!!
He is a Irresistible pain healer!! ,who can make me forget pain he gave me and crawl into his arms , Irresistible charmer !! Who can beguile me .
" Baby don't shout " he leans forward caressing spot left by ventilator on throat .
"It's still Raw " he continues in concern.
Gosh he is an Irresistible baby sitter .
My Stupid heart is already rejoicing , I should get a grip of my drifting heart.
End of update
😆 How was it ?? I started with aim to give a very emotional update , but I cannot let any my readers leave without smile .ewww it's my weakness 😡, but I hope , I made u all little emotional . Thank you so much for reading and pls hit like button and drop ur precious comments .
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Madhu
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