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August 21, 2015. That was the day Abeer told me he had loved me all these years.
August 22, 2015. That was the day I realised I still loved Abeer as well.
August 23, 2015, was the day I realised he had given up on me, on us.
August 24, 2015, was the day I decided I wanted to fight for us.
So I fought. And I fought hard.
"Stay away from me!" Abeer snapped. "Just.. leave! We.. we can't happen again, Meher!"
"How could you?! How could you not have told me that you loved me all these years, Abeer?!"
"What do you want, Meher? Okay, I loved you! Are you happy?! Happy that I admitted it? Does that satisfy your ego, Meher Purohit?" he said bitterly.
Boy, he had it all wrong.
"What do you want?!" he asked me, again.
"Come home," I replied.
"I can't do this, Meher!" he was on the verge of crying now.
"Abeer.. I still have hope," I admitted.
I couldn't do this anymore. I couldn't go another day lying to the world, lying to him, lying to myself that I didn't care about him anymore.
Because I did care. And now, I was going to fight for it.
"You're the one who saved me!" I provoked him, as he still remained speechless, just staring at me in shock. "I love you, okay?! I love you!"
"It's never gonna be the same, Meher!" he shouted, running his hands through his hair.
"I know that, Abeer."
"..I don't think you do, we.. we can't be one anymore, Meher. I.. we hate each other."
"Is that what you're doing? Trying to make me hate you?!" I asked, after his umpteenth attempt of pushing me away.
No reply.
"What, am I wrong?!" I urged him on.
"After everything, thats what you're doing? Quitting? You're not a quitter, Abeer!"
"Well I guess you didn't know me after all because I quit, Meher. I can't do this anymore."
"You can fight it!" I exclaimed, my eyes full of tears.
"You just have to want it bad enough!"
"Why would I still fight for us, Meher? Why?! Because I love you?!" he shouted, on the verge of tears as well.
"That's right, Abeer - because you love me! You'll fight because you owe me that much after everything we've been through!" I snapped.
"I don't wanna see you... I don't wanna be with you.. I just ..want you to go, Meher, please. Stop. You're killing me here," he pleaded, almost desperate.
"You don't understand! I had nothing, Meher! We had to go separate ways -- the divorce had to happen!" he justified.
I wasn't buying it. I don't care if the divorce was for a good cause.. I wasn't letting him go now. Not now, not ever.
"You had me, Abeer! I was there!"
No reply.
"Do you really not feel anything? You can break through this! Fight for it! Fight for us! Feel something, anything, Abeer!" I said, wiping my tears. My cheek was full of tears, and so was his. But I didn't care. I didn't give a damn about anything but him. To hell with the world, to hell with the universe -- Abeer is all that matters.
"Tell me, Abeer! Do you expect me to believe you feel nothing at all?! Because I feel! I feel everything! And unlike you Abeer, I can't hide it anymore!"
"I can't give up on you, Abeer! I know who you are - better than anyone Abeer! And I'm not giving up. I haven't given up Abeer.. I still have hope."
"Just stop it, Meher! We.. we can't happen, this.. I can't do this," he said, dropping himself on his knees, taking his face in his hands.
"I'm not gonna stop, Abeer. Because I don't believe that you feel nothing!" I carried on, kneeling myself so we were face to face again.
"If I let myself care, Meher, all I feel is pain!" he cried.
"You have to try, Abeer. I love you. Hold on to that. Never let that go," I said, and held his face in my hands.
"Oh, what the hell," he said and smashed his lips onto mine.
"I love you."
"I love you."
Crazy or not..
..That kind of love never dies.
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Arjun
