Twisted emotions

Hi guys, i think i know where babita is coming from. I might be wrong so correct and would like your views

This is my personal experience. I was 16 getting coaching for neet and living with my best friend in rented apartment. Slowly slowly i dont what happened our friendship broke and i just couldnt understand what was happenening. She suddenly stopped talking and i was without even realising used to go behind her, stay with her.Maybe started seeing but i was ignorant. Then came the final showdown when i was blamed for breakage of friendship, leaving more confused, shattered. Ours was a 11 years friendship. For that month i was going mixed emotions which was unable to comphrend. That was the first time perferomed terrible in my coaching class. Sometimes i use to cry, sometimes try to figure out where i went wrong. My bubble bursted. I started realising that every one who seems good may not be good after all. Then came the next stage where i wanted to be bad , i wanted to be selfish, egoistic, evil person so that no one again messes up with me. I was so much bottled up inside constantly fighting between by heart and mind. Finally i gave in talked to mom. It helped and slowly slowlyi started letting it go. It used to be so harder seeing her with someone else and eyes telling me you deserve it.

I feel this id what babes is going through, her bubble just burst. She ignored all signs of troubled marriage. And when finally when that broke she is still struggling to letting it go subconsciously. She says that she has left past behind but no it is still holding her back. She is now to extreme of evil emotions so that this time she doesnt get used up. The point is she still doesnt know where she went wrong, what wrong she did or what was the moment the relationship fell. I was able to let it go when i finally introspected that even though i felt i was innocent but somewhere unintenionally i may have been responsible . Both of us were somewhere wrong. Till the time she doesnt get answers or actually introsopect. She will keep harming herself and others dear to her till she let it go. And on top of that i feel she is still insecure of her position in HS life. I really feel HS actually need to talk to her and make her realise that she is becoming the person she isnt. Till the time HS talks to her, she will keep.doing everything opp she did in previous relation. She will subconsciously keep comparing HS and ashok and will keep asking HS again and again to prove his love bcz her heart might know he is.a keeper but her mind will keep refusing. Babita actually needs to introspect her realtion and understand where she went wrong only then she will be free.

But i feel after this phase, the new babita will be forgiving, caring and giving unconditional love and most impt accepting. .

Sorry for the long post, i hope i made sense. Bcz only this way am i able to.connect with her . Will.like to know views

Thanks for sharing your story dear , I understand your POV . I guess we are so used to seeing all white characters that such flawed lead is hard to accept. I hope she grows , I am fine with her not understanding in initial stages but when she proposed and he accepted they already made a move towards relationship. Then all this I felt was bit insensitive on her part to overlook his hurt n feelings and think about herself only.

I want to see her emotional growth which is not happening right now..

^Problem yahi hai naa, she doesn't know that she's hurted him. She feels he made the right choice and it ended then and there. Couldn't see the hurt in his eyes.

Thanks for the insight @TM. Glad to read your POV. Even I have had instances where I've hurted my friends unknowingly and terribly and they have hurted me too. But sometimes you gotta overlook the shortcomings and look at the brighter and bigger future and just let go. I think as Jean said, it indeed might be forgotten and might be brought up later. Let's see.

Lovely post! I really liked the way that you described what Babita might be going through and I agree with it! Its just a phase and she will need to introspect her way out of it.