KR FF: My dear sir part 26 updated in page 104 - Page 50

Originally posted by: Archana03

Archu , avanga fanskaga update panivanga nenaichen , nee ipidi sonathum yen heart 🥺 .
Appo na Karthika iniki parka mudiyatha 😭 😭

Originally posted by: shiningstar77

Hehehe..lily sis..ungaloda sema comedy...dont worry..kala sis,iniku update panniruvaanga..

@Kala Di...ena panniruveengala?..ungala nambi vaaku koduthuten...appuram ivanga enna summa vida maatanga...chinna pullaiya kaapathirunga iniku..okay?😆

Originally posted by: Archana03

Lily sis neenge feel pannatheenge adhan nambe Don kala sis kage vaaku kuduthutaru la aporam yen kavalai padureenge 😆

Ini nambe Don sir ellam pathukuvaru lily sis 😊

Originally posted by: shiningstar77

Lily sis...ethukum alertave irunga..but ungaloda...hehehehe😆

Originally posted by: plily

Una namburen Archu . Don pathukuvaru than ana kavuthutharuna . Yethukum alerta irukunum 😈

My dear sir

part 19

A car was zooming on the deserted road...loud unclear voices and giggling and slaughing sound coming out of the car and dissolved in air..Karthik was driving the car with cheerful smile on his face..with a tint of reddish cheeks in embarrassment..

"Hey Sarada unakku pottiyaa oru aalu vandhutaanga pola irukku..un paiyan yaaro oru ponna pathi ippadi praise panraan.."Karthik's father sitting on the passenger seat beside him nudged K's mom who was seated at the back..

"Yenna Karthik appadiyaa?"Karthik's mom asked with shock..though it was fake but still she was insecured to some extend it seemed..

"Mom.. yaaru vandhaalum yenakku neenga dhaan yeppavume special.."

Karthik ice vachufying to his mom..

She grinned proudly..

"Paarunga ivan yeppavume yennoda chella pillai dhaan.."she defended her beloved son

"Sari ...yeppavume ponnungala pathi pesaadhavan ippo pesuraane yennanu kelu.."he triggered K's mom further..

"neenga solradhu sari dhaan..dai karthi..idhu yennadaa pudhu kadhai..andha ponna love paniriyaa?"

She asked with a stern voice..

"Andha alavukellam yenakku solla theiryalai.. but yenakku avala pidichirukku avlo dhaan.."he said with a shy smile..K's mom noticed a tint of pink in his cheek while answering..and she raised her brows in surprise..she had never seen him blushing over a girl.

"unakku mattum pidichaa podhumaa ...yenakellam pidikka vendaamaa?"she furthered dug the matter..

"avala paarthaa unagalukku kandipaa pidikkum maa.."he said in a firm determined voice..

"adhu yeppadi avlo strong aa solra?"

"yaennaa yenakku pidicha yellame ungalukkum pidikkum dhaane?"he said with a victorious smile as he trapped her mother in a fix..

"Nallaa pesa kathukitta thambi nee..yellam sari ..aanaa idhu love panra vayasu illai marandhudaadha..."she said in a strict mother voice..

"adhu yenakkum theriyum maa...but if at all I marry someone in future..then it would be her..if it was not her then no one ever.."he said in utmost earnest voice..

It seems his parents were taken aback hearing the seriousness of his voice..they might have shared a glance to each other in surprise..so they went silent for a moment..Karthik got suspicious and felt little awkward for being over reacted in this light hearten conversation..he know his naughty parents won't spare him and would make fun of him using his own words.. to check on his parents..cautiously he glanced towards them ..

Both showed exaggerated shock on their face..as they were stunned..

"dad...mom...pls..don't embarrass me.."he whined pouting lips like a small kid..and his cheeks turned pink in shyness..

Both looked adoringly at the cutest sight of their dear son blushing in shyness..and burst into laughter seeing his cute pout...

It's a rare sight they hadn't seen it lately..

Suddenly a loud blow of horn had drawn their attention...

"Karthik..lorry..paarthu..."his father shouted horrified..

"Karthik..."a screeching sounds of the wheels...

His parents scream...

"Karthik..."

"ammaaa..."

He got up from his sleep in a jerk with a loud shriek...his heart was thudding heavily..his paled face bathed in sweat..his breaths were shallow ...the darkness of the room seems frightening to him..fear clutched his heart..he heaved heavily..and desperately wanted to get some warmth from the chillness he felt all over his body...

The nightmare which has been cutting down the every cell of his body ever since the fatal accident , had occurred again..he tried to control his pounding heart by pressing his hand over it...he breathed deeply..and counted numbers in reverse order..he did what are all coming to his mind to distract his mind from the memories..but nothing works..the room was suffocating him, he can't breathe ..he looked the clock..the digital display showed 2'O clock..he got up from the bed and walked towards the balcony and opened the door..sudden gust of the fresh air banged on his face..and dried the sweat beats mingled with his tears..

How much I am trying to get out of this memory and move on ..but it seemed i can't run away from my curse..time to time I am drawn back to the same point where I have started..

He can't remember anything fully..half of the memory made him to feel even more pathetic..

At the end he was left with the remorse..of killing his own parents..

Fresh tears trailed down his cheeks..

Above all the fact that he had someone he loved from his past which he himself could not remember had happened to be a wakeup call to snap him out of his dream land with Raji...he gripped his hair tightly as if ripping his hair out..and tried to recall the face of that girl..whom he claimed as his love..

How miserable he couldn't s get even a glimpse of the face..or any clue of her name...but he was simply had been waiting for past five years for that mysterious girl to appear in front of him out of nowhere..he has been waiting and waiting ..but no sort of that miracle happened yet..even if such person appeared in his life and claimed him as her lover..how could he accept her whom he himself did know..or remember..

What a mess his life has become..he pitied himself for his miserable state..

"In my jinxed life how could I drag Raji in between all this mess..no I can't afford that..she deserves much more better life than this cursed fate.."

I should maintain my distance from her..as always..that would be better for her..

Staying away from Raji..the thought itself seized his breath...wrecked his heart into thousand pieces..he felt the hollowness in his heart..but he has to endure this pain ..for the sake of Raji..

"Yes...idhu dhaan sari..I must push her away from me..."

He spent the sleepless night standing in the balcony and staring at the oblivion of the sky..until the dawn breaks the darkness..

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Raji woke up with a sweet smile on her lips hearing the chirping of the birds..it was one of the peaceful dream filled sleep she ever had..needless to say that her dreams filled with her Karthik sir..with the scenes something she never even imagined..half of it were blushy blushy scenes; that flushed her cheeks..she dug her face into her palms feeling extremely shy..

Last days' incident raised new hopes in her..she felt atlast she was almost reached her destination...with a big smile on her face she got up to start a fresh day..

Raji came out of the room after taking bath..she looked as fresh as a blooming flower..the new zeal within her had gleamed her face..

Her eyes scanned all around the house to get a glimpse of the sight that her eyes craving to see ..

Suddenly she heard footsteps climbing down the stairs..her heart skipped a beat..and thudded rapidly..

"omg how I am going to face him after all the things happened last night..?"she was very much shy and nervous to face him..

He climbed down and she watched his long legs reaching near her ..but his steps didn't slowed down a bit instead he walked past her with his usual fast stride..she was surprised..and lifted her gaze to him she could only see his back as he was taking off the keys from the holder..

He turned to her side ...she could see his nonchalant face..expect for his trade mark frown between his brows..

"Raji..get ready fast..and leave my home before amma and appa come..."

"Why suddenly he is asking me to leave..?and why he is mentioning as my home..?"she looked confused..and she smelled something was not right..

"I don't want them to get wrong impression about us.."he said in a straight voice..

"Oh he was worried for my good name.."she assumed to herself..and decided to ease his stress..

"Mala aunty and uncle both are quiet understanding persons..they won't take us wrong...avanga naama good friends nu nenaichipaanga.."Raji said in excited voice blushing heavily..she didn't know why she was having so much difficultly in facing him today..

"Then It would be even worse if they jumped into such wrong assumptions.." his words darted like a sharp needle and pierced her eardrums..

"Why he is talking like this?it seems he had changed into a total different personality in the matter just few hours.."

She was snapped back from her la la land by his harsh words..then only she noticed the obvious changes in him which she should have observed way before ..

He was avoiding her gaze..and his voice showed pure indifference..his demeanor screamed out "stay away from me.."

He acted as if yesterday doesn't happen..

"Are we back to the square one?no...atleast not after the yesterday.." her heart screamed aloud ..

She can't let that happen..she can't let him to back off now after they had come this far...

"You r leaving right?"he insisted her to leave..

She jerked back from her thoughts..no it doesn't seem like a dream..then what is all these? what went wrong? she was clueless...

"No..i want to see mala aunty.."she denied to go out..

"If u want to see her ..come some other day..but not today.."he rasped out..

"Why all of a sudden u r acting so strangely ..?what's wrong? Yesterday you were.."she started to clear the misunderstanding between them ..

But he didn't even let her to finish her sentence..

"Yesterday was a mistake..don't bring that topic between us ever.." his harsh reply stopped her heart's beat for a moment..she felt it would shatter in anytime..

"No this can't be happening..it is not true.."she keep on telling to herself and boosting the courage..

"How could you say like this?"

She asked it in a mere whisper confining all her emotions in her eyes...as if her life depends in his one word..

He swallowed the lump in his throat seeing her innocent hurtful face..

He averted his gaze from her and answered..

"You may name me..atrocious, arrogant ,bull headed demon..but that is what I am...so u better stay away from me..I am leaving for jogging ..i don't want to see u here when I come back.."he had thrown the perfect pitched blow before he left the house..

Raji rooted to her place like a statue..she felt the whole house was spinning around and she felt dizzy and her legs were giving up and she slided down the floor with a thud...

"Yesterday was a mistake.."her lips whispered in a daze...and she burst into tears..

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It's been a week since he literally thrown her away from his house as well as from his heart..even though it was not in the real sense , he made that sort of an illusion atleast to her..

He had declined all her attempts to clear the things between us in a worst possible rude manner...he had abandoned even to see her not even ready to spare her a glance...clearly giving the cue that he doesn't want her in his vicinity..

He knew she was hurt..and it pained him more than her when she was trying her level best to mend the rift even though there was no fault of her own..and bearing all his cruelty despite having no clue about his unjustifiable action..

He had no choice..rather than to push her away as far as possible for her own well being..

Still he can't control his heart keep wandering in her thoughts ...and it ripped apart when she shed tears because him..he wanted to kill himself to give that pain to her..he was battling to himself but he would be the loser at both the ends..

"she may not endure it anymore..I must disappear from her sight...things she don't see won't remain in her heart as well.."in the context of keeping distance from her, unknown to his own self he was keep on thinking about her only...

His trance was broken as Vishnu dodged in his room opening the door with the bang..

It seemed he was indignant towards something..

Karthik looked at him in shock..

"Why u wanted to kick out Raji from our team?"he asked with the straight look and stern voice..

Karthik fumbled for a moment..he was not ready for that sudden attack ..

"I don't know what u r talkin...?

"Don't pretend as if u don't know anything.."vishnu cut him off in the middle..

"Vishnu ..mind ur tone.."Karthik also was getting annoyed as he was treated like a culprit by Vishnu.

"nee periya appaatakkaru PM aa ve irundhuttu po..yenakku onnum bayam kedaiyaadhu..indha moraipaiyellam yen kitta kaataadha.."he said fearlessly holding his gaze intact..

"ippa yenna venum unakku?"Karthik asked with an exasperated sigh..walking towards the window..looking outside ,showing his back to Vishnu..

"Koushik kitta Raji ya avanoda team ku yeduthukka sonniyaame..under the table dealing maadhiri..as a team leader I should be informed of this no?how could u deliberately make such decisions on ur own?"Vishnu almost shouted at him..

"Koushik team oru pudhu project panraaanga adhu previous aa Raji panna project ku similar aa irundhadhu adhaan Raji ya serthukka solli suggest panninen..idhula nee ivlo aavesa padura alavukku yenna irukkunnu dhaan yenakku theriyalai..i was just trying to help for her career growth.."Karthik said sounding as casual as possible...

"Career growth..?nijamaave adhaan reason aa?"his gaze pierced Karthik..

Karthik still avoided his gaze..

"yes ofcourse ahdaan reason vera yenna irukka mudiyum..?"

Vishnu looked at him keenly for a second and said.." Now I can see..U r not the Karthik I knew ..the Karthik I knew ,knows how to keep professional and personal relationship separately..but not this messy,clumsy guy standing in front of me..u r appearing like a complete stranger to me.."

"I don't have any personal relationship with Raji.."Karthik denied out rightly..

"Dai..indha paatti vadai sutta kadhaiyellam yen kitta solladha.. naan onnum play school ku pora paapaa illlai..unakkum Raji kum naduvula oru current odura vishayam yenakku theriyaadhunnu nenaikiriyaa?"

"Don't talk rubbish Vishnu.."Karthik was offended..

"Appo yedhukku Raji ya team maatha num nenaikara..unmaiya sollu.."Vishnu was persistent..

Karthik kept quiet for a while and taking a deep breath he said..

"I think Raji has developed some feeling for me..i don't want her to endure it..I wanted to curb that in the bud itself.."finally he gave in..

"What nonsense u r talking Karthik?Raji ku un mela feelings irukkunaa adhu nalla vishayam dhaane..adhai yedhukku cut pannanum nu nenaikira?in fact ,i would say after a long time Raji is the only good thing happened to u..adhai yendaa vendaamnu solra?inga paaru unakku Raji ya pidichirukkula..he asked looking straight into his eyes..

Karhtik avoided his gaze looking out of the window..

"Don't avoid my gaze Karthik..u like Raji right?"

"Dai..yellaam therinja neeye yeppadi daa ippadi kekura?naan yeppadi daa ..?i am not a complete man .."he said in a hurtful voice..

"loosu maadhiri pesaadha..indha depression ,amnesia laaam oru illness ae kedaiyaadhu ..Raji maadhiri oru ponnu unnoda life la irudnhaa idhu yedhuvume oru vishayamae illai.."

"But what about Raji ...she deserves better life ilaliyaa?

"Who u r to decide for her..let her decide ..ippadi yedhaavadhu thathakka pithakka nu ozharikittu Raji maadhiri oru arumaiyaana ponna miss pannidaadha..avlo dhaan solliten.."

"adhu maatum illai Vishnu ..unakke theiryaadha oru vishayam irukku.."

"yennadhu?"

"I had someone I loved from the past.."

"yennadaa solra?"

"Yes..naan oru ponna love panni iruken..and I even confessed my feeling for her to my parents.."Karthik explained about the incident he saw in his dream..

"Karthik I could be a mere piece of ur imagination da.."

"No I know I was not a dream..i very much sure of it..but yenna think pannaalum andha ponnu yaarunnu yenakku niyaabagam vara matengudhu.."he said in frustration..

"no way..nee yaaraiyaavadhu love panni irundhaa first yen kitta dhaan share panni iruppa..yenakku therinji nee yeaariyum love pannalai.."Vishnu said in a firm voice..

"unnakku theriyaadha ragasiyam yen kitta yedhuvum ilalinu nee yeppadi solla mudiyum??"

"ippa yenna solla vara?"

"Vishnu..unakku theriyaadhu daa...naan accident aagi onnume theriyaama kitta thatta coma stage la irukkum bodhu..indha orae kanauvu dhaan adikadi varum..adhukkumela yenna yosichaalum onnum niyaabagam varaadhu..yaen ippadi laam kanavu varudhunnu yevlo bayamaa irukkum theriyumaa?those were my most dreadful days..adhukkapuram yenakku conscious vandha pinnadi..i came to know about my parents death..appuram dhaan therinjadhu yenakku vandhadhu kanavu illai ..mugathula araiyara nijam nu...then I was doomed ,there was gloominess everywhere..only thing I could see was darkness...i even hated myself for being alive snatching away my parents lives...I thought I have no reasons to live in this world..but after my sessions with psychiatrist ,he instilled a little hope in me...he said to me,"Karthik..why do u think u have no reason to live..you said u have loved someone ..then live for her..see, now u have a reason to live ur life..if it is not for u then atleast live for the love of ur life..wait for her until she come back to u one day.."then I have started to believe, one day she would come to me..I even daydreamed that if she appears in front of me then I would surely recognize her and I would even get back my memory too..with that little hope in life I have started waiting for that unknown "she's "arrival.. kitta thatta 5 years ah naan andha mugam theiryaadha oru avalukkaga wait pannittu iruken..ava varave illai naa kooda..yennoda vaazhkaiyoda kadaisi naal varaikkum ippadiye wait pannittu vaanzhdhu mudichidanum nu nenaichittu irundhen until I met Raji..she came like a cold down pour in my hot deserted life..she turned something upside down in me..and churned out the feeling that I had buried deep within and brought them back to alive..but whatever she might do ,at the end,she is not that "she"I am looking for .."Karthik poured out all his heart to his only friend he ever had ..Vishnu looked at him compassionately and touched his shoulder comfortingly..

"inga paaru Karthik..irukaa illaiyaanne theriyadha oru aalukkaga kann munnadi irukkara oru devadhaiya vendaamnu solluviyaa? R u really gone crazy Karthik?

"Vishnu ...the one year of memory which I had lost in the accident includes the six months I had spent in Bangalore.."Karthik said in a low voice..

"So" Vishnu crinkled his brows..

"Anga naan Raji ya yerkanae meet panni iruken..i had even taken tuition classes for her.."

"What? Vishnu was getting excited all of a sudden..

"That's amazing daa..ippa dhaan yenakku yellame puriyudhu..all this time I was wondering how a sweet girl like Raji would get interest in an arrogant freak like u...so this was it..she was the girl from ur past right? ..avlo dhaane everything resolved.."Vishnu started threading the things the way he likes it to be..

Karthik casted a pitiful look on him..

"romba vaanathula parakaadha Vishnu..If Raji were the girl I liked she would have come to me long before..why she had not tried to contact me in all these years?i am the one having amnesia ..avalukku illaiyae.. ok leave that..even after she joined in this office also she not even once mentioned about our relationship to me,so it is clear that it was not Raji..above all these things ..appo ava school padichittu irundha china ponnu..avala yeppadi daa naan love panni iruka mduiyum?it is totally out of my personality."

"ava china ponnunaa..anju varushathukku munnadi neeyum china paiyan dhaanae..modhalaliye ippadi dhaan nu mudivu pannittu closed mind aa nee argue pannadha..mind ah open aa vachikittu think pannu.."Vishnu tried to knock some sense to him..

"Yenakenamo adhu Raji yaa irukkumnu dhaan thonudhu.."

"oru vela illai naa?"

"positive aa think pannudaa madaiyaa.."Vishnu was fed up seeing his bundles of negative thoughts..

"Yennoda life la yedhu positive aa nadandhirukku ?nee solradhu unmaiyaave irukattum..but 100 la oru percent chance aa adhu Raji illama poitaa?it would be even worse if I get the memory back after accepting Raji ..adhu Raji ku panra aniyaayam illaiyaa?avalai naan yeppadi muzhu mansoda love panna mudiyum?life muzhukka sandhegathodaiyum bayathodaiyum yeppadi daa vaazhradhu?yellaathukkum mela Raji ku indha vishaym therinjaa ava thaanguvaalaa?i can't take chance at the cost of Raji's happiness..idhellam yosichi dhaan naan avala vittu vilagi polaam nu mudivu panninen..modhalla konjam kashtamaa irundhaalum poga poga sariyaagidum..naanum innum konja nalla US poiduven ,appuram avalum yennai marandhuduvaa.."

"Karthik don't live with ur delusions..open ur eyes and see the world ,it is so colorful..nee darkness ah mattum paarkaadha..vaazhradhukku vazhi thedu..ippadi yellathaiyum odhukittu oduradhukku vazhi thedaadha..yenakennamo nee Raji kitta pesinaa yellam sari aagidum nu thonudhu.."

"nooo..Raji ku idhu yedhuvume theriya koodadhu.."Karthik denied hurriedly

"Karthik pls give it a try..Raji kitta nee yellathiayum solla vendaam..ungaloda past life la yenna nadandhadhu ..ungalukkulla yenna maadhiriyaana relationship irundhadhunu casual aa kelu..don't be prejudice about things u don't know and jump into conclusions ..open hearted aa kelu..i am sure you can overcome this.."

Karthik s face showed little bit of dilemma for the first time since they had started the convo...

Vishnu not ready to let that opportunity to slip away..

"ippo nee poi pesuriyaa?illai naan poi pesa vaa?"Vishnu said with threatening voice..

"vendaam ..nee poga vendaam..naane Raji kitta pesaren.."

Karthik agreed reluctantly..

"appo ippave poi pesu.." Vishnu triggered him before he changes his mind.

Karthik nodded with a budding hope shining in his eyes...

And Vishnu looked his friend with a contented smile on his face..he was happy that finally his friends life going to be alright...

But both are obvious to the pair of eyes watching them from outside..and its evil minded calculations..

To be continued..

Authors' note

I know it is a very sad update..yennadaa original office dhaan ivlo mokkaiyaa irukennu ..FF ah padichaa adhuvum ippadi irukennu u may curse me..but I can't help it..because I have already cautioned u...it would be an emotional roller coaster ride ..so bear with me..

But I feel writing a sad update is more tough than writing romantic or comedy..i think I have given my best efforts..do tell me have u cried or not..(I really cried when raji cries..)