Nibir story: Nayi Umeedein Last Part up pg19

One year 5 months and 21 days...passed away of that dreadful night which made my beautiful life upside down and left me broken ,broken to such an extent that I never knew whether i will be back to the nisha everyone knew ... the nisha who was carefree and bubbly ,who had dreams , hopes aspirations to live the life to the fullest but all that came crashing down on that night ...

As they say nothing stays forever... that dark phase is also subsiding... that nisha not completely but somewhat is coming back slowly ...I had to ...

Today here again I'm standing at the balcony of my room and remembering those beautiful moments before that night ... The night is getting darker by each passing second and as they say "night is the darkest before the dawn" which arose a hope within me and here I'm still waiting for that miracle to happen .. whatever happened i m still not able to hide that hopeful nisha inside me ... she keeps on poking me and reminding me of not loosing hope "no matter what happen keep fighting" another thought that "hopeful nisha" spoke... this was what papa taught me since when I don't remember but only that every night before going to bed papa used to murmur those words in my ears followed by goodnight princess which used to bring an automatic smile over my lips... but now I don't even see his smiling face may be that is also because of me .. because of what I did almost one and a half year back ...

I was still lost in my thoughts when I heard ma speaking something from a distance... I turn back and was still lost when ma spoke again .. " nishu itni raat ko bahar kyu khadi h thand lag jayegi andar aaja " ...

" Maa neend nai arahi aap soojao mai ati hu thodi der me " I tried to convince her ... but u cannot hide anything from your mother .. she came out held my hand and took me inside ... after closing the doors and making herself comfortable in the bed she called me and with a smile spoke "ab udhar kyu khadi h dekh subha k 4 baj rahe h ayese karegi to kal subha puja me meri help kaun karega " ... I went towards her and kept my head on her lap and she started stroking my hairs... and it helped ... within seconds all those thoughts flew away from my mind and i started relaxing... " mujhe nai pata beta tu kya soach rahi h ... par tujhe need na ane ka kya reason ye achche se pata h ... kal pure do saal hojayenge Teri aur kabir ki shadi ko ... yahi soacha rahi h na ... kisi ko yaad ho ya na ho mujhe achche se yaad h beta ... "my heart skipped a beat ... hearing his name ... his name from my family members ... yes they all hate him and speaking his name is a crime for them ... but I know maa always had a soft corner for him ... and even now she does ... and thats the only reason she is standing by my side and supporting me till now ... I was married 2 years back to kabir but now we are not together ..." beta kisi k ane ya jane se jindagi nai rukti ... age badhana seekh ... " she spoke softly ... somehow I managed to control my tears "maa plzz ... sone do neend arahi h " I tried to cut her and buried my face in her lap because I knew I can never win any conversation from her ... yes she was right life never stops for anyone... neither my did ... but it is definitely incomplete without him ... within few months he became my everything ... and since one and a half years he is nothing for everyone ...

The second he filled my hair's partition with vermilion I was declared his forever, so now what ... why all the rules changed ... I was again slipping to my thoughts when maa sensed my turmoil and spoke again to change the topic... " achcha Jada nakhre mat kar ... tujhe koi neend nai arahi .. aur aaj ayegi b nahi ... pata h mujhe achche se ...tera dhyaan kaha h " she said with a smirk ... I tilted my head up and saw her smiling mischievously "maa kya matlab ... kyu nai ayegi mujhe neend? ... saaf saaf bolo ... aur aap ye has kyu rahe ho? ..." I spoke ...

"Achcha bachchu Jada hoshiyaar mat ban ... sab pata h mujhe ... kal puja h ghar me ... koi special ane wala h aur kisi special k liye h ...aur usi ki Khushi me Teri neend gayab h " ... as those words escaped her mouth my gloomy thoughts escaped my mind and a bright smile appeared on my lips ... "chal ab sooja tum log to jawaan ho mai to budhi hogayi hu ye raat bhar jaagna mere bas k bahar h sone de mujhe ... " ... " maa you are the best ... aur aap koi budhe nai hue ho ... " I spoke getting up and kissed her cheeks in excitement... "bahut maska maar lia chal sooja ab ... goodnight ... "

" Good morning maa almost 5 bajne wale h ... aap soojao ... aur apne hi to kaha ki mujhe neend nai ayegi aaj to mai jaarahi hu kisi special k liye arrangements karne ... "

"Are kyu aaj clg nai jaana ...? " yes college... I go to college but not as a student but as a professor... all thanks to the "hopeful nisha" who never let me be a burden to anyone it's not like I m a burden to my family ..but this job helped me to strengthen my self mentally and economically and meeting my students make me happy and acts as an escape ... like before I told my life never stopped but it remained painfully incomplete...

"Maa Sunday h kal ... soojao aap "

And again as the sun rays came extinguishing the darkness ... similarly the new day came with a new rays of happiness in me ...