NIBIR OS- WAJAH TUM HO

Nibir os

Wajah tum ho

There he was... sitting on the bar counter drinking since past 2 hours and not at all in his senses now. He looked up and found the bar almost empty only a few people around most of them were bartenders and waitress. The bar was about to close and everyone started leaving but he... he was too occupied of his grief than to bother about it. Its almost an hour now and the manager finally left him alone after a no. Of request to leave. He must have a family, he thought and continued drinking. "one more pls..." he managed to say at least that when a girl came in front of him. The second he saw her... he almost forgot where he was or what he was doing. That angelic dove shaped brown orbs... filled with love and pain at the same time... her pinkish rosy juicy lips... inviting him to taste them... her petite feature and perfect curves... making him insane "nisha" he remember. She squirmed a bit as he checked her out and he sensed that. "thanks..." he mumbled and moved his gaze from her to his glass he had seen her around many times.. this small pretty girl may be around 22 or 23... a kind of attraction she had... she looks like an angel..an angel of sadness but still had love brimming in her eyes... for whom he used to wonder. She breathed and was about to move out when he stumbled back on his chair creating a loud sound. "r u ok" she came to him and tried to help him. He laughed as she tried to carry his weight on her and made him stand. He stumbled again and fell in her arms clutching on her tightly. She shivered as he covered her completely and clutched on her tighter his grip so tight that she winced in pain and tears rolled down.he saw her face and wiped her tears immediately. She looked in his eyes directly blinking at him." where is ur room keeps sir" she asked with difficulty. "i don't know" he whispered huskily. He rested his head in the crook of her neck as she helped him walk to his room. She took out his keeps from his pocket. They were about to enter in the elevator when he stumbled again and they both hit the wall of the elevator. She helped him in standing again as he clutched on her waist. She shivered as his lips brushed in her neck and his hands made pattern at her waist. he looked at her with his half open eyes as she breathed and blushed red. He smirked seeing his effect on her and started doing it again intentionally as she moaned softly. She smelled heavenly as he buried his head in her hair and took a breath in her scent. She was intoxicating him more than the drinks he had. She took him to his room as he kicked open it. Stumbling and loosing balance somehow she managed to made him sit on his couch. He threw himself on the couch as she bent down and removed his shoes. "so jaaye..." she said as she made him lie down on the couch itself. "tum bhi ruk jao naa" he held her hand as she was about to go. " mera duty time over ho gya h..." her voice was so soothing... his nerves was settling at peace. He left her as she turned and looked at him. He saw her going out... but what he saw was enough to unsettle him. "is she crying" he asked himself. the pain came back as soon as she was out of sight. He collected himself and stood beside the window looking at the night sky as a lone tear escaped from his eyes. He don't know for how many minutes he was standing like that when the door opened with a click sound. Her fragrance made its way to his senses and they started to get clouded again. " gyi nhi..." he asked as he turned to see her standing wearing a simple suite. " bus aapko dekhne aai thi... sorry" he heard her moving back but he was too fast for her. He grabbed her hand "mat jao na" he said with so much of innocence that melted her heart. She smiled as he made her sit on the couch and sat beside her burying his head again in her neck. She held his hand in hers and started stroking them. His pain was subsiding... she was his cure... he knew she was the one. He looked into her eyes as she smiled weakly.

"itni kyu pi h...?" she asked softly.

"bhot dard ho rha tha..."

"to kya hua... har dard ki dwa sharab nhi hoti..."

"meri fikr h tmhe???"

"koi na koi to hoga hi na... jise aapki fikr hogi"

"koi nhi h..."

She remained silent as he continue. " pta h... mere paas sab kuch h... sab kuch name fame money... everything... kuch nhi h to sukoon... pyaar... family... kuch bhi nhi h... sab meri baat mante h... meri ek aawaj p sab aa jate h... par sirf darr se... ya khud ki jarurat k lie... itna akela kyu hu... koi bhi nhi jo do pal mere paas baithe... meri baat sune... ek maa h... par vo ho na ho ek hi baat h... kaam hi unke lie sab kuch h unka beta koi nhi... ur aaj to vo bhi mjhe chhod k chali gyi... ek gf bhi h... jo mjhse nhi meri haisiyat se pyaar karti h... mai hu na hu isse use koi fark nhi padta... mera naam hona chahie..." his voice had so much of pain and sarcasm that she can hear his soul breaking apart.

"koi to aapse pyaar karta hoga..." she asked.

"koi nhi..."

"koi to h jo aapse pyaar karta h..."

"koi nhi h..."

"jaruri nhi ki aap use jaane"

He looked up into her eyes and saw a similar pain arising in them a hurt visible enough to unsettle him. He again wiped her tears as she did the same. He crashed her in his arms stroking her back as she sobbed. After a time she broke apart as he again rested his head on her neck "thank u..." she whispered. He nuzzled her neck making her clutch him tighter moaning. "mjhe jana h..." she tried to stand as he held her hand again. "mat jao... i need u" he said. She can feel how broken he was how badly he want her to be with him right now. She kept standing as he too stood up and grabbed her in his embrace.

Kaise kahu ishq me tere kitna hu betaab mai...

Aankho se aankhe mila k chura lu tere khwaab mai 2

He hugged her tightly as she did the same. He looked at her and placed his forehead against hers cupping her face.

Mere saaye h sath m ya rha jis jagah tum ho

He kissed her eyes and forehead showering his love over her.

Mai jo jee rha hu... wajah tum ho... wajah tum ho..

Mai jo jee rha hu... wajah tum ho... wajah tum ho...

She squirmed in his hold and tried to move away as he plaster her more.

HAi ye nasha ya hai zeher

is pyaar ko hm kya naam d

He nibbled her earlobe as she pushed him a little and he pulled her again.

Kab se adhuri h ik daastan..

Aaja ise aaj anjaam de...

He crashed her into the wall still securing her completely.

Tumhe bhulu kaise mai...

Meri pehli khata tum ho...

She dig her nails in his shoulder as he kissed her in the crook of her neck.

Mai jo jee rha hu... wajah tum ho... wajah tum ho...

He looked up with his half open eyelids and captured her lips in a ravishing kiss.

Kya jaane tu mere iraade..le jaunga saanse churake...

He left her lips and kissed his way down to her swan neck making her breath stop.

Dil kh rha h gunhagaar bn ja..

bda chain h in gunaho se aage...

He turned her back to him kissing the back of her neck to his hearts content.

Mai gumshuda si raat hu

meri khushnuma subah tum ho...

She turned to him and hide herself in his chest as he opened the dori of her suit.

Mai jo jee rha hu... wajah tum ho...wajah tum ho...

He picked her up in his arms and laid her on the bed without breaking the eyelock. He took a breath in her scent before crashing her lips with his without wasting another second. He nibbled over her upper lip as his hands travelled down her body. he kissed her insanly and wildly with such a force that she felt dizzy. She wanted to stop this crazziness before it go beyond their control but she knew he is in no state to listen to her. He needed her now... he need her love... he need her care... she had to be here with him not only for him but for herself. The pain in him was same in her. She closed her eyes firmly letting him do what he wants to.

He knew this is wrong... he in no way can force himself on her... he can see her tears hear her sob but nothing can he do about it... she was his only cure... her feel beneath him making his senses go bizzare. He nibbled her soft skin on her neck biting her harshly moving up and down all over her shoulder. She clutched him tight to herself. he immediately threw his shirt out and pulled her sleeve exposing the creamy skin of her shoulder to him. There was no mercy in his actions he was biting her soothing her pain giving her wild kisses all over her body. His hands discovered new places to play. he turned her around as he freed her from her kurti. her bare back visible to him. she fisted her hand as first his fingers and then his mouth traced the same path. he turned her again and can saw those tears.. tears which stabbed him deep enough to groan in pain. he immediately cupped his face kissing them away. she opened her eyes as he looked at her with all the love... love she was devoid off. nisha hugged him tightly as he too crushed her under him. soon they were close... close in every true sense to each other. he kissed her for once and for all as he marked her his for lifetime. nisha felt him inside her... a feeling of getting completed... a feeling of finding her home. he hugged her tighter as they slept in each others embrace... a sleep which has come to them after soo long.

nisha woke up.. her body aching... but heart swelled up with an unknown happiness. she sat there admiring the man in her arms... who was sleeping peacefully. he squirmed as she ruffled his hair. he opened his eyes and saw her awake... smiling at him. "u need to sleep" she said. he smiled back and nuzzled her neck before slipping back to slumber. " i luv u...but i have to go... m sorry" she whispered as a tear escaped from her eyes.

the morning rays disturbed kabir who was sleeping so peacefully. he frowned and saw the time.. " 6 am"... he turned closing his eyes and stretched his hand to find her... but she wasnt there... he jerked up. "must be in washroom" he thought he looked everywhere but couldn't find her neither she was n balcony nor in living area...nowhere to be seen. thats when reality dawned over him... "how could u do this kabir..." he punched the headboard. " u forced himself on her... u never heard her cry... she was crying damn it... her tears... how could u... " he hit his head. "i need to find her... i need to apologize... oh my god... what have i did" he held his head in his hands. he rushed outside and called the manager asking about her. "she left the job.. just now i recieved her call sir.." his heart sank. "do u know where she lives..." he asked. "no sir... we dont keep such records" he said helplessly. kabir felt something broke inside him. "no...no...no...this cant happen... i cant loose her... i cant... i love her... i love her.." he screamed loudly.

he opened his eyes and saw her siting next to him... worried. he touched her face and hugged her tight realising it was his dream. i love u nisha ... i cant loose u... i wont be able to live without u... pls dont leave me..pls..." he sobbed hard in her arms. she tried to hush him but her own tears refused to stop. he kept sobbing in her arms for a long time while nisha tried to make him sure of her presence. as his fear give way... his guilt covered him completely. unable to look at her... he broke apart from her embrace " i...i..i m so sorry nisha... i forced myself on u... without ur consent.. i literally ra.." he couldnt complete before that she placed her hand on his mouth. " SHHh...dont feel guilty kabir... u didnt forced urself on me... u had my consent..." he looked into her dove shaped eyes. "yes kabir... whatever happened yesterday.. may be people call it a one night stand... but for me that was love... just pure love... which i never experienced... which is not a part of my life... dont blame urself...that wasnt a mistake... not for me... i m going kabir... far away.will not bother u..." she said with a small sad smile. "why... pls dont... dont leave me" he pleaded. "we are not meant to be together.." she said.

" why pls..." he held her hand. " dont say that u dont love me... u do... i know that.." he said. she looked at him confused. "u confessed last night" he said and she realised he still was in his senses.

"i have a past kabir.."

"everyone has.."

"it will affect u... hurt u... i cant see u hurt.."

"i will be more hurt if u will leave m"

"don't make it difficult for me"

" m making it simple.."

"why dont u understand..."

"i dont want to.. i want u... i dont know how i fell for u in just one night...but i did... and i know it is for forever nisha... i cant bear the burden of pain and loneliness now... it will eat me up"

she was in tears again... how can she leave him but he needs to know...

"u need to hear me first..." she said kabir looked at her and nodded.

"i... i m a murderer..." she closed her eyes. kabir gasped at what he just heard. she looked at him with pain.

"yes i m... i have killed someone..."

"who..."

"kya farak padta h..."

"mjhe janna h"

"the one who destroyed me... my dignity... my self respect... i killed him... bhot din chup rhi par vo galti thi meri... agar khud se nafrat karne ki jagah pehle hi din use maar dia hota to achha hota" her eyes red with anger she shut her eyes as the flashback started... her screams.. his evil laugh... her helplessness...his cruelty... everything.

kabir saw the change... change in her expressions... her breathing shallow... her fist tightening... her tears rolling. "nishaaa" he called her out as she jerked open her eyes. the look pierced him deep down somewhere, he felt his breath stopped... he need air... he pulled her onto his chest trying to take away her pain. she held his arm tightly and controlled her tears. after taking some shaking breaths.. she steadied herself.

"now u know everything kabir... i should leave now" she got up and turned.

"m i not worthy of ur love..." he called her. she smiled at him and turned again. " m not worthy kabir... u deserve better than me" she said. " there is no one who is better than u for me" he got up and held her shoulders. " u know u healed me yesterday... i want to heal u too... cant u give me a chance" she looked at him with tears. "i want to take care of u nisha... want to love u... the way u surrendered urself to me yesterday... i want to give myself to u too nisha" he said. this was it for nisha... the girl devoid of any kind of love care or affection had gotten an ocean of love in one night... she cant deny him more... nor herself... she have loved him the day he had caught her hand unknowingly in the bar when she was crying and wiped her tears...the care the concern touched her insides.

the tears the smile on her face told him he get her back... he pulled her in a tight hug... "pls dont leave me" he said. "i cant" she hugged him back.

"i love u.."

"i love u too..."

they kept standing in the embrace soothing each other and trying to heal the wounds their souls still have. everyone has his share of grief but not everyone has someone who know how to heal u back.