chap 5
uss raat hum baatein bohot der tak kiye the...to nxt din main uth hi nahi paayi thi...jab uthi tab pata chala ki 10'o clock ho gaye hai aur anant bhi chala gaya hai...i was not feeling well that day...maine socha ki kal jo restraunt mein khaya tha thik se pacha nahi hoga...but dophar tak bhi mein thik feel nahi kar rahi thi...maine uss din leave le li...bhabhi mujhe hospital leke gayi...fir maine kuch tests karwaaye aur ghar aa gaye the...next din mujhe ek cheez pata chali jo mujhe ek shock mein daal di thi...that...that i...that i was pregnant...that was the happiest day of my life...main itni khush thi ki aansoon bhi nikal gaye the...i was literaly jumping on the bed with the report in my hand...fir mujhe dhyaan aaya ki ab mujhe sambhal ke rehna chaahiya..itna jump karna achcha nahi hoga baby ke liye...main report leke neeche gayi...tab pata chala ki anant ko ek project mil gaya hai jiske liye hum pichle 1 year se try kar rahe the...sab yeh sunkar bohot khush the...mein bhi...baba ne kaha ki voh staff members ke liye ek party rakhenge...maine socha ki abhi main apni pregnancy ki baat kisi ko nahi bataaungi..party vaale din hi main anant ko yeh ek gift ki tarah bataaungi...i was excited...very very much...maine yeh baat ghar mein bhi kisi ko nahi bataayi...main sabse pehle anant ko bataana chahti thi...mujhe mere feet mein tickles ho rahe the...i was happy...very very happy...
pata chal ki party 15 days ke baad hai...maine kuch din kisi bhi tarah nikaal liye the...phir mujhe aisa laga ki nishi anant se bohot close aa rahi hai...har time voh dono saath mein rehte the...raat ko bhi uske calls aate the...calls ke beech mein anant bohot hasta bhi tha...thodi thodi jealousy bhi ho rahi thi...anant ki choice bohot zyaada change ho gayi thi...khaana mein,dressing mein aur thoda thoda behaviour mein...usey aajkal oily cheezein jaise mooli ke paratey jo uskey kabhi favourate hote the..aajkal bilkul pasand nahi aata tha...voh kehta tha use nishi ki tarah healthy food khana hai...voh har jagah formals pehan ke jaata tha...kehta tha yeh thoda classy hai...yeh thik tha...magar voh kabhi kabaar mujhse thik se baat nahi karta tha...fir 1-2 din
ke baad mujhe yeh pata chala ki jab main office mein thi tab anant aur nishi ghar pe aaye the...nishi ne poora ghar bhi dekha...maa ki kitchen mein thodi si help bhi ki...aur baba se baatein bhi ki...mujhe ab sachchi mein bohot zyaada jealousy ho rahi thi...jealousy ke vajah se bohot zyaada gussa bhi aa raha tha...uss raat meri aur anant ki ladai bhi hui...maine usey agle din mana bhi liya...breakfast mein maine noodles bana ke khilaaye aur anant ne mere liye choclates laayi..ab sab kuch pehle se thoda thoda thik hota dikhayi diya ki mujhe ek aur jhatka mila...iss baar voh thoda bada vaala tha...iss baar har ek cheez hamesha ke liye change ho gayi...hamesha ke liye...fir vaise anant navya kabhi nahi reh paaye...kabhi bhi nahi...
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she slept writing this.her hands were aching alot.she had been writing continuosly for 3 hours...it was almost dawn...she cld sleep for some more time today as d next day was sunday...she slep for couple of hours..around 5 or 6 hours...she could never sleep more than this..this was due to something...she missed that collar again that morning...but she had no option..she had lost that collar long back ...
It was sharp 10:30 am...he sat there, at the same place at the same time everyday...yes everyday...he used to just look at the sea...with some hopes...yes he was sitting in mumbai's plush locale juhu on the big rocks which were quite at a height from the sea...he used to think about something...which nobody knew...but yeah...he always used to sit there for an hour atleast...he was helpless, quite alone but he had no choice...yes damn,he had no choice afterall...that person was anant..yes he was our anant vajpayee...he was wearing a red ,black and white checks shirt which was totaly complementing the black t-shirt he was wearing inside...with blue coloured faded jeans and just normal chappals...he looked handsome...any girl could get flattened by his looks..yes he looked very charming...like aways...but his nature had totally changed ...he was not...he was not the same old anant vajpayee...he was not the same...yet one thing which he had in common with the old anant was that...that he had the same expressive eyes...those eyes that makes any1 look deeply into it...
suddenly somebody called him...
driver: chote saheb time ho gaya hai...aap ko ghar chalna chahiye...
anant:hmmm..
he left with the driver..he reached home in just ten minutes as the sea was quite close to his house..he entered the house and was going upstairs...to his room...but suddenly something caught his eyes...it was just a photograph...a family member's...which was quite old also..he kept looking at it for sometime
rama: devarji,bohot samey ho chuka hai unhe mare hue..
A: hmmm..
R; devarji aap sun rahe hain na hamari baat...unhe mare hue bohot saal ho chuke hain...
A: main jaanta hun..
R: to hume voh photograph pe maala daal deni chahiye..
A: mare hue ke photograph pe maala dalti hai..to main ek baat poochun bhabhi..
R: ji poochiye..
A: kya voh humaare dil mein zinda nahi hai...kya voh vahaan par bhi mar chuke hain..
R: deverji aap meri baat nahi samajh rahe hainn..
A: mujhe samajhna bhi nahi hai...mujhe kissi ki bhi baat samajhna nahi hai...bas ek baat meri sab sun lo uss photo pe maala kabhi nahi chadegi...kabhi bhi nahi...samjhe..
so guys dekh lo anant ki entry karwa di maine...so main aapko ek kaam deti hun...ki aap socho ki kaun mar gaya hai...kaun?...baba?...bhua dadi?..om?...sugandha ya koi aur...kya yeh anant aur navya ke alag hone ka reason hai...ya kuch aur...so guys keep guessing and thinking...
Edited by mussu - 12 years ago
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