Hey Phangurls...
I am here, to update the turmoil that navya is gng thru...she is again sitting at her window sill, Meeta has left for the night, and she is trying to figure out what just happned in her life...she is jotting down the words that she wasnt able to tell her mom perhaps...
Badi bechani si horahi hai mujhko, darr bhi to lag raha hai;
Aisa lagta hai jaise har taraf se andhere ne mujhko gher liya hai..
Maine than liya tha, ki aaj maa se sab kuch keh dungi,
Dil ke saare raaz, aaj baatlungi..
Apni mohabbat aur ibbadat ko maa ke havale saopdungi ...
Lekin, aane main kuch der hogayi shayad mujhse,
Ya phir waqt ko kuch aur hi manzoor tha shayad,
Mere kuch bata ne se pehle maa, ko sab kuch pata chal gaya tha,
Card ke saath saath ,maa ne anant ko dekh aur sun bhi liya tha..
Ek hi pal main, maine maa ka bharosa aur dil dono hi to tod diya tha..
Jis kadar maa tut kar gir padi thi chaarpayi par,
Mujhe khud nafrat ho gayi meri hi parchayi par..
Maa kehti hai, main uski navya nahi,maa mujhe pehchanti nahi
kaunse mod par khadi hun main, maa wo bhi jaanti nahi..
Maa ki naarazgi samajhti hun main,
Chot pohchayi hai maine manti hun main,
Lekin dil ki baat samjhati bhi to kaise..
Kab pyar hua mujhe aur kis daurr se guzri , ye batati bhi to kaise..
Ek naye jazbaat, nayi umaang se guzar rahi thi main,
Mere hi dil ki hulchul se, kafi arse tak khud pareshan thi main,
Jab dil ko khudpar aur uske pyaar par yakin aaya,
Tabhise to maa ko batane ka khayal dil main aaya tha...
Lekin itna aasan tha kya ye sab Maa se bata dena..
Aur bata ne ke baad maa ki nazroon se nazre milana..
kya mere iss pyar ko Maa samajh payegi?
kya papa, mujh par naaz karpayenge?
kya dadi, mujhe duniya ki sabe pyari poti bula payegi?
In sawaloon se andar hi andar jhoojh rahi thi main..
Anand se bichadne ke khayal se bhi to kaap rahi thi main..
Par phir bhi maa ka samna karne ke liye tayar thi main,
par phir ek baar ,waqt ne mujhe rok diya, papa ne aakar hume tok diya..
Maa ne jaat jaate keh to diya, usse baat mat kat karna..
Aur maine bhi ye Anant ko bata hi diya...
Par iss baat se mujhpar jo bit rahi hai, kisse kahun..
Maine pyar kiya hai, koi galti nahi..ye kisse kahun..
Mera dil to ek hi hai..uske do tukde main bhi to kaise karu...
I hope you guys like it..Please press the LIKE botton, if you do...
I am eagerly waiting for Comments/advice/inputs
Edited by barbie2011 - 14 years ago