She understood how he felt. She understood his anger. She understood his feelings of betrayal. She understood his hurt. That's why whilst he was yelling at her, she did nothing but listen quietly, with tears gently flowing from her eyes. Her tears representing his pain.
Avni had made the delicate yet arduous decision of leaving him. Letting him believe that she was dead for a decade. Maybe she was selfish. Maybe she was wrong. But to her, it was much needed. It was for his own good. He was alive. His family was alive. They hadn't been in danger at all during those years. Their lives weren't in risk because of her. She had been the reason all her parents had died. Ayesha maa, and Neela maa, the two women who had given her life, as well as Ashish Mehta, who although had never been a good father, it was when he realized his mistake and wanted to help her that he died. Dayawanti Mehta was right. She was a curse on people.
This didn't mean she believed in Dayawanti's point of view. There was nothing wrong with children born outside of marriage. They were human. They were equal. It was just her. She was the bad omen. She had gotten in the mess with Dayawanti Mehta. She was the one Vidyut wanted. She was the one Ragini Pandit wanted to seek revenge from. She was the one endangering the one family that had given her all the happiness she had always dreamed off.
It wasn't until that Neel shook her that Avni realized that she had been encaptured in her own thoughts. She knew his strong hold on her arms will causes some bruises the next day. Yet she welcomed the touch. It was the touch she had been craving for the last ten years and for the last week, when she first met him again. She wanted him to imprint his touch on her. It will keep her going when she has to leave him again.
"N-n-neel, main s-sa-samjhati hoon-" Avni began, when Neel pulled her closer into his arms. He wasn't hugging her, his action mirrored his feelings, that he was trying to get her into her senses. Her face straight in front of his, his eyes trying to capture her truth.
"Tum samjha sakti hon? Kya samjha sakti hon? Yeh ki tumne mujhe yeh das saal gumrah rakha. Aur yeh, ki mujhe pichle das saal aisa laga ki meri wajah se tum nahi rahi thi. I thought I was the one responsible for your death. You know how heartbreaking it is, to think the love of your life is gone because you couldn't do anything about it. Mujhe samjho nah, ki kaise tumhari wajah se mujhe itne saal neendh nahi aayi, itne saalo se ek zinda laash banke jiya hoon. Har pal tumhari yaad ayi, har pal yeh sochta gaye, ki kaash main bas do minute hi pehle aah jaate, ki tum zinda hoti. Ki humare bhi ek family hoti, ek future hota. Tumhe pata bhi hai kitne mushkil tha, harr saans pai bas ek yahe hi ehsas tha ki mein kitne akele ho gya hoon. Par tum. Tum...tumne mujhe chhoda...Apni marzi se. You left me, Avni. Ek baar bhi nahi socha ki mera kya hoga?" Neel shouted, his hands trembling with him.
"Tumhe kya lage, mere liye ehsan tha, Neel. Mujhe pata hain ki tumhare liye kitna mushkil tha. Ki tumhe kitne dard huya hain. Neel tumhe dil aur jaan se pyaar kiya hai. Mujhe pata tum takleef main thai. Aur main tumhari takleef ki wajah thi. Har din apne aap ko koi punishment deti thi, ki meri wajah se tum dard mein hon. Har din, bas yeh sochti thi, ki kaash mein wapas tumhare saath aaye jahoon. Ki tumhe bas ek bar dekhloon, dhoor se sahi. Lekin har rozz apne apko rok leti thi. Pichle das saal tak meri perfect family, tum, bebe, daddy aur mummyji zinda hon. Tumhare zindagi main koi afaat nahi aayi. Aur tumhari saab ki safety liye, mujhe asal zindagi mein bhi marne paye, toh marr jongi. Neel tumhe pura haq hain mujh se naraz hona kya lekin," Avni began to answer, as Neel shoved her away from him," unpleased with her answer.
"Lekin...meri zindagi kohi kehl nahi hain Avni. Mere pyaar koi kehl nahi hain. Kahan tum jab chaaya aaha gi, jab chaaya chalegi. Tum hamesha kyun apni nazariya se soch ti hon? Hamesha se tumhe dhoor jaane ki taan li thi. Whether it was those stupid allegations about you and Ali, or when maa neh tumhe najayaz bole. Tumhe kabhi bhi mujh pe bharosa nahi tha. Kabhi bhi yeh rishta ko bechan ki baat nahi kahi, hamesha torne ki kahi. Hum dono mil ke Vidyut se jeet sakte thai. Lekin tumhe toh bhaagne ki bechani thi," Neel spit out in anger.
"Neel, meh nahi sahaa sakti thi, ki tumhe kuch ho jata ton. Maa ke jaane se baad, tumhari wajah se sambhal gi thi, lekin tumhe kuch ho jata ton, main bilkul bheeker jati," Avni responded, holding on to Neel's hands.
"Avni,tumhari wajah se, tumhare yeh hi darr mehne jiya hain," Neel declared, finally letting a tear escape his glittering orbs.
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Just an idea I had and so I rushed to write it down. Hopefully it makes sense and you guys like it😊
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