Human- Avneil os(updated)

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human, yeah

She was there walking all alone on the road she had begged everyone to let her be alone.. she was done with everything, she was done with acting selfless, she was done with acting as if it didn't hurt, when it hurted so much that it bruised her soul. She was done putting up a facade. Her life was a joke , it had always been. She was kind of used to this pain of being left alone but this time it did hurt her bad. It did push her deeper into the abyss of pain, because she didn't expect this from him to leave her in the altar,make her a laughing stock, but she held herself for his family now she even doubted whether that family was hers ever? She remembered her Ayesha maa in her place she remembered everything it was just like it all happened yesterday... She could feel her mother's agony then and she could feel it today. Why did history have to repeat itself? She tried to tell herself a zillion times that Neil wasn't Ashish Mehta, but after what he had done today she could phantom him as her dad. No matter what his reasons for were. I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build...

She was done being used by all for their benefits. She was done being a puppet,she was done acting strong . She had reached her limit. What was her fault? That she was an illegitimate child.. all the words of Ragni Pandit and DM came haunting her. She kneeled on the ground trying to stop the words she kept her hands of her ears begging them to stop,but to no avail,she sat there in the middle of the road. Calming the wrecked self. She was done with being selfless, she wanted to be selfish but she couldn't force herslef on one thing she learned today the past never leaves you it always haunts you and yes Juhi was that past on Neil that haunted his so called present i.e; her. Neil had easily stated that she was his present he was a man of words as far as she knew but everyone fails at some point don't they.. she wasn't upset on Neil, she had no right . She was upset on herself for being selfish for expecting things she never deserved , she managed to get up and moved on to her destination her mother. She had helped Neil find Juhi she only knew hard it was for her. How much it pinched her when Neil always talked about Juhi. How much it broke her when he ran from the altar whispering Juhi. Why she thought, was born to be no one else's? Was she born to be mocked all her life? Why did Neil come close to her ? Only to ruin her further, only to make her lose her wits.. Aman .. she had forgiven him for sure... how could she not forgive her lil baby brother, but the wounds that he gave were deep enough... there was no healing from this , she was exhausted she had used all her resources, she looked at the sky and said -"Maa, am tired, I wanna sleep" .. with that a speeding car came and hit her she lay on the road her every part ached, but she smiled and said-" thank you Ma". Moments later she felt a familiar touch it was Neil begging her to hold on. Tears were rolling down her check he was mumbling apologies of leaving her all alone not knowing the damage he had done.. he recollected going home and everyone gave him looks and Bebe was giving him earful when he received an anonymous call, it was RP's son first he thought it was regarding Juhi's child but when he said say goodbye to your wife, he ran from there towards his car he knew where would she go, but damn the tires were pucntured by some deliberately, he ran for his life. Praying that he wasn't late, he would not let her go she couldn't leave him in guilt.. but alas! He was late..he was calling her again and again begging her not to leave him the ambulance would arrive in a while. She was tired of holding on for everyone else only to be left . She could hear a warm and familiar voice calling her, she could see her Ayesha Maa standing there calling her. She opened her eyes with much difficulty and said talking deep breaths -" Neil , I'm sorry I wanna be selfish for once . I wanna go .. Bye Neil" He begged her -" No Avni' you can't do this to me I love you". She gave a weak smile and said-" me too, bye". He feels her breath leave her he was begging her to hold on but it was too late.. she was gone forever. A small Avni' rushed into her mother's arm only to be carried by her and kissed on the forehead. She said-" I missed you Maa" Ayesha replied-" I missed you too bacha". Thanks for reading.. 😊