Disclaimer: This story line belongs to me, however the characters belong to the makers of the show. This story is not meant to infringe on anyone's rights, but is merely intended for pleasure.
NOTE: This story includes some mature scenes, so please read at your own discretion.
Chapter 1:
Avni's POV
I hadn't left my room much in the last few months. I will admit that I have been sulking like an angry teenager. But, not only sulking, it was fear too.
I was afraid of running into them on the street. I was sure they were a "them by now.
I sighed and turned around, pressed my face into my pillow and pretended to sleep. Ma knew better than to try to get me out of this phase at this point. She had been trying persistently for months and she's given up on me. She too, has given up on me. I will admit that it stung that she did. But, I didn't say anything.
I woke up everyday, ate, and slept the day away.
" You need some exercise, she keeps telling me. " It'll be good for you. Especially now. " You need some fresh air, Avni.
I didn't need any of that stuff. I only needed... Him.
But, I couldn't have him.
My eyes burned with unshed tears. Damn my hormones.
My mind was disturbed and I knew I wasn't going to sleep again. I got up from the bed and found myself swaying a little. I held on to the bedpost and steadied myself.
"Ma? I yelled as I came out of the room, " Aman?
"Where are you?
"In kitchen, Avni, came Ma's response. I walked slowly to the kitchen and found myself drooling at the smell of the food.
"Wow Ma, I said as I walked into the kitchen, " what are you making? This smells divine.
" Really? she asked as she turned towards me, raising her eyebrows, " I'm making bhaigan.
I stopped dead in my tracks.
What? I hated bhaigan. Ew.
But, this smelled so good. I was still drooling.
"Would you like some? she asked, with a knowing smile.
I grumbled a "yes, and got up to get a plate for myself.
Neela ma joined me at the table and watched as I wolfed down the bhaigan curry she made. "Wow, she said a knowing smile on her face, " I never thought I'd see the day.
"Hm? I asked distractedly.
" You and bhaigan.
It was weird but I didn't say anything. We both knew the reason why I was eating this curry. My face was red. I knew it was, but I didn't say a word.
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I was lightheaded. My vision was all blurry.
"Ma, I called out, but my voice was weak. My heart was pounding. I was scared.
My hands clutched my stomach as I crunched in pain. " Ma, I called out again; hoping my voice will reach her.
" Avni? Did you call me, baccha?
"Ma, I whispered as she stepped into the room. I felt my knees buckle and I could feel myself dropping to the floor but, I couldn't stop it.
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Neil's POV
I frowned at the screen when my phone lit up. Neela Ma.
I didn't pick up. I couldn't be weak now. I knew if I spoke to her, I would break. I couldn't.
She didn't stop calling. I picked up after the 7th ring.
"Ji? my voice sounded terrifying to my own ears and I felt bad for treating her this way.
"Neil, she said, uncaringly. Her voice sounded scared and it scared me, in turn. "I have something to tell you. Please listen to me and listen to me very carefully.
I felt the blood drain from my face as I listened to her words. She was still talking when I grabbed the keys to the police van and ran outside.
I turned on the flashing lights and sped towards the hospital.
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I met Neela Ma in the hospital corridor. " How is she? I cried, out of breath.
" I'm waiting for the doctor, she said, eyes red and her face ashen. " Neil, I'm really sorry I didn't tell you sooner. She didn't...
" She decided that I don't deserve to know? I turned around and faced the wall. She's always been doing this. Avni always took decisions about our relationship by herself. It was maddening.
She decided to leave the house once when Bebe insulted her.
She decided that we could take our relationship to the next level.
She decided that Juhi was the one for me.
She decided to leave me. Again.
But, this...She had gone too far.
The doctor coming out of her room interrupted my thoughts. I turned around.
" She's fine. For now. She is anemic though, he said, "and that needs to change.
"And..? asked Neela Ma.
" Also fine at the moment. " I would like to prescribe something to help with the anemia and would like to monitor her a little bit more closely from now on.
I interrupted, " Can I see her?.
"Of course. She's just resting for now. Try not to wake her up.
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I pushed the door to her room open. I felt the tears rolled down my cheeks as I stared at her lying on the bed.
I hadn't seen her in 5 months. Ever since she decided that I needed to be with Juhi. Ever since, I decided that my job was more important. That made me feel a little guilty. Maybe I should have tried harder. I knew how damaged Avni was.
I crossed the room and sat down on the small stool by her bed. She had lost weight and her face was pale, but she was still the same woman who had made me learn how to love again. The same woman was so scared of her own feelings and ran away all the time, the same women who was,as I found out today, carrying my child.
I let my eyes move to her stomach. It was a small bump, but it was there nonetheless. God knows, I've stared at her waist long enough to notice every little difference. Had Bebe to thank for that, and her damn waist chain.
I reached out and touched the small bump. The tears were flowing freely now. That was my child. Mine and Avni's.
I didn't know if I should be happy or be angry at her. I was going to be a dad. And found out 5 months too late.
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"Damn you, Avni, I whispered furiously as I grabbed her hand. With her hand pressed against my forehead, I let my mind wander.
It was all Dayavanti Mehta's fault. Of course. Although, this time I actually thanked her multiple times.
Once again today.
She had made the plan to drug everyone at Khanna house. When I had seen everyone drugged and unconscious, I had gone to find Avni.
She was in our bed, sleeping it off. I remember sitting down beside her when she started mumbling in her sleep.
When she opened her eyes and looked at me drowsily with a smile on her lips, I knew I was done for.
She had reached for my hand and pulled me down closer to her, " Hi, she had whispered. " Hey, I whispered back, " are you okay?
She nodded and pulled me closer. " You're drunk, I whispered to her. She shook her head, " I'm uninhibited, she countered.
I smiled at her. "Same thing.
"No. It's not.
"How so?
"Now, I'm not afraid.
"Afraid? You? That's not possible, I said with a smile, " you're fearless.
"Not true, she said, shaking her head. " You terrify me.
I laughed softly, " I terrify you? I think it's quite the opposite.
"You scare me when you stare at me all the time, she said, "like you want to eat me up.
I laughed again. She was so cute. "I'm just trying to show you that I have feelings for you, Avni. I like you. A lot.
" I like you too. A lot, she said.
" You do?
"Uhuh. A lot. A lot. But, you're too good for me. I don't deserve you.
"Hey, I whispered at her as I looked down at her, " I know I'm Mr. Perfect, but you're pretty incredible yourself. And guess what?
"What?
" I'm a big boy. I can decide for myself. I know what's good for me and what isn't. I know what I want, Avni. And it's you, she blinked at me. " I know you're not ready and I won't push you, " I continued, " I'll wait. You're worth it.
" I don't want you to wait, she said forcefully and craned her neck up and pressed her lips against mine.
Woah. She really was uninhibited tonight.
"Avni, I said pulling back;ignoring the tingling of my lips, " you're drunk.
"Maybe. But not enough that I don't know what I'm doing and enough to have the courage to do this, she said; her eyes flashing with something fierce.
"Sleep for now, I said as I started to pull back, " we'll talk tomorrow. I don't want to do anything you'll regret tomorrow.
"No, liiisten... she whined as she threw her hands around my neck, " Neil...
Geez, this girl will be the death of me. I tried to move away from her.
" Neiiilll. Neiiil.
"Nahi, Avni. Kal baat karte hain. Sleep now.
"Nahi, she said as she moved closer still, "yahan dekho.
"Kya? I asked as I looked at her.
"Kiss? she asked as she tilted her to the side.
"Fine, meri maa, I said as I kissed her hand. "Happy?
" God, Neil! And you call me unromantic... she huffed and kissed me again.
" Avni, please.
"No, she said as she started unbuttoning the buttons on my vest swiftly before moving to my shirt.
"Neil?
"Hm, I said as I tried to pull my shirt close again.
"Neil,she said again and waited until I met her eyes, " Haan.
I raised my eyebrows at her, " Haan?
" Haan. Yes. Ji- whatever you like, she said with a wink as she referred to the conversation we had a couple of days ago about love being a two way street.
She reached for me and I felt my resolve crumble.
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I could still feel the way her breath on my bare skin had sent a shiver inside my entire being as she breathed out my name when I sucked on her neck.
I remembered the way she felt in my arms. Soft and warm.
I remembered how her body had opened up to accept me and we became one. I remembered the pitch of her voice when she cried out my name.
I remembered how once satiated, she had flipped her naked body onto mine and we fell asleep together. The feel of her soft body over mine had lulled me into the best sleep.
I remembered how shy she had been the next morning when we woke up. I remembered the awkwardness we both felt as we peeled our bodies away from each other. That had been the morning when she let me put the waist chain back on her,after I had asked for her permission. It was still vivid in my mind how she blushed when I allowed my fingers to linger on her skin a little longer than necessary.
I remembered how she wouldn't meet my eyes as she served me breakfast in front of the whole family. How she almost dropped my breakfast when I made my fingers touch hers infront of everyone.
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The door opened and I looked up, drawn away from my memories.
Neela Ma looked so contrite. " What did the doctor say? I asked as I scrubbed my face with my hands.
" They're fine, she replied softly as she rounded the bed and stopped by me. " For now, she added and I looked up frowning.
"The anemia isn't good for her pregnancy. It might make her deliver prematurely
I didn't know anything about pregnancies or babies, but I knew that premature is not good.
"So what now? I asked.
"She has to take some iron tablets, make sure she's getting her blood work done, and doing regular checkups with the doctor.
I nodded. That sounded easy enough. But, nothing really was easy enough with Avni.
"Why didn't she tell me she was pregnant? I asked.
"Neil. It's not really my place to say.
" You know when I ask her, and I will ask her, she will make some excuse. Please Neela Ma, you know I love her, please help me understand why she walked away from us?
She sighed, " Avni never believed she was good enough for you, Neil. You know this. I think at one point, she was convinced that you could be hers.
But, I am hers.
" When Juhi returned... Neela Ma said. " She said you loved Juhi more than your life... And she didn't want to keep you away from her. "She said if you found out abut the baby, then you'd feel obligated towards them...
"Neil. You're with Juhi now. Don't worry about Avni. I'll take care of both of them. She placed her hand on my shoulder and squeezed reassuringly.
"Kya?! " Mein aur Juhi? Nahi, Neela Ma, I said, " You're mistaken. Aur Avni is the Queen of Being Mistaken. I'm not with Juhi.
"Neil, Shweta told us...
"Mom? She said that? I should have known. Mom would never change. She never liked Avni. That was all pretence for me to come back home.
Avni's hand twitched in mine and drew our attention away from the conversation and to her.
LINKS:
Chapter 3: https://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp TID=4892882&PID=144512518p144512518