Chapter 19
Bani was thinking about Veer the whole time. Jay’s constant blabbering about how he didn’t think that she was doing anything right by going around with Veer. Vanshika came out of the bathroom after washing her hair.
“Mujhe samajh nahi aata hai ki itne raat ko yeh baal se nahane ka kya scene hai. Like look at the time, Vanshika. It is 12 at night.”
“Pata hai, baby, but mujhe waise bhi 3 baje tak neend nahi aati. Toh socha thoda sa self-care ho jaaye. The best thing is that you’re here.”
The towel over her hair. She was in her night shorts and shirt. Bani smiled.
“Thank you ki tumne mujhe yahan rehne ko offer kiya.”Bani thanked.
“Baby, apna hi ghar samjho. We’re sisters. Tum boho thi zyada formality karti ho. Tumhare wardrobe mein saree ke alawa kuch hai hi nahi so I guess we need some different kind of addition in your closet.”
“I like sarees.”
“Haan pata hai, babe, but kabhi jeans, shirt, ya phir apne pati ki shirt hi pehen liya karo. Rest assured, Veer ko koi problem nahi hogi.”
Vanshika took Bani to the attached store room to her room which she converted into a walk in closet. On both sides of the wall were shelves. Dresses hanging in line according to their colour. The lowest one having shoes filled. No two pairs were similar. They had differences of their own. Each pair of clothes had a matching pair of shoes. The adjacent wall at the end had accessories. There were a few photoframes in the closet. Photographs of her with her friends. Bani noticed a photograph from a theatre play. Quite definitely it was a Shakespeare play.
“You did a play with Samrat?” Bani asked surprised.
“Kya kya dekh leti ho. Yes. As You Like It.” Vanshika answered. The picture showed Vanshika and Samrat on the stage as Orlando goes on being a lover lost in love and as Rosalind in disguise looks at him. Bani chuckled. She saw a few more pictures. Some pictures of her in student council. First as a house captain along with Samrat. Then as the head girl with some other guy. When she was the house captain, she saw that Veer was in the same photograph as the head boy.
“Veer was the head boy?” Bani asked. Vanshika chuckled.
“He was the head boy because he was good at charming people into voting for him. The teachers and the students would together vote for the head boy and then they would be selected. All the students naturally voted for Veer. Sam and Daksh managed to get the teachers impressed.”
“So basically, they cheated to get teachers to vote for him.”
“Sort of but everyone liked him anyway. He is butter smooth when wants to be. Sirf tum pehli baar mein nahi phisli.”
“Actually, maine notice kiya ki almost everywhere you’re with Samrat. Who’s this guy?”
“Mera bad luck tha. Tabhi toh main kehti hun ki meri school life mein nightmares bharne wala insaan hai yeh Samrat Singhania. That guy there is Chris Joseph. He was really amazing. Just by a mark he won over Samrat. Sabko yahi laga ki Samrat hi head boy banega but I realized that when I voted for Chris, that’s when one vote was more in his favour. Main itni khush hui thi ki kya batau.”
“Samrat itna bhi bura nahi hai. Aur mujhe kuch keh raha tha ki you both had something…”
“Babe, that something was imaginary. Use lagta hai ki duniya ki saari ladkiyon ko woh charm kar sakta hai. He can sense stuff coming aur woh use ladkiyon ko impress karne mein definitely lagata hai. Mujhe itna pareshaan kiya hai ki main bata nahi sakti.”
She picked out the old bottles of wine that she hid in her closet.
“Tumhe pata hai ki mujhe jaldi chad jaati hai.”
“Kon dekh raha hai?”
“Nahi. You know how the situation it. Wahan Chandrakala baithi hai aur agar kabhi emergency hua toh I’d like to be in my senses.”
“Okay.”
She put pizza before them.
“Abh apne baare mein kuch batao. Itna time hua haitumhe milke but abhi tak mujhe tumhare baare zyaada nahi pata hai.”
Bani was interested in knowing Vanshika. Vanshika was very different than Meera. She was a little wild child. Her dressing sense matched a bit with Mayuri but what was different was that she was smarter than Mayuri and didn’t hurt anyone for no reason. Vanshika took a sip from the bottle of wine and smiled.
“My mom, Aishwarya Kashyap is a doctor. Something nani is super proud of. Tumhare dad bhi doctor the. My mom tells me that he was areally good surgeon. Almost sabh unhe jaante the. She always tells that when she just became an intern in the hospital, she used to be super embarrassed when he went around telling people that she was his sister. Mom finished her surgery school after I was born. So, I have super respect for her being a mom and a surgery intern at the same time. She’s an amazing mother. She was alwaysmore like my friend than my mother but when I cross the line she’s quick to remind me that she is the woman who gave birth to me.”
“Matlab abh kya kahun. Intelligent people hai meri family aur main yahan B.com student.” Bani laughed. Vanshika laughed.
“Well… they’re all much more into academic half. Aditi mami is an archaeologist. So she was the infamous bed-time story teller. She has a history blog. But I guess what you study isn’t much important in the family, they’re rather happy to see us live our life well.”
“Hmmm… toh yeh batao aisa kya hua tha ki tumhe naaglok se bahar kar diya?”
“Trust me. Naagrani Bela is an amazing person. She’s tolerated quite a bit of my stuff. I don’t know the family tree well but she’s like some sixth or seventh cousin or something like that. I don’t know but she’s far related cousin. She’s close to nani so that’s why I’ve been excused with a lot. Just like human society, Naaglok mein bhi kuch orthodoxy hai. Like they’re not so open with people who drink a lot of alcohol or eat non-veg. They have a certain kind of way of dressing in their human form. They’re not the most party people aur mujhe dekho, I’m like odd one out among all of them. Wild child. Those aunties keep reminding me of how junglee I am. That I should gather up my act.”
“Usmein kya problem hai? You’re doing anything evil.”
“Mujhe yeh baat pata hai, kuch aur logo ko yeh baat pata hai but still there are so many people who can’t accept that. I’ve studied Law in Bangalore and then came to Mumbai to practice. I enjoy being a Lawyer. Majorly a corporate lawyer but I know trial law. I’ve taken up cases. I think majorly I like it because it stuns most people to see a woman so damn confident in her voice and being badass. Or maybe because I’m a wild child.”
“So, now I know who to go to when I need a lawyer.”
Vanshika flipped her hair, winked at her and gave a flying kiss.
“Anything for you, babe.”
The two broke into laughter. The bond Bani shared with Meera was very different. The two were almost similar to each other. Only Meera was a little more meek than Bani but Vanshika was so different than her. That made Bani attach herself to it. They both shared the quick temper and quick irritability.
“About your dad?” Bani asked.
“My dad and I don’t have the best relationship. He’s like the old school disciplinarian who had severe orthodoxy in his mind. He’s from Vrishik vansh. They’re all orthodox like him and have weird initiations. They have a belief that we’re first snakes and then we’re human. So, they’ll turn every single child born in their family into a regular snake and have them brave the wild on their own for three years. I was six years old when that happened to me.”
“Are they insane or what? You were way too young.”
“You know how they say that snakes are born independent from the moment they’re hatched. They are ready predators of the wild from the moment they’re born, its something like that. They believe we’re snakes first and then human. So, the human part of them is quite less tuned.They’re all like that. They assume that if the child doesn’t survive the wild then they’re not worthy to live. Like they strongly believe in law of the jungle. ‘Survival of the fittest’.”
“This is crazy. What kind of people do that to their own children?”
“They’re not evil or anything like that but they have a twisted sort of parenting beliefs. They don’t let themselves become human intheir emotions. My dad wanted to have a son so badly. But I am a girl. So, he keeps wondering how amazing it would to have a son who would be with him.”
“I can’t believe people still think that.”
“His people don’t support their kind venturing into human world. They are like the strongest opposers of Naagins marrying and making a human their ‘joda’. So does my dad. He condems me having this human like life. Like being a lawyer and living among humans. He doesn’t approve of my lifestyle and I don’t approve of his parenting methods. Its an odd equation.”
Bani smiled.
“I’m surprise, you know. Anyone in your place would be broken emotionally with that kind of early years.”
“I had my family who cared for me, Bani. The kind of harshness of the parenting style of my father’s family had brought me closer to my faith. I used to believe in the lord before but never had such strong faith. But having to brave the wild on my own, I learnt why faith is so important. I was scared senseless at not being able to be the way I was before. I then found a really old Vishnu Temple. Nothing felt more comforting than being coiled uparound the idol. Sometimes, it felt like he was actually there looking out for me. I never left the temple for a long time out of fear. After a while, dad came and had me removed from the temple. Dad had an odd kind of parenting but he wasn’t evil. He just brought me up the way he knew parenting. That’s how he was brought up. Like some odd kind of rite of passage. I have that bitterness but I’ve learnt not keep that all over me.”
“You went to school with Singhanias after that.”
Vanshika took another sip from the wine as Bani ate her pizza.
“Trust me, school was difficult. Once dad turned meback into human after he thought that I had survived the wild, mom went crazy angry. I almost thought she was going to murder him. That sort of ruined any chances of them ever coming together again. I was good friends with Veer but Samrat and I were in the same class. I think majorly my dislike for him started because dad always would say how amazing he was and wished I would be like him. He wasn’t quite happy with the girly kind of child he had. I mean, come on, dude. He gave me that X chromosome why complain about something he messed upon? Anyway, he was obsessed with how Samrat was. ‘Look at Samrat, Kitna athletic bacha hai. The way he is so social and confident. I wish you could be like that too’ ” Bani broke into laughter at how Vanshika mocked the way herfather would speak about Samrat.
“Does he even know that he’s a cheel?”
“He does. He just liked how in tune Samrat is with his inner shape shifter. They’re different than us. While we all have a certain age at which we develop the ability to change our forms, they get that ability early on. I was 13 when I first gained the ability to be a naagin. Craziest day of my life. Trust me.”
Vanshika ate her pizza slice and drank another sip of wine.
“I had really wished I had a regular childhood. Mine was different. Papa, my foster father, took me home with me after the plane crash killed my mother. Chachi was not really fond of me. Several times she urged papa to leave me at an orphanage but he didn’t budge and treated me like his own daughter. Meera di got close to me. She cared for me almost all the time like papa did. Chachi hated having me and thought of me as a burden. It made me feel really bad but Meera di and papa’s love always made up for it. I wished that Mehek and Dehek would have the same bond with me but they neverdid. They were more like Chachi. Meera di is more like papa.”
“About Meera di. I really think that there’s something between both of them. Her and Tapish. Like I’ve seen that they talk to each other on the phone. I mean yes, she starts off talking about you but they also have other kind of conversations. I’ve seen her smile with him. And no matter how cliched it is but agar ladki hasi toh ladki phasi.”
“Aisa kuch nahi hai kyuki agar aisa kuch hota toh Meera di mujhse zaroor kehti.”
Bani wasn’t ready to admit that Meera wouldn’t talk to her if she was developing feelings for Tapish.
“Abhi abhi pyaar ki hawa lagi hai, babe. Thodi aanch lagegi tabh toh pata chalega unse ki pyaar hua hai. If she’s actually callingto check up on you then why can’t she directly call you?”
“Unhe lagta hai ki main unhe tension nahi dena chahtiisilye bohot kuch nahi bataungi unhe.”
“Haan but uska matlab toh hai na ki she trusts Tapish to tell her.”
“Acha, let us assume that she has feelings for Tapish bhai then you know him. Is he like his brothers?”
“Tapish? Oh god, no. I don’t know how come he’s blood related to Singhanias. Haan yeh toh baat hai ki Tapish chupa rustom hai. He pretends to not know anything but he knows almost everything. Considering the boys never had a mother’s influence for long, Tapish had majorly brought them up. I really think that if they have even 2% goodness in them, it is because of Tapish. He’s a sweetheart. Pata nahi woh Balwant Singhania ka beta kaise nikla but kudrat ka karishma hua aur woh Singhania ban gaye.” Vanshika laughed.
“Woh Meera di ko hurt nahi karenge na? I mean Meera di waise bhi bohot confident nahi hai. Chachi unhe bolti rehti hai ki unka skin colour kitna daba hua hai and all that. As if that is her fault.”
“That’s because Meera di khud hi itni under confidenthai. Every girl is beautiful, babe. Saari ladkiyan khoobsurat hoti hai. Fark hai toh sirf ek nazariye ki. She is quite pretty. Just that she doesn’t hone on that because of her under confidence. Waise imagine agar kabhi Meera di aurTapish ka set ho gaya then she’ll be your jethani.”
Bani smiled. She chuckled. That was a good thought in her mind.
“It’s a good thought, though. Matlab, main toh bohot khush ho jaaungi. Meri Meera di mere hi saath rahengi.”
“Acha, back to you. Ek bata, Bani. See I have no right to question Adi-Naagin but just as a sister I want to ask you. Exactly kya chal raha hai tere aur Veer ke beech? What do you wish to do with this relationship when we’re done with our mission? Chandrakala aur Markaat ko harane ke baad tum kya karna chahti ho, Bani? Main yeh isiliye puch rahi hun kyuki Veer tujhse bohot pyaar karta hai. Yeh baat tujhse bhi chupi nahi hai. Mujhe dekhne mein yeh lagta hai ki tujhe bhi Veer se pyaar hai but then you also say that Jay is close to you. I’m not accusing you or anything but ek clarity hona important hai, Bani.”
Bani sighed and ran her fingers through her hair.
“Sach batau toh mujhe nahi pata ki main kya karun, Vanshika. Veer ke saath hone ki feeling hi alag hai. I can’t explain how it feels. Jaise ki sabh kuch alag hai uske saath. Uska zindagi ko dekhne ka tareekahi alag. Darr sa lagta, V. Uski intensity hi alag hai. Jitni mera gussa tha uske liye, usse zyaada pyaar hai uska and trust me I was drowning in my anger towards him. Itna gussa tha uske liye ki mujhe kisi aur cheez ki sudh budh nahi rehti thi. Par baar baar main yeh sochti hun ki hum dono ek saath reh kaise paayenge. Kya yeh possible bhi hai ki ek cheel aur ek naagin ek saath ho? Hume ek doosre ke liye bane hai yeh main kaise soch lun? Yeh toh tumhe bhi pata hai humare rules kaise hote hai. Abhi abhi toh kuch waqt pehle Naaglok mein ek Naagin aur ek insaan ko saath mein accept karna shuru kiya hai aur main seedha yeh kaise soch lun ki Veer aur main ek ho sakte hai?"
"I know I’m attracted to him. How do you forever ignore someone who loves you that intensely that it is almostimpossible to be ignorant of it? Veer ke feelings ko main ignore kar hi nahi sakti. It is that intense and comes off strongly. Veer, exactly like his inner cheel, is a free bird. Jahan dil kiya waha chala gaya. Boundaries exist hi nahi karti uske liye. Aasmaan mein kya hi boundaries bana sakte hai? Boundaries zameen ke hote hai but aasmaan ke panchi thodi na yeh puchte hai ki zameen kiski hai. Behisaab udne ki aadat hai Veer ko. He doesn’t care for rules or tradition or societal norms. Use fark hi nahi padta hai. Uske hisaab se, kyuki woh sabse zyaada takatwar hai, use jo karna hai woh kar dega. Seconds thoughts don’t exist in his mind. Jo pehli cheez zehen mein aayi woh kar di. Darr lagta hai ki agar Veer se dhoka mila toh shayad toot hi jaaungi. Jis tarah se Veer apni feelings ko khul ke jeeta hai waise main nahi kar paati. Jitna maine Veer pe bharosa kiya hai utna shayad Jay pe bhi nahi kiya hai. Veer ke saath everything is wild and uncontrolled. Jay ke saath everything is well measured. I don't feel powerless against Jay but with Veer it is being powerless and defenseless. Use khone ki soch se bhi darr lagta hai.”
Vanshika just looked at Bani. The way she spoke about Veer. It was almost like she wished she could be like him for once.
“Tum usse pyaar karti ho.” She pointed out.
“Pyaar…” Bani chuckled, “Uski aankhon mein apne liye itna pyaar dekhne ki aadat hai ki kabhi darr lagta hai ki agar woh pyaar kho gaya toh? Mujhe nahi pata yeh kya hai. Pyaar mein darr kahan hota hai? Pyaar mein we’re just happy to be in love with the person. Saccha pyaar ho toh bas itne mein hi khushi mil jaati hai ki woh khush hai. Par nahi samajhti kyu hai yeh feeling ki main uski aankhon mein apne liye pyaar ke alawa kuch aur nahi dekh sakti. I know how shallow it sounds but main honestly jo feel karti hun wahi bata rahi hun. Adi-Naagin banu ya phir Bani samajh nahi aata. Bani hun toh humesha yeh dil karta hai ki Veer ke saath hi rahun. Then yaad aata hai ki Adi-Naagin bhi hun. Toh kya ek Adi-Naagin ka aise cheel ke pyaar mein deewana hona sahi hai?”
“Bani, all of the restrictions aside. Ek baar yeh socho ki tum dil se kya feel karti ho?”
“Vanshika, ek baath batata hun tumhe. Jo aaj tak khud se kehne ki bhi himmat nahi hui.” Bani showed her a certain birthmark on her arm. There was a patch of skin differently coloured on her arm. Just a tone darker than her general skin tone. Bani covers it with a skin toner. Vanshika was surprised. She was scared to open that part of her truth but she knew if she didn’t say it now, it will forever eat her away, “Jab pehli baar Aakesh mere saamne aaya tha, tabh use dekh ke pata nahi kyu aisa laga, bas ek pal ke liye, ki uska mujhse koi toh naata hai. Koi toh cheez hai jo mujhe uske paas kheech rahi thi. Uski aankhon mein ek pal ke liye kho gayi thi. Bas that one moment shook me top to bottom when I realized I felt that strong connection that I never felt with anyone. I have never felt guilty about anything as much as I did about feeling that connection to someone who was supposedly the enemy. Mujhe yeh laga ki mujhse galati hui hai. Aisi galti jiski saza kaatna mere liye zaroori tha. Jab tak us aag ne us soch nahi jala diya tabh tak mera haath usi diya ke aag ke upar tha.”
“Yeh…” Vanshika was shocked. She wouldn't have imagined something like that.
“Nageshwari ne Hriday ko apna saathi maan liya tha phir kyu Aakesh ke liye aisa kuch bhi feel kiya? Yeh baat ka jawab kabhi nahi mila mujhe. Gussa aaya tha khud pe ki galti hui hogi but galti se bhi Hriday ke alawa kisi ko bhi apni soch mein jagah diya tha. Darr gayi thi ki yeh galti ek baar hui hai toh dusri baar bhi ho gayi toh? Isiliye maine decide kar liya ki Hriday se shaadi kar lungi. Uske baad toh sawaal hi nahi uthega kisi aur ke baare mein sochne ki. Saanpo ke liye shaadi ka kya matlab hai? Shaadi insaano ke liye hai. Toh wahan Pandit ji kehte the ki jab do log shaadi karte hai toh humesha ke liye ek dusre ke ban jaate hai. Toh mujhe laga sach mein aisa hi hota hoga. Toh main agar Hriday se shaadi kar lun toh Aakesh mere khyalon mein bhi nahi aayega. But usse pehle hi teeno mar gaye. Nishaan is janam mein bhi reh gaya hai.”
Vanshika ran her thumb over that small patch. She had always heard stories about Aakesh, Nageshwari and Hriday. The story was infamous in Naaglok. Aakesh was the infamous lover. The most dangerous cheel that could have existed. He was infamous for his power. It was almost like he was unstoppable. No one was able to hunt him down but Nageshwari killed him. He let Nageshwari kill him. There was a general thing about all Naag-Naagin having enmity with all the cheels but no one could deny the madness that Aakesh came with. None of them could deny that Aakesh was completely lost in love and would cross any boundary for his love. A notch higher than any Romeo. Just like how the trend was among human youngsters to think about such intense love, it was the same in Naaglok. No one could match the intensity of Aakesh. Hriday's love never matched the intensity of Aakesh's obsessive love.
Everyone in Naaglok would say that Aakesh was madly in love with Nageshwari and had the title for being the most infamous lover. She remembered someone saying 'Pyaar karne waale bohot hai par jaisa pyaar Aakesh ne kiya hai waisa kisi ne nahi kiya hai'.
Vanshika couldn’t understand earlier at all as to how did it even happen that Bani got married to Veer instead of Jay. Now, when Bani confessed this truth to her, Vanshika was beginning to believe that maybe, just maybe, Aakesh and Nageshwari were fated to be together but it ended rather badly. That’s why they took birth. Bani assumes she was born for Jay but it is the undeniable truth that Bani’s own intensity of whatever she felt for Veer was around 10,000 times stronger than any small feeling for Jay.
“Bani, we can’t choose who we fall in love with. It just happens. We cannot control who we feel attracted to or who we fall in love with. It isn’t a conscious choice. To want to be with them or not is a conscious choice.”
“Veer ne bhi exactly yahi kaha tha.” Bani answered. "Honestly kahun toh bas ek wish hai meri. Bas ek din, at least ek din ke liye, Veer ki tarah behisaab ud saku. Not having anything weighing you down. To let go off my fears and embrace the feelings which I'm too scared to admit to him. Kahin main kamzoor na pad jaau, yeh darr lagta hai."
"Bani, pyaar sirf logo ko takat deta hai. You were on the verge of breaking down when you heard Jay's confession about his betrayal but moment he said Veer, it was like you knew you could be stronger."
"Mujhe kabhi udne ki itni iccha nahi hui jitna us moment mein hui jab maine use udte hue dekha. You know when we watch birds, we all wish we could fly like that, exactly same thing but main sirf uske saath udna chahti thi."
"Congratulation, Bani Sharma. You're in love."
Bani laughed.