Ambika's SaJan os gallery - Page 14

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Hey guys its me ambika with another os'this one is quite short yet very deep'.As we all are sajan fans I thought of portraying it from their POV. This poem below by Sylvia Path is very deep and beautiful and is to be taken as a suicide note'and it is a personification'that is from mirror's POV'I will write this os from gunjan's POV whose image is reflected by this mirror..so before u read the os do read this poem as both are interconnected'.

Mirror

I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see, I swallow immediately.
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike
I am not cruel, only truthful '
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me.
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

By Sylvia path

GUNJAN'S POV

I stare into the mirror, who reflects my image and seep into my eyes again'..Into my eyes which are full of questions'..questions about my appearance'..Questions which are still unanswered and are registered deep into my mind'..asking for someone to unfold them''someone who can answer them'I myself don't know what answers do these questions hold nor do I know what these questions exactly mean to me'.it's just that these haunt me everyday'.i don't know how long did I stare at that plain, silver, reflecting surface which was constantly making me aware of the bitter truth of my life'.my face'.my reflection'.That day is still fresh in my mind when I lost the most important thing in my life'.my existence'.Now I really wonder'Do I even exist??!!! Every day I stare at the mirror for hours hoping that it will certainly reflect what I m longing for'what I have been longing for since that day'.the day I lost my love'my everything!!!...

FLASHBACKS- 2 YEARS AGO

(( The most beautiful couple was holding hands and walking by the seaside at nearly 10 at night'.Unaware of anyone's existence''just happy and contented being in each other's arm'silence was the only thing ruling to that time'both were lost in the depth of their love'listening to each other's heartbeat which seemed to speak volumes'.they were feeling blissful''.))

G- samrat I m so happy today'..we are finally one'.((she said smiling softly'))

S- hmm'.((he whispered..))

G- everything is going on so well na'I just love the way the things are going..i don't want any change in my life..in our lives..((she said still smiling'))

S-hmm..((he whispered again..while she just simply looked up at him'he was lost in his own thoughts'she cupped his left right cheek forcing him to look at her'as their eyes met she saw the uneasiness and tension in his eyes'she was worried too'))

G- kya hua samrat??!! Is anything wrong'.((she whispered softly'))

S- chashmish wo..actually I can't believe on my fate'I m so happy today'so complete'I m just tensed that nothing goes wrong in the near future'.i know I m acting like a real fool but I just can't help myself'I can't afford to lose you'((he whispered slowly'his eyes reflecting the intensity of pain he was feeling at the moment..))

G- samrat nothing will go wrong ever'.i promise..we will be together forever'but I need a promise from you too..((she said hopefully..))

s-and that is?? ((he said urging her to continue..))

G- promise me that you won't leave my side ever'you will be always there for me'((she said soflty..))

S- I promise'I will be always there for you'.with you..((he whispered even more softly before capturing her lips in a soft and tender kiss which seemed like eternity'.))

FLASHBACK ENDS'

((She still can't believe that he had broken his promise..how can fate be so cruel to her''just because she lost her beauty everyone had dumped her as if she was a trash'.all her loved ones''all those whom she loved and all those she believed had loved her'.But still she had trusted one person'who would never leave her side'.))

FLASHBACKS'.

((THIRD PERSON'S POV..))

D- samrat gunjan is really not well'.almost half of her body is burnt including her face too'..((Doctor spoke to samrat in a serious tone who seemed to be shattered completely'..doctor patted his back..))

D- u need to take care of her'what she needs at this moment is love and support'her insecurities would be rising'you will have to support her'I hope you are understanding what am I trying to tell you'(( samrat nodded'.and silently wiping his tears went to I.C.U.))

((Gunjan had numerous bandages all over her face, neck region and arms'.her eyes were closed'.he came and sat beside her'not daring to touch her as didn't want to hurt her in any way'2 tears made their from his eyes down to his cheek'.he slowly whispered..))

S- I m sorry chashmish I couldn't save you'you have to bear so much just because of me'.if I had been there this must not have happened to you'it's all my fault'.and I m even more sorry for what I m going to do now'I hope you will forgive me'.i love you a lot but I can't help it'.nothing is in my hands'((saying this he started crying even more'.and took a letter from his pocket and kept it on the beside table and left after staring at her tearfully'))

((When gunjan woke up she didn't find samrat'she got to know about her state and that made her even more depressed''after reading samrat's letter she was even more broken'he had left her because his parents had rejected her knowing about her accident'and samrat who can't go against his parents had left her forever'..she had lost trust in all'.even her family had abandoned her'.a doctor in the hospital helped her stay at one of the orphanages and work there'she started living an aimless life'she was just living dead'.no emotions'no feelings nothing'.just loneliness was her companion'.))

FLASHBACK ENDS'..

(( Gunjan who was once the most beautiful and cheerful girl now lived a dull and depressed life'she had no one to share her grief with'.she just stayed locked in her room and stared at her reflection for hours'reliving the pain she had experienced when samrat had left her forever'maybe this was her destiny'her life'her existence'.a NOBODY'))

Thanks a lot guys for bearing my os'I know this was short and a little abrupt at places but I tried to portray the message'sorry for a sad one again'but to relate it with the poem I had to'..i can write a sequel to it if you want'.but I guess a happy end would ruin the essence it has'waiting for your replies'.do comment and hit the like tab..

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ambika