#2 ~FF : Untold Stories~ - Page 8

Originally posted by: kimnana

lovely update ..loved her diary entry

she cares abt him so much ...totally concerned abt ranveer

sry for late reply exam time

ty for pm

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Epistle 33: Constricting Ice

A/N: Hey there everyone! :D :D Here is the next update! :D :D

Happy Reading! :D :D

27th February, 2001:

For the first time in four years, my dreams have re- introduced me to the woman who I had long since given up on seeing. My usual dreams have abandoned me as I find myself transported to a snowy world every night, not unlike the Solang Valley.

Welcome or not, each night I find my hands and feet bound in suspended air, this time fully clothed. The change is welcome, for it is chilly all around me, my teeth already chattering from the sheer cold. Experience has taught me not to struggle against the bonds that were always beyond my capacity to break, but I distinctly remember that I had done it once. Why wouldn't it work again?

I imprudently try to break myself free from the bonds and they tug at my limbs violently, this time causing me to bleed real blood. I can see the drops fall upon the snow and taint it red, forced to watch its sickening blending. And before I find my patience flowing away, the woman of the hour makes her appearance. As usual, surrounded by a mist that kept us apart, she makes her way gracefully towards me until she stopped, the long flow of her cloudy gown giving her the air of an angel.

She no longer wears her mystical sky blue robes but is now instead in a white billowy dress, tressles of black hair falling around her in long waves. I come to realize that her aura has altered a lot in these four years, but if possible, she's grown only more magical. She cups my cheek the moment I stop struggling against the bonds and speaks sweetly.

"It took you long enough to find your way here."

The bonds instantly cease throttling my limbs and I let myself heave out a shaky sigh, the pain slowly abating away. I take a closer look around the place, and all I can conclude is that the place is too white to be real.

"Am I dead?" I ask her with sudden discomfort and she chuckles wholeheartedly. I realize how much I'd missed her presence in all these years.

"You could be worse than that..." she tells me reasonably, and I all do is stare at her, amazed.

"You just feel the same... except, younger..." I tell her honestly, her smile now benign. I try so hard to keep the astonishment and awe out from my voice, yet I fail so miserably. Why wouldn't I be awestruck? She's the best thing that happened to me since my accident. And she's gotten even more breathtaking since I last saw her.

"Isn't it how it should be, anyway?" she says jovially, and I can only smile. The snow has exemplified her beauty.

"Why am I clothed?" I suddenly ask, remembering about one of the prime changes about our meeting.

"Is that a bad thing?" she questions in return with a hint of mischief in her voice. I unconsciously blush.

"Why am I bound?" I ask her again after a few moments, wondering why I was being held captive so ruthlessly when I had rightfully earned my freedom all those years ago.

"Ah, I'm afraid that it's entirely your doing," she reveals mysteriously, while I stare at my limbs. I can see a few drops of blood trickle the length of my arm and fall upon the white snow, smearing the purity of the snow with red. It disturbs me.

"The bonds... they hurt. It's making me bleed," I cry out to her, and suddenly I find her inching closer to me, until we are merely apart.

"Is it now?" she asks me in a tantalizing tone, while I squirm uncomfortably. The bonds no longer hurt that much.

"Well, yeah! It never happened before!" I yell out to her in anger, and she stares at me sympathetically. Oddly enough, I can assume without seeing her face.

"Well, you've never harboured this much pain before now, have you? It's bound to make you bleed. The heart of a fourteen-year old cannot bear the intensity of pain that you are withholding within you," she sigh compassionately, and I feel a tear leave my eye. The bonds get stronger around my arms once again, but it is my heart that hurts the most.

"You've never been this brutally honest with me," I admit to her as she inches closer, now patting my cheek lovingly.

"You were a child when you last found me, Ranveer. You are a boy now," she lets slip while stroking my cheek. Her touch feels extremely comforting, although I begin to feel a little uneasy now.

"I liked the lake better. It felt calm," I confess tensely, the cold, detached atmosphere of the snow now getting to me.

"You find places what you feel, Ranveer," says Love enigmatically and I crunch my brows in confusion. She didn't bother to provide an explanation for what she just said, and we both retreated to a pregnant silence. After a few minutes, I take the courage and speak up again.

"Why did you leave me?"

"You decided to jump," was all she replied, but I don't stop there.

"Why didn't you save me?" I ask her, this time not bothering to hide the accusatory tone in my voice.

"I did," she confesses, leaving me startled.

"By letting me fall to my death?" I question her sardonically, and she chuckles.

"No, by letting you fall back to sanity," she corrects me, but I shake my head in bewilderment.

"You are not making sense," I finally say, knowing that there was to be no conclusion to this argument.

"It won't make sense to you know, but once all the pieces of the jigsaw fit, you'll understand," she says with her usual air of conundrum that only drove me madder.

"I don't want to hurt like this," I tell her as the ache in my heart grows stronger again, another tear escaping my eyes. She wipes away the tear and sighs.

"Then you must let your pain ebb away," she urges me with such passion that it takes me aback.

"I cannot let go of it," I splutter fearfully and the cahins yank at my limbs tighter than ever.

"You have no option. It will kill you if you don't let go," she warns me, but I cannot do what she says no matter how much I try. It's impossible.

"I cannot let go," I repeat again, this time in pain.

"Then I'm afraid that I cannot help you," she sighs placidly and begins to walk away.

"No... No!" I shriek out to her, and she stops. "Please... Please... Help me, please..."

"Alright, I will. But you must let your pain ebb away," she tells me once again, and I stare at her shadow beseechingly.

"How?"

"Like this," she replies quietly.

Without warning, I feel myself fall into nothingness until my feet hit ice-water, my lungs instantly on fire. I try to flail my arms and legs about, but I realize that I was still bound. Somehow, thrashing and kicking widly, I find myself coming to the top of the surface, breathing laboriously. The icy water still cut through every pore of my body like hot and cold knives stabbing me simultaneously, while my feet now touch the muddy land at the bottom of the lake. The lake, apparently, wasn't as deep as I thought it to be.

I venomously stare at Love, who now sat perched on the snowy branch of a barren tree near the lake.

"What joke is this?! Did you just try to kill me?" I ask her spitefully, while she sneers in response at first.

"Did I? I was under the impression that you were trying to kill me," she says casually, and I gasp.

"I don't-" I begin to protest, but she cuts me instantly.

"The moment you cease to exist, I cease to exist. I was just trying to see what your intentions were," she remarks shrewdly. I don't understand one bit of it, and suddenly I'm aware about the fact that Love is read my minding. But it is already too late.

"You wouldn't have broken surface had you not willed to live," she says sagely, while I give her an outraged look.

"I would have broken surface much earlier had you not thrown me into such brutal waters bound!" I exclaim angrily, but she waves me off.

"Either way, you haven't lost the will to live. You've just lost direction."

"You were supposed to rid me of my pain," I tell her snidely, but she only smirks.

"Not until you break through it first," she speaks in crisp defiance, and I shake my head.

"You're lying to me!" I yell, tired of this cat and mouse chase that didn't do me any good.

"You're lying to yourself," she tells me blandly, and I actually find myself growling at her in anger.

"Why do you always bind me which these chains and shackles? What are you afraid of?" I ask her suddenly, the contemptuous evident in my voice. She just lets out a mirthless laugh.

"How ironical of you to ask me that. You're the one who's bound, not me. I'm free," she replies haughtily, suddenly swooping from the tree and appears incheing away from my face. The chains around my limbs grow tighter and tighter.

"Let me go, please... you're frightening me."

"You've already begun to let go off me..." she remarks cynically.And before I know it, the earth from below my feet disappears.

I find myself sinking into the ice-cold water withno release. I was drowning, and there was to be no relief from it. And just like, I feel my head grow heavier and the surroundings fade around me until my eyes close. Only for them to open the next moment to find myself back on the bed, staring around at the still quality of the night. This was my first conversation with love after her re-appearance.

And that's what I see every night ever since I've been back home. Our conversations are different, yet it always comes to the point where she asks me to abandon my pain and I refuse. Until I agree and she tries to drown me. Or am I drowning myself? Either way, it's not very pleasant shuttling between the cold, aloof snow and the bitter, paranoid waters that are both lethal in their own mysterious ways.

I'm sorry that I haven't spoken to you in almost a week. Few days ago, Ishaani told me that our exams were about to begin from the 1st of March (we still aren't talking, if you know what I mean), and something just hit me. I wanted to give my exams. I don't know how Ishaani did it, but she actually convinced Mota Babuji, who in turn convinced the doctors to let me give them. From what I found out, the doctors weren't entirely convinced, but they decided to give it a shot nonetheless.

And since the past one week, my physiotherapist has been working on my writing speed. I do take longer than before to write my answers down, but since mine is a special case, the teachers have decided to allot me an extra window of twenty minutes. I don't even know whether it's going to work, but I must try my best. I still don't find any hope, but somehow, it feels right.

The exams are a weird source of strength, and I finally find myself engaged into something that does not make me feel like a social recluse. Apparently, I've made slight progress with my physiotherapy sessions as well. She says that my abdomen muscles are showing movement, and my vitals do seem to be improving. My legs still aren't showing any improvement though, but she says that the process is always snail-slow and gradual. Atleast something is happening, if nothing at all.

So in the meanwhile, I've been working on my speed continuously, making sure that I don't strain myself too much and do take care of how I control my breathing. My lungs might be perfectly normal, but the paralysis has weakened my diaphragm, as the physiotherapist says, so I need to be extra careful. Like I had lesser shocks and ailments without needing to know more. Anyway, I'm not going to tire you any further because I need to get back to my writing practice. It still takes me three hours and forty five minutes to complete writing a paper and I need to do the impossible. A miracle is the only thing that could help me now.

If only Love could break me out from the constricting ice.

Constructive criticism will be more than welcome and sorry for any typos. :D :D

Next chapter:
Epistle 34

hey LM🤗
just read the chapter, and tbh it was scary
dunno why but this dream of ranveer always rushed my adrenaline 😔
love wants him to give away his pain bt he is keeping it enclose inside him :/
and i dint understand that reference where love told him that he is now in snowy place becoz of himself 😲
waiting for ur next update,
ishani one soothes me whereas ranveer's one are scary *not always ❤️❤️*
Loads of love 2 u
AASTHA😊😊
PS- thank u for telling new hp movie name😳 *mujhe ni pta tha*
did u hv any idea who r the actors in this? SAME??

What a brilliant writing LM !! Love you for this one ! 🤗

I know I know I called you cruel after last update, but you made up in this one ! 😉😉😉😉

The dialogue especially is very deep and has an ethereal quality to it .. Very well conceived and written . Kudos to you..

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Wonderful dear...thanks for pm 😊 👏

Hey hi dear this ws so amazing chapter I alwys love ur description of nightmares nd dreams 👏
So love is back again 😳
I loved tht part whn c asked being clothed is not gud or wht o ranveer 😉
I guess dreams are a part of reality wht v feel for sumone same is case wid ranveer his bonds are gng to hurt if he tries to remain in tht
U !made a very well reference of cold ice and lake to his one turmoil in life tht he is gng through but I guess solving dis puzzle is gng to help him live nd fight back in his life
I just felt tht I go on reading dese dreams and his conversation they were so beautifully written
U r just so talented writers tht leave me dumbstruck sometimes
Thnx fr pm dear
Dere r many doubts but I have decided to maintain calm nd dey ll b solved wid coming chapter of urs right now I just want to enjoy this chapter by reading 3 tym
Waitng fr next

The review is for the 32nd Epistle.

Sabse pehle: ARE YOU OKAY? Is something disturbing you, LM? If you feel to not to share it, then it's completely fine.😳😳

So now to the update. My, my! Ishani's are kinda soothing to read 😛😛 Right from her sharing that she hardly spoke to Ranveer and her childish pain she undergoes. Man, she is already in love with him It was well-written.

And then comes the most wanted conversation(Although they haven't had the proper convo, still.) Right from him asking her about the exams and her telling him that she will ask HP was really cute. (Crazy, I know🤪🤪)

Then, she feeling happy that at least 'spoke' with her❤️❤️

I am yet to read the 33rd one. Will place my review later Sorry😔😔

Love
AV

Ps. I seriously hope that you are okay 🥺🥺

Hi LM

Nice update loved each and every part of it
waiting for another update keep writing dear.
Thanks for pm 😉😉

Originally posted by: ..BABYGIRL..

hey LM🤗
just read the chapter, and tbh it was scary
dunno why but this dream of ranveer always rushed my adrenaline 😔
love wants him to give away his pain bt he is keeping it enclose inside him :/
and i dint understand that reference where love told him that he is now in snowy place becoz of himself 😲
waiting for ur next update,
ishani one soothes me whereas ranveer's one are scary *not always ❤️❤️*
Loads of love 2 u
AASTHA😊😊
PS- thank u for telling new hp movie name😳 *mujhe ni pta tha*
did u hv any idea who r the actors in this? SAME??

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