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Originally posted by: Mrs.Peanuts

Yes, I have been and but am out.I don't know why j am responding to your posts or should share this here. Few months ago,my brother moved forward with his internship and my cousins all excelling in academics and make 6 figure update came. my supportive mother went pyscho. Everyday for almost 6 weeks , it was continuous arguments followed everyday and scrutiny over lack of me moving anywhere in terms of career. It was all he/she is doing this. You should do this and she became obsessed with IT jobs. To appease her and have peace in the house ,I went along with her decision. She would tell me how I was worthless and it was living hell . I wanted to get some IT job and get hell out of the house. I felt so worthless that I thought about driving myself to edge of just ending it all. That' s what I thought and wanted to end all of it.

I stopped at the bridge and jerked myself back.i did not have the guts do it b.c. That would mean letting my enemies fail.
I realized this was not me and it went against who I was as a person and cried for days. I was restless at night. A savior email came from God or my Angel. I got a job offer for a project offer in India and Nepal .it was tipping at that point when my mum realized that I was worth something. she was furious I had rejected the job offer. That I think made her realize I have worth of something to offer.she just was stunned and realized my dreams and passion were something ,. The arguments stoped and after little but talks step by steps .'me and my mother are still working on it.etc..too much detail I cannot reveal..think already did

I always have wanted to pursue public health but salary was holding me back.i would always compare a major to salary. For years ,I had chased after salary instead of my passion.it was all this job will give me this money if I went to it. money is not everything.i pulled my shit together and threw out the junk food.it's been few weeks but I am so much better.all I can tell u there is one life . Don't let people hold u back and be best friend to yourself. Be that u will need to do and u will need do get through tough times.Don't give a f**k what people and fight for your passions ,our dreams,and how u want to live your life. U will have roadblocks but end journey will be full of light. I don't have the time to ask why u asked this questions but I would say hang in there..,


have international flight and here I am writing this..please , don't quote
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