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I so agree with Rekha 😆😆..update soon TK 😉

Originally posted by: aDarkAngel

I so agree with Rekha 😆😆..update soon TK 😉

kya kare yaar neendh nahi aarahi thi ,😳😳yeh soch soch kar , next kya karega ,yeh immature insensitive jerk 😡,madhu ko hurt karne keliye ,kya ek dhin aayega jo rk madho ko samjhega😆

Originally posted by: rekha.366

kya kare yaar neendh nahi aarahi thi ,😳😳yeh soch soch kar , next kya karega ,yeh immature insensitive jerk 😡,madhu ko hurt karne keliye ,kya ek dhin aayega jo rk madho ko samjhega😆

Ha ha. You sound like an addict demanding their daily drug. Anyhow, your wish, my command. Chapter 16 coming up - but you may not like this one.

Chapter 16

Rishabh was perplexed. He had been looking for Madhu everywhere in the party, but couldn't find her. He decided to call her, when he saw her text. He hadn't heard the phone buzz in the noise in the party. Feeling unwell? What had happened?

He had last seen Madhu more than an hour ago when she had come to the dance floor. It was crowded and he kept asking her to come closer and dance with him, but she left. Maybe she was trying to say something. He saw her walking towards the washroom, and assumed she was just telling him that she would be back from the washroom. After about half an hour, RK had stepped away from the dance floor and started looking for Madhu. He kept getting interrupted by people who wanted to talk to him, so it took longer to search everywhere, but now that he saw the text, he figured Madhu had probably reached home already. He felt a wisp of disappointment, but also concern. He texted her back, "Just saw the text. Are you all right?" "Yes. Need rest." Came back the reply.

RK considered if he should leave the party and look for Madhu. But she said she needed rest. Maybe he can see her tomorrow. His intuition told him something was wrong. Madhu was fine, in fact she was glowing, when they got here at the party. He couldn't help but wonder if she was really unwell, or if she was lying for some reason? No, Madhu normally didn't lie, and anyway what reason could she have had. Maybe she got bored, RK realized he had left her alone for longer than he would have liked. He did come looking for her before Maya dragged him to the dance floor, but she wasn't sitting where he'd left her. In any case, even if she did get bored, she wouldn't lie and leave abruptly for that. RK dismissed his thoughts and decided to check on Madhu the following morning.

Madhu seemed disturbed when RK phoned her the next morning, or rather, noon, which was when he woke up.

"Hey honey. How are you?"

"Hi. I am okay. How are you?"

"Just woke up. The party was exhausting. What happened to you? How did you fall sick? Why didn't you tell me before leaving?"

Madhu grew silent. She didn't normally lie to Rishabh - it felt sick and disgusting inside her. Half-truths and silences were still different than lying, but this was a direct question.

"Ummm...I just...I don't know. I felt terrible. And I tried to talk to you but it was quite noisy." Madhu strayed on the grey line, using words that were neither lies nor the intended truth. She couldn't exactly explain to him what had happened and why she had behaved like a total nervous wreck. "I wasn't feeling good...I didn't feel like I could stay there...I am sorry."

RK listened to Madhu in silence. She was lying, he knew. She was so transparent, and she never lied, so the quiver in her voice was unmistakeable. What was going on here? Maybe, RK thought, maybe she didn't want to come in the first place. Maybe she didn't like it there and is covering it up. The thought inexplicably hurt RK. Madhu didn't like being a part of RK's life? He wanted her to meet everyone and feel comfortable - that was the whole reason he had invited her. But she probably wasn't interested. She had sat alone, and then left abruptly. Had he committed a mistake by inviting her? Just like Madhu no longer seemed to want to spend any time with RK's friends. Somehow, to RK, it seemed like he was losing Madhu. She no longer wanted to share RK's life and what he wanted to share with her.

"Rishu, you there?" Madhu asked. The silence had grown uncomfortably long.

"Hmm."

"I am sorry Rishabh. I should have told you before leaving. You were busy..."

"I was right there Madhu. You could have dragged me out of the dance floor if you wanted to. I wasn't in a Board meeting." RK was getting irritated. "If you were unwell, don't you think I would have wanted to know? I could have taken you home. I was so worried, but it seems like...seems like...you don't need me."

"No Rishu there's nothing like that."

"Well it's either that or that I can't give you what you want and expect out of me or this relationship. You keep saying you want to be with me, but you don't seem to like any of the parts of my life that make me who I am. Maybe I am not good enough. I don't know what you want."

"That's not true Rishabh. I love you...and everything about you. I don't want anything...I have you, that is all I need. I didn't..."Madhu was sobbing. Hearing her crying made RK even more frustrated.

"Stop crying Madhu. How am I supposed to react to that? I didn't get into this relationship so I can see you cry all the time."

Madhu gasped and tried to control her tears. "I am not crying Rishu. I am..I am just saying...I...I"

"Madhu...listen to yourself. Listen to us. I don't know what's going on in your mind. I am not a mind reader. But it's evident that you're hurt. And I am hurt. We...we can't keep doing this."

"Rishh.."

"Madhu. My head is hurting. I will talk to you later. Bye"

RK hung up the phone before Madhu had the chance to say something else. He felt his own frustrations bubbling up. He didn't know what was going on with Madhu...but everything, everything felt wrong. Perhaps it had been wrong for months now, and RK had just been ignoring it. But speaking to Madhu...her voice...what had happened to the girl he loved? She was hurting...she was a mess...but she kept denying it and saying she didn't want anything. Well, except him. But how much of him? In what form? Maybe he just didn't have what it took to satisfy Madhu. Maybe he would never have what Madhu needed. He always knew she was complex, but RK now felt like he never understood her. Maybe she was too complex. Maybe she was too f**ked up by whatever it was in her past, and it was beyond RK to fix it.

But the question was, RK asked himself, was he willing to live like this? Feeling guilty all the time, feeling like a failure because he couldn't fix unfixable issues. Was Madhu's baggage something he could deal with? RK's heart felt heavy. He had been fighting his instincts for days, hoping against hope that he could reset the timeline to how things were when Madhu and him started being in this relationship. But over time, RK didn't know why or when or how, Madhu had grown needier. Her expectations from the relationship had increased a lot, and RK constantly fell short. No matter what he did, there was never enough he could give to keep her happy. And the bitter truth was - he hated, absolutely hated, when Madhu acted over-protective and possessive and jealous. He had thought it was a temporary thing, but it had only gotten worse over time. He felt like Madhu wanted to change him into something he was not, and he resented her strongly for that.

Could he live with this the rest of his life, RK wondered? Was he willing to commit himself to living like this all his life? Life, which would unquestionably get more complex over time...

He wanted a relationship that could be a source of strength for him, not drain him like this. Madhu was a wonderful friend, and she cared for him, but being with her had become infinitely harder with time. She used to be supportive and understanding of him, and he had been using that to rationalize to himself all the not-so-good times. But for too long now, RK felt like he had to give up on something if he wanted to keep Madhu satisfied. And even when he did that, her satisfaction seemed ephemeral.

He had to look at this objectively - what would he tell his friends if their girlfriend seemed to want to control them and grew this demanding? If they were always this...unhappy.

Maybe Maya had been right - they had been together for a while now, and if they hadn't adjusted to each other so long...

Still, somewhere in his heart, the thought that this relationship was sinking - or had already sunk - was hurting like someone had stabbed a knife. Why did things have to come to this point?

RK felt exhausted. He lay down on his bed, circling over these thoughts over and over again. Every single fight, every single pained note in Madhu's voice and on her face came back to him. Every single night when he had gone to bed feeling guilty or inadequate for Madhu came back to him. He did not want to hurt her, but he did not want to live in this constant painful strife all his life.

After hours of debate internally, for RK, the bottomline was - both Madhu and RK had very different needs and very different expectations from this relationship. They were perhaps at such different points in their life, that they could never meet. And if this wasn't going to work out, if this couldn't make both of them happy, what was the point of staying in this relationship?

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Madhu had been distraught ever since the conversation in the morning with Rishabh. She was losing everything, every bone in her body was telling her that. Everything was going wrong, and she couldn't fix it fast enough. Last night, at the party, she couldn't figure out what had happened to her? Why had she needed to run like that? Why had she over-reacted so much?

And then, she had gone to Vikram. She thought he was her friend, but he said things about her RK she absolutely couldn't stand. How could he say those things? Didn't he know how much she would be hurt to hear something like that about Rishabh? How could he doubt Rishabh and their love? She had to leave, she had no choice. She couldn't be friends with someone who spoke ill about her Rishabh. But it still hurt. She had trusted Vikram. There were very few people in this world who she had placed that faith in. Losing a friend like Vikram was enormously painful.

Why, she questioned fate, did things have to come to this?

Life hated Madhu, she thought! RK was mad this morning, obviously. Wouldn't she be mad if he had left without telling her from her party without even informing her? Wouldn't she be as angry as Rishabh if he behaved like a hurtful nutcase like Madhu knew she was behaving like right now? How would she fix this? She had tried to apologize, but she had started sounding like a broken record even to herself. Saying "I am sorry" does not undo anything. How could she make things go normal again if she kept committing one mistake after another?

For that, more than life, Madhu hated herself. Why couldn't she control herself? Why did she have to irritate RK all the time? Why couldn't she control her tears and her stupid irrational feelings? Why was she letting her insecurities affect so much that she was pushing RK away? Why couldn't she just bottle up and throw away all these ugly, wrong parts of herself that only hurt RK and herself? More than anything else, Madhu hated herself because she knew she had hurt RK. She had been the one responsible for hurting RK and causing him pain, instead of absorbing his pain! That was the worst sin of all, and one for which she couldn't find a way to forgive herself. RK loved her so much, and all she seemed to give him these days was pain.

Madhu curled up in her bed. Trishna had left earlier in the morning for two weeks of vacation with her family, and Madhu felt really alone. She needed someone to give her a solution, because she was convinced whatever she would come up with would only make things worse. She couldn't call Vikram anymore, because his solution was atrocious. Madhu closed her eyes and wondered what she could do.

Her phone beeped with a text message, breaking her reverie. It was Rishabh:

"Are you happy with me, and with us?"

Madhu's hands shook. She hit reply, but didn't know what to say. She hit the call button instead.

"Rishu...I...I got your message."

"Hmm" RK said after a moment of silence. He sounded serious, and low. "Are you happy Madhu?"

"Yes Rishu...how can I not be. I didn't even know what happiness meant before I met you. Listen, I know things have been going wrong, but it's all going to be ok. I am not hurt. I love you. You are my life. I..."

"I don't know if I can be your life, Madhu." Rishabh interrupted. Madhu fell silent.

"Are you happy?" she asked.

"No." Rishabh answered after a moment. "And I don't think you are either." Madhu's world stopped spinning.

Not getting a response, RK continued speaking. "Madhu...I...I don't think this relationship is working out. I think we should take a break...we probably want different things.."

"Don't say that RK! Don't..."Madhu's voice broke. Soundless tears streamed down her cheek.

"I am sorry Madhu. I probably failed you..."

"RK, please don't say that. You didn't do anything. It's me."

"Probably, but I cannot do this any longer..."

"Don't say that RK. Please give me another chance. I will make everything all right again...I love you.."

"No Madhu. I don't want either of us to hurt any more. Maybe we were not meant to be..." Madhu was stunned. The tears stopped.

"Rishu..." she gathered her strength, and asked, hoping against hope. "...do you love me?"

"I don't know Madhu."

Madhu's phone fell from her hand. The battery fell out as it disassembled into pieces.

Seconds later, Madhu collapsed and fell on the ground, disassembled into pieces herself.

Her world had imploded, but there had been no explosion. Just the faint sound of a bubble being pricked.

Originally posted by: aDarkAngel

Here this one for you Rekha 🤗 !! Hum dono ek hee naav main savaar hai 😆😆 !! Sigh !! I totally get what you are saying, this story is getting on to me like a drug, I know after reading it I might feel helpless, heavy and emotional yet I wait for the update with all anxiety and restlessness... Look at this I read it I feel restless and when I wait for it, I feel restless 😆😆 !!

Tumhe pata hai, jis din RK sensitive ho jayega Madhu ko lekar us din main khoob nachoongi lol 😆 ya phir hum khoob nachenge...okay..call it a deal?😉

agree kanchi👍🏼 iam addicted this story , ,maine forum par koi ff ,ss ,os nahi choda hai 😳😳,you know na we are the biggest story worms 😉,maine har story read kiya hai but ,maine koi bhi fictional story ko ithna addict nahi hua 😳😳😳,yakeen nahi karogi ,jithna long comments this story pe dhe rahi hoona maine kabhi nahi dhiya😆😆 ,it is depressing yaar ,iam already missing my rishbala so much ,😭😭kabhi sochtha hoon ,padna bandh karoon ,kyun ki it is hurting me so much ,but morning hothe hi update keliye wait karthi hoon 😳yeh ummedh lekar aaj tho rk ne madhu ko samja hoga but nahi ,gadha kahika😡and when rk will be understnd madhu sensitive towards her that day main part dhoonga ,khoob nachenge ,its deal😳😳😳

hank you tk for updating🤗 college jaana hai baadh main padkar comment karoongi 😳
iam back😃
wonderful update tk👏 yes i liked it ,dont shock😆😆so rk doesnot happy with madhu ,and he dont love her ,just time pass kar raha tha gadha kahika😡😡 ,tho woh pappy ,jhappies kya hai mufth me le raha hai ,apna baap ka maal samja hai kya madhu ko , gadha😡😡😡,[,wow ,rk babua tumne break up yeh baath ,phone karke bol rahi ho ,mobile bill kyun waste kar rahi ho ,kisi kaboothar ko bhej dhethe 😡 gadha kahika ,dont worry ,iam seeing your future clearly ,you will beg infront of madhu ,to take you back ,and i am not feelind bad for madhu ,not now pehle hai lekin ab nahi ,it is good for her to out of this relation ship,madhu ka rone ke dhin katham ab rk ki shuru😆😆 and i trust you tk , ,you will make me one day happy 😳😳,because i remind your first story ,adrift usme bhi pehle sab log rk ko kithna hate kiya hai muje yaadh hai ,and last main ,they way redempt him ,i loved that ,this time also i trust you
@ good luck angel ,same feelings yaar ,maine bhi socha hai , quit kardhoon ,as a rishbala fan ,it is hurting me so much but i trust tk 😳😳😳 iam sure she will make all of us happy ,with proper rks redemption🤗,so please dont feel sad 🤗and ab tho rk ki rone ki dhin hai dont miss it😳😳😆

Oh God! He should've atleast talked to her once. It was a painful update.

Res😃 / unres 😆

superb update dear...read last 2 updates...