I don't think this will happen. But, I felt like writing an OS on it! I'm currently waiting on a VM to upload, so I wrote this up. I hope you all like it. :)
Repentance
I got down onto one knee, knowing what would follow. I looked up into her eyes, which hid secrets that she thought only she knew. I scanned her face which seemed innocent, yet wasn't. Her confident composure only confirmed what I felt was going to happen.
I reached into my pocket while down on one knee and pulled out a mini box. She stood still, unaffected by what I was doing.
I put out my hand and watched as she gently placed her hand on top of mine. Then with a flick of my finger, I popped open the box to reveal a beautiful diamond ring.
I saw a smile cross her face, but not the one I was expecting; this one seemed vengeful.
"Will you give me the joy of spending the rest of my life with you? Will you, Madhubala Malik, marry me?"
She stood, now smirking down at me. I wasn't surprised when she slowly slid her hand out of mine. She crossed her arms in front of herself and began to slowly shake her head back and forth. I stood, not surprised one bit. The nodding of her head came to a stop as I stood in front of her. She looked into my eyes and spoke with a stern, yet painful voice.
"I will not marry you RK."
"You have no idea how long I've been waiting for you to say that."
I had no intention to shock her, but managed to with my words.
"You knew?"
"From the minute I saw you in that sari on the couch with a table full of food at your side. From the minute you told me I had won you back."
"Why didn't you stop me?"
"I didn't want to."
"What are you s..."
"I'm saying I'm sorry."
"A mere apology is not enough. Tell me why you think you deserve me. Show me. Tell me how you plan to make up for what you did to me RK."
"I don't deserve you. I never did. I'm not worthy of someone like you. I don't plan to make up for what I did to you...because I know I'll never be able to. Even if I try everyday for the rest of my life, I'll never be able to fix what I ruined."
"RK..."
"Madhu, I drove you to get revenge from me. It took everything I had in me to act the way I did, but I had to. All that handcuffing, all that knife cutting, all that doubt and craziness was an act. Why? Because I knew...I knew the day I hurt you was the day I lost you for good. I don't expect you to take me back, I never did. I caused you pain, I caused you heartbreak. I shattered you to pieces and I let you do the same to me. I love you Madhubala. You awoke the love within me once again. You filled my heart with love for you and I let you do that. And now, I WILL live with the pain of having lost you. I will accept this punishment for life. It's the only way I'll be able to partly repent for what I did to you."
It hurt. Saying those words hurt. Seeing her in front of me and knowing I couldn't have her, broke my heart. I could feel my heart breaking again for the fourth time in my life. First my father, then my mother, Dipali...and finally Madhu. As I stared into her big, beautiful, shocked brown eyes, I couldn't help but wonder when would be the next time I'd see them. I decided, I'd try to make the moment last. I'd talk to her until she left. I'd stare at her until she walked away. I'd take in the moment before I lost it...
"An act...an ACT? You used me to hurt you?! Why...how dare you! When will you stop using me RK?!"
"Now. You're free. I won't interfere in your life ever again. From this day forth, I'm going to live with the pain in my heart. I'm going to live with the shattered pieces of my heart."
"What about me RK?"
"What do you mean...?"
"My heart's still shattered...and you want me to live like that too?"
"No. I want you to find someone who deserves you. Someone who treats you how you should've always been treated in your life. Someone who's better than me."
"What's happened to you...? What happened to you thinking that 'no one's better than you'? You're messing with me. This is all a lie again isn't it?"
"Think of this as you wish, but I know every word which is escaping my mouth tonight, is the truth. For once, I've decided to not lie. For once, I've decided to let the truth out. I'm not going to force you to believe me."
"You really want me to move on?"
"It's what's best for you. I won't ask of you to forget I ever existed, because I know after what I did...that may never be possible. But maybe someday, you'll replace the thoughts of me with someone else. Maybe someday you'll love someone more than you ever loved me."
"NO. Shut up RK! How do you expect me to forget my first love?! Are you going to forget me so easily? Can you?"
"Never Madhu. From the day you entered my life, you changed everything. I'm going to live with your memories for the rest of my life. I'm going to continue to live everyday just for you...just so that I can repent as much as possible. Though I know it'll never be enough."
"No RK...now we're both broken. I'll never forget you. I don't want to. I can't believe you did this to yourself through me."
"It was the only way..."
"Now we're even though. Let me help you. You can help me. We can fix our broken hearts together. We ca..."
"Madhu...don't put yourself through the misery of having to live with me. Don't do this to yourself. I'm letting you go."
"I can't leave you broken like that!"
"Isn't that what you wanted with your plan all along though?"
"No RK...it's not."
I figured my assumption was wrong. She didn't want to get revenge. But then what did she want? I couldn't understand. I stood still as a statue as she began to step towards me. She brought her hand up and placed it gently on the side of my face. I closed my eyes, taking in her touch as I wondered when would be the next time I would feel it. I kept my eyes closed as she began to speak.
"I wanted this. I wanted you to realize how much pain you caused me. I wanted you to accept that what you did hurt me beyond words can even describe. I wanted you to feel regret...feel bad...I wanted you to want to repent. But I never wanted to hurt you."
I slowly opened my eyes, looking her face up and down. I noticed a tear escape her eye and instantly brought my finger up to catch it. I held the tear on the tip of my finger in front of us.
"I never want to see these fall from your eyes ever again. They've run for too long...but no more. You've cried enough for this lifetime...so no more."
"Being away from you won't make them stop..."
I looked into her eyes, wanting to object but unable to find the voice to. So I wrapped my arms around her and slowly pulled her in for a hug. I rested my head on her head as she wrapped her arms around my back.
"RK...I love you. I never stopped loving you."
"I love you too. And I promise you; from this day on...I will only give you happiness. From this day forth, you will not shed another tear. And from this day forth...I will love you every single day until the day I di..."
"Shh. Don't say that."
I smiled. I kissed her head and hugged her tighter, not wanting it to end. Then I spoke into her hair.
"Madhu?"
"Mhm?"
"Will you be my saat-phere biwi?"
"Gladly."
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