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It's a Start
I'd say it's a start.
Maybe unknowingly I've made the first right decision in my life that drunken night. They don't say "In Vino Veritas" for no reason now do they? Although it doesn't directly apply, it is apt.
I wouldn't say I love her, nor would I say she is my life, if that's what this is. But I would say that she is the only one that found a soul in this living corpse they call RK. Her words might contradict this but she and I both know this hiding this belief of hers is futile as her eyes, even when their hiding from mine, speak the truth.
They are a mirror of her heart. But still I would say this is just a start.
I wouldn't say I love her, nor would I say she is my life, if that's what this is. But I would say that this dormant heart started beating the moment she almost died.
Yet all I'd say, that for this heart, it's just a start.
I believe it's just a start for I can hate beyond limits as she has seen. Despite this she feels something for me. Whatever it may be, even her hatred screams to me her care, concern, and possibly, love.
Like I have mentioned, I hate beyond boundaries but I love beyond them too. My love, my ishq, it's more of a junoon. But she is the one who put the pieces together and saw that in my hatred, I carried love too.
Perhaps I am human, perhaps I have a heart, although it would be too early to say such. But I can say that even if I am a monster, even if I am a beast, I haven't forgotten that every beast has it's beauty.
I shall not love her, nor write her letters starting with, "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day". I shall attempt to give her a better life and let the rest happen along the way. My heart has started beating again, not like that of a human of course, but it's a start.
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This is one of my shorter pieces but it was one of the most challenging, RK is a very complex character and writing from his point of view was very difficult. An immediate transition from RK to normal human would not be believable and for I believe that this, is just a start.
Shweta <3
(BTW I'm a new member on this forum as I'm prodominantly from the IPK forum and write for ArShi. I'll start writing more Rishbala soon enough <3 )
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