LTL Written Update
Episode ~50
5th March 2010
The episode starts with Dutta Bhau holding his hands behind his back, pacing towards a still Naku. It is clearly a continuation of a patient offloading before a psychologist. The setting is not a limited therapy room, but a vast opening space. Better still, the very scenario which is a slice of the patients life. His name is the crux of what, who, he is. It carries immense connotations.. so he touches on it, thus justifies his actions, past and present. Dutta was only Dutta .. not Dutta Bhau ...simply his Aye's son Dutta. Bhau ,[ brother] I was only for my sisters who called me that as an endearment. I was Bhau only for my sisters, he repeats. I was not Dutta Bhau.. he sneers, as he looks down into her face and then looks into the distance deep in thought. I had a simple, straightforward, normal life..FB, a bicycle bell tinkles and around the corner of old wall marked by palm trees , races down Dutta on his bike followed by Baji 's cries , hey Dutta! Dutta ! come back soon!. But Dutta is in a hurry, parks his bike and heads towards the steps leading to the lake.. Baji looks at the parked bike and comments, he's a crazy fellow!.. Dutta reaches his destination, looks across to the tree lined array on the opposite bank of the lake.. his arms hang about him loosely relaxed. He pants and looks around, and further leaps down the steps that lead to the base of the lake. He gives an anticipatory smile, looks around, and waits, picks up a stone to pelt stones into the water to kill time..it creates ripples in the water.. as waves of waiting .. stir within him. Whatever he thinks, makes him lower his eyes shyly.. but , he looks to the steps over his shoulder. To further pass time he pulls out a thin silver chain from the breast pocket of his blue, red ,yellow boxed print shirt... he takes both ends and holds the chain before his chin with a broad smile on his stubble face. Then folds it and lovingly drops it back into his breast pocket..and feels his heart. With a smile pulls out his harmonica from his front side slit pocket of his jean, looks at it ,bends his knees and lowers his legs on the cemented platform above the bank of the lake..
With eyes.. which are full of dreams ,turned up to the skies. He folds both his hands, presses his lips against the wind musical instrument ..and slides it across his lips to play the symphony of his first true love.. thinking about her, calling to her with his tune of love.. till he hears the gentle jingle of her anklets coming towards him.. Dutta tells Naku, as soon as she arrived I'd forget all my worries.. Seema comes and blind folds him with her hands and he slips his harmonica in his breast pocket...and his hands move up to feel the warmth of her fingers on his eyes..[Mishal's hands.. supple ,slender, oh so soft looking].. he plays the lover's tease with her, Chanda? uhh.. Kamla?.. she moves his head to the side, ok! Bimla !he shouts and she yanks his neck, he laughs and she taps his shoulders, and stands up perturbed .. he too shyly stands up and faces her ..and looks down into her face with a slanted smile.. I wanted to capture her fragrance forever.. she was my life.. meaning the motivation in his life, the reason for his existence.. the meaning of joy for him.. after a hard day's work at the garage , when I set eyes on her, my life felt like a song of love. He slowly pulls out the thin sliver chain from his breast pocket and holds it before her face, she smiles.. and he looks down into her eyes, with deep love, slowly he puts the chain around the back of her neck.. the song plays on.. oh how I wish I never return to my senses, remain lost in this song of love for you forever.. he gives her a thumbs up, and she smiles.. and he gives a satisfied smile.. and then to the sweet bits that every young girl likes doing with her boyfriend, to be taken shopping , treat her to more gifts.. and the boy only wants to please ,please and please the girl..
They window shop, through the bazaar. Then finally she points to bangles that catch her attention .she shows him the ones she likes and innocently asks him with her eyes, can I get them? and of course like a gallant gentleman he smiles and consents..but then she goes for more bangles.. and his finger tips press against his breast pocket.. weary about not enough cash..but then one look at her excited face and her fingers, that push up the bangles on her hand.. tells him clearly that the girl wants the bangles! Coquettishly she jangles her bangles clad arms before his smiling face, while she pulls yet another decorative braid extension accessory.. for herself..
Her roving eye then falls on the candy floss and she begs him to be treated! And with a keen, yes lets! they move over to the stall and he orders two. Flirting, she pulls off a bit and offers it to him, puts some in his mouth and he shyly lowers his eyes with a smile as he relishes the taste. She pulls some and offers him some more again, but as he opens his mouth , she pops it into her mouth.. and he turns all shy as he watches her oh so very sweet gestures. He notices some fluff near the corner of her mouth, and points it out from a distance..not daring to lay even a finger on her..but she wants him to.. and with some difficulty he picks it off from the corner of her mouth ,with his finger tip..and almost marvels at his effort, and her comfort with him. Then she wants a roasted savoury snack, which he buys for her..
She passes the two candy floss sticks to him and runs off to a photographer who thinks she wants a solo picture taken. Dutta follows her and stands beside her. The photographer tells them to get closer.. and tells Dutta to get rid of the eatables and passes it over to her.. who without another thought, just chucks them to her side..so basically no regard that Dutta had in fact spent his hard earned money on them.
The photographer instructs Dutta to get closer to the girl...an embarrassed Dutta stands beside her, his lower lip tucked into his mouth. The man takes four snaps, Dutta's hand is closed near her hip.. and with some giant effort he opens his palm and tries to put it around her shoulder...she moves into his armpit and he withdraws his arm bashfully, nearly dead with embarrassment, he only just manages to steal a sided glance at her. more snaps of the two of them .. end of FB.
He says to Naku , It was our small world, but filled with love, he reminisces. Naku moves closer to face him, and he continues, had Aye Sahib and sisters at home, a friend like Baji, and the love of my life, Seema..what else would one need to live?..Naku looks down sadly.. and carries on, I started dreaming, I wanted to marry her..
FB.. Dutta sits at his mother's feet, shows her Seema 's photo.. she smiles down at his face.. ,I like the girl..and he looks up her , with a smashing smile and lit up eyes. Aye says, she is very beautiful.. but son , you need a home before you can get married
The girl should feel good at home..he looks worried and his Aye , advices him gently, you will need to work and earn some more ,get a bigger house and then get married.. she feels his head as he gives his mother's words some thought..and nods..but he is pleased that his mother likes the girl.. pensively he raises himself to his feet and walks to the door rests his left arm on the door post. He feels his back pocket with his left hand.
FB continues.. a welding torch solders a piece of metal on to the chassis of a vehicle.. Dutta labours over the intense heat of the welding furnace. Moves back, folds his right elbow and wipes his brow..Baji turns around a revolving wrench, tightening nuts and bolts. Dutta moves to reach out for a hand spanner and with great strength tries to open bolts. His arms move from left to right under the bonnet of the car. He repeats the process with the soldering torch, which gives off immense heat , and he sweats on his brow... but only wipes his face with his back hand persisting on with his work...
The garage owner tells one of his mechanics, I need this car ready by evening, I have to deliver it ok? and instructs the other worker, you go and get some oil.
His eye falls on Dutta , working at one car.. and he appears impressed by the young Dutta's performance and commitment to work. The garage owner walks over to Dutta and calls out , Dutta ! .. Dutta replies , just a second boss..[imagine the great DSP saying boss to anyone.. me shocked!]he stops and then faces his boss with a lovely smile and salutes him.. yes boss! he wipes his hand and throws in his request, Sahib, I need to borrow some money.. Baji busy with his wrench..looks up , as Dutta states, I need a loan, the man asks, hope your mother's fine? .. Dutta opens his mouth and quickly answers, yes! she absolutely fine...he smiles, looks down and feels the back of his head.. ummh..and Baji yells from the floor, boss! Dutta wants to get married! and he plays a wedding march tune with his wrench !as he yells , Dutta has fallen in love! ask him about him!.. Dutta yells, hey! you shut up! and goes, noo noo! . the boss taps him on the shoulder and adds , very nice son, show me the girl.. Baji with his big mouth shouts across, boss I'll tell you! .. and Dutta glares at him, with a fist, hey shall I tighten you up with a spanner without grease! but Baji carries on excited, boss! She's Ramu tailor's younger daughter..Dutta shouts, be quiet! and throws an empty water bottle at Baji !. Dutta faces his boss with a shy smile... who says get on with it! and then begins to move off, but Dutta stops him, boss !can I get it?.. I need to buy a new house. The man laughs, Dutta , how much can I give you? just look at your monthly salary, look son once you are in debt, you continue to remain in one...work harder and make more money, buy your house with your own money, you understand?.. and Dutta nods his head, yes boss, and his boss says ,and now get on with that car, Dutta smiles and assures , sure boss.. but he does wipe his hands and walks over to his friend Baji working at the bottom of the car chassis . Baji could sense that Dutta is preoccupied. Dutta looks down at him and says, I need to work more.. Baji scratches his head with a long screw driver and stands up to face his friend.. Dutta asks, can you think of anything? Baji thinks and asks, can you drive a taxi?. There is a ray of sunshine in Dutta's eyes, as he wipes his stubble face, and with a quick raise of his eyes and a flashing smile he approves.. and shakes his friend's hand!.
FB~ Thus starts, the other bit of job to earn extra cash ..all good... lots of people do it.. he brings his cab to a halt before a soft drinks bar.. two customers spot him , taxi! coming sir! replies Dutta , his mouth parched.. his brow moistened, he urges them to sit in the cab, while he grabs a drink... he walks [bit like a rude boy walk.. notice how he does not walk in this fashion now.. putting his weight on his soles.. now as Bhau his weight seems to be more on his heels..]..
Wiping his brow Dutta sweats at his part time job. Tired he drives off , and later engages himself in the task of counting his cash... once done he pockets it..
Dutta relates to Naku, I did hard labour, day in and day out..[ not that it is any different now.. then it was to make money for a reason.. Seema and now??]..
He gazes in his past.. whether it was cold or it rained , all Dutta could see was work, and more work.. I never complained, it was my hard work, my sweat, my wages for the love of my life.
FB... Seema comes into the garage carrying a tiffin, looking around for him. She taps Baji on the shoulder who knows whom she's asking for happily he points to where Dutta is working and says to her go ahead. Round the corner the owner of the garage sees her as she walks past him. He checks her up from behind and moves over to Baji ,and wants to know who the dolly bird is? Baji simply replies with a smile , Dutta ..
She finds him behind the wheel of her car with a screw driver, in mouth.. peering at some part. She stops near the open window of the car and watches him bemused. He moves back and with the screwdriver clenched between his teeth his big eyes turn towards her..he pulls the instrument from his mouth and gives her a charming smile. she moans, across to him through the window, you haven't got any time for me.? and he lowers his eyes shyly, and she continues , that's why you haven't been to the lake for two days ..so I thought I'd show up here. He comes, out of the car, and walks around to her with a cocky smile, a maroon cloth around the back of his neck. He faces her with a broad smile, and puts the screwdriver on the roof of the car...meaning he's stopped work.. and moves her over to a stack of tyres. Both stand facing each other.. the tyre between them. She rests the tiffin on the wheel cap of the tyre. He looks down at her and says, you'll have to hold on for a few days, I need to work very hard and make a lot of money... he leans over the tyre towards her, and continues, then it will be, me , you , a new house and a football team!. She giggles, and opens the tiffin , and he turns, I'll go wash my hands. She, stops him, and looks into his eyes , and he too gazes into her eyes, as she opens the containers,.. and with her own hands she feeds him.. Dutta is fed for the first time by another woman, other than the women in his family. The music of the famous Bollywood song, ...Since I met you it feels like, all the desires of my heart have been fulfilled.. since I met you.. she feeds him, as he stands before her, his arms folded on the tyre, and play fully he bites her fingers. And finally, wipes his mouth , and says the very Dutta type statement regarding food, I am stuffed now, .. you go now , I've a lot of work to do... I'll see you later at the lake..and she leaves and he watches her go lovingly.
Dutta goes to see the boss in his office... his boss declares, I am really pleased with your work... and here, this is your monthly salary. Dutta smiles when he looks at the paper money. Baji carrying a tyre around his arm gives a beaming smile too. Dutta salutes to say thanks to his boss, who says, don't mention it.. then he goes to Baji and gives him a bear hug.. the boss yells, Baji do you need some money too? .. Baji replies , keep it with you! I'll ask when I need it.. his boss smiles fine.
Dutta turns to leave, I'll return . Baji teases him, yes sure! I know where you're heading for!
Dutta sits on the platform of the lake.. relaxed.. continues to offload his past with Naku. She, daren't sit beside him..so she stands and looks and listens to him.. he reminisces.. then came the day, when I had enough money to buy a new house. A house, then wedding, and then it'd be just me and Seema.
FB, Dutta pulls out a boxed ring from his jean pocket. He looks at the little cube box and kisses it with his lips.. as he waits for her to arrive. Gradually it was dusk. He paces up and down on the edge platform of the lake. For the moment he put the ring away and pulls out his harmonica and plays the love tune that calls her..he looks around and the sun begins to set..and his face shows worry , and very soon the moon appears.
In the dark he pelts a pebble in the lake...it creates ripples.. and he throws another one...and another, and his face has ripples of disappointment ..before throwing the last one, he gives one last look to the top of the stairs..and then drops the stone at his feet. Dutta stands alone, dejected , his eyes look up to the dark sky..and he turns his back to the lake ,goes up the stairs.. he tells Naku , evening set in, night crept in, but she didn't turn up...I started getting weird ideas.I got worried for her. I looked everywhere for her. I went to her place, her salon.. the salon said she hadn't turned up for work. I got, very scared. I thought I'll go to the garage, pick up the car, and then go look for her.
FB.. Dutta enters the garage. He hears her laughing. He stops , listen ,and is confused. Suspiciously Dutta shifts his eyes, then moves forward , and looks ahead.. his mouth opens wide, his eye brows crease , his eyes pop out.. and he stands in pure disbelief at the sight he finds before his eyes.. episode ends. Hamlet 53 ~ 3.11. 13.
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Precap ~ Dutta comes back to the lake.. Baji stands behind him. Dutta roars, Baji I want to make big money, so much cash that people are in awe..I want to bury this pain within me!.. a glimpse into Dutta holding a gun...
Clearly an episode where Dutta Bhau has probably a much needed catharsis with someone other then Baji , someone he trusts. Naku having saved his life twice, qualifies.. his earlier act of violence on her , was really a cry of help.. he needed to unwind.. and good for Dutta! this time he does not faff about and seizes the opportunity.
It's clear, that he is already under duress due to his forthcoming marriage with a girl who does not seem interested in him. Dutta is a man hypersensitive to atmosphere. He is always suspicious of Supriya, although till yet he is unable to put his finger on what is the mystery around her..
It's noteworthy to see how much at ease he is with Naku to share his past. It's like he is aware , she's safe, she will not pass judgement on him.. accept him for what he is, as foul as sin.. does he think she will console, nurture and gather him..?
Now as far as young Dutta goes, he is energetic, ready to work hard, trying his hands at a variety of jobs to earn an honest living.. he is not slothful, neither is he irresponsible, has chosen the girl he wants to marry, gets his family's approval, saves for a bigger house ..so all standard and average bloke he is..
But the indication that he may have suffered a mental trauma, surfaces after Seema's incident.. it only triggers it.. Dutta is emotionally scarred due to something much , much earlier.. for lots of people are jilted, not all turn out to become killers!..
Seema is a standard girl, who wants to have a good life.. Dutta when she meet him couldn't give her that , so she choses an older, more grounded man.. Dutta became too serious with her.. that was his problem, probably he is insecure and wanted marriage for a stable secure life..
N.B thanks very much for reading the last wu..mirage,uwith, dilse,twinkle,sona, nimmi,naku ,ivy, bart, warda, tammy , fiz.
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