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Entry #1

Finding my way to you

Seema heard his scream, and ran to his room. She switched on the light, and found him awake and up on his feet. She was amazed as his dexterity, and in that moment she knew.

Everything seemed blurred, but he could see. It was clear enough. And Dutta knew that it was time. As he made his way out of the door, he stumbled. Seema rushed to him, and helped him up. He shrugged, and told her, "I can manage."

She knew he wouldn't listen to her. He was behaving like a man possessed, and she knew the reason. He had never loved her like this. Whoever the woman was, she seemed to have broken all the barriers Dutta had built up. The Dutta Seema knew had been a shy lad who had been overly conscientious. This was a man who seemed consumed by passion. A love so fierce, it didn't matter to him that his life was in danger.

Dutta reached for the phone, and then stopped. He knew that something was horribly wrong. She wasn't safe. He knew it in his heart. He had to get to her, and even as he said it aloud, he knew that he wouldn't be able to fight his battle until he saw her. He needed to see her, hold her once, to feel strong again.

Seema watched as he pocketed the rag and the golden chain they'd found on him. Before she could say anything, he said "I have to go, I need to see her. Can you do me a favor."

She was ready to do whatever it took for him to forgive her. She arranged for the vehicle and the driver. As Dutta got in, he turned around and said, "Seema....it's strange but I stopped hating you a long time ago. When I realized it was you, I just pretended to still hate you. The truth is, I'd forgiven you a long time ago. Maybe even before we met. Could be that once I learned to love, hatred never stood a chance. That said, I owe you. You've saved my life, and for that I'd forgive you a hundred times over." As Dutta patted her head, Seema felt like she'd been reborn again. She let the tears blur her vision and prayed that he'd be united with his love...soon.

"I need to get to saab, Baji! I have to warn him before he comes home."

Baji looked up at the air shaft and then looked back at her. "Naku", he whispered. "I think you'll fit in the vent. The others are asleep now, you just need to sneak out. Get out of here. And call this number. They're my men, if they're here we can all get out somehow. Get out, I'll manage it here without them realizing you're missing."

Dutta knew that his home wasn't the safest of places now. Naku had said something, hadn't she? The house was shrouded in darkness. He could make out the bodyguards on their rounds. But as he watched, he felt an eerie foreboding. Something was not quite right. He tried the landline and it wasn't Naku who took the call. It was someone else, someone waiting for him to answer. He felt a cold chill and realized that the enemy was inside the house after all. Chaskar was here? Or was it someone else? He wanted to barge in, but then common sense took over, and he realized he should wait.

Naku had managed to slide out, the vent had been large enough for her. She crouched in the bushes and watched as the guards made their way to the other side of the house. She had to reach saab, as soon as possible. She held on to the phone, and saw that there was still no signal. She realized she'd have to jump over the wall. There was an area behind the house where the branches hung low enough for her to make it to the other side.

Dutta froze as he heard the distinct thud. Someone was there, outside the house. Had he made a mistake by asking the driver to wait at a distance?! He was alone and the only thing between him and death was a tree. He could hear the rustle of leaves, and even as he heard the footsteps he knew it was someone small. And petite.

Naku froze as she felt a movement behind her. They'd discovered her! And yet, the hand that muffled her scream seemed warm. She felt herself pressed against something solid and familiar. It couldn't be, she told herself. She had to be imagining it!

It couldn't be, he told himself! And even as his fingers traced the outline of her lips, and as his other hand circled her tiny waist, he knew. That moment, it was as if he'd died and gone to heaven. Oh, it had been this moment he'd waited for all along! It had been for this moment that he fought death, blindness, and every conceivable nightmare. He felt his legs give way and he sunk down onto the grass, taking her with him. She was crying now, and he wanted to comfort her, tell her that everything was alright. Tell her that it was him, and not the enemy. But the words simply wouldn't come. And even as his fingers traced the outline of her face, and her neck, he knew that no words were required. She cried softly and he held her face to his. Oh, how he'd waited for this moment! He kissed her softly, wordlessly telling her how madly he loved her. He could taste her tears on his lips and as he opened his eyes, he realized he could see. He hadn't known it till now, but now as he made out her brown eyes, and her pouted lips he knew he could see. Then again, this had been the only reason he'd wanted his eyesight back. So that he could see her again. They were hidden from the world, in this haven and as the sun rose, they realized they hadn't spoken yet. She lay in his arms, and realized that it was time, for him to know the truth. He looked at her, and marveled at the realization that he'd fought death for this woman. And he'd lived because even death knew that it was no match for his love. He read the sorrow in her eyes, and knew that she had something to tell him. A truth that would destroy him again. But this time, it didn't matter. His world was safe, in his arms. That was all that mattered. Everything else, he could deal with. He smiled at her, and let her know that he was ready.

Entry #2

Entry #5

Nakku after taking bath moves towards her dressing table to get ready and finds a purple colored rose along with a note on the table , she opens and reads it

"Hairaan hogi yeh phool aur khath ko dekhkar lekin kya karoon aaj tujhse kuch kehna chahta tha. Janta hoon aaina aur us aaine mein ek dusre ko dekh kar bina kuch kahe humne kayi baar apne dil ki baat kahi hai. Mujhe aaj bhi woh raat yaad hai jab hum pehli baar mile the , kitni dari hui thi tu morey se aur phir tujhe bachane ke baad jab tu gadi mein mere saath aa rahi thi ,tab gadi ke sheeshe se maine teri aankhon mein kuch dekha , ek maasoomiyat , ek sachaiyee jo mujhe choo gayee bilkul is gulab ki tarah jo ussey diya jaata hai jo pehli nazar mein aap par apna asar chod jaata hai." Nakku looks at the mirror holding the purple rose and remembers their first eye lock in the car.his strong gaze sent chills down her spine and In that very moment she had given away her heart and soul to her savior, that's what a purple colored rose represents " love at first sight."

Nakku takes the breakfast tray to his cabin but finds him missing instead another rose this time a yellow one along with a note on his file, she opens it to read

"yeh peela gulab humari dosti ke naam jo kab hui pata hi nahin chala. Na jaane tujhmein aisa kya tha ki main apna ateet tujhse chupa nahin saka , kaise dutta se dutta bhau bana. Teri dosti ne mere andhar ke soye hue dutta ko ek baar phir jagaa diya , mujhe jeena sikhaya , ek baar phir pyar par vishwas karna sikhaya. Tere aane se pehle maine apne aas pass ek diwar si banayee hui thi lekin tune apni dosti se us diwar ko thod diya , tujhmein mujhe ek aisa dost mila jo mere bina kuch kahe mere dil ki baat jaan jaata tha. Is kamre mein aur tere aage kabhie dutta bhau nahin tha hamesha dutta tha."nakku thinks back how she became his friend his confidant in no time and how he would pour his heart out to her so effortlessly unaware of the fact that to her he was always more than a friend but she was happy to see him smiling again even if it meant to sacrifice her love for his friendship. They never shared a master servant relationship but a platonic relationship which she was more than willing to cherish.

In the evening nakkus goes to the pooja room to light a diya infront of bappa and finds a black rose along with a white rose tied together with a note near the thaali and wonders another message , what is he up to today

" jaanta hoon maine kabhi tere pyar ki kadar nahin ki , kabhie soch hi nahin ki tu mujhse itna pyar kar sakti hai. Jab supriya bhaag gayi tab sara ilzaam tujhpar dal diya , tujhe apni safaai dena ka mauka bhi nahin diya aur tujhe sazaa dene keliye tujhse shaadi kar li. Socha ki agar tu mujhe chahti hai toh mujhe pane ki ichcha bhi toh rakhti hogi nah ? nahin janta tha ki teri khushi mujhe khush dekhne main thi bhale hi woh supriya ke saath he kyon na ho. Is kale gulab ki tarah tujhse beintihaa nafrat ki , tujh par zulm kiye lekin tune meri nafrat ka jawab mohabbat se diya , mere har pathar ke badle tune mujhpar apne pyar aur vishwas ke phool bhikhare. Tu toh safedh gulab ki tarah humesha se hi masoom aur bedaag thi , mujhe hi yeh jaanane mein waqt lag gaya." Nakku lights the diya and with folded hands closes her eyes before bappa recalling the day he had married her out of rage just to punish and torture her. Her eyes fill up not on remembering his ill treatment towards her but the way he used to feel miserable after punishing her because deep down even he was aware that she could never betray him but his mind made him think otherwise. He was rude to her and did not acknowledge her presence with the thought that it would bring him pleasure but that wasn't the case , each and every harsh word broke his heart in to a million pieces because no matter how much he tried he could never see her in pain. Both of them felt helpless to see each other in pain and cursed themselves for being the reason behind it.

Nakkus prayer gets disturbed when a servant calls her from behind to hand over a parcel in her name. she opens it and is surprised to see a beautiful red saree with a pink rose and a note from him. A smile spreads on her face when she reads it

"tune joh mere liye mere parivar ke liya kiya uske aage shukriya shabd bahut chota padta hai , isliye shukriya keh ke tere kiye hue ka apmaan nahin karunga balki yeh phool deke apni khush kismati zaahir karoonga ki tu meri zindagi mein aayi , kadam kadam par mera saath diya , meri jaan bachayi mere parivaar ki jaan bachayi apni parvah kiye bina. Jab bhi mere kadam dagmagaye tune mujhe sabhala. Apne baba ki sachayi jaan kar main toh toot hi jaata lekin tune mujhe bhikarne nahin diya. Humesha mujhe diya badle mein kabhi kuch nahin manga isliye aaj main khud tujhe kuch dena chahta hoon. Is saree ki khubsurati aur bad jayegi agar tu ise pehenegi." Nakku happily runs her hand on the saree and rubs it on her cheek , closing her eyes she feels the same warmth she does when she is in his arms and silently thanks bappa for bringing him in her life.

She goes to her room and tries out the saree then picks up her jewellery box to take out the anklets he had gifted her before their marriage. She opens the box and as she had thought finds another rose this time a green one along with the note. She recalls how he had earlier chosen a necklace mistaking it as an anklet but later on had finally got her a beautiful pair of anklets. What touched her was the effort he had put in selecting something of his choice for her. Always been a reserved person who hardly displayed his love in public but during those days his eyes spoke volumes. It was so heart warming for her to see the same love in his eyes which she always craved for.

" Jungle main tere saath reh kar tere sache pyar ka ehsaas hua aur anna ke hathon tujhe kho kar yeh jaana ki mujhe tujhse kitna pyar hai. Sahi kehte hain log insaan jise sabse zyada pyar karta hai usey khone ka darr bhi sabse zyada hota hai. Us jungle mein humare beech ek naye rishte ne is hare gulaab ki tarah janam liya aur usi rishte ko izzat den eke liye maine tujhse tera haath manga. kaise bhool sakta hoon woh din jab bappa ke saamne tune shaadi ke liye haan kaha tha , aisa laga jaise saare zamaane ki khushiyaan mujhe mil gayi hon."

Nakku hears the telephone ringing and runs down quickly to attend it but the call gets disconnected , she remembers those terrible days when she would sit near the phone for hours expecting him to call her after he met with that fateful accident. How can she forget the first time he had called her although she never doubted that he was alive but after hearing his voice even the slightest of doubt vanished away completely. The happiness she felt after talking to him couldn't be expressed in words only a heart full of pain and love for him could understand. Nakku walks past the table where the phone is kept but stops midway on seeing an orange rose and a note tied to the telephone wire. She unties the note and the rose hurriedly to read it.

" shaadi ke baad tera asli chehra dekh kar bahut takleef hui thi , aisa laga ki kismet ne ek baar phir mere saath ek gandha mazaakh kiya , jise maine chaha usne phir mujhe dhokha de diya. Ek hi pal main mere saare sapne bhikhar gaye aur uske saath humara rishta bhi. Is gulab ke rang ko nakku agar dhyaan se dekhegi toh tujhe ismein aag ka rang dikhayee dega , wohi aag mere dil main jal rahi thi us waqt. Us aag mein apne pyar ko , teri yaadon ko jala dena chahta tha lekin jala nahin paaya. Bahut koshish ki tere khoobsurat chehre se nafrat karne ki, tujhse door rehne ki lekin kar nahi paaya. Kyun ? shayad isliye kyunki maine kabhi tere chehre se pyar hi nahin kiya tha toh nafrat kaise karta? Maine toh humesha teri masoomiyat, teri sachayi se pyar kiya aur woh us waqt bhi teri aankhon mein jhalakti thi. Accident ke baad jab tujhse alag ho gaya tab jaana ki tere bina dutta kuch bhi nahin hai . tu hai toh sabkuch hai, meri nazrein sirf tujhe dhoondhti rahin aur aaj bhi dhoodh rahi hain. Main tera wohin intezaar kar raha hoon jahan hum pehli baar mile the , jaldi se aaja."

Nakku reaches the beach where they had met for the first time and he had saved her from morey. She clearly remembers the night when she and her family were trying hard to escape from moreys clutches and just then he had stepped in like a ray of hope in her life. She slowly walks on the rocks and finds dutta lying on one of them playing his mouth organ with closed eyes. Not wanting to disturb him she takes out her anklets and sits a little behind him. All of a sudden dutta stops playing the mouth organ and says" tu aa gayi" leaving nakku pleasantly surprised " apko kaise pata chala ? aapki toh aankhein bandh thi aur maine toh payal ka shor bhi nahin kiya" and shows him those anklets. Dutta just smiles without replying and takes away the anklets from her when she tries to wear them indicating that its his right to make her wear them. After tying them he lays his head on her lap while she moves her hand in his hair lovingly and asks " kya soch rahe ho?"

" yehi ki aaj se kareeb ek saal pehle 27^th January ko hum pehli baar yahan mile the , tab maine kabhi nahin socha tha ki yahan milee ladki meri zindagi ban jayegi aur meri zindagi mein pyar aur khushiyaan bhar degi." Saying so dutta takes out a red rose from his jacket and gives her. Nakku expecting another note will soon pop out but dutta dismisses it " zaroori nahin har baat keh kar batayee jaye aur tu toh humesha mere dil ki baat bina kahe he samajh jaati hai" and gazes at the moon in the sky while she is unable to take her eyes off her moon i.e. him, when he asks her " ab tu kya soch rahi hai?"

" ek gulab kitne rang badal kar itna laal aur gehra hota hai , bilkul humare rishte ki tarah. Is ek saal mein humare rishte ne bhi kayi rang badle , hum ajnabi se dost bane , dost se pati patni bane aur phir jakar premi bane. Yeh safar aasan nahin tha in lehron ki tarah , kabhi shant aur kabhi toofan utha phirbhi yeh rishta nahin toota . kyun?"

Dutta smiles and takes her hand in his "kyunki bhale hi humare rishte ne rang badle hon lekin humne kabhi ek dusre ko badalna nahin chaha. Hum jaise the ek dusre ko waise hi apnaya , tune mujhe meri khamiyon ke saath aur maine tujhe tere roop rang ke saath. Yeh baat alag hai humare pyar ne humein badla aur humare rishte ko aur mazboot banaya. Chahe jo bhi pareshani aayee ho humne kabhi ek dusre ka saath nahin choda, ek dusre ki kamzori ki jagah ek dusre ki taaqat ban kar rahe aur yahi humare rishte ki khoobsurati hai" nakku couldn't agree with him more.

Just then along with the cool breeze it starts to drizzle , dutta sits up immediately and starts taking out his jacket to cover her but nakku stops him " nahin aaj nahin, aaj bheegne do is pyar ki bearish mein."dutta cups her face in his hands and says " pata nahin phir kabhi keh paunga yah nahin par aaj kuch kehna chahta hoon."nakku gives him a question lookand dutta says softly " LAAGI TUJHSE LAGAN".tears of joy fill in her eyes and Dutta wraps his arm around her and brings her closer to his heart which is echoing the same thing he just said with the following song playing in the back ground

Waada raha sanam

Honge juda na hum

Chahe nah chahe zamana

Humari chahton ka

Mit na sakega fasana

Entry #6

***Dill ka Naata - chupaye nahi chupta***

A young handsome business man stands in a dhaba drinking tea, this young man don't like girls and specially those who flirts with him, cause he thinks they are all after his money and fame. In the dhaba music is playing:

"Tujh mein rab dikhta hain, Yaraa main kya karoo' "

' Ohoo , Kaka!,..kitni baar mainey aap sey kaha hain main aya karo to please yeh ganey mat chalaya karo'! Says a young man. The old man says to him:-Arey Dutta berta'kabhi to sun liya karo'dekho berta eek din tumhey bhi kisi se lagaoo hoga aur phir dekhna kaisa tumhara jeewan khushiyo sey aur pyar sey bhar jayega.

Dutta looks at the man and says:Kaka aap ko pata hain na mujhey yeh sab batein achi nahi lagti ,'mujhey ladkiya achi nahi lagti 'jiss ko dekho merey paisey ke liyo mujhey chipakti rehti hain. Kaka laughs and says'Berta waise bhi kaun ladki eek aisey khubsurat nauwjawan sey nahi chipakna chahegi '.

Dutta has a stern smile and says:- Kaka choro na , aisey hi karogey to main yahan ana band kardonga.

Back at dhaba: Dutta talks on the phone when he suddenly sees something unusual'there is some people who starts shooting and there is a family standing of four people. People on the street starts running and the police comes to this family and he takes them into the car'..But a young girl is left, the daughter of the family is left between running people on the street'..the mom dad and her brother are screaming for her and tells the police they cannot leave without her but the police says they will have to go '.The girl is crying and she shouts MOM, DAD'..BHAIYYA''! Dutta sees her mom dad trying reaching her from the car window and they are crying but the car leaves and the girl is left alone. The girl is all in shock standing between all the rush just crying'..she falls down on the ground when some ghundas comes saying: - Chalo family to gayi ..ladki ko uthaletey hain!'.iskey zarie kafi paisa mill sakta hain'chalo uthaalo ladki ko !

Dutta hears this and before they reach the girl he picks her up from the ground and see she is unconscious and hurt'.he shouts for his driver and quickly puts the girl on the backseat and tells the driver: - Chalo jaldi chaloo iss ladki ki jaan khatrey mein hain'jaldi chalo..!

At Duttas apartment: Dutta comes home with the girl and he lay her down on the bed. Dutta covers her up and goes out of the room thinking " Kaun hain yeh log aur inkey pichey wo badmash kyun the ? kyu inhey lutna chahtey they wo log ?

....He was in his thoughts when he heard the girl was awake and she was calling for her mom dad.

He rushed into the room and the girl looked at him scared, crying, and taking the kambal more close to her she said '

- Mere Bhaiyya kahan hain ? kahan hain mom dad? Aap kaun hain ..kyu mujhey yahan ley aye..? Dutta was coming closer to her when she said'..Bhagwaan ke liye mere qareeb mat aoo' please'.mujhpey rehm khaoo'.bas itna batadoo meri family kahan hain 'please'the girl is crying and hiding herself with the kambal she had on and she keeps going into a corner on the bed. Dutta realizes the girl is still afraid and she thinks he is one of the ghundas who where shooting at them.

Dutta says:'.-Dekho main tumhey koi nukhsaan nahi pohonchaonga'mera yaqeen karo 'maine tumhey bahchaya hain'warna wo ghunde tumhey uthakar lejataey'mujhey pata hain tumharey maa baap kahan hain. She looks at him with big wide eyes and with a smile she asks '- Aaap sach kehrahey hain ? aap ko pata hain wo kahan hain ?

Dutta says : -Haa'main janta hoo 'lekin tum ho kaun aur kyu wo loog tumharey pichey the?

She said: '-Wo hum yahan ke rehney waley nahi hain tourists hain. Hum Europe mein rehtey hain kal yahan pohonchey'.pata chala airport sey hi kuch log humarey pichey lagey huwey hain jo humarey paisey lena chahtey hain. Aaaj bazaar mein hum ghoom rahey aur kuch log humarey piche lag gaye aur kaha agar paisa nahi dogey to jaan sey mardalengey. Police ney hunein dekhliya, magar jab police ayi to main bheer/rush mein alag hogayi aur phir merey chot lagi aur main girr gayi.

Dutta says: -Haa mainey dekha tha tumhey'.sach aisey log bohot khatarnak hotey hain'waisey kya naam hain tumhara?

The girl says : -Mera naam Nakku hain'..main yahan mom dad aur mere barey bhai Baji key sath ayi hoon.

Dutta says: -Dekho tum araam karoo kal hum police ko phone karkey pata lagalengey hain tumahri family ka,'Dutta leaves from the room when Nakku stops him : - Suniye'..(Dutta stops without looking back) 'wo 'aap'.(Dutta turns around looking at her)'.wo maaf karna mainey aap ko ghalat samjha'..aap bura na maney to aap ka naam poch sakti hoo..?

Dutta looks at her and says: Koi baat nahi'I understand you where scared'and yes'my name is Dutta'.Dutta shriram patil. He leaves the room.

Its late and Dutta sleeps on the sofa in another room and the girl sleeps in his room. They are both tired and both sleeps.

Next morning: Nakku wokes up,'she gets up and goes to the other room. She sees Dutta talking on the phone'.: -Theek hain phir aap baat karwadijey usey thori tasalli hojaygi. He turns around and sees Nakku he says: -Acha huwa tum jaggaye'Lo tumharey mom dad phone par hain'..Nakku gets happy and has a big smile on her face! She talks to her parents. On the phone she gets to know that her parents has to leave country as soon as possible and police will help them but they cannot take her with them so she will have to stay with Dutta for a few days before she can leave, for her security. Nakku understands the problem and tells her family not to worry about her she is safe and secure. Her brother talks to Dutta on the phone and says: -Dutta ji'aap ka shukriya humari behen ko panha di bas yeh ahsaan aur kardoo bhai. Humari behen ka khayal rakhna aur humein khabar kartey rehna. Dutta says: -Aap fikr nahi kariyey main khayal rakhonga.

He puts the phone away and says to Nakku: -Dont worry , bas kuch dino ki baat. Nakku says: Ji.

Dutta says to Nakku:-Wo main aaj office nahi jaonga'tum akeli hogi to shayad theek nahi rahega'aisa karo main bahar sey kuch lata hoo khaney key liye itney tumhey agar shower lena hoo to tum ja sakti ho bathroom. Dutta starts leaving when Nakkus says: Wo dutta ji'.(Dutta turns around) wo main'.mere pas kaprey nahi hain'.main'

Dutta looks down and says: -Mere kamrey mein jo almari hain usmey mere kaprey hain'tum chaho to wo use karsakti ho. And he leaves, saying : Aur suno kisi ke liye darwaza nahi kholna.

After taking a shower, Nakku comes out and she takes out a white kurta from Duttas cupboard. The kurta is so big for her so she rolls up the sleeves and close all the buttons and she even rolls up the bottom of the pajama cause its too long. She stands in front of the mirror with wet hair and starts laughing. She starts talking to herself:-Wah Nakku 'looks really good! She laughs and says 'chalo naye kaprey to miley 'hmm'at least I feel fresh'she looks up in the mirror again when she sees Dutta standing in the door behind her looking at her.

She turns around and'.she looks down feeling shy at his gaze and she quickly takes her towel and covers around her hair with it and says:-Wo maaf karna mainey suna nahi aap kab aye'.

Dutta without coming into the room says : Chalo khana khaley.

Nakku puts her hair up,and she takes out a shawl which she takes on as a dupatta and comes to the dining table. Dutta looks at her when she comes and he notice how she has rolled up his pajama and kurta. He cant help it and he gives a slight smile '.Nakku notice it and says:-Kya huwa?

Dutta says:-Kuch nahi 'yeh kya haal kiya hain mere kurtey ka?

Nakku says:-Aap maaf karna lekin aap ka kurta itna bara tha too'.

Dutta says:-Achaa'.dekho kurta bara nahi aap bohot chorti si hain iss liye'and he smiles at her.

Nakku smiles back and says:-Thank you'

Dutta asks:-Kiss liye?

She says:-Sab kuch'.aap ney meri jaan bachai' mujhey ghar mein jagah di...pehney key liye kaprey diye ..isi liye. Dutta says:-Chalo choro in baton ko aur khana khaloo.

While eating Dutta notice Nakku looks worried. He asks her:-Kya huwa ..kuch pareshan ho ? She says:-Nahi 'wo' bas mom dad ki yaad agayi..Dutta without thinking puts his hand on her hand and says:-Ziada nahi socho'.they are fine'you will soon see them. Nakku looks at him and slightly smiles. Dutta realizes he has his hand on her and he takes it off. Thinking: Yeh kya huwa mujhey,' mainey aaj tak kisi ladki ko hath nahi, lagaya phir aaj iske hath par'. kyun ?....

Later:Nakku helps Dutta with the dishes'Dutta keeps looking at her and thinks "She is the very first girl who is so natural and soo sweet. The way she is, way she talks to me makes me feel so calm and don't know why I feel like coming closer to her. Dutta looks away thinking:What is happening to me why do I care about her?Why am I so attached to this girl?....

He says to Nakku:-Nakku jaoo 'tum araam karo ab main karlonga. Nakku says:-Theek hain'she goes away.

Nakku notice her wound on her shoulder is hurting,she rolls up her sleeve to check and she sees it is bleeding not knowing what to do she tries to find a first aid box. She tries to clean the wound. Meanwhile Dutta passes the room and he sees her'he knocks on the door and enters. Nakku rolls down her sleeve and covers her with the shawl.

Dutta says:-Tumharey hath mein yeh dawa?....he comes close and she says: -Nahi kuch nahii wo mamoli si chot thi bas usi pey dawa lagani thi'main karlongi. Dutta comes closer and sits on the bed near her. She looks away and says: Dekhiye aap kyu takleef kartey hain'main karlongi. Dutta thinks: She is so shy 'I have never seen a girl like her'.girls are always on to me and she don't want me to touch her'she is so innocent. Dutta takes the cotton wool from her hand:-Dekho 'mujhsey darney ki koi zarorat nahi. Main sirf tumhare zakhm par patti lagana chahta hoo 'tumsey sey nahi hoga. She hesitates and after a while she takes her shawl away and rolls up her sleeve'but Dutta stops her saying:-Nahi 'aisey nahi 'Aisa karo apney kurtey key buttons khol kar apna hath aasteen mein sey nikallo 'behtar hoga.

Nakku looks at him and says:-Nahi 'wo'.aap aisey hi lagadijey'.please'

Dutta says:-Ghabraoo nahii'I'm not gonna harm you 'do as I say.

Being helpless, Nakku do as he says ,'without looking at him she takes out her arm and keeps holding her kurta with the other hand so it doesn't open up to much. Seeing this Dutta respects her even more and he feels he is falling for her innocence. He notices she is shaking of fear and the thought of him touching her and seeing her bare arm and shoulder. Dutta holds her hand tight and cleans the wound'Nakku doesn't say anything but Dutta see she has tears falling down her cheek, she is crying silently cause of her pain'He covers her up'.Nakku as soon as she can close her kurta buttons '..still crying. Dutta seing her in pain takes his arms around her and hugs her tight.

Even Nakku is in a state where her feelings are whelming up and she cuddles up onto him. She puts her hand on his chest and holds on to his shirt crying.

Dutta says:-Shhhh'.dont cry'.everything will be ok'. apney ko sambhaloo. Nakku realizes Dutta is holding her, she suddenly goes away from him 'wiping her tears off and says 'wo 'sorry'.main'

Dutta says: (He looks down not knowing himself why he hugged her) Wo koi baat nahi'and goes out of the room.

Dutta thinks of what just happened and he has a hard time figuring out his feelings for this girl who he just met a few days ago. He decides to go to her room'..

Late night he comes to her room. He see her combing her long hair'.looking like a cute angel In his white kurta. He stands in the door and keeps looking at her' she turns around and finds him there '

He comes in and Nakku gets nervous'she says:-Aap itni raat ko yahan ? 'koi kaam tha to aap ney mujhey bolaliya hota'.Dutta keeps coming near her'He has realized he can't stay away from Nakku'.he is so touched by her touch before that he can't keep himself away from her,'Dutta realizes he is falling inlove with this girl.

Nakku picks up her hair pin and ties her hair up looking down.

Nakku keeps going back but Dutta keeps coming near her'.Nakku looks at him and feels nervous'.She finds him attractive and seeing him coming near her wearing a white shirt with open buttons'she looks away'.and asks:

- Aap khamoush kyu hain?... Koi phone aya hain kya ? bataye na'.. Before she knows she hits the wall behind her and finds Dutta standing just infront of her. Dutta takes out her hair pin and her black hair falls down on her shoulders. Not knowing what to do she looks down'holding her shawl tight on her '.she tries to go away when Dutta grabs her arm and comes even closer to her. She gets scared not knowing why he is behaving like that'.tears starts falling down her cheeks'she looks down 'she can't handle the gaze from Dutta'and she says:'" -Aap ko yeh kya hogaya hain'.please mujhey choriye'..She tries to push him away with one hand on his chest'but fails.

Dutta Slowly takes her shawl away from her shoulder '.and locks her putting his other arm on the wall leaning on her '..Poor Nakku is all helpless and can't get away'.

Dutta comes close to her he touches her neck smells in her perfume, he puts his cheek to hers and says:-Nakku'..mujhey nahi pata kyu kab kaise'.magar main tumhey chahney laga hoo'..Nakku'main tumhey kabhi hurt nahi karonga'..But I can't help it '.(he comes close to her ear and whispers'."I have fallen inlove with you Nakku"''.

He looks at her and he see she is crying'.Nakku says :-Nahi '.yeh sach nahi hain'.please mujhey choriye please'.Aap jayee'..main aap ki bohot izzat karti hoo lekin''

Dutta says:-Lekin kya Nakku'kya tum mujhey pasand nahi karti hoo ?

Nakku says:-Nahi yeh baat nahi hain 'wo..( hearing this Dutta smiles 'he understand Nakku do like him )

She says:-Dekhiye '.Main akeli ladki aap ke ghar mein rehti hoo'.sochiye loog kya kahengey'..Aap ko to koi kuch nahi kahega lekin main'.main eek ladki hoo'..mere yahan rehna hi logo ki nazron mein badnami hain'..please'mujhey lagta hain aap ko mujehey jald mere mom dad key paas lejana chahiye''warna log kya kahengey'.batayee'.Aaap ka aur mera kya rishta hain'?

Dutta puts his hand on her mouth and says:-Bass'.dekho maine aaj tak kabhi kisi ladki ko chua tak nahi'.tum pehli ladki ho jise mera mann chuney ke liye tarapta hain'main khud ko qaboo mein nahi kar pata. Nakku '.Tumhey yeh darr hain na keh tumhari aur tumharey mom dad ki badnami hogi'? Tum eek kunwari ladki ho jawan ho ,.. mere ghar mein rehti ho isi liye log kahenge ke eek jawan ladka ladki eek sath baighair kisi rishtey ke eek sath rehtey hain '.yehi soch rahi ho na..?

Nakku doesn't answer Dutta. Dutta comes closer to her he touches her lips with his fingers and asks her:-Bolo Nakku 'tum mujhey pasand karti ho ?...

Nakku looks, shocked to see him asking her that'..she pushes him away but dutta grabs her arms, pushes her against the wall and says:-Bolo Nakku'..! Phir kyu mere chuney se tum kamzoor parjati hoo 'Kyun mere qareeb aney sey ghabrajaati hoo ..? Bolo ?

Nakku looks down and cries'

Dutta says:-Meri taraf dekho aur kehdo tumheey koi ahsaas nahi hota mere qareeb aney sey '.

Nakku doesn't say anything'.. Dutta comes closer to her'.

Dutta says:-Boldo warna '.

Nakku looks up to him not knowing what he is up to''

Dutta smiles and comes close to her to kiss her '

When Nakku lowers her face and says:Please'..aisa mat kariye'..Main manti hoo 'main bhi aap ko chahti hoo'

Hearing this 'Dutta Smiles and takes a deep releasing breath''.He holds her face in his hands, kisses her forhead and hugs her. He takes out a Dibbi from his pocket and he fills her maang with sindhoor'Nakku looks on'

Dutta says:-Yeh '.chutki bhar sindhor tha'..jiski wajha sey dunya waley humarey rishtey ko badnaam kartey'..Par ab nahi'.Nakku Mainey humesha ke liye tumhey apna banaya hain'..Ab tum sirf meri ho aur main sirf tumhara'..

Nakku all tears smiles and hugs him '.Dutta looks at her and comes close when she stops him'..Dutta takes her hand away and says:-Ab tumhey mana karney ka koi haq nahi Nakku'I have the license to make u mine! 'He gives her a naughty smile, holds her hand tight'.he touches her lips with his,'he breaths her in '..and slowly gives her a Kiss full with love and passion!

He says to her:-Aaj tak itni methaas mainey zindagi mein kabhi mahsoos nahi ki '.Jo aaj tumharey hothoon sey mujhey mili hain Nakku!

He takes her breath away and Nakku feels shy and embarrassed having Dutta gazing at her'.She kisses his bare chest and hides her face in his open shirt holding tight onto him!....

A song is playing:

" Tera mujsey hain pehley ka naata koi..'Younhi koi dill lubhataa nahi "

Entry #7

"Dutta, please, come and eat," a voice says softly to me. The words are kind and gentle, as though I'm breakable. They're concerned. Sympathetic. Pitying.

I hate them all. If I could choose to block out all those words, all those voices, I would. I would block the whole world if I could. I would only keep Nakku.

"Please, Dutta, you'll feel better after," the voice pleads. My mom.

No, I won't. I'll never be better. Never. No matter how much time passes or how many wounds are healed, I'll always have the scars, memories. The pieces of my heart don't fit together anymore. It has been shattered beyond repair. I have been shattered.

Footsteps. My mom is walking away from me, downcast, giving up yet again. I don't care. I don't care about anything anymore. Not since they found Nakku's body dumped in a ditch and covered in blood.

If my heart were still whole enough to feel, I would be crying right now. I would be sobbing and spluttering and screaming, but I'm not. There's an iciness in my heart that is trickling through my veins and spreading through my entire body, bringing with it a numbness that obliterates all emotion. I'm an empty shell of my former self.

All I can think about is her. Think about her, dream about her, imagine her. I can see her in my mind now, almost as clearly as if she's standing in front of me. Her almost perfectly heart-shaped face is framed by waves of black tresses, and her dark green eyes sparkle at me with warmth and affection. Her lips are soft and red as holly berries, and they tilt up into a smile. Nakusha. The first and last person I ever loved.

When I first fell in love with Nakku, I couldn't understand why I felt so attracted to her. I've never been interested in girls, never even considered having a girlfriend. I felt like I was waiting for someone all my life, and then I met Nakusha. From first sight, an unbreakable bond formed between us, as if she were a magnet with a constant pull on me. I was so terrified of suddenly losing her, because she was everything I wanted my life to be. Finally, I confessed that I loved her. We dated for a few months, but afterwards our relationship became something deeper.

Then came the worst day of my life.

They said she had left a note for her mother saying that she was coming over to my house early in the morning. It had been my birthday that day, and what could be a better present than to wake up with her brilliant green eyes gazing into my own? She must've decided to come early and surprise me, but she never made it to my house. Nakku's body was found a couple kilometres away, thrown in a ditch. Murdered. Raped. Used, then discarded. They said that whoever had raped her had probably stuffed her body in their car and then dumped it farther away.

All this time, I haven't shed a single tear. Why should I cry? Nakku's not dead. She's coming back to me. She'll always come back for me—she promised. She never breaks her promises.

At least that's what I thought for the first few days. But then came the funeral, and I saw the body. Nakku had been put into a beautiful black gown that made her seem mysterious and dark. She wouldn't have liked it. Nakku had always liked bright, cheerful colours, and she would've despised all the black at the funeral if she had been alive to see it. But it didn't matter to me. I don't see colours anymore. It's like I've gone colour-blind, and everything I see now is bleak and grey, like the world outside when it rains. Everything is always colourless.

It was as I stood beside her grave, watching her coffin being lowered into the cool ground and the dirt being piled over top of her, that I finally realized that she isn't coming back. That she's gone. My Nakusha is dead. There's no return from the realm of death, ever.

That was when the last pieces of my heart were smashed. It was better before, when I hadn't believed it. It was better before, when I had been able to hope. Nakku was my life, and she was gone. My life was gone.

I wanted to be with her. I resolved that nothing was better than this half-life I lived without her, without emotions or thoughts or feelings. So I decided that I wanted to die, too. Then I could be back with Nakku, and we could live together and love each other for eternity, in heaven.

I couldn't feel the pain as I dragged the knife over my wrists, making them bleed. All I could feel was intense longing for Nakku, my Nakku. One cut, two cuts, three cuts… More blood was good; it meant that it would be over sooner. That I would be with her. Next, I slid the knife over my skin in the opposite direction, crossing over all the earlier cuts. That was when the pain of the first ones hit me, burning and smarting so fiercely that I dropped the knife. It landed on the ground with a clatter, and moments later I followed suit, collapsing on the ground in a slippery pool of my own blood.

I woke up in the hospital. I was alive, but barely. Everyone around me was tense and quiet when they were with me, as if it were just hitting them that I had tried to commit suicide. They wouldn't trust me not to attempt to somehow kill myself again, and they always had one person watching over me by my bed. What was I going to do in a hospital anyways, strangle myself with the IV cord? Either way, they weren't taking any chances.

It's been two weeks since I was released from the hospital. I haven't tried to do anything since then, so my parents are relaxing a bit around me. They think that I learned my lesson, and I'm not going to try again. But I will; it's just a matter of time. I'm not giving up on Nakku. She's waiting for me, and I'm determined not to make her wait long. Soon, I'm going to be with her.

I decide to do it today. My dad's gone back to work and my mom's busy praying. It's the perfect time to do it—if I'm lucky, hardly anyone will notice.

I got to a window and fumble with the catch on the lock before sliding it open. It's raining, and some drops are blown by the wind through the window, feeling like icy teardrops against my skin. I look down to the ground. The fall alone could kill me, but I don't want to die here. Here is too close. Someone could find me, and they might have enough time to save me. But I don't want to be saved. I want to be with my Nakusha.

I run downstairs and out the door without bothering to get a coat. I'll die one way or another, so why does it matter whether I freeze in the process?

After hailing a taxi and driving in silence for about fifteen minutes, I tap the taxi driver's shoulder.

"Let me off here," I say. I'm surprised at how calm my voice sounds. I expected it to be broken and pitiful, like the rest of me.

I press a wad of bills into his hand and then feel a whoosh of hot air as the taxi drives past, leaving me alone. The rain pelts down, plastering my clothes to my skin and soaking me. I don't mind. I'm going to be wet anyways, once I've done it. Once I've drowned.

I turn and see it. The bridge. The place where I first met Nakku. I walk slowly over to it and lean over the railing, looking down into the murky water. It swirls like ink, and I wonder what's hiding down beneath the surface.

I climb up the wooden posts and crouch precariously on the railing. A gust of wind nearly bowls me over, and I grip the cold metal so tightly that my knuckles turn white. Why am I postponing this? Why don't I just let the wind knock me off my perch? I wanted to die, and here I am. Why can't I just let myself drown? What's holding me up here?

I can see my reflection in the black water. I don't look how I used to. Before my stiff black hair was long, but I chopped it all off after Nakku died. Now it sticks out in uneven tufts all over my head, and there're some bald spots on my scalp. My brown eyes are hard and cold. My cheeks are gaunt and sallow, and my lips are pressed into a thin line. I look angry and desperate.

It's not my appearance that affects me the most. It's the fact that I look down into the water… and see only myself. Alone. The last time I looked into the water here, I was with Nakku, and our reflections showed us with our arms draped around each others' necks, caught in an embrace as we kissed. Now I look lonely and pathetic.

Nakku wouldn't want me to die for her.

The unwelcome thought pops into my mind of its own accord. It's true. If we were in reverse positions, Nakku wouldn't die for me. She would make sure to live life to the fullest, as if she could live it for me. She wouldn't let heartache ruin her life, like I've let it ruin mine.

I look down at my wrists, where the criss-crossed cuts have finally started to heal. They're pale lines now, scars. Memories. Nakku would've been angry if she had known that I had tried to cut myself. She forever hated those suicidal kids who thought they have horrible lives and tried to kill themselves. She was always saying about how "life is a rough road, and there'll be plenty of bumps and scrapes along the way, but the best you can do about it is to pick yourself off the ground and try again".

I'm certain now; she wouldn't want me to die. She would want me to live, and to be there in the moments she would be missing. She wouldn't want me to be doing this.

I can't do it. I can't kill myself. I won't kill myself. I'll try to build my life back instead. I'll teach myself to live again. Slowly, I put one foot down to climb down from the railing as the strongest gust of wind makes the bridge shudder and the trees sway. I look up at the stormy sky, and that's when the sky splits in two and the tree falls as if in slow-motion towards the bridge.

It seems like hours, but really it's only heartbeats as I run for my life, my shoes skidding on the slippery planks of the bridge. I reach out as if I can pull myself to the other side, and I'm almost there. Then there's an ear-splitting crack and the wood under me breaks. For a moment, I can see the veins in every leaf and every line on the gnarled bark of the tree. Then I'm dropping downwards, through the splintered bridge, and immersed in the icy cold water. My pulse pounds in my ears as I plummet down, and my hands scrabble to grab onto something, anything, that can keep me up. Bubbles spread out around me and the water turns white from my thrashing, and my fingers latch onto one piece of slippery wood. I cling onto it, praying that it will hold me up. The last thing I remember is the pain of something heavy hitting me, and then I'm plunged into darkness.

Nakku, I'm coming. You don't have to wait any longer. I'm here with you now.

Epilogue:

Dutta's body was found washed up the side of the lake the next day. People said that he had tried to commit suicide again, to be with his love, Nakusha but there was another story going around. This one said that he had only been out for a walk when the bridge had unfortunately broken, bringing him down with it. It said that he had tried to save himself—and proof of that was the sharp sliver of wood that was clenched between his deathly blue-white fingers.

Entry #8

Entry #9