Everything is same around me except it doesn't feel the same. Daadi said I suffered a minor accident but I feel so tired often. I sleep so much these days. When I ask my family members about Akash, they keep giving excuses that he is out of town, he has gone to his friends' place, or whatever reason they could give me. Bunty and Bubbly have been sent to hostel. Aaliya has come from Australia but it feels so strange when I talk to her. Whenever she calls me 'Bhai' but I couldn't feel the affection in her voice which was there before. I compose songs, do concerts, release albums but when it comes to meeting the media or fans, Purab doesn't let me talk anything. He always sticks around me when I am with people. I am living in my home yet the familiar walls look unfamiliar to me.
On top of it, there is this mysterious girl wearing glasses who is supposed to be Daasi's distant relative. As soon as I wake up, I see her bringing coffee for me. She makes coffee just as I like it to be. Whenever I call Robin, she comes. In the beginning I felt uncomfortable when she did things for me like bringing me coffee, clean my room, bring my medicines etc. But it seems she didn't feel uncomfortable. She doesn't even know me personally. How could she not feel awkward! I know there are a lot of girls who try to get close to me because of my Rockstar status. There are girls like Meethu who are really crazy about me. But she is not like that. There is something more to that girl than what is visible about her. She cares about me just like how Daadi would care for me. Sometimes if I stay up late composing music in my room skipping food, she brings food to my room.One day I couldn't find my headphones in my room. I called Robin but as usual this mysterious girl appeared in front of me. I asked her my headphones. She said that it must be on the shelf but it wasn't. She started searching for it while I started scolding her for messing up with my things. She finally found the headphones behind my pillows but I warned her not to touch my things again. She replied that she was just trying to help me by organizing the things in my room. I shouted that I didn't need her help.
"Who are you to help me? You are just my Daasi's relative. Remember that. Be in your limits"She left the place wiping her tears. I felt bad seeing her tears as it affected me in an unknown way. She didn't come to my room after that. Everyday I wake up to see her bringing coffee, but I would just see the coffee already placed besides me. I didn't see her coming to my room after that incident but I would see her in Daadi's room, Kitchen, etc everywhere except my room. I poured a glass of water on the floor and called Robin in a hope to see her but to my dismay, Robin came to my room.
"Why did you come?", I asked him."Sir, you called me..", he replied hesitantly.
"But you don't come usually. Where is that girl?", I asked him expressing what I expected to see. He stood there confused."Where is she?", I asked him again.
"Who sir?"
I realized that I didn't even know her name after all these days. She has been in my house over a month but I still didn't know her name. I said sorry to Robin and told him to leave. I don't know why a part of me keeps longing to see her. I thought of asking Daadi about that girl but then something stopped me. Daadi told me that I was over thinking when I asked her about Aliya and Akash. So I dropped the the thought of talking to Daadi about this. As I walked towards my guitar, I didn't see the water on the floor and slipped.I fell on the floor and couldn't get up as the floor was slippery. But I felt happy as the girl came running. She helped me get up and made me sit on the bed while she cleaned the floor. Soon, Daadi came to visit me and the girl left. She asked me whether I took my medications and I said yes. I asked her the girl's name and she smiled at me. I couldn't understand why Daadi smiled at me when I just asked the girl's name. She told me that her name was Pragya. I lied on Daadi's lap and asked her why this girl was staying in our home. She told me that the girl has come to Mumbai in search of a job and Daasi had made her stay with us because she is new to Mumbai. I told Daadi that the girl doesn't seem to have come to Mumbai to really search for a job. Daadi looked at me surprised.
"Daadi, she makes coffee for me every morning. She even keeps alarms to give me my tablets. I see her mostly in kitchen or your room or cleaning my room. I see her almost all day doing some or other work in the house. If she has really come to search for a job, she must be outside na? Searching for a job? Why is she always in the house especially around me?""Do you feel anything for her beta?"
The question was so uncomfortable for me."No Daadi. I am having headache now. Let me just sleep on your lap"
"If you don't feel comfortable, I will ask her to leave"As soon as I heard that, I said, "No Daadi". I didn't know what would have Daadi thought when I said No so quickly but I didn't want the girl to be out of my sight. I slept peacefully on my Daadi's lap.
She started coming to my room often as before. We started talking to each other casually. Once she told me to make melody songs with meaningful lyrics, I told her that it wasn't my style. She told me that I am good at it. I asked her how could she be sure that I would be good at composing such songs when I haven't composed such songs before. She bit her lip and stumbled with words. She then said that it was her assumption. Whenever I talked to her, her eyes shined so brightly like a star. Her eyes make me want to get lost in it.I am getting to know about her more everyday like her hobbies and education. I wonder why she was finding it difficult to find a job in spite of having so many degrees. But she keeps giving some excuses. I bought some books for her while returning from my concert at Pune. We have become good friends but still there is something strange about her. She never calls me by my name and whenever I call her by her name, she seems to be a bit dull. One day, I didn't have any appointments and was totally free. I thought of spending time with her but I heard that she had went out. I was a bit upset that I couldn't get to spend time with her and couldn't even see her for the whole day.
I was almost asleep when I saw her enter my room stealthily like a thief. I pretended to be asleep as she came near me. She sat besides me and kissed on my forehead. I didn't open my eyes but I could feel her presence near me. After few minutes, she stood up and walked towards the door. Just when she opened the door, I called her Chashmish."Hey Chashmish. What are you doing? Coming into rockstar's room secretly and kissing him?"
I thought she would be embarrassed to know that I was awake all the time but she started crying. She would have collapsed on the floor if I hadn't grabbed her arms. I told her that I was just teasing her. I kept asking her to stop crying. She hugged me and said that she was happy to get me back. I couldn't understand what she meant by getting me back. This girl is always mysterious but I hugged her back. After few seconds, I broke the hug."Pragya. What happened to you?", I asked her. As minutes ran, her face started turning pale again. It was like she realized something. She said Good Night abruptly and left my room running. I tried various ways to get answers from her for her behaviour that night but she never gave in.
Today, she asked me whether I could do a favour for her. I told her I would be pleased to please her. She asked me whether I could call her Fuggy."Fugggiee??"
She nodded yes. I was skeptical about calling her Fuggy. She wasn't that fat and why would anyone want to be called a balloon. She said that I need not call her fuggy if I wasn't comfortable. I felt relieved. She said she had another suggestion. I wondered what it could be. She said Chashmish. I have never seen a person wanting to be called Chashmish. In fact, people hate being called Chashmish and it was often used for mocking a person. But this girl wants me to call her Chashmish. Pragya is a very nice and sweet name but she wants to be called Chashmish. This girl is always mysterious.Hope I get to know more about this cute mysterious girl. Though I don't believe in god, I am wishing everyday that she doesn't get a job soon so that I could get to spend time with her.
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