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Dear Diary,
Delhi
i wonder if i made the right decision.
fuggy is going out more
i have contacted bulbul and purab,however it was a fail.
was delhi the right decision for all of us? i don't know
will i succeed in getting pragya back to fuggy? yes
i have already tries multiple times.
it has already been a week since we have been here in delhi.
we had left,hoping to move on from the past,which i have to agree that the past has not been forgoten,it haunts me but i feel safe when i am with fuggy and dadi.
pragy wakes up in the middle of the night shouting for her sister her purab bhai and dadi but mostly her mother.Me and pragya have had many sleepless night,there have been times that me and fuggy have fallen asleep in each other embrace.
Next week i will be travelling back to my hometown to do a concert and i am planning to meet up with purab and explain everything.
Yesterday i had seen fuggy sleeping on the couch.it was about 1 am i had came back from a recoding of my new song,which i guarantee is going to be a massive hit beacause it is all about my fuggy,I'm going to surprise her on our anniversary.(i know it was their anniversary a couple of months ago but they didn't celebrate it).Whenever i steal a peck from fuggy is when i see her really smiling,sometimes she is just staring at me and smiling seeing her smile makes me smile,when she sees me staring at her she blushes and she looks so adorable.So yesterday i came into my penthouse i found sleeping she seemed to be waiting for me:she never eats without me so i decide to wake her up. i walked up to the couch looked at her face tears stains were glistening on her face a sad smile appeared on my face.A hair was disturbing her sleep i moved it away and she instantly woke up.She looked at me and hugged me.i broke the hug and she led me to the kitchen.
ME:fuggy i want gulab jamun.show me how you make it'.
she nodded
she got out all the ingredients.she opened a flour pack and i got it and threw it in they air she looked so happy playing with the flour then she started to cry,i took her into a hug and i took her to our room.
She sat down on the bed i sat next to her and got a chocolate box out,i opened it and got chocolate out and gave it to her.
ME:'fuggy what are you so upset.i know what will help,eating chocolate'.i said with a childish expression she chuckled and blushed
we sat facing each other cross legged on the bed
FUGGY:'do you know bulbul and me would always have a food fight with me.we would use eggs and flour all sort of things it just reminded me of her',she said sobbing and eating the chocolate.
For the whole night we just talked about one an others past.
nonchalantly,we seemed so relaxed crying and eating choklate together it was so amazing.
PAST
That night i had lost my chasmish,fuggy,pragya abhishek mehra.
I had lost my saviour,my best friend and my loving wife.
At that very moment,i had seen something break in her eyes.
It was like she had given up like she had no absolute reason to live,i was worried.
I took her into hug she had responded,i felt something wet on my back,she was crying.
i was upset as well;i had lost my mother she had treated me like her son and now she was gone.
i grew up without parents it was very difficult,now chasmish had no parents and no support from her family she was struggling to cope she was not in the best state,i was here to help her and stand by her forever.
The thing about pain,it demands to be felt.
I held her till she stopped crying,i broke the hug and looked right into her eyes,i heard her sniffling,she
stared into my eyes not knowing what to do.Hoping to find an answer,i kissed her forehead out of instinct and i held her hand but she hugged me tearing up again.i played down and pulled her on top of me and i made sure she was asleep before i went to snooze mode.
Later at night,i had waken up to hear scream.fuggy was up she was sweating and was mumbling something.
ME;'shhh fuggy it your suniye its abhi you will be okay'
FUGGY:'i have lost haven't i.my family blame me for my mother death.i have only got you and dadi.
we have both lost something important in our lives aliyah your innocent sister has gone my brother and di and dadi have left me and ma just completely left me. Abhishek are we that bad that we have to suffer to suck an extreme that you feel that there is no absolute reason to live,however i am trying to stay strong for you my abhishek suniye.i want to live for my love'.she mumbled.she gleefully blushed then sadness overpowered she was glum again
ME:'i live for my fuggy chasmish.without you i am mr no one.The thing about pain is we don't get to choose if we get hurts but we do get some say in who hurts us okay fuggy.i will support you in your fights and I'm damn sure you will support me in my battles.that how powerful our love is.it will keep us alive.Remeber even if your maa is not her with us she is always in your heart',he choked on his tears
FUGGY:'why does it hurt so much then?why am i so hurt that she left us in a second.She left her daughter she promised she will stay forever the why? ',she yelled collapsing into my arms
ME:'the marks human leave are too often scars.It was never her decision to leave okay.why would your mum want to leave her loving daughters.she loved you so much.do you know it hurt me a lot when my parents left, i always blamed god because he snatched my parents from me.i have never believed in god but dadi does,so dadi helped me with my struggle and to be honest the struggle was real fuggy it was the second most hardest thing i had ever did.Do you know what the most hardest thing was falling in love i had decided never to fall in love because i felt like all my loved ones were being pushed away from me.so i was rather cautious coming close to a woman.When you came you changed me,i married you for revenge thought you were a gold digger
then my feeling started to change to love.If we both stand to gather we could do any thing.
Promise me we will both be together and stand together through tough times okay fuggy"
FUGGY:'i promise can you call purab i want to know what happening',she cried with a sad smile.
i phone him many times the third time he answered
ME:'is everything okay?
PURAB:'no nothing is okay we have lost it bulbul is non stop crying,dadi is sitting still with tears
wonder what that pragya must be doing she is the cause of all our misery.do you know what dadi said she said as we left to go to your house that mamiji had phoned pragya and she had picked up the she heard pragya shouting at dadi and aliyah mamiji hung up straight away and was worrying she wouldn't eat or do anything thudded went to her room and she came back mumiji was having problems breathing and then,everything changed for every single on of us.
Abhi come to the hospital.
ME:'why is it prayers fault',i asked still not convinced enough of the reason they gave me.
just then i heard Bulbul get hold of the phone
BULBUL:'pragya since pragya has came back mum has had about 8 attack the doctor sid if she had another one it could be fatal.Now just because of that pragy my mum has gone through enough
she is not my di anymore.my di disappeared a month ago',there bulbul had told me the truth
i hung up and looked at fuggy she seemed shocked i shook her thats when she got up and left our room.
I followed her she went straight to the guest room and locked herself in the room.I had heard her cry and throw things onto the floor.i called out her name no answer.
i went straight to dadi and told her everything,we rushed to the hospital leaving a broken pragya behind.
signed of by
Abhishke Prem Mehra
Edited by KIHminnie123 - 10 years ago
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