Shades of Grey
It took me
A while
Longer I tried
I tired
Exhausted
I felt
Oh yeah ...
Too much
Too many
They named
Labeled
Injecting me with truth which are unreal
Yet true
They said it's not black
Nor white
I am both
Jinxed with grey shades
They showed me
The real me ...
Unmasking my face
I saw
Watched...
My face
My fears
As it twisted
Deep down
Leaving me on my hunches
To feed my demons
Without naming them
They let me live
Weak and good for nothing
Fight back someone shouted
How?
I wanted to ask
I wanted to scream in despair
But you know
I am a soldier
With a broken leg
And my spirit half empty
I don't know how to fight ...
But they left me
You know ...
Asking me to fight
All alone
With my bleeding heart ...
And I fought
Try as much as you say
But yeah I tried
With all my gut
Until I sweat
And bled
I tried to survive
Sometime
Disappearing in woods
When it became too much to bear
Often Succumbing
Watching the depth of lake
I drowned
Dying in my head
A Hundred thousand deaths
Killing me
Senseless
Yet brave
Something to be endured they said
But
Who cares?
Who dare to come near?
It's a laugh to see someone dying
Isn't it?
Yet
I lived
What a life?
Huh ?
Like a hideous creature
They asked me not to talk
Not to talk about things which are unreal?
How dare they ?
How dare you ?
I wanted to scream
But you know
Even before I could
I was on my hunches
My demons on my back
I am so exhausted
And there you
Ohh world
Looking at me
Laughing may be ...!
Indian Idol 15
