Tia 🤗 I love this write-up!! Extremely relatable! You have a way with words and that conveys the message with the right impact. Thanks a lot for sharing you life with us!
I too am a 'experience everything' kind of person and keep running around from one adventure to another. My mom too is the epitome of patience (although, of late, she gets worked up a little, due to reasons). And, I too am commitment phobic.
I have been an ultra-forgiving person till 20, when I had to make terms with realisations and lessons learnt the hard way. It must be probably due to my mom's influence. My dad was an ill-tempered person until my birth, so she had to go through a lot and remain patient, also, even now, my mother's siblings are unfair to her and I do not like them but she does not express her dissatisfaction.
One small event I would like to share here. I had a friend in school. I was the kind of person who did not make much friends during school days. I had only 2, when I entered high school. Life started changing gradually after that, that is a different story altogether. There was this girl with whom I sat with, from 6th-12th and during high school(changed phase), when people used to call me, in order to make sure that she did not feel alone, sometimes, I didn't go and stood by her side. In the public examinations, her scores were very low(topper she was, in school tests) and I somehow managed to pull off a very good score, both of which were due to absence and presence of luck respectively. Her mother filled her mind with poison on how bad a friend I was (no relevance, I know!) and even verbally insulted me when I tried to contact her, not once, but thrice! I somehow couldn't let go of that incident. This is just a trivial issue which I was comfortable to discuss. There are much more. And some of them are serious, while some seem trivial now. Inspite of immense trust, getting disowned for familial reasons and not having them stand by you during tough times are bad signs of even acquainting with someone.
Life has not been easy on me. Some people have been sorry but somehow, I don't find the strength or necessity to trust them again, although I maintain a Hi & Bye relationship with some among the some people who are sorry. Right now, apart from family, I trust only one friend , who has been a strong pillar of support, made sure I was okay and even if we do not talk daily, we know our equation. I have a lot of friends, atleast that is what people say so and some even complain that I don't give much attention to X people because I am close with Y people. But it is the result of my lack of trust and my mind tuning itself to focus on better things than on temporary people. All I have seen is, when you are too nice (not the right amount of nice) with people, they exploit you and when you realise this one day, no amount of regret is going to bring back the lost time which could have been spent joyfully and on self-love. I am happy where I am right now! I embrace aloneness and solitude when not in company and socialise and comfort when in one. Some incidents are bound to happen in life to make us the person we are today, i.e. a better person for tomorrow. I now know my limits with people and set the bar for winning my trust way too high. Although I am in my mid twenties, I am skeptical of marriage, just the way you were, because of the factors you have mentioned.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me!
Sorry for rambling on. I am a private person but something triggered me to write this, and I myself am surprised that I opened up, even for a trivial incident. Sorry about the length. I know, people have real issues and I might appear as an imbecile. :P
Totally off the topic, but for something on the show, there were situations and people which made me relate with the show and few characters respectively. OMG, Tia's thread has become my personal diary today! I am pouring in whatever comes to my mind. Sorry Tia!🤣 *Runs off in shame*
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