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They say when fear of losing loved one's strikes ..it can make you sane or insane...can awaken emotions which were dormant since ages, can make your facade of "not caring" fall off in one moment, be it has been there for long and even you don't know what's real you or whats your mask that you have been putting up .human emotions are most complicated and unpredictable miracle ever.a and that what it makes a human ,a human with a heart with enormous feeling
This is my first ever OS and I am writing it when my toddler in taking afternoon nap (only time I can write something)đ
Typing it on mobile as it was never planned .so ignore typos ,grammar or even lack of consistency or even connection if you don't find any bond with story.i just penned it down as I tried to sleep with my toddler bit my mind was thinking about devakshi..so had to vent it out.đ
PROMISE OF NEW MORNING
When sona saw dev lying in pool of blood ..her brain seized...she has been always strong,practical woman her entire life but that's what she was never prepared for ever..and why would she?... This was last thing she would wanted to Witness ever..seeing her love of life lying unconscious.
the past hatred,misunderstandings,complaints everything took back seat in that moment..she rushed to dev and kept his head in her lap..she was not able to think what happened and what she should do?..all she knew it can not happen.
Not with dev ..not with her..!!!!!
.she was trying to make him concious with constant patting on his face and shouting...
dev get up..you can't do this right.!!!!!!..you can never do this..you can't go that low that just for seeing me in this state...so weak ,so helpless ,crying for you..?????
come on get up ..open your eyes dev!!!!!!
..we are not playing any games dev...for god sake get up...dev was lying in pool of blood and she was in pool of tears...nothing was in mood to stop.
Dev why you always do this?? Please. Get up..you told me right that you have Been survivor all your life..let me remind you ..you are still one.. you get it Mr dixit...!!!
How much you will hurt me dev???? how much?? And this is not the way..
she tried to sprinkle some drops of water from her water bottle that was there in her bag...on dev'face to make him gain consciousness but no avail.
she was losing her all senses. But she knew she has to survive this...she somehow took him to car with help of driver and started for hospital..on back seat of car ..dev was still lying unconscious in sona's Lap ..and sona was constantly trying to make him awake..she was sobbing ..she was losing..
life will never let her be strong in front of dev that's all she could think of right now...within few minutes car stopped in front of hospital gate..she screamed for stretcher and immediate help ..dev was kept on strecher and doc started attending him..in very first glimpse every one understood it's a critical case
All wounds were mostly on his head and that alone can make everyone worried..he was taken inside OT..sona was all alone in corridor..she was still not back into her senses..and how could she be?she sat on chair and just broke down..yes how can she hold back now?? How long??
No she can't do it..everyone expected her to be strong..her parents,dev eveyone
..no one understood that she had emotions too..she wants to feel week too..she wants to cry her lungs out too ,she wants to let her feelings out too..and today she can not hold back..how can she see dev in this condition ?????
no she can not.. She can never.she loved him so much...so much that it still hurts her..so much that feeling of love wrapped in pain still does not leave her...so much that she still can think of only dev when she hears word "love" and now he is on deathbed?? Deathbed?? Has she lost it?? How can she think of something like that???No no way it can happen..dev can't do this to me..how can he? No way..she got up and wiped her tears...and worriedly waiting for doc or nurse to come out so she can know what's going on with her dev.
being a doc and working in hospital for so long she had an idea about doc's body language and it was not making her feel better about anything..few minutes later doc came and asked permission to go ahead with surgery..and though its hospital formality before starting any surgery...this one was indeed risky..sona had to sign this..she did with tremblings hands but she did.
Few hours later doc came and explained her how critical he is and how difficult surgery was..they did their best but it's up to him now how he responds to treatment..wait and watch was the game now..he was still unconscious and still in ICCU..doc said 48 hours crucial .
nothing was registering with sona's mind but to urge to see him and tell him that he has to come through out of this..he has to survive!!!!! ..for him self,for her and for their daughter..!!!!!!
.all of sudden reality hits sona and she again tried to remember what she just said or rather felt.????
..their daughter.???.whom dev has no clue about????
She can't do this to soha.she can't let father of her daughter go way like this
.she was felling like worst person on earth now..what she has done with dev and soha all these years?? How could she do it?? How she even thought of separating a father and daughter..?? How could she??
No matter how much hurt she was..no matter how much competent enough for their daughter she was..no matter how much punishment dev deserved..this was not done
...this should have never be done..now he is unconscious and no one knows in what state he gets up or what if he never gets up?????? no no..this can not happen..!!!!!?
he had to meet his daughter..their daughter...he would be angry with me right..let him be .I deserve..but he has to survive all this atleast for their daughter.
with all these thoughts she slipped into room full of medical instrument and feel of misery.there on bed,dev was lying down unconscious with all necessary medical instrument attached to him..she hated it ..she hated it..she hated this sight..!!!!!
She thought...he was better when he was mean,rude and fighting with her
She can manage that dev but not this one..!!!!!!
How could he be lying with so much calm and here she is even having problem with each breath..?????
She came near to him and sat on stool..she looked at him properly after ages it seems..is he also putting up facade like me?? She thought.
how changed he looks when he fights with her..and here he has same innocence on his face that he always had.is he still her dev?? Her dev??
God knows what was happening with her..she had no clue neither she wanted to go in detail..she wanted to be in present moment and just be assure that everything would be fine..and once he gets up she will make him meet his daughter..
ohh god how he was always so exited about having baby girl..she thought..dev you always wanted tiny sona Na..??
See we do have tiny sona..your sona might not be same now,whom you loved..but you have tiny sona..and you know what's miracle??????..she is tiny aubhodro more.!!!!!.she giggled saying this..
she is exactly like you..you know baba always says soha ...yes that's our daughters name!!!!!!
baba says soha is just like me..and I just smile every time..how big lie it is Na dev.???
.you must have done some setting with God..that sonakshi has left me but do something that I can never leave her. And she has to see me every day...
See god heard you..your daughter is your shadow dev.no matter how much I wanted to forget you but could never..how could I?????
she was right in front of my eyes..you have been always with me all.these 7 years..weather I wanted or not..
You know what.??.she calls me khargosh like u used to.she laughed remembering all.the times dev called her bunny...
you still remember or you forgot??
She does not like vegetables in her pizza just like you don't !!!!!! How embarrassing is to me being a nutritionist ..you both have no idea??
She gets cold after having ice cream !!!
and yes her handwriting is beautiful as yours... not like her mumma's typical doctor handwriting...
She has Sweeth tooth like you..I mean as a Bengali even I don't like that much sweets as you two do...she twitched her nose saying this..
And guess what????? all her friends like pink colour and your princess likes white black and blue..!!!!!!!!
her friends tease her and call her boring and she does not care..sometimes she seems so ms aubhodro...she giggled thinking about all the times she teased dev calling aubhodro...
And will you even belive that she hated swing in childhood...this time sona frowned remembering how difficult it was to make soha sleep without swinging and rocking...
you father and daughter are Team and I am all alone...she folded her arms saying this..but you know what???
There is only one thing she has taken ofter me!!!!
she does not even know you still she loves you..and I feel the same..I don't know you what you are in real but can't stop loving you. And tears made ways out of her eyes ..
Sona was sobbing telling all those lil lil things aboout soha to dev..and thinking how could they have made best family ever if things had not gone this worse..!!!!!
Dev I know I have snatched 7 years from you and soha..I am guilty and I would deserve any punishment you will give me for this.. but not anymore ..you have to get well soon..ookkk
You have to get up and see how beautiful our daughter is..she is the best thing happened to us dev..you will agree on same.she is everything you always wanted..I may not have been good wife or you might have failed me as husband.!!!!!!!
Bit trust me she gonna be best daughter..and I know you gonna be best father ..I knew it I always knew it..
Dev you fight wity me ,argue with me, bash me or whatever..just get up and see we did turn up lucky ..we brought our own creation in this world..we deserved her dev..and see... she is here in real.
Don't tell me you want to waste your time now on this stupid hospital bed??????no won't right???
You can't afford to lose a single minute Na dev without meeting her..so get up..as soon as you wake up you gonna see your princess by your side.i promise I won't let waste any single second of this new morning that we all are waiting for..!!!!!
..we have issues dev..we always had!!!!!!!
we will sort it out or let it be...we will see ..but now nothing not even me would decide you and soha's destiny..you and she both deserve each other..and you will meet her
that's my promise dev..just wake up soon..am waiting..your daughter is waiting and I am sure a new morning is waiting..and there she slipped into light sleep holding his hand ..
P.S- sorry for wrong punctuation, grammar or framing of sentences..I hope you Atleast connect with feeling I tried to pen down.fiest ever attempt at writing OS hope i don't turn up dhabba on OS writtingđ
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