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The Inclination Of A Vague Heart
The first time i saw Sonakshi was in the summer of 3rd grade. I remember that day clearly. The ceaseless buzzing of the classroom and the unlimited amount of energy the students had increased, which would be a rare sight if the class was under their teacher's supervision. Me and my friends were kicking a soda can around the classroom while two girls screamed as we impinged onto their table.
I was so engrossed in winning a goal that i didn't took notice of our Ma'am walking towards us, hand in hand with a girl.
My then-best friend Rohan tugged on my sleeves stopping me from hitting the can and making my head snap up. I blinked a few times, in an attempt to help my eyes adjust to the illumination of colors directed right at my defenseless figure.
A petit girl stood with a hip jutted to one side, her right arm draped across her slender body, clasping the elbow opposite. She was wearing an orange polka-dot shirt with a yellow skirt accompanied by red boots. It made her stand out like a goth at a pep rally. With black tousled hair of wool and her head held high, she waltzed on with an effortless saunter, as if her choice of clothing didn't make her look like a Joker.
"Children, meet your new friend Sonakshi" Our teacher chirped happily and Sonakshi waved her hand at us. "I hope you will help her out."
All the students took their respective seats while continuingly gawking at her. I was one of those who couldn't help but look at her quirkiness.
The teacher motioned her to take a seat and her her eyes scanned the room with determination in search of someone, when her eyes met mine she smiled. I froze.
As she made her way towards me, i kept chanting 'Please not here' but the odds just weren't in my favour.
"Can i sit here?" She asked politely, her head lolled down to one shoulder.
Now let me tell you how 3rd grade worked at that time. Once your classmates get an impression that you like someone, they wouldn't let it go. I was so sure that if i said yes, then in the coming years my friends would even start rhyming "Dev and Sonakshi sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g".
Keeping in mind my reputation for coming years, i shook my head 'No.'
She flinched but didn't let my rudeness waver her smile as she said, "Your loss".
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Now when i ponder on these days, i realize she stood out like a bright star in the dead of night. She was the shades of colors in my black and white life. And i wonder if things would have been different now if i hadn't told her no. Or if i hadn't shoved her in the pit of mud in 4th grade or humiliated her poem in front of the classroom in 7th grade or hid her homework just for fun in 10th grade.
In my heart I retract all the bad things I ever said or did to her, they were never a reflection on her, only on my inner demons.
AN: Hi guys this is the prologue to my ff.. if you guys like it, give it a thumps up! Thank you for reading.. I'll be uploading the first chapter soon! 😊
