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Dear diary ,
Ek mahina ho gaya Dev ko aur mujhe ek doosre se door rehkar. Aisa lag raha he jaise saalo saal guzar gaye ho iss ek mahine me. Aisa kyu hotha he ki khushi ke pal jaldh guzar jaathe he?
Kaash me unhe mere dupatte me samet ke rakthi!
Kyu??! Aisa kyu hotha he? Mera kisi se pyar karna kya galath tha? Kya me Dev ke liye galath thi? Auntiji ke liye?
Diary! , mere paas inn sawaalo ka jawaab bhi nahi he! Jithna sochthi hu uthni hi kamzor pad jaathi hu. Maa baba dada aur Elena ne ithna support kiya thab jake thodi sambhal liya maine par jab bhi me yaha iss gali me chalthi hu jaha Dev har roz mujhe chodne aathe the , ye kidki jaha kade hokar me roz unse baathe karthi thi , me kaise unhe yaad nahi kar sakthi?!
Kyu ? Aakhir meri galthi kya he? Har ladki apne hone wale life partner se sirf zindagi bhar ka sath aur pyaar hi chahthi he. Kya maine isse zyadha kuch manga tha? Dev ne mujhe unke pyar se jeene ki wajah tho de dhi...par jeena sikhaye bina chod ke chale gaye! Par kyu??
Auntiji?
Me unki insecurities samajh sakthi hu..par atleast wo mujhse ye bath keh sakthi thi. Khud ko aise thakleef dekar...Khair...
Diary, Kehthe he na..zindagi me jo bhi hotha he , kuch reason se hi hotha he. Me tho ab thak reason nahi samajh paayi!
Ye fairy tales sab imagination me hi achhe lagthe he. Mujhe uss imaginary duniya se bahar nikalna hi nahi chahiye tha. Agar reality aisi hothi he tho me imaginary life me hi khush hu. Mere pyar ke chalthe mere family bhi bahuth tension me he, mayoos he.
Par ab aur nahi!! Ab me wahi karungi jo mere parivar ke liye sahi he. Maa ke liye sahi he. Baba ke liye sahi he. Dada aur Eli ke liye sahi he. Unse badkar ab aur koi nahi.
Kyu Mr. Dixit...aap tho chale gaye aur jaathe jathe mujhe bhi aap jaisa bana liya - MS.OBODHRO.
Not fair Mr.Dixit, So not fair!!!
Kumkum Bhagya
Anupamaa
