18/19 may: big things, little things

catching up with two-two shows at pcp's place is fun. first they always has pistachio gelato -- which i adore, and no-one in their house ever seems to touch... 😆 second, 'cause this is the only time i get to tunelessly hum ''teri ore... hai rabba'' in her presence. y'see, pcp sings really well and it usually drives her crazy when i hum this in my croaky way. 😆 she's excusing me now 'cause i tell her humming it helps me think and ponder ... well, many big things more than little things. like why, oh why, is it that they like making heer cry on this show when she has such a gorgeous smile...? hmmmm...

18th may:

* little thing: gayatri-mom tells heer to give evidence 'cause ''you always tells the truth. whatever the truth is, say so.''

y'know what was troublesome 'bout that moment? heer getting worried. and i wondered why --'cause all gayatri-mom said was to tell the truth, no? so... why the worry?

* little thing: oooh, harman finally being seen to do something lawyer-like in this situation! but that also made me wonder -- if he knew this guy was the ''best divorce lawyer'', why didn't he just get his mother to hire this guy for vitchface??

* little thing: ha!! but i kinda enjoyed that lawyer-harman chat. i liked how the guy kept going on and on about how the girl was all at fault. and then finally! harman goes ''bas, what'shisname, bas!''. heheh... didn't he remind anyone else of lalit-juneja and his dramatics at that moment?

but what made me chuckle was the look on the other guy's face! it was like ''ooops! that's a deep pile of doodoo i just put my foot in...''

* little thing: 'kay, tell me s'thing? on this show, why is it that guys change clothes before going to bed -- but women just pop in, glittery saris, jewellry, makeup all intact?? no seriously! i want to know!! 😆

* little thing: how sweet -- prem sees his pre-occupied little heer and sneaks in with a prem-encircles-heer hug before she can notice and stop him... 😍

* sweet thing: prem tells heer she doesn't have to give evidence against nihaal... 'cause she will only tell the truth! 😆

but hmmm! does that mean prem believes nihaal didn't do a thing too??!

* little thing: but *sigh*!! who else felt their chest heave in a sigh when he said he'll talk to his mother about heer not having to give evidence? sighing 'cause you just knew that he wasn't gonna be able to ''talk to his mother'' to protect heer at all? *premium sigh!*

* little thing: *more sigh!!!* i wish he would stop making sentences to heer that contain the ''i promise that you will never have to...''... no seriously! why the heck does he bother??? prem's made such sentences sooo many times in the past -- and has fallen flat on his face again. and again. and again.

prem. face it -- you seriously ''bhagwan nehi hoon''. and you don't have to be ''bhagwan'' any more -- that one time was supercool. you got the girl. you and heer are one seriously rocks. now please ... relax?

*thinking* gee, 'cause that was one seriously true sentence from prem, wasn't it?? ''mein bhagwan nehi hoon''!! at that time, i had a tough time believing it. but ever since the ... er ... ''hole-in-the-heart'' reason for having put heer and the juneja's through hell... i believe it! *sigh*

problem is - now, prem seems to be having a tough time believing it! *sigh* i hope he starts believing it real soon now! 😔

* prem-hands thing: loved how he kept touching her... running his hands down her arms. touching her cheek with his fingertips. and then.. pulling her cheeks while praising the smile on her face??!!!! 😆 now that was a seriously new ''look'' for prem-heer!!!

* little thing: heer startled that prem loved ''someone'' else -- huh??!

i mean... huh??!!!!

no, seriously... huh huh??! heer... er... huh??!!!!!

*yeah, heer got me -- me! long-post-estee! -- speechless at that point! 🤣*

* prem-voice thing: seriously, someone give prem-voice a best-actor prize, would they??? 'cause when he said ''maa sey bhi jalan...ai haaaaaai, mar jawaaaaan... kya baat hai!'' in that deep-throated way, i was ... as close as i've come to a mental shutdown for more than a minute after. ☺️d'you know? that used to be s'thing dirtchachi said a lot, no? man, what a difference when prem says it! 😆

and y'know what was most remarkable 'bout that shot? we could only see prem in side-profile. just the curve of that cheek... the angle of that strong jaw... but you didn't need to see any of that to know that he was smiling wide. 'cause that smile was in his voice... all over, all around, filling all the spaces outside of my head, inside of my head, and everywhere in between... *thud*

* little thing: but two things that prem said sounded 'specially nonsensical and puzzling.

first, when he said that he will not punish her for nihaal's mistakes -- huh?? i mean... huh??!!!! no, seriously... well. you get the picture. why did he have to say that??! is'nt it obvious he never would?
second, why is he constantly harping on his mother having given heer everything?? 😕 so she did. why is prem constantly talkin' 'bout it?? 😛

* prem-focus thing: ''kal ki baat, kal karengey. aaj kay iss pal ka kya?''

oooooh! i sooo agree -- the one sensible thing prem said! heer, iss pal ka kya??! er... phingoli anyone? 🤣

* heer thing: the one sensible thing that heer said: ''prem, naatak band kar!'' why do i get the feeling that is one heer sentence prem should seriously pay attention to?? poor heer...

* little thing: man! ludhiana seems to be filled with social disasters! i mean, who in the world comes to invite s'one for a wedding of a daughter, and then starts digging into why the other's daughter is going through a divorce??!!!

omg! and the most incorguous statement! ''vitchface is like our daughter''. great. if she is, why are you digging for the details of her divorce, you social worm!??! 🤢 gross!! what's with this show always coming up with disgustingly gossipy and nosy strangers..???! 😡

so i totally agreed with one -- one! -- of gayatri-mom's lines. ''people gossip about my daughter and i should not do anything about it??!''

*sigh* such a pity that after that she had to become hysterical and stoooopid immediately after that! as disgraceful as that social worm of a woman.

'cause after that, it was lalit juneja who came up with a totally sensible line: ''control yourself! remember that nihaal's sisters are the daughters-in-law of this house!'' geez, gayatri-mom! you might be doing drama to teach someone some lesson -- but do take heed of how totally vindictive you sound? 😕 do you have to be this shrill for this long to teach vitchface a lesson?

no seriously! if this woman's putting up an elaborate farce to teach vitchface and the shrimp a lesson, why does it have to take this long??! 😕 *sadly reminding myself that i've rarely been right 'bout anything on this show... and that gayatri-mom being shrill and vindictive might be the real gayatri-mom right now... 😲*

* little thing: omg! shrimp maya is seriously competing with vitchface for the most boring character on this show!!

man! don't the actors get bored of just keeping one.. no, two! expressions on their face?? *wondering how much they get paid that they don't dump the role they are in, and look for s'thing else to do with their life...*

* little thing: of all the poop that shrimp says, one thing that was turue was that she was spending only her money. in reality, harman can't really dictate that she shouldn't spend it. that she shouldn't is something that shows what a greedy pig she is -- but she can spend it if she wishes?

*sigh* poor harman. should've really thought 'bout this before marrying the bimbette, shouldn't you have??

* little thing: philosophical heer-meher chat. it was kinda... sweet. kinda .. depressing. and so, kinda strange.

i liked that heer had been sitting and musing how unlucky her brother has been in life. but meher starting off on how ''women'' get torn between their married home and their birth home was... sudden, no? and i liked heer's response to her: that's life. we may not like it, may not know how to deal with it. but we've got to learn to deal with it.

but *sigh* i must admit -- i didn't much like the idea of the honour of both houses resting on the married woman's shoulders. why can't people think first of themselves, and then about their families and honour and all that jazz? don't people realise that when they are happy, everything else just... works out to be better?? *sigh* i guess this is where the conservative rural setting of this show comes up loudly.

* little thing: i liked meher telling heer firmly that -- no matter what -- she'll be with heer.

*sigh* why do i suddenly believe her more than i believe anything prem says to heer? 😕

* little thing: ooh, father-mother contrast. lalit-juneja telling prem that heer doesn't have to give evidence. gayatri-mom whisking heer away in her car! that too with vitchface!! oooh! gayatri-mom, complete the party and get shrimp-maya to go in the car with you too, why don't you? 🤢

btw, did it strike anyone else that gayatri-mom is suddenly comes across like a ... dementor**, no??!! dark. brooding. eyes always hooded and dead. likes to suck away happy thoughts from everyone!!? don't you agree??? gee... gayatri-mom turns dementor-mom! 😲

* little thing: interesting that heer had three-three choices to worry about -- prem-kay-baat ''don't give evidence if you don't want to.'', maa-kay-baat ''give evidence against nihaal'', or the truth.

well, i guess for her the truth is ''nihaal didn't do anything to vitchface'', huh? *sigh* poor heer.... i see troubled times ahead...

highlight of the episode: ''ai hai, mar jawaaaan.....'' and the smile in that voice... ☺️ *thinking* prem telling heer she doesn't have to give evidence 'cause she'll only tell the truth. 😊

** dementor: one of the most horrific creatures that is created in the harry potter book series, authored by j.k.rowling... 🤢

19th bt,lt continued in the next post...

19 may

omgosh! what a ... twisted episode!!!!! 😲😲

* meher thing: so, heer is being herded inside court by gementor** and it's upto meher to do a consoling chat with her brother. and i loved it.

i loved the care and the love these maans have for each other. what a pity they are so... non-confrontational. other than when he slapped and walked out on vitchface after she gloats about her abortion 🤢, nihaal has been non-confrontational about everything in this show, no? 😔 so i loved meher warning him 'bout gementor pressurising heer. and their hug at the end. i guess if you don't have many people in the world, it's good that you have this kind of people to have, no?

* little thing: oooooooh!!!! (god) preet's at the court!!! he is!!! *stopping the urge to whistle 'cause i remembered that preetstess' have to maintain their dignity at all times... sigh!*

* stoopid judge thing: ''this is a question of the whole of two people's lives.''. er... mr. judge? huh??? tons of people are getting divorced every day. and given vitchface, it'll be making hell of the whole of nihaal's life for sure! 🤢

* stoopid heer thing: heer! the judge asked you a perfect question to be truthful on, and save yourself. ''you have seen the wounds; but have you seen vitchface being beaten?''

the right and proper answer is ''no'', heer! no-one has ever seen nihaal beat vitchface! why the heck didn't you just say no and stop? why did you have to then loudly say that your brother would never hurt vitchface??! er.. of course, beyond that ''one slap''. heer. you... small town, loyal, truthful.. simpleton! *sigh*

* stoopid prem thing: great! just great! prem-shouts-at-heer-in-juneja-public part 2. and this time doesn't laugh and say he was kidding!!

btw, what the heck does he mean by telling heer ''i told you to not give evidence. why did you tell a lie?'' er.. what was the lie? i didn't get it... what lie did heer say? she said too much. but that was not a lie, no? 😕😕😕 and er.. prem? when heer said she didn't know how vitchface got her other wounds, and you said then did she do it herself? answer to that -- uh, ya!! what else is there to think??!

*pssst!! er.. did anyone else feel like grabbing prem's head, dunking it into some really cold water -- which is all we had wandering in nepal, btw, to wash up in! -- and scrubbing his ears hard?!? i find that dunking in really cold water clears up most confusions, really fast!! 🤣

and no, no, no need for volunteers for this job! i, most magnanimously! offer to do this myself! would be my huuuuuge pleasure... seriously! 😃 🤣

* stoooopid gementor thing: er.. prem asks why gementor orders him to not question heer. and gementor says... '''cause i love you? 'cause you are not my son? but i brought you up.. (blah, blah)''?

er... huh?????? no seriously! ... huh??? since they were in court, i felt like jumping up and saying ''objection, your honour! irrelevant tothe question!'' -- c'mon!!! didn't you?

*but gee, this seems a pair of seriously huh???? inducing episodes, no? 🤣 *

* (god) preet sweetness thing: omg! preet-lalit-juneja chat. while i loved lalit-juneja's reactions to a lot of things:
- his incredulous reaction to preet's question of ''haven't you slept yet?'' ''a father whose daughter is going through a divorce -- how can i sleep??''
- his hopelessness when he speaks of gementor's vindictive need for nihaal's destruction
- his conviction that gementor is all wrong
- his belief that his word and his beliefs have no place in jzoo anymore... *i admit, i started giggling here -- it's-all-'bout-me lalit-juneja returns! 😆*

but what really got me in this scene is how -- even though he had about a tenth of lalit-juneja's lines -- (god) preet made my heart sing. and that too without smiling even once!!! 😍 he made my heart sing when he said:
- ''look, don't get sad. we'll go and talk to nihaal if you don't want the divorce to happen..''😍
- ''bauji, if you know maa's wrong, why don't you talk to her??'' *yes!! which is what anyone in the real world would do! (god) preet, you rock!!*
- ''in this house, your words and beliefs will always hold. mein hoon na -- mein hamesha apkay saath dengey.''

and i guess this last line is what my eyes started shining with tears. 'cause when i think back at the volatile antagonistic preet-bauji relationship before ... er.. the apparent death of prem. in comparison, this is sooooo sweet! he is still not prem-style-goopy and unquestioning with his bauji. but he is just as respectful and loving.

and what is best is - that he is real. he thinks and talks like you and me. oh! how (god) preet rocks this show!!!! *spinning me into big dreams 'bout a big puja this weekend at the temple of smiles... *

* little thing: er... why were they playing the prem-saves-heer-in-the-desert background music when prem stormed angrily into their bedroom with a miserable heer running to catch up?

* heer thing: o. m. g. after all that stoooopid court trauma, the only thing she really cares about -- is that he talks to her! o. m. g. when did heer get so ... ''mein bhagwan nehi hoon -- but i'm lying!''?

that's what mom says usually breaks relationship -- bottling up stuff and not bringing it up in the open. if i think 'bout this: before the ... er ... apparent death of prem, the one time a big problem came up between prem and heer was when prem kept the story of sanjana away from heer! *btw, once again -- engineered by gementor!! which i really disliked her for at that time... 😡*

and when it came out -- as it had to, it was such a big part of his life! -- it caused them such misery for a moment! is that what heer remembered as she kept telling him sweetly to please talk to her? poor sweet heer.

* prem thing: 'kay. he has got to be pulling one more stoooopid naatak here. 'cause what he said was such... bilge! that it's not believeable!

obviously he's faking it! again!!!

prem. you are being. very. mean.

just 'cause you learnt how to be mean to heer during the time that you stayed away thinking you had a hole-in-the-heart, doesn't mean that you can now be mean to heer -- for any old reason! 😡😡😡 stop being mean!! right now!!! you big ... faker!!! 😡

* little thing: y'know? of all the things that gementor said to vitchface and the shrimp, the most chilling of it all was the way she said that she hated heer... when she hasn't hated anyone before in her life! 😔 gosh! seriously happy-thoughts-being-sucked-out! moment there! 😔

and the weird part of the entire gementor drama here just now is: what exactly does vitchface and the shrimp think that gementor is trying to do -- get revenge for vitchface by getting her a divorce from nihaal? or try to ''get prem back'' from heer???

getting the divorce through, and maybe even alimony, is something i can understand gementor doing for vitchface. but how does it make sense that vitchface and the shrimp should think that gementor is trying to get prem away from heer??

*i suddenly felt very sick in my stomach as i read what i just wrote! only reason i didn't run to the loo immediately was 'cause i didn't wanna throw up my pistachio gelato! it is sick for any mother to ever want that from her son -- isn't it?? 😔 why does vitchface and the shrimp think it's something to smile about when it make me wanna puke?? 😔*

and so i was left with...

* big puzzle thing: no, my calling her gementor doesn't mean that i now think that gayatri-mom's not faking this anymore. i do think she is faking all this puke-making drama. 🤢i cannot -- will not! -- think that gayatri-mom's really become like this twisted dementor! i will not! 😡😕

my puzzle is -- what is she hoping to achieve? i keep wondering if she knows that vitchface did her own abortion. if yes, then i'd be sure that the anger with which she talks about getting vitchface and nihaal divorced is fake. and she can fake well, we know that! remember how mean she was to prem when she asked him to choose what he wanted when harman-vitchface thought prem was trying to take all the money away? so we know she can be really mean. but if she thinks that nihaal's violence actually caused the abortion, then her anger in wanting to get vitchface out of nihaal's life would be justified - and not fake. but which is it...??? 😕

and this whole ''prem is mine'' angle is ... seriously distasteful just now. 🤢 why, why did she bring that up? 'cause she knows that the shrimp thinks that is the way to break up prem-heer-are-one? and she wants to teach the shrimp a lesson that it is impossible to break up prem-heer-are-one? or! is she doing it to teach prem to be more caring and careful with protecting his prem-heer-are-one with heer?

*sigh* i don't know if there are any answers out there. but i am not at all liking the drama they are putting together to answer any of it. it's waaaay too stressful seeing a beloved mother cook this stuff up... way too stressful to see prem jerk heer around.

* little thing: so the last thing i wondered as i watched the part where prem is wandering with a pillow and blanky looking sulky and lost was... a) how much of all this drama is fake? and b) more importantly! - who is faking? and with whom?!!!!

- prem is faking the anger at heer. i refuse to believe that he believed that heer is lying. what perfect bilge! he is doing it - confident that everyone else loves heer too much and will side with her against him. he is confident that she will not be alone.

thing is -- why is he faking it??

- only reason i could think of is: 'cause he is faking along with gayatri-mom! ergo, they are faking together. 😆 er.. aren't they? 😆

- gayatri-mom's faking this ''prem is mine'' thing. but - is she also faking the anger at nihaal? is she faking that she doesn't know vitchface chose to do the abortion?

- are prem and heer faking together? 😲😍

in my personal script *the one that runs the show in my head.. all the time 😆* i think that after we saw prem tell heer that ... unspeakably twisted stuff about the moments never coming back again *huh! yeah, right!* prem must've -- he must've -- burst out laughing again and told heer ''you actually believed that i was shouting at you?? heer, you silly goose! of course, i believed you. you didn't lie in the court. you hadn't seen nihaal beating vitchface. but you see, heer, we need to do this 'cause.....''

so the grumpy look on prem's face as he's trying to sleep on the terrace, and the sad look on heer's face as she sits in her room is... 'cause they can't do phingoli tonight! er.. that's all. 🤣 personally, i'm okay with their skipping it a couple of nights... we don't get to see it anyway! *sulking myself, big time! 😆

* prem thing: he's grumpy. he's forcing himself to go to sleep ''where mosquitos bite'' 😆. and yet... those eyelashes against those cheeks... what a pretty picture... 😍

so! w&w-ing to see how this thing pans out! i must say that all this faking-faking drama is ... tiresome! i really don't like seeing heer cry! and she seems to be the main target using which all the lessons are being taught! no matter who the ... er ... taughtee is! 🤣 *heh, donchya think taughtee is an interesting substitute for student? 😆*

be it nihaal, who could be getting taught of how it hurts when a beloved sister is treated like he treated his wife. or be it prem, who could be getting taught that he ought not to automatically and naively trust his mother. or the evidence that his mother presents. but that he should use his brain and trust his heer-instincts more than he is doing right now. or be it vitchface and the shrimp -- who have hair for brains and who i personally think it's pointless teaching anything to! 🤣

whatever. i wish they'd choose a different target to practise teaching people values on... i want to just watch prem and heer smile for ... a month or two worth of episodes -- back to back! *fluttering unattractive estee eyelashes hopefully at the creatives, hoping for wishes to come true... 😆*

highlight of the episode: oh, hands down -- (god) preet! the way he comes in, all loving and concerned and full of good real ideas and suggestions, dressed in a white kurta and jeans, looking young and hopeful ... just like his preetstess... 😃 'kay, 'kay! i also liked the prem-eyelashes against the prem cheeks in that last shot, 'kay?

** gementor: is my temporary name for gayatri-mom. 'tis a combination of gayatri-mom and dementor. dementors are the soulless prison-gaurds at azkaban, the worst prison ever, as created by jkrowling in her harry potter books... dementors suck a person's happy memories and thoughts out of their souls, leaving a person miserable... forever! 🤢 ya, they are really horrible things. 🤢

hopefully i'm not breaking the continuation😆

ohh well.... i quit watching the show c3p!!! after all they did to prem yesterday!! this show is over for me!

ohhh G3 as dementor!!! apt!!! she is ready to kiss prem n heer 🤢

will prem n heer's expecto patronum work??? their patronus must b a dove i guess ain't it??😆

will read BT,LT now..... atleast dat'd make me hate the episode lesser!!!!

Originally posted by: Soaps1

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soapsie!!

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er... btw, is that sad emo for... the episode? for.. the bt,lt? ya. it is really terribly long, no? 🤔 sowwie... will try to get it shorter next time... 'm out of touch with writing this stuff, i tell ya!! 😆

raksh also hopes for prem/premeer faking...you too...hope so too...😔

ok c3p so even u din't like all that!!!! but u hopelessly hopeful😆.... both premeer r faking or prem-g3 r faking r possibilities huh?😆
ur bt,lt brought a smile to my face...as it always does!!!! thank u for that!!!!

but i believe gementor is not faking..... prem or premeer could b....
G3 has gone far beyond human reasoning to fake so brutally n cruelly!!!! it's a sad fact but i despise her!!! even if she turns out to b faking... she won't b da same nymore..... y do they always need prem n heer to prove ny point??? 😡 use prem n heer to prove nything to vitchface? eeekkss..... i will smack G3 on head for this!!!!

*edit*

Hmmm...... u know a thought came to me after we settled down for moon patronus for prem n heer! Dat G3 is not just a dementor but a werewolf also! Yeah.... when there is Fullmoon then there r werewolves.... so when prem heer cast their patronus seeing the moon she becums more evil! the more stonger their patronus...the more evil g3 becums to pull them apart! i'm hating to put her in same leauge wid lupin...who is soo lovable.... but then here is a greyback! G3!!!

Nyways..... i din't understand da epi properly ! prem told heer not to come if she does'nt want to! n said he knows she does'nt lie! which means he does know watever G3 asked to do is unfair and dat acc to heer it is as bad as giving wrong testimony bcoz he knows she considers her brother innocent! then y did he accuse her of testifying the lie? so y was he shocked??

N heer.... well u r right....she shuld've said no when da judge asked if she saw nihaal hitting vitchface ever! she din't see nihaal slapping her.... nihaal told her dat he did!
N wat a game G3 is playing! I've never understood y da evil ppl have more brains in BT shows! I've never seen G3 demnstrating her brains like this during DJ time coz she was good then! i just hate it! all good ppl r sheeps or wat? Ohhh BT n their twisted logics!

mmmm..... i never understood y maya wants to seperate prem n heer? so dat she can shake the foundation of the house? Prem n heer away from eachother bcum miserable wid them rest of house will tumble? Hmmm..... dat's really good thinking from maya!

Seems lallu's reign ended! during initial times it's wat lallu said dat mattered the most to zoo! even G3 obliged! but now it shifted to G3!!! lallu seems powerless! N i really pity him for that! bcoz now a days he makes lot of sense! It seems da one who is under wrong impressions tend to dictate zoo all the time! first lallu wid love for DJ n dislike for heer..... n now G3 wid love for her children n dislike for heer(this is da common factor) dictating terms! sad fact! *sigh*

As for prem n heer... i'm keeping my mouth shut this moment! there is more to complain than appriciate! i'd rather avoid!

Now nihaal will win da lottery.... where does that put vitchface then?? wid money he'd start to luk handsome to her?! will she try to get the money as alimony or will she go back to him???

There has to b sum1 who'd come to know of G3...i'm thinking it is Heer..... obviously! dat'd lead to more problems so heer'd know of it first! she alone will not b able to handle G3! At this ponit of time atleast! Bcoz she'd rather prefer suffering at G3's hands than show G3 wat's wat! N prem won't b helping the matters! So i guess it's again preet to rescue! along wid Meher?! This time fight is more painful n dangerous! they love G3 afterall! Hmmm..... as i said i don't think G3 is faking.... keeping that in mind i wrote all this! but if she is... then it's a different story altogether! n would make a much better watch than this! which is y i doubt da faking thing!

Originally posted by: estee

soapsie!!

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er... btw, is that sad emo for... the episode? for.. the bt,lt? ya. it is really terribly long, no? 🤔 sowwie... will try to get it shorter next time... 'm out of touch with writing this stuff, i tell ya!! 😆

Gementr Vitchface and s-hrimp....