Now, yes it's another one, but I have no clue if its better or worse, so just like you guys were SUPER honest yesterday please be honest again! 😃 Basically the "concept" is right after the whole part when Heer wrapped the pagri around his head during Harman's "shagun?" So before the part or during the part he went and sat on the bridge. He reflects on what happened in his life after he found out he was alive and the whole 'hole in the heart' scenario! 😛
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When I saw her turn and walk away it broke my heart. How could MY Heer, Prem's Heer, let go of our love that quickly? She started falling for my face? And here I had thought that we had a bond, a bond forged through our hearts that would last forever and ever, but I was horribly wrong. I wanted to tell her so much. I wanted to hear so much.
aankhon mein inteezar ke badal baras gaye
hum dekhne ko aapka chehra taras gaye
She had been from hell and back and I wanted to share that with her. She needed to realise all her anger and pain on someone, that someone was me. I knew my Heer; she wouldn't have told anyone what she had been through. I had so much to tell her. Everything that I had been through since that cursed day. Even thinking about that moment where Jyotika had told me ached in my heart.
bin tum gum sum hone lage,
jaane kis duniya mein khone lage
bin tum gum sum hone lage,
jaane kis duniya mein khone lage
A hole in the heart? How could I escape death only to be struck by something just as worse? I wanted to talk to my Heer see how she was. See my family, be with them right now. I was supposed to be getting married right now. But all I could do was sit here, wallowing that my life was over. How could I go back to my family to just tell them that I'm dying now? The first one was what, a false alarm. It'd kill me first just to see the looks on their faces. I wouldn't do it to them, but there has to be some way to go back, to make sure they're okay.
resham se dil ke yeh rishte,
rishto ki nazuk dor
iss dor pe jaane jana chalta nahi koi zor
I had to see her. I had to see my little sister. I had somehow gotten home on the day of her haldi. She looked like a little doll, sitting there with Kul di. How much pain was it to stay so far from them? Then I saw her—she came dressed in our favourite color. Pink. I don't know how many times I told her she killed me every time I saw her in pink, this time it was true. She came looking like an angel and sat down next to Veera. Seeing Veera turn and smile at Heer, made me smile like I've never smiled before. When Heer had taken the haldi and put it on Veera's nose, it was as if she knew what I'd be saying to her right at that moment. But that was it. I saw Veera cry, then Heer. I couldn't do this. Why had I come back to see them. Standing at this window hurt me. I wanted to go in and see the happiness on their faces, go and comfort them and hug them and tell them I'd never leave. But that would be a lie. I would leave, when the pain got truly unbearable.
tujhe dhoondti hai nazarein, zara saamne toh aa
bebaas hai dil yeh mera, dil thaamne toh aa
saare jahaan mein tum hamein tanha sa kar gaye
I couldn't let her see me, not now. I ducked behind the bars of the window and saw her go in a different direction, I turned back once more just to see my house, my family, my life, all fading away into my memories.
bin tum gum sum hone lage,
jaane kis duniya mein khone lage
aankhon mein inteezar ke badal baras gaye
There were all those happy memories made between us, and now she was throwing it all away, for what? 'Gaurav Sharma' My heart ached thinking of Heer with another person, but it wasn't another person it was me! Her Prem; but she didn't know that, and that hurt. She was starting to love someone else. Someone else who wasn't anything like her Prem. Every time I saw her glare, and I had to smile back in the same way, I couldn't do it I knew that any minute now my tears would let loose, and she'd know that I was her Prem.
bheegi bheegi lagti hai raatein,
dilbar teri yaad mein
tu hi chupa rehta hai shaayad,
meri har fariyaad mein
Every time I came near Heer, I could see the apprehensiveness in her eyes, the fear that was letting go of her love for Prem, but deep down I had always thought that our love would never diminish, yet here I was alone on a bridge, just like I'd always be when something went wrong. Slowly I heard the "jhan-jhan" of payals, I turned slightly and saw her. I stood up quickly and turned to the other side.
tu kareeb dil ke itna, hai meharbaan mere
main sunu teri woh baatein,
jo mann mein tu kahein
She was looking at me differently right now. The same way with 'love' that had been doing for the last day. Why couldn't I just take her in my arms and never let go? That was how it was meant to be. Prem and Heer forever, than why was it that we'd always end up apart?
kis dar jaan dekho
tum meri dhadkan mein bas gaye
"Prem,"
I couldn't look at her. Why was she saying my name? Even at the house, she was being all romantic with 'Gaurav.' How could she do that? I didn't want to see her face. I looked up and saw the moon, something that always calmed me, and in a way it was true. The moon reminded me of the magic Heer and I shared, the magic that was now gone...
"Prem—main jaanti hoon,"
What did she know? She couldn't possibly know it was me?
"What do you know?" I asked, without turning.
She slowly put her hand on my shoulder. I could feel the heat from her body through my sherwani and reluctantly I turned.
"Tum hi mere Prem ho." She said it with such confidence; it broke my heart and the barrier I had kept up. I took her in my arms. "I knew it! Why were you hiding from me? Didn't you know? Our love is so strong, ke main tumhe pechaan lungi," Heer cried in my arms.
"I'm sorry Heer—but I still can't—I don't..." I let go of her and turned away. "I can't be with you as Prem,"
"What? Why not?" She came in front of me again, her eyes brimming over with tears. "If it's about the medical thi—"
"What medical thing? Tumhe kya pata hain?" I asked, taking her shoulders.
"Prem," she put her hand on my cheek. "Tumhe kuch nahin hua hain."
"What?" How was it possible? I had seen the reports myself. "What do you know?"
"I know that you think you have a hole in your heart na?" Heer asked and so I nodded but she shook her head. "Main jab Delhi gayi thi na, main maaji se milne gayi thi. Gaurav Sharma ki ma ko,"
She knew. She knew everything.
"Unhone kaha ke tumhe bataya gaya hain ke tumhare dil mein ched hain, lekin Prem yeh saach nahin hain." She said to me.
"Kya?"
She nodded again. "Jab main wahan thi tab Jyotika aayi thi, and she saw how much pain I was in knowing you were gone, and so she admitted everything,"
"Admitted what?" I asked, furious this time.
"There's nothing wrong with you Prem, she gave you someone else's reports to keep you with maaji. Maaji who needed you at the time." Heer replied.
I stepped back from her unable to believe everything I had believed for the last 3 months was true. I was okay? "I have no hole in the heart?"
Heer shook her head and put my face in her hands. "Dil tumhare ho, aur jis dil mein main rehti hoon, wahan kuch nahin ho sakhta,"
bin tum gum sum hone lage,
jaane kis duniya mein khone lage
aankhon mein inteezar ke badal baras gaye
I took her in my arms again. Never letting go this time. She was my Heer, and she was staying with me. I would be with my family now. Forever, I'd see my Tannu and Vikas grow up, I'd see Harman's wedding. I'd be with Heer all my life now.
Heer, Prem ka prateek hain, aur Prem sabse zyaada Heer mein hi samaya hain.
So how was it? I really want jhoote's if it's bad okay, and here's a surprise, if you're honest in your comments, you got chocolate and candy and cookies and everything yummy! 😃😳 *that's enough of a bribe right?*
Love you all loads,
Meera😳
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