New FF: Sau Dard Ch17 pg67 Apr 19 - Page 41

i knew this..that yuh are gonna have some complications up from the moment heer had told prem about the pregnancy..but didnt think yuh 'd kill her off 😔..

ehy did yuh yaar....now with heer gone why do yuh still retain Prem ..

as much as i love heer away from Prem in yr other fic (heers secret) here i cant stand heer away from Prem..they are so ideal couple ut here..

yuh are so wicked..😔..

but i love such different stories.. what is in a stry where its a happily ever after always..with all happy everytime..

the way yuh described the deliver scene was just wow..

am already so against marriage as i am afraid of these stuffs and yuh just doubled my fear there.. 😃

newayz thnxx fr the pm dear...tc..

lov3 sandy..

Present –

Just thinking about what the doctor had told him brought tears to Prem's eyes. Who knew that six simple words, when put in a certain order, held the power to turn your life upside down, to break your heart and to shatter you dreams instantly?

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Past –

"…Heer doesn't have much time left," the Doctor said.

The words echoed in Prem Jhuneja's ears, like it echoed in the halls of the hospital. How could this be happening? No! This was not happening. Today was supposed to be the happiest day of his life. He finally had the child that he had always wanted – a child that was part of him and Heer. Today, when he finally got what his heart desired most, fate had thrown him a fast ball and taken away the happiness and joy as soon as it was given. He got his hearts desire at the expense of the woman that he loved. In order to get his daughter, he was now losing his wife – his life. How was this fair? Why was God being so cruel?

What about Heer? What had she ever done to deserve this? She had to live through so many miscarriages before she got pregnant again. Heer had endured nine months of ups and downs in this pregnancy. All in order to give him this baby – a baby that she had wanted as well. Now, not only was she reaching the end of this precious journey but also the end of her life's road. She wouldn't be able to see this baby, that she had wanted so badly, grow up. Heer would miss out on the life of the person that she gave life to. She gave up her life to give life to his baby girl. How was that fair…in any way?

As numb as Prem was feeling, he had to do something before time ran out. Pulling out his phone he called Nihaal and Raaji asking them to come to the hospital as soon as possible and asked to bring Aaryan and Sonny as well – Heer would want to see them. Not having the heart to break such horrible news to Raaji on the phone, Prem told Nihaal instead. On the ride to the hospital, Nihaal broke the news to Raaji. As they entered the hospital, Raaji immediately rushed over to Prem.

"Prem, what's happening? How is this possible?" she asked as she shook Prem by the shoulders.

Prem didn't respond to her questions in his lost state. All he did was point in the direction of Heer's room. The nurses at the station were kind enough to watch the boys as Nihaal took Raaji to meet with Heer – no way Raaji could do this on her own.

A few minutes later, Prem walked over to Heer's room and saw Raaji embracing Heer, both of them crying their heart out. A somber and teary Nihaal stood in the background, giving the sisters their time together. As Heer released herself from the hug, Prem listened to what she had to say.

"Didi, please don't cry," she said as she wiped away Raaji's tears.

"Chup! What do you mean 'don't cry'? My baby sister is lying here…dying…and there is nothing I can do about it!" After a short pause she added, "Why? Why did you do this Heer? Why…"

Holding on to Raaji's hand Heer spoke, "I'm so sorry Didi. I'm sorry that you had to find out this way. Didi, I need you to do something for me."

"Anything…" Raaji said.

Letting out a deep sigh Heer said, "Didi, I need you to look after Prem for me. After I'm gone he will be lonely and sad for a while. I want you to look after him and make sure that he pulls through this. He has to get through this for his children, for his daughter. She is going to need her father now, more than ever. Promise me that you will look after him and make sure he is happy." As tears pooled in her eyes she continued. "I want him to remarry and live a full life. Just because I'm leaving doesn't mean that he has to stop living. Promise me Didi…promise me that you will look after my Prem."

Through her tears, Raaji managed to choke out in a whisper, "I promise."

With that, Raaji couldn't take it any more and ran out of the room in tears, while an equally upset Nihaal followed.

"Goodbye Didi…goodbye Jiju," Heer whispered.

Prem wasn't ready to go see Heer so he too followed them to the waiting room. Five minutes later, Nihaal went to speak to Prem.

"Prem…" Nihaal began as he put a hand on Prem's shoulder, "…you have to go in. Take Sonny with you."

"How can I Bhaia? What do I tell my son? How do I tell my little boy that he has to goodbye to his Mamma because she is dying? How do I explain that his mother is never going to come home?" Putting his head in his hands he cried, "I cant do it Bhaia…I just cant."

Nihaal pulled Prem into a hug as he spoke. "I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. I would wish this on my worst enemy, but you have to face it sooner or later. And the sooner you come to terms with this cruel twist of fate the better. Spend whatever time Heer has left, with her…by her side. Don't waste that time out here in the halls of the hospital. Once she is gone you will regret not being with her."

Prem slowly gets up, because he knows Nihaal is right. He goes to the nursing station where Sonny is playing with a few nurses. Taking his son into his arms, he heads off towards Heer's room. Prem is astounded at how she looks – Heer is nearly as white as a ghost and looking more fragile than a leaf blowing in the cold autumn wind.

As soon as Heer sees Prem and Sonny a smile appears on her face, and she stretches her arms for Sonny.

"How's my big boy today? Is he behaving for Papa and Massi out there or is he being a naughty?" Heer asked as Prem placed Sonny in her arms.

Shaking his head Sonny said, "No Mamma, Sonny good boy. Sonny no bab boy."

Heer chuckled at Sonny's version of bad – bab. "I know my angel is a good boy, that's why I love my baby so much!" she said as she hugged him tight causing him to giggle.

"Sonny lou Mamma too!" he said as he wrapped his small arms around her neck. Pulling back, he stretches out his arms and adds, "I lou Mamma …this…much!"

That simple gesture brings tears to Heer's eyes which don't go unnoticed by Sonny.

"Cry? Mamma no cry," he said wiping her tears. "Come home Mamma, I miss you." Sonny once again hugged Heer.

"Prem…please…" Heer said turning her face away from Sonny as her tears come rushing out. She can't take it any more, with each passing second her heart breaks even more. She lets go of her son so that Prem can take him.

"Come on Sonny," Prem says as he attempts to lift Sonny out of Heer's lap, "Let Mamma rest ok? Mamma is tired and needs to sleep."

"No!" Sonny cries as he holds on tight to Heer. "I stay with Mamma. I sleep with her now. I don't go, I want Mamma," he pleaded.

"Don't be a bad boy Sonny," Prem said.

Sniffling, Sonny pulls back from his hug and asks, "If I go, I'll be good?'

"Yes," Prem said.

As if not believing Prem's answer, Sonny turns to look questioningly at Heer. "Mamma…?"

All Heer can do is try to smile and nod her head 'yes'.

With Heer's approval, Sonny agrees to leave but not before giving his mother a kiss on her cheek and saying "Bye Mamma. I lou you."

As Prem lifts Sonny from Heer's lap, he can see the tears flowing from her eyes like a water tap was left on – there was no stopping them. How could she stop them? Her baby boy had just said goodbye to her for the last time. She had to say farewell to the boy that she had called her own. She had just parted with the goy that had become her life's happiness and joy in such a short time.

It broke Prem's heart to see that final, permanent goodbye between mother and child. What hurt even more than loosing Heer was the fact that this innocent boy was losing his mother. He was loosing the woman that meant the world to him. For Sonny, the world began and ended with Heer, his life began and ended with his mother. Yet he had no idea that this is the last time he'd be seeing his mother.

As soon as he stepped out into the hall, Prem heard Heer sobbing. After he put Sonny down to play with Aaryan he knew it was his turn – it was his turn to say good bye to the woman that he loved.

With a heavy heart, which felt like a stone in the middle of his chest, he walked into Heer's room. As he entered, his eyes were cast on the floor unable to meet eyes with Heer. However, he could feel her gaze on him. Slowly he lifted his eyes. First he saw her tear stained face, her shaking lip and then…his eyes met hers.

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Present –

Prem would never forget the look in Heer's eyes that night. It was a look filled with sorrow, guilt, love and fear. It was a look that haunted him every second of every day.

JAZ