the questionnaire: is the i-hate-prem club for you? Yes it is!
only you can decide whether you want to give hpclub a try ' whether you think it can help you. Oh wait. Was the previous question a rhetorical question?
the hpclub came together because i finally gave up trying to control epe/ephe symptoms. i had all those brain nuclear-whiteouts during the show. bu ti still hated to admit that i could never watch the show safely. then i came to understand -- through intense meditation and self-questioning -- that i have a problem. that understanding was my first step to getting back control! I know what you mean. *sigh* They have that effect on us. They should have a msg at the beginning of the show warning us about it.
what was remarkable about my researching this was learning that others suffered from the same feelings of guilt and loneliness and hopelessness that i did. and i found out that we all had these feelings because we had a medical disease, the disease of epe/ephe. Just curious. How long did this research take? I would imagine it would've taken a while and that they symptoms of epe/ephe would've gotten in the way.
i decided to try and face up to what prem has done to me. out of my meditation, i have come up with some of the questions. i have tried to answer honestly. if more than four questions are answered yes, then you are in deep trouble with your epe/ephe-symptoms. see how you do. remember, there is no disgrace in facing up to the fact that you have a problem. and this spot in internet-space is for us to all help each other *halo coming up big time...* Why is this beginning to sound like one of those AA meetings? Not that I've been to one...
answer yes or no to the following questions.
1 - have you ever decided to stop seeing the show for a week or so, but only lasted for a couple of days?
yes/no
2 - do you wish people would mind their own business about your seeing the show-- stop telling you what to do?
(in the hpclub, we do not tell anyone to do anything. we just talk about our own epe-symptoms -- of which there could be multiple forms, with multiple intensity - share the drool, and how we learn to rationalise it. we will be glad to help you, if you want us to.)
yes/no
3 - have you ever switched from another show in the hope that this would keep you from wanting to get back to drooling?
(you've tried all kinds of ways. you call prem names. or just watch someone else on another show. or only see the shows downloaded on the computer (rather than in clear dth transmissions on a 38 inch tv
screen.) you name it, you've tried it. but eventually? eventually, you come back to drool!)
yes/no
4 - has prem caused trouble at home with the family -- of any sort?
yes/no So far it hasn't gotten to that stage. Yet.
5 - do you find yourself watching scenes with prem over and over again, to fill the time till the next time you can get "some prem/prem-heer"?
yes/no
6 - do you tell yourself you can stop watching prem any time you want to, even though you keep watching the show even when you don't mean to?
yes/no. I know that's a complete lie right there.
7 - have you missed hours of work or school because of epe/ephe?
yes/no
8 - do you have "brain nuclear whiteouts"?
(a "nuclear whiteout" is when you're peacefully watching the show and prem/prem-heer comes on and does "their thang" and suddenly you don't remember where you are, where you've been, what you're doing on the
floor lying in a pool of drool. in some extreme cases, you don't remember who you are, or worse! who your mother is! 😲)
yes/no
9 - have you ever felt that your life would be better if you did not have epe?
(many of us started drooling over prem, 'cause we felt that life was better that way, at least for a while. by the time you got to this club, you are feeling trapped in all that drool. you are now watching prem/prem-heer to drool and drooling to watch prem/prem-heer. and you, your family, your washing machine are tired of all that drool.)
yes/no. It's gotten to the point where I can't imagine life without having epe.
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did you answer yes four or more times? did you answer no to the last question (#9)?I'm proud to say I said yes 6 times. And no to #9
if so, you are probably in trouble with epe/ephe symptoms. but only you can decide whether you think the i-hate-prem club is for you. try to keep an open mind on the subject. we would be glad to show you how we learnt how to control the effect of epe -- and here, we will be the first to admit -- if we only learnt how. so far, the research has been the lonely effort of the first member (*sob!*). but over time, there have been tentative and interested queries from other souls, who are beginning to notice all that drool, some of the whiteouts, missing parts of their brain. perhaps, with more effort, concentrated on this effort, we will start taking the first baby steps in learning how to recognise and control the symptoms of epe/ephe. so that our families will no longer be ashamed of us when they come out with us in public. or it will no longer be so hard for us to go out into public for fear that we may suddenly come upon some prem/prem-heer thing and suddenly collapse with the dreaded epe/ephe symptoms! Estee. I have a problem. Yes I'm admitting it. I need help in controling the symptoms. Has any progress been made in this research?
we do not promise to solve these symptoms -- but we may learn to learn to live with them - together!
(note: the source of the structure of this questionnaire and post has been the wonderful material that alcoholics anonymous has up on their website. that is an organisation that has been of tremendous use to people all over the world! in dealing with the disease of alcoholism. and this is my salute to that organisation. i mean no disrespect to aa in having put together this questionnaire. to the contrary, i am only following the adage that "mimicry is the most sincere form of flattery." ) I knew it! It sounded like one of those AA ads to me. But I do think it applies here as well.