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chapter 9
"Take a seat, kasturi and drink this. I think you need this now." said Naina and handed me a glas.
"What is it?" I asked irritated.
"Whisky, we all need a glas of that now." she answered.
"So whats the matter?" asked Nikhil now, I shot Naina a look.
"I didnt want to tell him without you." she explained.
"Rohan is ill...." I moved the glas in my hand and stared into it.
"He has leukemia." I said short and drank the whisky in one.
Nikhil looked shocked at me.
"No, that cant be....not my champ." he whispered.
The tears welled up in my eyes again.
My hands trembled so much, that the glas fell down and crashed on the floor.
"Oh my god Im so sorry." I said and tried to pic the pieces up. While doing that I cut my hand.
"kasturi, please let it." said Naina, rushing to my side.
I looked up at her.
"Naina, I cant loose him, not him. I lost so much and I never complained, but I cant loose him, hes my life." I whispered sobbing.
She looked sympathic at me and hugged me.
"Its ok kasturi. Everything will be ok." she said over and over again, rocking me like a baby.
Nikhil hugged the both of us, also crying.
"We get this together. You are Nainas and my sister, we wont let you down."
I looked with a tearstrained face at him and Naina.
"Thank you."
That night I lay awake, Rohan sleeping peaceful next to me in the bed. My mind was racing and I just couldnt stop thinking.
What if they dont find a person with the fitting marrow, what can I do???
FLASHBACK:
I woke up the next morning, lying in robbies arms. He was still asleep and I just loved to watch him, to see his chest rise and fall and to feel the warmth of his body to mine.
"Hey, you are awake." he had opened his eyes and smiled at me.
"Yes, I just woke up." I answered.
He played with a stride of my hair and looked deep into my eyes.
"Only god knows how much I love you." he whispered.
I kissed him soft.
"I love you too."
Suddenly I sat up, followed by robbies confused eyes.
kasturi, whats the matter?" he asked unsure.
I sighed and looked out of the window. The rain was over and the sun was shining brightly down on the park.
robbie also sat up and kissed my shoulder.
robbie? How shall this go on?" I asked
"Go on? What do you mean?" He was still confused.
"I mean you and me, us. What shall we do now? Your parents hate me and I cant ask you to turn away from them. I would never forgive me if you..." I explained, but robbiecut me off.
"kasturi, I love you. Thats all that matters. And about my parents...Ill take care of that." he said and got up.
"What are you up to?" I asked.
"We go to my parent and tell them that we are getting married." he said.
I looked shocked at him.
"What? but..." I said getting up.
"kasturi, do you love me? Do you really love me?" He asked me, and put his hands on my shoulders.
I nodded.
"Yes robbie, more than my life."
"Than just trust me, I know what I do."
We arrived at his home 1 hour later and rang the bell.
"Where have you been, robbie. Your mother and me were so anxious." said his father as he opened the door.
"And what is she doing here? I thought we have talked about that." he said giving me a mad look.
"Dad, no. You talked about that." answered robbie and went with me into the livingroom.
"Mum, I really love you and dad, but I also love kasturi. She is the love of my life and I want to marry her." he said, looking cold at his mother. I felt like a trapped animal in that house and all I wanted was to leave, but I had to stay at robbies side.
Mrs. sabarwaal looked cold at me, if looks could kill, I would have fallen to the ground lifeless immediately.
"robbie, please sit down." she patted the free seat next to her.
"kasturi, could you please leave us for a moment?" she asked sweet.
"Of course I stuttered and walked out of the room."
Outside I could hear their voices, but not what they were saying.
After about half an hour, robbie came out of the room, he looked tired.
"What happened?" I asked and rushed to his side, but he backed up.
"Im sorry kasturi, but I cant marry you. I was things rushing too fast." he said, not being able to look into my eyes.
"What? But what about last night?" I asked.
"It was ma fault, kasturi, we should have never...." he stopped in the midsentence.
I looked shocked at him not being able to think clear.
"Im going to marry Sonya . Im sorry." he said and left.
I still stood there staring at the point where he has been standing.
"That cant be." I whispered.
"Yes it is. Im so sorry." Mr. sabarwaal stood in the door, I shot him a mad look.
"Why are you doing this to us?" I asked desperate.
"kasturi, Im really sorry. Dont get me wrong, I really love you and I would be really happy if you and robbie could get married, but we arranged the wedding many years ago...."
I wasnt able to listen to him, so I turned to the door and walked away...forever
I
went downstairs into the livingroom where Naina and Nikhil waited for me."Take a seat, kasturi and drink this. I think you need this now." said Naina and handed me a glas.
"What is it?" I asked irritated.
"Whisky, we all need a glas of that now." she answered.
"So whats the matter?" asked Nikhil now, I shot Naina a look.
"I didnt want to tell him without you." she explained.
"Rohan is ill...." I moved the glas in my hand and stared into it.
"He has leukemia." I said short and drank the whisky in one.
Nikhil looked shocked at me.
"No, that cant be....not my champ." he whispered.
The tears welled up in my eyes again.
My hands trembled so much, that the glas fell down and crashed on the floor.
"Oh my god Im so sorry." I said and tried to pic the pieces up. While doing that I cut my hand.
"kasturi, please let it." said Naina, rushing to my side.
I looked up at her.
"Naina, I cant loose him, not him. I lost so much and I never complained, but I cant loose him, hes my life." I whispered sobbing.
She looked sympathic at me and hugged me.
"Its ok kasturi. Everything will be ok." she said over and over again, rocking me like a baby.
Nikhil hugged the both of us, also crying.
"We get this together. You are Nainas and my sister, we wont let you down."
I looked with a tearstrained face at him and Naina.
"Thank you."
That night I lay awake, Rohan sleeping peaceful next to me in the bed. My mind was racing and I just couldnt stop thinking.
What if they dont find a person with the fitting marrow, what can I do???
FLASHBACK:
I woke up the next morning, lying in robbies arms. He was still asleep and I just loved to watch him, to see his chest rise and fall and to feel the warmth of his body to mine.
"Hey, you are awake." he had opened his eyes and smiled at me.
"Yes, I just woke up." I answered.
He played with a stride of my hair and looked deep into my eyes.
"Only god knows how much I love you." he whispered.
I kissed him soft.
"I love you too."
Suddenly I sat up, followed by robbies confused eyes.
kasturi, whats the matter?" he asked unsure.
I sighed and looked out of the window. The rain was over and the sun was shining brightly down on the park.
robbie also sat up and kissed my shoulder.
robbie? How shall this go on?" I asked
"Go on? What do you mean?" He was still confused.
"I mean you and me, us. What shall we do now? Your parents hate me and I cant ask you to turn away from them. I would never forgive me if you..." I explained, but robbiecut me off.
"kasturi, I love you. Thats all that matters. And about my parents...Ill take care of that." he said and got up.
"What are you up to?" I asked.
"We go to my parent and tell them that we are getting married." he said.
I looked shocked at him.
"What? but..." I said getting up.
"kasturi, do you love me? Do you really love me?" He asked me, and put his hands on my shoulders.
I nodded.
"Yes robbie, more than my life."
"Than just trust me, I know what I do."
We arrived at his home 1 hour later and rang the bell.
"Where have you been, robbie. Your mother and me were so anxious." said his father as he opened the door.
"And what is she doing here? I thought we have talked about that." he said giving me a mad look.
"Dad, no. You talked about that." answered robbie and went with me into the livingroom.
"Mum, I really love you and dad, but I also love kasturi. She is the love of my life and I want to marry her." he said, looking cold at his mother. I felt like a trapped animal in that house and all I wanted was to leave, but I had to stay at robbies side.
Mrs. sabarwaal looked cold at me, if looks could kill, I would have fallen to the ground lifeless immediately.
"robbie, please sit down." she patted the free seat next to her.
"kasturi, could you please leave us for a moment?" she asked sweet.
"Of course I stuttered and walked out of the room."
Outside I could hear their voices, but not what they were saying.
After about half an hour, robbie came out of the room, he looked tired.
"What happened?" I asked and rushed to his side, but he backed up.
"Im sorry kasturi, but I cant marry you. I was things rushing too fast." he said, not being able to look into my eyes.
"What? But what about last night?" I asked.
"It was ma fault, kasturi, we should have never...." he stopped in the midsentence.
I looked shocked at him not being able to think clear.
"Im going to marry Sonya . Im sorry." he said and left.
I still stood there staring at the point where he has been standing.
"That cant be." I whispered.
"Yes it is. Im so sorry." Mr. sabarwaal stood in the door, I shot him a mad look.
"Why are you doing this to us?" I asked desperate.
"kasturi, Im really sorry. Dont get me wrong, I really love you and I would be really happy if you and robbie could get married, but we arranged the wedding many years ago...."
I wasnt able to listen to him, so I turned to the door and walked away...forever
PRESENT:
Its been 2 months since we found out about Rohans leukemia and Naina and Nikhil had convinced me to move in with then, so they could also look for Rohan when I had to work and I had more time for him, too.
Emily had reacted so great, she had offered her help to me and gave me the opportunity to work less. First I wouldnt let them help me, but then I figured out, that I really needed help.
We had explained Rohan what the doctor had said and he was so brave, the only thing he said was:
"Ill get healthy again, promised Mum."
We were sitting together having breakfast when Rohan looked at me couriously.
"Whats up, honey?" I asked smiling at him.
"Mum, who was this?" he asked directly.
"What man do you mean? Sameer?." I stuttered unsure, looking at Naina for help.
"Yes, you date him, right?" I nearly spat my coffe and looked suprised at him.
"Well, if you ask so....yes." I answered.
"Hmm...Im sorry mum, but I dont like him." he concluded.
"But you dont even really know him. Why dont you like him?" asked Naina now suprised.
"I dont know, everytime he fetches you, he lookes mad at me."
I shared a look with Naina.
"Do you like him?" he asked now.
"I dont know, I think yes." I shrugged.
"Well, thats ok....as long as you dont marry him." he continued eating his bread.
"Ok, but now you should hurry up, we need to go to the doctor now."
"Ah, good morning, Mrs. kasturi." said the doc smiling as he saw us.
"Good morning, doc."
"How is our little fighter today?" he asked beginning to check on Rohan.
"Ok, were done, Rohan. Would you please go with Kathy for a minute?" he asked. Rohan nodded and left with the nurse the room.
"Well Mrs. Kapur..." he sighed.
"Whats up doctor?" I asked anxious.
"It looks worse than we thought. The leukemia is very aggressive and we need to try other treatments on him. That means he has to stay here in the hospital." he explained.
"Does he have a chance?" I asked, afraid of the answer that might come.
The doctor sighed again and rubbed his forehead.
"Well if we dont find someone with the fitting marrow, soon..." I put a hand on my mouth.
"What about his father? Is he still alive?" he asked now.
"Yes, but I dont know where he is." I answered a bit too fast. The doc shot me a look.
"Ok, Mrs. kasturi But Rohan really needs help...ok, I let a bed getting prepared for Rohan." he said and got up.
I sat on a bench in the park of the hospital, thinking about what was happening here. It was just like a dream, but I knew that I wouldnt wake up.
My mobile brought me back to reality.
"Hello?" I asked tired.
"Hey honey. How are you?" I heard a cheerfull voice.
"Hey Sameer. Good to hear you?"
"Where are you? Ive been trying to reach you all day long."
"Im in the hospital. Rohan has to stay here, as his condition isnt that well." I explained.
"Well I guess no date tonight." he sad a bit mad.
"Im so sorry, Sameer. But I cant. He needs me now."
"And I dont need you?" he called so loud that I jumped.
"Rohan is my son and he is ill..."
"Great, but I love you and what about that? Doesnt that count for you?" he was really mad now.
"Of course, but Rohan is more important now."
"Ok, then bye." The line went dead.
I sighed and went back to Rohan.
A few days later, I sat at Rohans bed.
"Hey, where is my little boy?" called Emily cheerfull.
"Granny!!!" called Rohan excited.
"Its so good to see you." she hugged the little boy and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"Do you have something for me?" he asked now.
"Of course, honey. Here, this is for you." she handed him a small car.
"For me? Thank you!" It was good to see him laugh like that.
"How are you?" asked Emily now and hugged me tight.
"Im ok. And sorry that I cant work at the moment..." I tried to apologize, but Emily looked at me approachful.
"No word about that, ok? You have other things on your mind now. But Mrs. Taylor really misses your great work." she joked.
"Aw, I also miss her horrible orders." I giggled.
"Rohan, what do you think about that? I stay with you for a while and your mum goes home, refreshes and enjoyes the afternoon?" she asked Rohan now.
"Thats really a good idea, Granny. She needs to relax a bit." he said serious.
"Ok, deal. Bye mum." she said grinning and waved at me.
"But..." I tried to protest.
"No but, mum. You go. Granny and me will get this." he called.
So I just grabbed my stuff.
"Ok, if you say so I go. But call me if anything is." I told Emily.
"Sure I will. Now go."
I drove home and took a nice and long shower. I felt like I havent taken a shower for weeks.
After that I went downstairs to grab some food and decided to go for a long walk. It was nice and pretty warm for this time of the year.
Suddenly I found myself in the park in front of the tree where robbie had kissed me the first.
Again the memories came to my mind of the lucky times with him. A single tear ran down my cheek.
I heard steps coming nearer, wiped fast the tear away and turned to leave.
"kasturi?" I heard a familiar voice and turned shocked to him.
robbie stood in front of me...
Its been 2 months since we found out about Rohans leukemia and Naina and Nikhil had convinced me to move in with then, so they could also look for Rohan when I had to work and I had more time for him, too.
Emily had reacted so great, she had offered her help to me and gave me the opportunity to work less. First I wouldnt let them help me, but then I figured out, that I really needed help.
We had explained Rohan what the doctor had said and he was so brave, the only thing he said was:
"Ill get healthy again, promised Mum."
We were sitting together having breakfast when Rohan looked at me couriously.
"Whats up, honey?" I asked smiling at him.
"Mum, who was this?" he asked directly.
"What man do you mean? Sameer?." I stuttered unsure, looking at Naina for help.
"Yes, you date him, right?" I nearly spat my coffe and looked suprised at him.
"Well, if you ask so....yes." I answered.
"Hmm...Im sorry mum, but I dont like him." he concluded.
"But you dont even really know him. Why dont you like him?" asked Naina now suprised.
"I dont know, everytime he fetches you, he lookes mad at me."
I shared a look with Naina.
"Do you like him?" he asked now.
"I dont know, I think yes." I shrugged.
"Well, thats ok....as long as you dont marry him." he continued eating his bread.
"Ok, but now you should hurry up, we need to go to the doctor now."
"Ah, good morning, Mrs. kasturi." said the doc smiling as he saw us.
"Good morning, doc."
"How is our little fighter today?" he asked beginning to check on Rohan.
"Ok, were done, Rohan. Would you please go with Kathy for a minute?" he asked. Rohan nodded and left with the nurse the room.
"Well Mrs. Kapur..." he sighed.
"Whats up doctor?" I asked anxious.
"It looks worse than we thought. The leukemia is very aggressive and we need to try other treatments on him. That means he has to stay here in the hospital." he explained.
"Does he have a chance?" I asked, afraid of the answer that might come.
The doctor sighed again and rubbed his forehead.
"Well if we dont find someone with the fitting marrow, soon..." I put a hand on my mouth.
"What about his father? Is he still alive?" he asked now.
"Yes, but I dont know where he is." I answered a bit too fast. The doc shot me a look.
"Ok, Mrs. kasturi But Rohan really needs help...ok, I let a bed getting prepared for Rohan." he said and got up.
I sat on a bench in the park of the hospital, thinking about what was happening here. It was just like a dream, but I knew that I wouldnt wake up.
My mobile brought me back to reality.
"Hello?" I asked tired.
"Hey honey. How are you?" I heard a cheerfull voice.
"Hey Sameer. Good to hear you?"
"Where are you? Ive been trying to reach you all day long."
"Im in the hospital. Rohan has to stay here, as his condition isnt that well." I explained.
"Well I guess no date tonight." he sad a bit mad.
"Im so sorry, Sameer. But I cant. He needs me now."
"And I dont need you?" he called so loud that I jumped.
"Rohan is my son and he is ill..."
"Great, but I love you and what about that? Doesnt that count for you?" he was really mad now.
"Of course, but Rohan is more important now."
"Ok, then bye." The line went dead.
I sighed and went back to Rohan.
A few days later, I sat at Rohans bed.
"Hey, where is my little boy?" called Emily cheerfull.
"Granny!!!" called Rohan excited.
"Its so good to see you." she hugged the little boy and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"Do you have something for me?" he asked now.
"Of course, honey. Here, this is for you." she handed him a small car.
"For me? Thank you!" It was good to see him laugh like that.
"How are you?" asked Emily now and hugged me tight.
"Im ok. And sorry that I cant work at the moment..." I tried to apologize, but Emily looked at me approachful.
"No word about that, ok? You have other things on your mind now. But Mrs. Taylor really misses your great work." she joked.
"Aw, I also miss her horrible orders." I giggled.
"Rohan, what do you think about that? I stay with you for a while and your mum goes home, refreshes and enjoyes the afternoon?" she asked Rohan now.
"Thats really a good idea, Granny. She needs to relax a bit." he said serious.
"Ok, deal. Bye mum." she said grinning and waved at me.
"But..." I tried to protest.
"No but, mum. You go. Granny and me will get this." he called.
So I just grabbed my stuff.
"Ok, if you say so I go. But call me if anything is." I told Emily.
"Sure I will. Now go."
I drove home and took a nice and long shower. I felt like I havent taken a shower for weeks.
After that I went downstairs to grab some food and decided to go for a long walk. It was nice and pretty warm for this time of the year.
Suddenly I found myself in the park in front of the tree where robbie had kissed me the first.
Again the memories came to my mind of the lucky times with him. A single tear ran down my cheek.
I heard steps coming nearer, wiped fast the tear away and turned to leave.
"kasturi?" I heard a familiar voice and turned shocked to him.
robbie stood in front of me...
